DREAMS AND VISIONS OF CLOWNS
10-1-88 - DREAM - Dreamed I was in church.
I watched an elderly piano player. She said she practiced every day.
There were two white faced clowns singing a song of praise to Jesus.
I saw that a Model T Ford and a new car had the same frame, just a different body.
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7-15-89 Second dream about my ex-husband. We were in an art class of sorts discussing noses. I refused to wear a clown's nose. We were on 16th Street and I was trying to get away from him, but viscious dogs chased me back. I had to treat him like a king and ply him with gifts to please him. I gave him marijuana, cocaine, booze, etc. and he was very pleased with me and loved me.
NOTE: This was all true and I became very ill staying in that relationship too long.
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1-8-92 - ASTRAL EXPERIENCE: I was laying on the couch at 6 a.m. resting. At some point, I couldn't figure out if I was awake or asleep. My front door was wide open and the girls next door were talking and giggling, getting up for work. A door into the next apartment was open and I could hear more giggling and talking. Some people came into my apartment. One of the women was in labor and they took over my bedroom until it was time to go to the hospital. Some men came to help me arrange my plants because they were overgrown and needed watering.
Then I went into a dream and I was walking East down Wisconsin Ave., hand in hand with my little daughter. We were headed for the lake. I decided that it would be faster if we took the bus. But I had no money with me. I decided to go back home and get my money, but I didn't have my key and I couldn't remember where I lived. I was now on 9th St. by the courthouse. My daughter and I crawled under a triangular shaped shelter put up by some window company and sat down to figure out what do do. My daughter got afraid because she saw some black and white dogs coming. I looked and the dogs were mostly white, but big. The second one was all white except for a pale grey ruff and she had come looking for her little puppy which was right by our door.
Some women came along who I had known in the past. One of them carried a rental agreement signed by me. She was so happy to see me that she introduced me to her friends.
Then I was told that I was by Old St. Mary's church. There was some kind of doings going on right behind me with a clown and a lot of people. I heard some bells ring, then the people all left and there was a pile of jewelry left behind right next to me in the grass. There was diamond encrusted crosses, necklaces made of hundreds of pearls and gold. People handed them to me and my daughter.
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2-5-92 - DREAM - My boss Tom asked me to take his place temporarily, taking phone calls from customers while he took care of business elsewhere. I sat on the corner looking through invoices when a lady called to see if her car was ready yet. I couldn't find the invoice, so I told the lady that her car was still in the shop and we'd call her when it was done.
A foreign sounding woman came along and pointed to the books I was reading and said that she had always been interested in the tapes. I knew that the tapes were in purple binders, but that they were kept in the basement workshop. I told her that if she could wait a minute, I would get them for her. (In the dream, I assumed she was talking about Eckankar)
First, I had to unplug the electrical appliances. I looked at all the plugs and they were plugged in, but the wires were disconnected and burned off which was a dangerous situation, so I took the appliances to the workshop.
I then told the woman she could go with me. I had made the trip to the basement a thousand times in the last 100 years I thought, so it was easy for me just to run down the narrow steps at a fast clip. but, the other woman had to carefully watch every step she took. The way was very narrow and dusty. The door to the shop was extremely narrow and one had to sit down and squeeze through a narrow opening to get into the shop where the tapes were kept. It was hard for me even when I knew how, so I suggested to the woman that I take her by an easier way.
As I was leaving the narrow steps, there was a big white puff ball of fuzz hanging rom the doorway. She lifted me up by the head and stuck my face into it. It was very dusty.
I went around the corner then and was back outside. I saw two men dressed like clowns One looked like Johnny Carson, but I didn't say anything. I went around the corner and all the people had misshapen features and I knew that I had to get back to my job quickly, because I was supposed to be watching the phones. So, I had to get back as fast as I could.
After I woke up, I realized that the only purple binders I have with tapes in them are for real estate. That left me feeling confused as to what this woman really had wanted.
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11-17-97 - DREAM - I was inside my house and I went to the first door on which hung my personal symbol on a string. It was two triangles, points facing left, intertwined with a candle standing up on the lower edge and going up through them.
They were hanging on an 18" string which made them too low to see properly. I looked into a mirror then to see my face. It was cartoonish and clownish. The face was too low to see my mouth.
I then went out to get into my car. It was black. At first I was not driving it. I sat in the back seat and a man drove it. After going a ways, I wanted to turn right, but there was a high wall on the right and we couldn't see that way. Cross traffic from that direction was coming from that way too fast to make the turn safely.
We stopped at that point and I saw some things on the highway next to the car which belonged to me that had fallen out the last time I had been through this way.. I asked the driver to pick up the window wiper which actually looked like a shoe horn. There were three other little black boxes but I didn't ask for those.
We went a couple more blocks straight ahead and I again asked to turn right. When we did, we had to go over some huge rocks. At that point I had to get out of the car and there was an old-old man there calling his hotel for messages. He told the operator his phone number was 000-000-0000. When the operator answered, he had to give his password. It was 377-7777. He explained to the other two men with him, "I could never remember my phone number when I traveled so they gave me this number instead.
I decided to continue driving at this point, but I was outside the car - alone. The driver had stayed behind with the old-old man and his companions.
The car, as it went farther along, got farther and farther away from me. I found that i was also at a fixed point with the old-old man. I had to drive with one finger on the wheel tracking some red stuff that looked like fish food flakes.
My driving got more and more erratic as the car got farther away from me. I made a couple really bad left turns across traffic which I had to correct quickly. Finally, I lost control completely. The car turned right and I lost sight of it. It had gone too far right to see from my perspective to the corner with the old-old man.
I woke up and could only remember the dream if I faced right, the way I had been sleeping. If I rolled over, face up or left, the dream was instantly gone out of my head. When I rolled back to the right, it came back in clearly. I experimented with that three times. I was astonished at the experience.
To this day, I believe the old-old man to be God himself.
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This is the dream with the graphic sexual details if anyone wants to skip it!
12-19-97 - DREAM - I was having a dream-vision of words that could be used to explain a dream. I chose the word "DENIZEN" to explain the fact that my dreams come true and I could post them there. I wanted to tell Joe this but he was sleeping and I fell asleep again trying to send the word to his computer with my mind.
In the dream I was in school, idolizing the teacher and I didn't even know his name. I would stare at him adoringly and I noticed he was doing the same back to me.
After class I as at home where I lived with some other people. I took a rectangular glass bowl and was filling it with water from a long black hose, stretching from the kitchen faucet to the diningroom. The two old women there marveled at what I was doing. I was going to use this small bowl for fish to swim in, yet I noticed I had a real fish tank standing there empty that was 4' x 4' x 4' .
I kept thinking about my teacher and finally went to another class. He wrote his name on the board RICHARD RICHARDSON. (Means powerful ruler, son of powerful ruler) I was infatuated with him and I knew he was with me too. After class I desperately wanted to call him on the phone just to hear his voice but I didn't know his number.
He showed up at my house to visit and like magnets, we were drawn together.
We sat on the sofa side by side, his arm around me and I had my head on his shoulder. An older woman came into the room and started scolding the teacher in a political poem that rhymed and said it was a scandal that he was seen cozying up to Dolores in class.
I was absolutely tickled that others had noticed his attentions towards me because he treated me like I was 17 and that's how he made me feel even though I was nearing the age of 60. He didn't see me that way.
When the woman was done yelling at him, he got up and moved to a chair over to the side. He was wearing a brown suit and I noticed that his penis was sticking out of his pants and it was pure white on the end. I was either shocked and told him to stick it back in his pants to hide it.
He, for an instant morphed into a clown, dressed in a pink clown suit trimmed in blue and yellow and his penis was painted to match his clown suit and it looked really cute. I understood then why it was the color it was, that the clown was his real self and the brown suit was his physical realm disguise. He morphed back into the brown suit and I managed to get him to tuck his penis between his legs so the other women wouldn't see it.
I desperately wanted his phone number and began asking him in a soft voice but he didn't hear me, so I said it louder and louder until he heard me. But he lectured me then. He said, "You can call me between 3:30 p.m. and 4:30 p.m. or from 7 p.m. to 11p.m. but keep in mind that I have to teach my class and if I miss any time I have to pay THEM and it costs $1,075 a month."
I wanted desperately to ask him to accompany me to visit a house I wanted to rent which was a place where I would live with an old woman in a huge square Victorian type house. I had seen the place once before but hadn't given her any money to formally rent the place. I suddenly realized I had to move in 3 days and I had to be out of my current house by December 8th when my Lease ran out.
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Note: In this dream, the clowns are holding sticks with rotating blades on top of them.
7-9-98 - DREAM - I was at a gas station repair place to buy a small part for my car. The gas station owner who was dressed in dark blue jump suit said that since I did a favor for him, he would do one for me and fix my car for nothing. He told me to be sure to pick up everything from the driveway before I moved my car. I found a toy with a stick pin on it.
The best friend of the owner was going to pull his car into an inner courtyard and the owner told him, "No! She's going to park her car here." The other guy looked shocked because he thought HE was the special one.
So, I pulled my car into the inner courtyard to be worked on. I then had to walk to school. Someone was walking down the sidewalk behind me. I looked way up in the sky, it looked like several helicopters flying near a big round object. They were coming downward as we watched. I could then see that the helicopters were actually clowns in full costume. There were several sizes. They were making wild antics in the air like running and swimming and making me laugh. I told the guy with me, "Remember they are falling at the rate of hundreds of feet a second." I was assuming they had jumped out of an airplane and were skydiving, but there were no chutes in evidence, just the blades rotating at the top of a stick they each held.
It was so cute to watch, we completely forgot to think that there might be any danger either to us from them, or to them from hitting the ground.
I do not recall if they landed, but I was at school and one of the girls said that I had forgotten to draw the arms on a drawing in my drafting class. I looked at the complicated drawing. It was of a machine that looked like someone would sit in it and it would definitely need a place to put your arms while sitting in it like an armchair.."Perhaps like a time machine I was thinking."
The girl told me she would fix it for me. I looked at the drawing and didn't remember having drawn it. I told her, "Perhaps I was absent the day they did that one." She repeated that she would fix it for me.
There was a guy in the class I remember from work. (Frank ___. He is deceased) I told them, my best friend Michelle, whom I've never seen in person, but she's my best friend on the Internet on the computer, earns $60 an hour doing drafting. She's doing CAD drawings.
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7-31-98 - DREAM - I was living out in the country. I planned to go to the store to buy food and got into the car and started it, but I sat in the back seat with my foot on the brake, waiting for to her people to go with me. A woman and her three daughters got in to go along but I was still sitting in the back seat. Nobody was sitting behind the wheel to drive. Besides that it was dark out; the sun hadn't come up yet, and I couldn't get the lights to come on. I pulled on the switch and turned and twisted and poked it back in over and over and over and over and the lights just wouldn't come on. Finally, I told the woman to put her foot on the brake and I would come around the front and see what was wrong. I went around the front and got down on my knees by the light switch and immediately saw the problem. There was a child-proof safety switch next to the light switch that had to be disengaged first. As soon as I disengaged the child safety switch, the light switch worked.
I got in the car and drove a few miles to the store. I don't remember driving though and I don't remember her driving there either. when we got to the store there was another problem with the car and when I got out to see what was wrong with the car, I was again sitting in the back seat on the right. I opened the car door and there was a man's body laying there and I had to stop on top of him in order to walk around the car and we had parked right next to a garbage heap and the stench of garbage was awful.
The man's body was clothed all in white and I felt guilty walking on him, but there was no other way to get out of the car. He was laying in the garbage heap. He was face down, so there was no way for me to identify him either and he didn't wake up when I stepped on him either.
I went into the store and before I could do anything, my car disappeared. The woman and the girls were gone and so was my car.
I thought about reporting it stolen, when I saw the car again, but the three girls had taken it, had it painted purple and painted huge red, yellow, blue, and white fire stripes on the sides and were roaring up and down the aisle in the parking lot with it.
Then I remembered the child safety switch. I engaged it when I got out of the car and nobody knew it was there but me. While the girls were chasing around in my car, a whole stream of people went by with push brooms and trash bags and cleaned up the street. It was like a parade as they went by. After they passed, then a circus-like parade with music and dancing and clowns.
When they were done, then another parade of people went by with push brooms and trash bags and cleaned the streets again.
All these people earned passes to go through a little door and had to duck down to go through a tunnel. They were all smiling when they went through so I knew they were happy about whatever was on the other side of the door. There was a ticket-taker standing by the door and I didn't have a ticket so I couldn't go see what was on the other side.
I wished I had had a camera to take a picture so I could show people how that series of parades happened when I told others about it because it seemed like such a wonderful thing for people to clean the street, have a fun circus-like parade and then clean the street again.
There was a man there who looked like T.J. (Joe's youngest son) standing nearby and he had a polaroid camera, but it was too late. All the people from the parades had gone through the little door and nobody was now going into the tunnel. Nobody would believe what I had just seen.
At that point, it seemed like I was at work and someone handed me a stack of hand-written love letters from the President of the company to various employees. I didn't make any attempt to read these letter which were on pink paper and signed, "Love, Bob!" but I thought it best to sort them by name to make delivering them easier.
I didn't work in the department where these letters went so I didn't know any of the people, but I figured when I walked down the hall and asked for the people by name, someone would point them out to me.
A man came into the office where I was sorting out these letters and asked if he could borrow my black scissors. I didn't know his friends and I suspected they would take my scissors outside and do something bad with them, so I said, "No!" I told him to get the scissors from his own department where the drafting was done. He said he didn't want his boss to know he was using the scissors. But I stood firm on my answer. "No!"
The other man was a writer and was going to write a novel. He didn't know what to write about. I remembered that when I worked at Allis Chalmers it was called "A Peyton Place" and I indicated these love letters from the President to his employees and this would really be something worth writing about.
NOTE: 8-2-98 - Several of Joe's friends were arguing about some information they were trying to figure out. Joe said that the Goddess Kali divides people with scissors.
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