DEES AND DREAMS
AUGUST, 1988
8-1-88 - DREAM - The computers were having new programming put into it. I was cleaning the grease off the bathroom walls with lemon juice and water.
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8-2-88 - DREAM - Several dreams were about going to the bathroom and going to the toilet and being unable to 'cut it off'. Other people came in and I was afraid they would see it. One lady picked it up and it was a roll of brown livingroom carpeting.
NOTE: (My psychiatrist had said I had to 'cut it off".
NOTE: I heard 3 knocks at the door when I was waking up. There was no one there.
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8-3-88 - DREAM - Everyone was offered $50 to change jobs. One man said they couldn't pay him enough and refused to do it.
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8-3-88 - DREAM - Everyone was moved within the company including myself. At the end, everyone was jam packed into a red bus. They said the bus was overloaded and some would have to wait. One man refused to go. He said they couldn't pay him enough.
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8-3-88 - DREAM - I vaguely recall riding a bus in another dream and being in a store with tall women who were my friends and going down a street of stores. No recall what the dream was about.
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8-5-88 - DREAM - I was busy taking care of my children on 16th St. and the back doorbell rang. It was a black couple looking for a pickup truck or a motorcycle to rent. I tried to help them but nobody know who had the items they wanted. When they left, I had a good sized baby in my right arm and two little ones in my left arm. The one on the left needed its diaper changed and was trying to get away from me. I said that the child on the left belonged to my Father and all he was interested in right then was the island of Sumatra which is in the Aegean Sea of the coast of Greece.
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8-5-88 - DREAM - I was in Washington State in an old empty restaurant belonging to my mother-in-law. A foreign woman came in the door and said that all she wanted was a glass of water to take some pills. I agreed to get it for her. I turned around and in the corner was a statue of a black woman wearing a beautiful white lace dress. The statue bowed to me with a big smile on her face but she stood up, she scowled and made a face. The foreign woman said something to the statue but the statue didn't understand and kept scowling. I said, "Well, she's not Spanish either." I went for the water and brought back liquid soap which I gave the woman in a very small bottle.
Then Fran came in (the personnel woman from work) and brought in some things I had left in the backyard of my 16th St. house. It was a baby carrier with a notebook and a yellow blanket. She commented that whoever was writing in the notebook must be in love because the doodles were full of hearts and diamonds.
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8-6-88 - DREAM - The dream was likened to a Nancy Drew murder mystery by me. I was moving into a new house. An old man had killed a woman and buried her under a sidewalk and had not been found yet. Then there was a younger man and when I got up in the morning, the house was so dark, I opened up the doors and the blinds to let the light in. He didn't like it because he was so used to the dark. Then an investigator came and I asked him if he could take the lock off of the refrigerator door which was crystal clear. There was nothing inside of it. He said he could but he seemed to think there was some kind of danger in that. then a woman called on the phone who was a relative and she said she wanted the lock opened on the front gate of the estate. The investigator said he knew how to do it and I said I wanted to go along and watch. I said I hadn't know there was a lock on the front gate. We went outside and there was a whole town which belonged to the old man whose family I was marrying into. As we drove along, I wondered where the front gate was. My daughter was sitting next to me holding a new baby which I was going to take care of. The baby kept looking at me and saying, "Hi Bitch! Hi Bitch Hi Bitch!". I was very uncomfortable about that. I knew that the baby had a twin which was smaller and was like a deaf mute. It couldn't speak above a whisper.
As we drove along, we came to a place where a dog was under the car, unseen, but snarling and growling. I likened it to a Nancy Drew murder mystery where the heroine was in danger. After we passed the shopping center, I saw the chain link fence and it began to look familiar. I remembered that the ocean was on the other side of the fence. So was the cemetery with all the gravestones. We came to the place where the gate was supposed to be. The gate was wide open, in fact, there was no gate, just a place where people could pass freely back and forth.
I saw a riding rink where horses with riders were being trained. I was surprised. I said I used to play baseball there.
Then I saw a children's merry-go-round. There were many children on it. NOne of them could speak above a whisper. Next to it was a barn, children running in and out screaming and crying at the tops of their lungs. I said it was all in the way they were brought up by the parents.
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8-6-88 - MEDITATION - I asked for guidance about my health problems on the spiritual level. I saw that a lot of my problems are caused by my father. I saw that black computer floppy disks were handed to me (Heredity? Predestination?)
When I went to bed, I saw that I was surrounded by a group of women
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8-7-88 - DREAM - I was invited somewhere to perform as a psychic. When I got there I knew that I had been invited there so they could kill me. They were going to use Edward/my husband to do it. I hid out by Edward found me and pulled out a "7" shaped hammer to do it with. I grabbed it and saw that there was a hypodermic needle on the end of it. I started hitting him on the hand until I smashed his hand, then I hit him in the chest and I kept hitting him over and over and over until he was dead. Then I went back to the theatre where I was to perform and saw that they were charging a lot of money to get in $300 to $500. I refused to sign the contract because I didn't want to perform for money.
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8-8-88 - DREAM - I dreamed that everything was on the computer and kept going over and over the names and addresses to make sure they were correct.
I dreamed that Jackie, from next door, was a policeman and was driving my car. I was laying down in the back seat sleeping. I woke up and he said we had to go to my house and pick up my possessions before we went to work.
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8-11-88 - I heard a telephone ring twice with a high pitch tone so I answered it mentally. Instead of a voice, I saw a manilla colored folder. It flipped open. Inside was a packet of papers with typing on it. The typing was placed on the paper in 'landscape' direction. the focus shifted to the very beginning. It said, "Help! Get help outside!" (I immediately felt it had to do with my getting a divorce.
Later in the day I got an eviction notice and it gave me 30 days to move. I wasn't sure if the vision referred to this or not.
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8-12-88 - DREAM - I saw T.M. He said, "This is H.J.M. I suggest you move by the 15th. He then showed me a whole list of properties I could call.
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8-13-88 - I was trying to meditate about a relationship with a man I had never met. I had a vision of a big fat woman pushing a man in a wheelchair and then someone looking in a refrigerator. The radio was playing while I was doing this. I fell asleep and when I woke up I heard Paul Simon singing the song,"Let me be your bodyguard, and I'll be your long lost pal. I'll call you Betty and you can call me Al."
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8-14-88 - DREAM - I was asked to play a hymn on the piano of Praise to God. It was slow and beautiful. I woke up with the words, "For the Rest of My Life, For the Rest of My Life" ringing in my ears.
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8-14-88 - DREAM - I dreamed I was warned that I should not wear fingernail polish or artificial nails because it causes the nail to rot underneath.
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8-14-88 - DREAM - I dreamed that my boss was watching me at work and that I should curtail my personal phone calls.
NOTE: This was true and I was called on the carpet for this.
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8-15-88 - DREAM - I had a small baby. I knew I had been neglecting him but I noted that he was pretty healthy considering I hadn't been feeding him very consistently and not enough solid food. I changed his diaper in the bathroom and everything was white and I determined that if Edward was leaving me, I could take care of the baby myself if I really wanted to, so I did.
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8-15-88 - MEDITATION - As I was raising my vibrations, I saw a girl sitting down, holding a child. She smiled and showed me a note long enough to read it. All I could make out was , "Hi! My name is Laurie!"
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8-16-88 - DREAM - I was back on Parkway Ave. to see if I could get back in there. I knew I was dreaming and I knew I was dreaming about this to make sure I checked with them for that reason. The fish business the landlord ran was all set up, and I found all kinds of silver coins all over the floor and put them into my pocket. The dream ended when I went to the bathroom. The landlord tried to offer me $400 for the phone bill and I knew I should keep my mouth shut about the phone and how much money he owed me.
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8-18-88 - DREAM - I had twin babies, both were just waking up and needed changing and feeding. A young girl named Angela reminded me of them.
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8-19-88 - DREAM - I went to the mailbox to mail a letter and I couldn't get it into the slot because the slot was full of money. A man came along to help me dislodge the money and the money was coming out and along with it started to come chunks of gold. I was putting gold in my pockets because it was so full and then suddenly I could see inside the mailbox and there were two men working inside the mailbox working in a goldmine and providing the gold that I was taking out.
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8-19-88 - DREAM - My children were grown. I met them in the lunchroom at work. I tried to buy my lunch from a machine and it wouldn't take my money. Then i saw that my mother had sent me a huge hand of grapes. I sat down to eat with m kids and they asked me if I had seen my son Ken lately. I said, "No!" They said, "Remember how shy and inept he was all his life? Well, he's going to be a policeman and you'll be proudest of him out of all of us."
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8-20-88 - DREAM - I was going to join a choir just before Christmas and Edward's voice came booming over the loudspeaker in front of all those people, telling me that i was a bad wife and I was yelling back that he was a creep and a jerk and all he wanted to do was sit around and do drugs and drink. I was so upset, an elderly man tried to console me by telling me that Edward should be seeing a psychiatrist and I said that he should have seen one years earlier. The man said he knew of other cases where a person may have taken 3 or 4 years to kick a drug habit but they made it.And I said, "Yes! But they wanted to do it and he doesn't"
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8-21-88 - DREAM - I was with a man in a car. The road narrowed and there was only room for one car. There was another car blocking our way. so we tried to pass them on the left and they speeded up and raced us. There car was blue. We got ahead of them and we were going so fast, I was tense. We came to a fork in the road. We took the right hand road, but the road became rough and there was a forest fire up ahead and the fire department stopped everyone. We parked our car in the lot provided and the man decided we should go cross country, using tall skinny trees for camouflage. This we did but we weren't fooling anyone. The fire was getting closer and I was asked to move the car. The car was white. The parking spot was very narrow but I had no trouble getting my car out and moving it. We then went to a house which was red brick. We went through it, looking for a window. I found one in a child's room but said we were underground about 10 feet. The man discovered it was a false wall and kicked it down. Beyond, outside, there was a beautiful lake surrounded by a park. He saw a canoe then and he said, "We're staying here."
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8-22-88 - DREAM - I changed speakers on my radio and stereo and I didn't know if they would work. My friend Julie said she was bringing in the police band to play a performance in my room. She turned on the speakers and they worked.
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8-23-88 - DREAM - Edward, my husband, came to visit the kids. He was surprised to see how many men I had with me. They were setting up fish tanks when he arrived. He sat down and I started slapping him until he said "ouch" and cried. Then he started telling me he was sleeping with a girl and how great it was. I asked him if it was only because she was new and he said, "No! I don't think so." He started to leave and said, "I really do love you," and I said the same thing to him and I couldn't let him go. We put our arms around each other and walked down the the street like we were in love. I wanted to know why sex was better with the other girl than with me and he said, "Because you haven't kissed me." I started kissing him and he seemed to pull away, but I got more aggressive and I woke up while I was kissing him.
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8-24-88 - Edward came home. He sat out in the yard in the pouring rain. I was in the house looking out the picture window. The rain was pulsating up and down violently and then I saw a tornado of rain drops coming off of my roof. I tried point it out to him but he didn't see it.
Then he came in and we lay in bed together. He was sober and free of drugs. After we got up, I was talking a mile a minute about things and he said, "I knew you were going to be like this." He started acting angry like he wanted me to walk around in silence.
He went over to the sink to rinse some pinto beans. I made me feel nauseous and Edward too.
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8-25-88 - DREAM - I was at work/shopping mall taking a break. I finally had to go back and it began to rain. I had a greenish/brownish blanket which I had put over myself to protect me and I heard a voice say, "I will protect you...my name is Tsarisk"
After I woke up these words kept repeating in my head. It produced a feeling 'totally void of emotion' not really depression...more like 'dead-like'.
NOTE: During two years of my life during that period, that's exactly how I felt. I had no emotion at all. It was like I was dead inside. I didn't laugh, cry, feel pain, or happiness...nothing at all. Life was too painful to 'feel'.
NOTE: A sanskrit word 'Tamasisk' means anger. Look at how similar the name 'Tsarisk' it to 'Tamasisk' and is the exact opposite.
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8-28-88 - DREAM - I had a canary, a fish, and a cat, and they all lived peaceably around my feet.
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8-30-88 - DREAM - I dreamed about four people individually. I woke up half way and a voice said, "These people were given to you special so that you could be a positive influence on their lives. There were three men and one woman, my daughter-in-law Debe. I dreamed that she was killing herself to stay thin and using an inadequate diet. I made her drink orange juice first.
NOTE: That was a true experience as well.
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8-31-88 - MEDITATION: I was asking about a relationship with a man whom I hadn't met yet. I began to see ugly people, then a low hollow sounding voice said, "We want you to meet the Prince!" I got so scared I stopped meditating.
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9-1-88 - VISION - I saw myself riding a horse inside the top drawer of a file cabinet. The horse and I did an impossible trick together. A voice said, "I want this file drawer kept locked at all times."
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9-1-88 - Dreamed I was looking out an upstairs window. A yellow school bus pulled up outside and many African American people got out and stood and stared up at me. Many of them came to sit outside my window to find out what I was seeing. One said she didn't know what was so special about the area. I looked out into the distance and saw Mt. Rainier in all it's beautiful snow covered glory. I looked down at the people, and when I looked out toward the mountain again, Mt. St. Helens was next to it, with a huge black smoke pall coming from the top. The bus driver said he was sorry that the oak leaves were falling off the trees already. The kids said, "That's okay, It's the same at our house."
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9-4-88 - Dreamed that my sister-in-law found a lucky marble. It was crystal blue with a white center. A few minutes later, the doorbell rang. It was a salesman of house construction. He told me that he had found a lucky marble. It was crystal white on the outside with a blue center. He was so proud of it, he said he was looking for another one. I got a big grin on my face and called my sister-in-law to show him the marble she had found. They each pulled out their lucky marbles and held them side by side. I continued to grin and said, "That's love". They fell instantly in love and decided to get married and they lived happily ever after.
NOTE: This dream came true exactly as I dreamed it in 1991 except that I wasn't there to witness it in person.
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9-4-88 - VISION - A voice told me that my mother and dad had never been legally married by Abraham Lincoln in Milwaukee so when my dad died she could not inherit.
The name Uther and Cole were mentioned along with Lincoln.
NOTE: My dad passed away many years ago and my mother did inherit so this has to mean something else.
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9-7-88 - DREAM - The parents of a teenage boy I was counseling came to me and complained that I was ignoring him. I told them that if there was a problem, it was up to him to come to me and tell me.
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9-7-88 - DREAM - I was in my 16th St. house. I was talking to a woman from my past. She said she would like to come to visit. I said, "That would be wonderful." My children and I prepared the house for visitors. The doorbell rang. I went to the door to greet my friend. She had brought her husband, a very fat man dressed in a black suit. He looked very familiar. (I think he was from the Lutheran church I used to belong to) They sat down on the sofa and whispered to each other.
I asked them if they would like some soda, or bee, or perhaps some Kool Aid. She said, "No! We can't stay!" and they got up to leave. As they went to the door, my many children were in view including a Laotian girl. as the couple went down the stairs, the woman called back up to me, "You're ready for a book."
I closed the door. something in my mind said that Laotians don't like to be touched. The Laotian girl came up to me to walk with . I was going to put my arm around her but I paused and said, "May I touch you?" She scooted ahead and said, "No! Touching is only for healing or for hitting." I felt sorry for her. I wondered if she knew what 'hugging' was like.
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9-12-88 - VISION - I saw a scene in which each person as they did something had a red dice roll at their feet. It came up a different number each time.
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9-12-88 - VISION - I saw that there was another level of apartment about 6 feet higher than this one. The apartment above this one didn't exist at all.
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9-10-88 - DREAM - A choir was singing 'America the Beautiful' and the words were being printed out on a word processor. The building was 151 stories tall. I went to the 105th level to experience it . I was the only person getting off the elevator. I was worried that I wouldn't be able to get down again. A man said that it had never happened before.
Everything was elongated lengthwise and worked more slowly than normal but perfectly.
I could still hear the words to 'America the Beautiful'.
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9-10-88 - DREAM - I was with a man and a woman. I was in love with the man and the woman was just there. I was jealous because she was there. I began kissing the man so she would be jealous and I could feel his hand between my legs. I looked at him and he had both his hands up by his shoulders. I put my hand down to where the other hand was. It felt rubbery. I could also feel another hand and another foot. I pulled on them. The hand was attached to a leg/arm. The hand had 8 undeveloped ugly fingers and the foot was cloven. We were all disgusted and mortified. The man too the one arm/leg and beat the other one with it, then took a shovel and chopped them up in little pieces. Then I had a sudden realization, "what if they can divide and multiply?" We decided to get out of that place immediately.
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9-13-88 - DREAM - I went to a place where I watched a girl get her hair cut and dyed. I asked to have mine done too. She blunt cut it and dyed it blonde. It looked great until I touched it.
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9-13-88 - DREAM - I had my baby son with me. He was wearing blue pajamas. I had him in church. I wanted to go to communion. He was heavy so I set him down to see if he could walk by himself and he couldn't do it, so I picked him up and carried him. Someone asked his name. I said, "This one is David" (means beloved) and then noted that I was carrying a larger child on my left. I went to the altar and kneeled and made the sign of the cross and got up and went into the sanctuary for communion.
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9-13-88 - I heard a voice in meditation: "Feed the people when they have a need and when you are ready to witness to them and they are ready to hear it, they'll right there.
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9-14-88 - Dreamed that I received a Christmas card from a dear friend with a book of matches from a Cadillac dealer. Another lady friend of his received the same card but at the bottom of the matchbook he had written, "I will be in the hospital, "March 9 thru 20, 1989".
NOTE: This person was very, very ill during these dates but refused to go the hospital for treatment.
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9-14-88 - DREAM - I was late for work from my 16th St. house. My desk was piled high with papers and things and when I got there, they had cleaned it off and piled everything on the floor. I had a discussion with a co-worker and decided that I should keep only one hobby to work on at work and take everything else home.
I had a whole bunch of leftover meat sandwiches I was saving and they were spoiling so I threw them all way.
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9-15-88 - Dreamed that a very tall fire truck went by. A woman told me to make sure the furnace was vented and not to open the door to the factory and let in bad air.
NOTE: The news the next day let us know that a large apartment complex in our town burned down, 3 children were killed, and 100 people were left homeless.
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9-16-88 - DREAM - I was downtown and had a good time and got used to being with people. It was snowing outside and I crossed the street to find a bathroom. The sky was unusually blue at the same time it was snowing.
I went home to take care of the children. My husband came home. He was drunk but he asked if I would go downtown to see a musical show with him. I said, "Yes!" because I had enjoyed myself there. He brought out some liquor and offered me a sample. I took a sip to be friendly. He then pulled out a larger bottle of booze and began drinking heavily and I became afraid.
I began to dress the baby in his snowsuit. It was pale green. I could hear my husband talking to me from the other room. He was laying on the floor. I was hurrying to run away from him so he wouldn't hurt the baby.
I reached the front door and opened a golden lock and undid a golden chain and slipped out the door with the baby.
I was now in Milwaukee on 16th St. running north. My husband followed me to the door saying how great he had done fixing our lake cottage. I kept running farther and farther away from him. Then he said, "You're right. I don't say the right things. May the Great God watch out for us together."
NOTE: It was only 3 months later that I was forced to run away from him for the last time and finally divorced him because of his drinking and drug habits.
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9-17-88 - DREAM - I was watching a show put on my movie stars, then Johnny Carson asked me to dance with him. He held me very close. We danced in perfect rhythm, faster and faster until we were going so fast we got out of breath and had to stop. I woke up out of breath.
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9-17-88 - DREAM - I was cleaning out the cabinet under the sink. I stepped on a can of peaches which opened up and spilled all over. Then I found bugs way in the back and then way in the back, up high, I found a tiny plant hanging with a pink flower on it. I took it out and set it on top of the sink and watered it. It turned into an orchid.
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9-17-88 - DREAM - I was watching TV and was controlling the channels myself. My neighbor didn't like me to be the controller. I went out and met my Father on the sidewalk. He told me to go back and keep track of every nickel I spend and write it down.
NOTE: I followed that advice. It was wise advice.
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9-18-88 - DREAM - I had the same dream over and over. I was in a government camp and was being guarded. My husband and I had a handwritten document that they wanted to classify #2 and they were doing everything they could to stop it from being published and to keep us separated. My husband finally got inside the camp where I was and helped me to escape and we were on the run for a long time but we were happy together. Finally the government abandoned the camp and we were free.
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9-19-88 - DREAM - I went home from work to watch something important on TV. My husband and grandmother were there too. At 9:25 a.m. I had to get back to work. I drove the car and I had so much trouble parking the car straight it took me 12 hours until 9:30 p.m. I was in Washington State and there was a school rivalry in sports from one block to the next.
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9-19-88 - DREAM - I was running down the right hand side of a road after Audrey (a friend). I said to her, after I saw she had just gotten engaged, "I got engaged two weeks after you did, didn't I?" she said, "yes!" and I was expecting it to happen again. Just then, a red headed man drove alongside in a cartoon type car and I knew I was still married to him and it upset me that he was interfering in my life.
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9-19-88 - DREAM - I crucified my husband, killed him and tied him to a stake. I told his dead body I'd try not to hurt his face as I laid the post on the ground and after I put the stake up, I began to scalp him.
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9-20-88 - MEDITATION - I was on the edge of waking/sleeping. I started to hear musical notes played and I remembered that I was getting an organ on Saturday. I looked and saw that there was a grand piano in my livingroom.
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9-22-88 - DREAM - I was on the telephone asking for help to interpret a dream that had an airplane in it. The woman was very inept. I told her I would call her later that day. Meanwhile, my child was in the kitchen waiting to be taken out of the highchair. His name was Dale (means Dweller in the dale) I was going to change his diaper and when I turned my back on Dale, my husband took him upstairs to take care of him.
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9-22-88 - MEDITATION - I was asking about my relationship with my husband because we were having so many problems.
I saw golden stars shaped like a zodiac Cat - running.
I saw a hand rebuilding the walls of a house.
I saw a white house with two windows on the upper floor side by side.
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9-22-88 - PRAYER - I was praying with my eyes closed. I saw a man dressed in white woolen robes with white wool-like hair and mustache and beard. A voice said, "Is this Satan?" The vision of the man collapsed into a puddle of white nothing on the floor.
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9-23-88 - DREAM - I was running away from Edward my husband. I was screaming and screaming. His daughter was afraid too. I had this dream multiple times.
I dreamed that I went to my 16th St. house and they had a surprised birthday party for me.
I dreamed that I was traveling, looking for a place to live.This place was on the shores of Lake Michigan. It was next to a lot of Cambodians. When the pigeons took off to fly, the women all raised their hands to wave at them.
I was looking for juice in the refrigerator. Then I was going up Dundee Ave. towards Simpson Electric Co. The man was driving was looking for squirrels to drive over and get for dinner. We stopped at a gas station and I and my co-workers intended to walk the rest of the way.
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9-24-88 - DREAM - My husband and I were on the run across the country with our children. We were living in our station wagon. we got to a town where I had to see a doctor. We didn't want to use our real names so the doctor called me 'Mike Rake' because there happened to be rake standing in the corner of the porch of her house. Mike was short for Michael or for Michele (means 'like to God') I decided that Mike Rake would be my nom-de-plume when I published my document.
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9-24-88 - DREAM - My daughter had grown up and was leaving home, so I decided it was time for me to turn over a new leaf and be a responsible example for her.
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9-24-88 - I meditated to find out what my immediate future would be. I saw myself at a wedding. I was surrounded by the bridesmaids who were from all nations and wore pastel gowns.
NOTE: The next morning, when I went to church, the pastor preached his sermon about the wedding at Cana.
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9-25-88 - DREAM - Allis-Chalmers was beginning to have a 50 story tower built on top of it to take the place of the buildings that were torn down.
NOTE: A shopping mall was built in place of all the buildings that were torn down.
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9-25-88 - DREAM - The pastor of my church is basically a good man, but in the dream, his clothes were white accented with black and wore a black hat and black goggles. I couldn't recognize him unless he raised his goggles and spoke out loud. He walked around carrying a level and slide rule, judging those people he controls and he 'must' control of those people under him and he was deliberately trying to get control of me. I noticed that he was trying to corner me in a building when my car keys disappeared and I saw that his helpers were trying to trap me in a corner to get me. I managed to slip out of the building and get to a woman's fashion store with a lot of mannequins to hide out. I noticed that one thing he had done to lower my resistance was to see to it that I contracted every disease that his wife got. The only thing stopping him from getting complete control of me was my awareness that he was attempting to be my controller and that my key was missing. I knew that I had to find it first.
Finally,he caught me and knocked me down with a disease called 'the stinger'. I lay on the ground, knowing they were coming for me. I wasn't afraid, but I felt helpless, unable to raise myself up. I could see they were coming for me.
The next thing I knew, I was trying to straighten out a record on a turntable to play it. Others played imperfect records, but mine had to be perfect.
Later on, I was at work, I saw the pastor again but didn't recognize him until he raised his goggles which he had to do in order to talk to someone. I managed to slip away again, but I was feeling weak and groggy. I knew he still didn't have me under his control, because he didn't yet have the key. I also knew that I had to find my own key because I didn't want him to control me.
NOTE: Two days later, I came down with a horrible debilitating flu illness that laid me flat in bed for days.
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9-25-88 - DREAM - I had just moved into a new house. The hallways were dripping from the rain and I was running around trying to find dry hats for my children. But they refused to wear them. I noticed then that the rain had stopped and the clouds were hanging low but there was blue sky all around the edges. One son went off on a date. Another son was dating a grey haired teacher. I felt guilty for not accomplishing much yet in this house, but I had been busy preparing for it, moving furniture and cleaning. I couldn't find my daughter. Someone told me she was babysitting and the thought occurred to me that I could do that to earn some extra money. I went upstairs to see if my daughter was up there and she was. She was busy sewing and caring for my newest daughter Andrea Bauer. She was 10 months old and hadn't been fed yet. I looked at the baby and it was a grown man whose name was Andrew Dostoevsky. The baby approved of me when he saw me and then turned his face away again. I allowed my daughter to continue caring for the baby.
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9-26-88 - DREAM - Someone I was related to knocked down his outhouse. It was packed with $60 million dollars. My share was $2 million. There was difficulty deciding whether to spend it or not.
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9-27-88 - DREAM - Edward, my husband, came to my 16th St. house. I heard him knocking on the door and I went to answer it the hard way. I went there by way of the blackened trails over the snow piles and through the weeds which directed me. When I finally got there, he said, "Why didn't you just come across the green grass around the outside?" I saw how foolish I had been. Then I saw that all the blackened instruments, copiers, and communication machines had been thrown out upside down into the alley. He came to me and put his arm around my waist. He had grown a foot taller and I commented on it. "How'd you get so tall?" He asked me how I'd gotten so thin and we walked arm and arm peacefully together back home.
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9-27-88 - DREAM - A killer had been let out of jail and moved into my housing complex. I was told to let the landlord know if there was any harassment.
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9-27-88 - DREAM - I moved into a new apartment. There was a secret door behind and above the refrigerator that was unlocked that Asian children could go in and out. I went into the back hallway and I checked the other people's refrigerators. Each one was full of good food, particularly orange juice. Edward was there and he was cleaning up around the apartments. He was very happy and smiling. I looked around the apartment and said it was time to clean up and hang pictures on the wall.
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9-28-88 - DREAM - I spent a long time getting ready for an eye doctor appointment, but we never went. I decided to go on a date instead. My dress was a gorgeous chiffon powder blue. I looked in the mirror and my face had streaks of dirt and no make up so I went into the bathroom to clean up. While I was in there, one of my kids handed me toilet bowl cleaner and some water got on it so I had to dump it into the toilet. I got some on my shoes and it got a hole in it and I burst into tears.
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9-28-88 - DREAM - A bunch of weeks ago I received 8 puppies and kittens in the mail. I found them still hanging in the basement n a net sack. They hadn't received any water or food and I felt very guilty. They weren't what I wanted at the time and I had let them die. I cut the bag down to take it upstairs. I noticed a sign of life in one puppy. I felt relief that I might be able to save it. When I got it upstairs, all three were fat and sassy and they scampered across the kitchen floor. I felt so much relief that they were alive and well.
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9-28-88 - DREAM - I was watching some spacemen and airplane pilots who were practicing. They weren't quite accurate and the last one said he was 1 1/2 feet off to the left. The plane took off and went behind the mountain and crashed.
NOTE: I didn't follow up on this to see if it happened in real life.
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9-29-88 - DREAM - I lived on 92nd Street in Milwaukee. There were TV sets in the ceiling behind hatch doors and walls. A local worker came to interview me. I had a pile of ground nuts to eat for strength. The interviewer turned out to be my pastor's wife. she held her hands on my head and I felt comforted. She started to raise my eyelid and asked if I had had my eyes examined lately. We both said that we didn't feel good enough to work full time anymore. We went down to the local card shop on Greenfield Ave. The pastor came to pick us up. He was wearing a black motorcycle helmet. I debated with myself whether I would ride with him or not. He turned his back and so did she and they both had bare backs. We went out and got into a car together. He passed right by my street. I had to remind him that he forgot to drop me off at home. He turned around at 124th St. At 124th St. there was a car advertised for sale. It was a black Model T Ford held up by a tow truck crane. The pastor asked me if I liked the color. The pastor's wife made a remark that the advertising was made to "Godupta" She laughed.
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9-29-88 - DREAM - A white kitten with blue eyes was born 2 1/2 weeks ago and it's being saved for me.
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9-29-88 - DREAM - I saved two babies from being attacked by bulldogs at a zoo. My baby was sleeping in bed and was okay.
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9-29-88 - DREAM - I went to a seminar. I signed in as Dolores Bauer - 12th level.
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9-29-88 - DREAM - I dreamed that I was worried about my inability to steer my car adequately on a curved road. Two of my friend whom I trusted told me not to worry. They had done worse.
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9-30-88 - DREAM - I dreamed that my son Bill was jailed for 3 1/2 years for stealing a toy. (He was 15 yrs. old in the dream) He had been given some time off and didn't want to go back. I held him in my arms while he cried and then he went back. I complained that it was an awfully stiff sentence for a 15 yr. old. I was told that he would get furloughs for Holidays as long as he returned to finish out the term. He kept the toy overnight because the warranty said it was a keepable toy.
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