12-1-92 - DREAM - I was standing on top of the frozen Columbia River. I noticed that there were two distinct layers of ice and the bottom layer, though frozen through was softer and the melting water along the edges was gradually undermining the to player and there was danger of collapse.  Even worse than that, there were people working underneath the ice pack trying to accomplish some kind of mechanical job they couldn't do when the river was running free. I tried to warn them that the river was going to collapse in on them, and a few people did manage to escape but not everybody got out of the way before it collapsed in on them.

After that, I was shown a picture of a blonde girl child who I was going to adopt. I tried to tell my mother about it, but she was hard of hearing and there was a group of people around making noise at a banquet, so I had to put my mouth right up tot her ear so she could hear me.

Another woman brought a pretty dark-haired girl baby up to me. She had just adopted her. I knew she would be a rival for the blonde baby. However, I gave her little cheek a kiss, and put my cheek to hers to show her she was loved.

My husband was there, but when he left, I couldn't go with him because there were too many people clamoring for my attention to do things. A man asked me to edit a newsreel film of the collapse of the Columbia river and I felt obligated to do so, though emotionally, I had wanted to be with my family. The things I was asked to do were more important.

The little dark-haired baby was brought back again and again I showed her that she was loved, even though the little blonde girl would be coming soon.

Some people then showed me a forest fire and I was told that the automobile vehicle was the most dangerous things to have in the woods. I asked them if they didn't mean the "All Terrain Vehicle" and they said 'No!" The automobile was the most dangerous thing to have in the environment.


12-1-92 - DREAM - I was in my 16th St. house. I had some medical questions to ask and my mother called a doctor. He came to the house. He was tall and mysterious looking. He wore a hat with a brim so it was difficult to see his face. He came close to my face to smell my breath. He said that my mouth was dry and cottony. (I thought. 'obviously, since I was asleep, my mouth would be dry and cottony). But as soon as I thought that, my mouth began to moisten. and as it did, the doctor came even closer and kissed me gently on the lips.

I was extremely surprised that a doctor would kiss a patient, but my mother was sitting right behind him as a witness.

At that point, I got a good look at his face. Not really handsome, but not ugly either, it was a typical Jewish face, long and thin, and under the dark brim hat, his hair was blonde and he had his hair long and a braid pigtail just in front of his ears and to me he looked like a typical Hasidic Jew.

He reached out and held my hands and I calmed down and I said, "Doctor, I need to ask you a question that to me is extremely personal."

He said, "What is it?" I said, "I need a second opinion on something. I've been taking estrogen a long time and now I'm bleeding quite hard even between periods."

He said, "That is quite common and that is no problem"

Being that was exactly what my doctor had said, I was quite relieved.

Having the doctor near was so comforting. I didn't want him to leave and I sort of wished he wouldn't leave. I don't know if he sensed that wish or not, but he didn't leave, but continued to hold my hand.

He then lay down next to me on the bed to rest and took a piece of grooved wood out of a pocket and lay it next to him.

I was curious to know what it was, so I picked it up and identify it. I thought perhaps it was a mouthpiece to guard the teeth when one is dead or something.

Then the TV flashed a commercial about a little game with levers that you had to push the levers in a certain sequence to beat the clock. I looked closer at the wood and that's exactly what I had in my hand except the one I had was broken.

Decided I could fix it by gluing it back together, so I went to the bathroom, got some glue and put it on and tried fitting it back together. There was another small piece which needed a third hand to put in, so I asked my daughter to help put that in while I held the other two pieces together.

I went to sit on the couch and almost sat on the doctors head. I apologized, but he just smiled and moved to the floor.  He took ahold of my hand again. I moved to the floor and sat next to him. He said that his secretary had bought the game at the dime store, but he had broken it.

I looked at him again and he now looked very feminine, with medium length, blonde, frizzy, curly hair where the braids had been. It appeared that he wore lipstick and eyebrow pencil.

I was shocked, but as he took my hand again, I felt somehow attracted. I thought to myself, "Maybe I am ready for a relationship like that, especially since he is a doctor."

I then said, "Doctor, do you believe in absent healing"

He said, "What do you mean?"

I measured about 3 feet over with my hand and said, "Could you heal a person that was this far away from you? Or perhaps this far away?" and measured about 6 feet away?"

He said, "I've never heard about it, but I'd like to learn about it."

I looked over at my bookcase and there was a card propped up against the books that had a love poem on it.

I said, "Doctor, just feel free to read any of the books in my bookcase."

He reached over towards my hand. He looked masculine again, wore a black T shirt and dark pants. He linked index fingers with me with his right hand to my right hand and I felt connected to him and woke up.


12-2-92 - DREAM - I was in charge of the care of a huge building. I had 5 people working for me and obviously they were beginners as was I.  There was stuff and dust everywhere and out of place. I was given a purchase order several pages long with a list of my responsibilities and supervising this crew of 5 was part of it.

I was at the far end of the building and had already inspected the basement for what had to be done. The crew was about 1/4 of the way thru the work and I met the boss at the far end.  He aid he had to run upstairs and take care of something and would meet me at some point down the way and indicated he would come down another stairway along the way but there was no way to know which one.

I wanted to talk to my crew which was now disbursed at various places all along the way and were not working together. I decided we needed to have a meeting to discuss the best way to tackle the challenge ahead, so I began to call them together. They w re all younger than I, both male and female, of varying races and colors.

As I was gathering the crew together I saw a tape player and may tapes laying on a work bench. I went over to check it out. The player was portable similar to a walkman. The tapes were all white and I decided they would be good to have down there while working.

I checked over my purchase order again to see what our immediate responsibilities were, then waved the crew in.

While I was waiting for them to come together, two tall black men showed up, who evidentally worked for my boss and though I didn't know them were like supervisors for people like me.

These to men were very likable, though both black were as different in color as I was from them. They came over to talk to me just as my crew came together. They were in a jovial mood, looked at my crew and at me and our color and ethnic differences. I almost felt out of place because of my white skin.

The darker of the two men pulled the lighter one close to him and they put their faces near each other to show how different they were.

With a smile on his face, he indicated their difference and waved his hand towards my crew. He said, "Anyone who discriminates another person because of race, color, ethnic origin, or sexuality, (meaning male or female) will answer to me."


12-3-92 - DREAM - I was working at A-C. I obviously had been gone for awhile and then came back. It was early morning and my co-workers were just coming in for the day. Several of them asked me about memos or something and I told them that the work had been done and placed on their desks. They hadn't bothered to look before they asked.

I had half hiding behind a partition because i had only light blue underpants on from the waist down. I had to run all the way down to the south end of the building and down two floors to get a skit I left hanging where I used to work.

I was embarrassed and tried to hide my problem, but girls running in the other direction were having similar problems and I didn't feel so bad.

When I got down to my old area, the head secretary was sitting behind a desk piled with blue wrapped wedding shower presents. There were a lot of girls there that I didn't know because I had been gone quite awhile. I walked up to her to congratulate her, saying. "What did I miss?  What did I miss?" I gave her a hug and congratulated her saying, "Congratulations, your deserve only the best."

Her response was "Are you still friends with that man?"

It was obviously someone who she didn't approved of, but I didn't know who she meant. I answered, "I'm friends with everyone."

I walked away again . I was wearing a medium blue fitted suit and skirt with blue high heeled shoes and I had long hair. As I walked back to the center of the building,t here was a bank of elevators. 3 across. The center one had a very wide door, the two out ones had narrower doors.

There was one man in the hall waiting for the elevator. I recognized him as a person from a different division, with a German accent.  He got on the elevator, and the door started to close. As I ran for the elevator, I hollered, "hold it, hold it!" and he pressed the button that opened the doors again.

Someone else came up behind me and asked if the elevator went to the 5th floor and I said, "yes!" That's where I was going.  

The man said, "If Dolores says the elevator goes to the the 5th floor, then the elevator goes to the 5th floor."

Then a whole crowd of people rushed forward to get on the elevator with me. They had been afraid to try it before. Some people were worried about the slippery floor. It was like marble with chips of sparkling blue in it. I said something like, "If you think this floor isn't hard, try bouncing a coin off of it."


12-5-92 - DREAM - I was in a class where people were being taught to make their faces more beautiful because they felt they were defective in some way. Some of the improvements were by way of makeup, but some of the changes were made by positive thought control on the defect and some extreme cases by minor plastic surgery.

One of the men in the class was rejected by the others for some reason and shunned. His mind twisted from the pain of being rejected, so instead of making people more beautiful, he began to exaggerate their defects in his mind.

(As an afterthought or a 1/2 lucid addition to the dream, I had the man use plastic surgery on people to make them ugly, wait until their wounds healed, then killed them and shrunk heir skulls and put them on the heads of canes and began a collection of his gory creation.)


12-6-92 - I was in my 16th St. house. There was a rivalry going on between me and another woman. There was a man involved and he had to choose between us.

I was headed towards the kitchen door which was closed. (It was a swinging door)  I had a vision of him dancing with the other woman. She was dark-haired and short. He also had dark hair. I thought it was unfair of either him or her to start before I even got there to be part of the choosing process. I planned to take a sopping set wash cloth and throw it at her.

When I opened the door, the only person I saw was a tall thin black man 7 to 8 feet tall. He was looking out the window towards the west.

He turned towards me and told me that he was going to take me to visit the Queen.

The scene changed and I was standing on a street outside the castle walls. The walls were immense and the gate was incredibly high with an archway over it. A tall, tall chariot came along, which was bamboo or some other light colored wood. on the very top back, rim of the chariot rode a beautiful blonde woman.

I took her to be, not the Queen, but one of her guards. The chariot was so tall, the blonde woman, who was standing up, had to duck her head to make it under the archways.

I woke up just as we were going to enter the archway.


12-6-92 - T.M.s dream - He saw a stained glass window in the sky with 4 columns under it and was granted 3 wishes each for 4 people.


12-6-92 - DREAM - I was sitting on my porch and across the street on 16h and Center 4 men sat on the porch of a house. whoever was with me, I told them to go over and say "Hi!" to Wesley B., a guy who was in kindergarten thru 8th grade with me. The person did and Wesley B. then came over to say Hi!" He said we had met once before and I think we did, but I couldn't remember the specific incident. He ended up staying the night and took right over very dominantly. I informed my daughter-in-law Becky that I had company while she told me her weekly itinerary.

Wesley and I wee going to take a shower together and at that point i saw myself in a mirror and I was thin, wearing a tight knitted red and blue dress, had dark hair and a beard. I told Wesley that I had to get something from my apartments and I had a gun and found a person trapped in my apartment and I threatened them with the gun and woke up.


12-6-92 - DREAM - Marilyn and Chuck left, and I took over as Manager of Jefferson Court apartments. I hadn't given notice at my other place yet and it was to late to give notice, so I was going to start the new job and full time on February 1st and i was going to write up a contract stating that they had to give me enough time the 1st two months so I could handle both places at the same time. I began to emet the elderly people at the new place and saw that I was going to have to re-wallpaper and that she left stuff behind like canning jars, an insurance policy from Blue Cross-Blue Shield. I heard some kid rollerskating on the 2nd floor and I sneaked upstairs and bawled them out, then went back to work moving.

Part of the dream I listened on the radio to a man talking about Ampco, saying that my husband was so busy at work, that they had to go to him for meetings, rather than him to to them.


12-7-92 - MEDITATION - I raised my vibrations and called Babaji and Mother Mary - Queen of heaven. I felt extreme pressure on my head in the temple area like my brain horns were extending for astral sight. I began to see movement as though I was being pulled out into space and rolling over. I was quite a thrilling feeling.


12-9-92 - DREAM - I went to a doctor and he diagnosed cancer of the uterus. He gave me 5 white pills to take, one a day, and I had to wear a special pad with something green on it. I asked the doctor what would happen after the 5 days and he said, "Let's wait and see what the pills do."  I took one of the pills right away, then went home and put the pills in the bathroom. Later on, I looked for the pills and found that my husband had taken them for himself. He took all four at once.

I went to a man who was selling material(fabric) He had a piece of soft orange and brown flowered material, but I saw that one edge had a hole, a stain, and a smudge on it. I told him I wouldn't buy it unless I could see the whole thing. He held it up and it was beautiful, but the whole thing was decorated with white lace panel that were loose on the edges. I told him there was the possibility I could overcast those panels myself. I asked him how much it would be for sale. He said, "Free!" I said, "Well, if I fix it, then how much will it be?" He said, Seven dollars." I said, "It will take me 160 hours to se up those panel edges and then you want me to pay you $7 on top of it? No deal.!" I began to walk away. His daughter was standing there, and I said to her, "No hard feelings."


12-9-92 - I was listening to a Zygon Tape Entrainment to Theta Level. I saw a man's hands holding  stalk of wheat and picking the kernels off. Then I saw my computer cabinet where I store my discs that I'm putting C.D. material on.


12-9-92 - ZYGON tape. I was in a store front with three other people. An older woman and a younger woman were in front of me and a chubby man was to my right. The two women opened the glass front panel and went out into the bright sunshine. The bright light lingered awhile.


12-11-92 -  ZYGON TAPE - A voice said, "You can go higher than that Dolores" and I was looking down at my legs. I was wearing a purple robe and I could see slippers on my feet. They were purple.

I then asked to go to the 12th level and saw two hands openings set of files that were sealed and never seen before. I couldn't read what was on the files because of the angle, so I asked to be shown what was in the files. They began showing me what was written on the files, and it was very clear, but it was some high math or exotic language, with a combination of english letters, numbers, and symbols. The one piece I remember very clearly was the capital letter S with a very small v beside it. at the top f the v right extension was the number v 22 very small. All this was sitting on top of a bracket which was at the top of a stem going up from another line of letters, numbers, and symbols. The outstanding symbols were like triangles facing left or right interspersed between the other letters and numbers.

I saw many of these files. It began to fade so I asked again to see the files and they showed me more files with all the same language or math.They then showed me a room with a bank of these files. At the left , on top of the files was a black mannequin head, no hair or face, just the shape. I asked to have it set aside, and a pair of hands moved the head to a table next to it, then I began to see the files again with the same language and symbols.


12-12-92 - DREAM - There was a huge valley ahead of me and I saw two big shadows in the middle of it. Then, out of the shadows, a great monastery arose out of the ground, and then a huge church. I went toward it and saw a tall, thin man. He was bruised and battered everywhere I could see.  There was something going on with this man then, but I don't remember what.


12-13-92 - ZYGON - I saw someone sitting at a little table with a small box, pencil and some coins on it.

I saw that I was on someone's porch looking off into the distance.  That scene continued with people, dogs, and cars going by.

I saw a teenage girl with dark black curly hair and white dress come in and go by. A voice asked, "Did Dan pick up the girl at the station."

I saw I was in a closet and from the shelf in front of me, was a large box and from it, I picked up a beautiful white pearlescent ceramic Indian peace pipe and held it in my hand.


12-21-92 - DREAM - I was invited to California to attend an award dinner. We arrived by car and a couple of white cars were moved to allow me to park near the entrance. I entered the building and there was a hallway on the 1t floor with a short stairway to the 2nd floor. It was about 12 steps. attached to the top step was a long-lined piece of paper we had t sign in on. the number 18 was in the upper left hand corner. There were other people there also. What I thought was strange was that there were 3 'Dolores' in a row, each with a different last name and we had to put all the Dolores' within one line's space. AFter I squeezed my name between the other two Dolores ; name, I turned around and there was  a black woman and a white woman standing right behind me. I was really hungry and I saw a teach come along a nd go into a lounge room to eat dinner by herself before the award dinner. I thought I would just grab a snack off the teacher's table to see me through the wait. She had a bowl with sliced boiled ham closest to me. I started to reach for a slice, then I thought better of it and decided to wait for the award dinner.


12-21-92 - MEDITATION  - ZYGON - I saw a boy crawl up from 3rd to the 4th level and sit down, so I asked to go to the causal level to ask my question.

There were several people seen. The 1st people were all in dark navy blue. One woman ran off to the left, leaving a man and another woman standing there. I felt that it was T.M. and me, but in younger bodies. The man said, "I'm waiting for someone," The other woman ran up to him, hit him on the sides of both arms at the same time and said, "Well, then, she'll have to wait, we have important things to do."

I got interrupted then went back to the causal level. This time the people involved were all in purple.

There was a woman in the chair to my right also laying back and meditating. A woman who looked like myself as I am now and came and stood in front of our chairs and said, "Okay Dolores! It's time to ask you some questions now."  I thought to myself, "No, it's time for me to ask my questions."  She had faded, but I went ahead and asked my question.

"Where are we going to go to start our farm and school"

Three people dressed in purple came in and faced me, the woman on the right had a sign on her chest, but I couldn't read it.

I asked the question again, because I could the sign. So the man int he middle pulled out a cardboard box with no top or bottom on it. The box read, "florida oranges" and had a bunch of oranges pictured. I thought he was going to open the box and reveal something written on the inside, but he didn'd and I asked the question again, hoping he would open the box so I could see something different than what he was showing me, but then my physical telephone rang and everything faded.


12-22-92 - MEDIATION - ZYGON - A woman who looked like T.H. came and stood in front of me and said, "Dolores, you're a good girl. Your're really a good girl.


12-23-92 - DREAM - I was in Milwaukee looking at houses for sale, I also went to the library and applied for a new job. I was headed home in my car to 16th St. I went west on Fondulac AVe. to 27th St. north on 27th St. to Center st, and east on Center towards 16th St. I realized that I had done all that stuff without taking a tranquilizer. I was proud of myself for not being nervous and knew that I'd never have to take another tranquilizer again.

I got up at 6 a.m. because today was the 1st day of my new job, but it was too early to go to work, so I lay down to think about the job. I had interviewed with a nun to see how she liked the work she did. She was a wonderful person and did a great job, but she said, "When I first became a nun, I thought I would be able to chose my own vocation, but I had to do what they told me to do. She wore a green fitted vest. I thought she was doing a wonderful job, but it wasn't what she herself had chosen to do and she wasn't exactly happy about it. I looked at the clock and it was 8:30 a.m. I was supposed to have been at work at 8 a.m. I went to the livingroom to tell my husband about the nun. He was shocked to see me because he thought I had left for work. He commented, "No wonder it's so cold in here, it's only 2 degrees above zero outside. I still had to drive to work in that bitter cold. I wanted to tell him about the nun so I asked him to come to the bathroom while I combed my hair. I knew I wouldn't get to work until 9:30 a.m. and wondered if I should have a written excuse like kids do in school.


12-23-92 - MEDITATION - ZYGON - I called my teacher. The voice said, "These are his responsibilities, "I saw a large brown suitcase. It was full of books with many varied titles. They looked like paperbacks. Then I saw a brown paper bag. It was full of books, tucked in amongst big red apples. (The symbol for the teacher?)


12-23-92 - DREAM - I was in the basement (lower level) of a large company. I had a huge office to myself. My job was to type procedures. Then they moved another girl into the room because they didn't want me to be alone. She had her own responsibilities, but she watched me anyway, because she didn't know how to do any of the things I did.

An older man came in, a German Engineer. I was tot type up his work, but when he explained something, he was speaking a foreign language. I just let him finish what he was saying because I knew what I was doing.

I opened a file cabinet and there was a stack of work order I had been looking for and a whole collection of magazines neatly filed. I took out plastic sheet covers. I was going to type the procedures over the plastic sheet cover so the type wouldn't print until it was perfect and then it would be printed on the paper.


12-24-92 - DREAM - I was in a department store. I had bought two gemstones yesterday, a blue one and an orange one. I asked the policeman who was accompanying me to stop at the gemstone counter. I told him I wanted to buy a sapphire. He told me it was too late to buy one. I guessed that he meant for Christmas delivery. I told him that it's never to late to buy a stone. The woman clerk came over with a wet cloth and pressed it against my lower right side where I was feeling a pain. I told her that it felt as though it was going to split open. (It was really aching terribly from eating cheese). I intended to use the sapphire to hold over the aching area. I was also wearing an indigo colored shirt.


12-24-92 - MEDITATION - ZYGON - I went to the Sugmad level. I said, "Mother Mary, Queen of Heave, I honor you on the Christmas Eve Day for the birth of your son, Jesus, the Christ."

I was repeating this, when I saw a series of mountains ahead of me. At the near top of the mountain, an arched doorway opened, and I saw a sleigh -like vehicle enter it.


12-25-92 - DREAM - I was using someone elses office and I found a map on the drawing board. I looked at it and it was of an area of country I wanted to study. I wanted to find one of closer detail so I could narrow down the area I wanted to look at. I flipped the map over and one th other side was a map of the United States. That was way too big an area, so I knew I needed to narrow it down, so I would have to find one.

I went to the kitchen area where a man was baking. Quite  crowd of people came in and were their own stuff and I got into it too and was using a mixer that quit working. I told the baker about it and he was going to replace it. I asked him how much it would cost . He said there would be not cost.

I asked him then how he could give up his space to so many people and not charge for the use. I was stuffing colored dough into spaces in the ceiling and said, "There are many ways of serving God."


12-25-92 - MEDITATION - ZYGON - I asked to go to Sugmad again. As soon as I raised my consciousness, awareness and sight to Sugmad, my vision became filled with purple lights flashing. Then I saw a large empty shiny reddish brown suitcase. In the far upper left corner was a complication chronological watch and accompanying it was a complicated schedule with a circular dial on it. It was shown to me and then returned to it's pocket.

Then, inside the suitcase, appeared a magnificent King, sitting on a throne. A girl, eager to be at the King's feet, tripped over the edge of the suitcase and fell inside. She got to her knees in front of the King. He said to her, "Laura, If I gave you something to do now, it would only make it more confusing."


12-28-92 - DREAM - I started my new job. I was working for  T.M. in a chemical manufacturing plant. I was asked by another female employee to become a member of a committee which met every Wednesday at 10 a.m. One person from each department would be there and was sanctioned by he company. My job would be to chart chemical usage and how it affected not only the air, but the ground environment too.


12-28-92 - MEDITATION - I asked T.M. to take me to Sugmad.   I saw two souls dressed in white, drifting slowly together towards the right.

I was then in a room and there was a stool over by the wall and hidden behind it was two little bags. The two bags were pulled out and smallest one was opened. Inside as the garbage from Christmas, colored wrapping paper, broken ornaments, cookies, chocolate, candy, etc.

In the biggest of the two bags was a children's book. It was opened up and on the page was a blue stick-man with a big round fat body and toothpick arms and legs.

I was contemplating the meaning of this when a page turned over and there were two robins in a nest together with a calendar beneath it. What came to me is that the teacher and I would be together in the month when the robin's nest.

I next saw a brown paper bag with an elephant and a donkey in it together. There wasn't room in the bag for them to be together and there was an uncomfortable pushing and shoving against each other, jockeying for position and space.

Then I saw a clock on the livingroom wall. The time was eight minutes past 3 and I took that to mean that was the time to come back and meditate again.

Sudden an open box appeared with a book inside. The title of it was National Wildfire.


12-29-92 - Experience: I was reading a book I received from my friend Alice, titled Revelations of Woman Mystics. I was on page 48 reading about Angela of Foligno. I came to step #22 - She says, "In the 19th place, I was skim reading the page, not really taking in carefully what I was reading when the TV cracked really loud. (It was not turned on)

I put a place marker in the book and set it aside, closed my eyes to meditate and ask spirit what the message was that I was supposed to know at that moment. 1st. I clarified that it was not an alien message.


12-29-92 - DREAM - I was in an office working. I found a contract for an award dinner that was supposed to have been held in 1989, but had been delayed and was only going ahead now. I felt a twinge of guilt for not completing the work in 1989, but it would have been wasted anyhow, because the whole thing had been delayed. I looked over the contract to see what enclosures I needed, one was a check and the other was the name of the person it was to be sent to.

My friend Alice in and brought me a green placemat and on the edge she wrote a date that concerned T.M. But, after she left, I looked for the date and couldn't find it. The date was hidden in amongst all the intricate flowers and leaves on the placemat, which I could either embroider or use as is, because Alice had painted all the ribbons gold.

I was studying the placemat, looking for the date when the telephone rang. Alice said the T.M. had gone into a private room to say some special prayers ahead of time instead of waiting for the group to come together. That didn't bother me, but it bothered one of the other girls so much that he hand't waited for the group to come together, that she quit altogether.

When she left, she turned in a green index box which contained the names, addresses, and phone numbers of all of our members.

I then studied the intricate placemat again, looking for the date, but could find nothing but the letter 'M'.

I planned to embroider it and I knew it would take a long time to complete because it was so intricate, but I would do it, because it would be so beautiful and by doing so, I would find out what the important date was.


12-30-92 - ZYGON MEDITATION - As soon as I closed my eyes, I was with some really tall thin men, I would say about 8 feet tall. They wanted to know if I knew who they were.  I said, "Yes!" because they did look very familiar.

They were extremely thin, but I had bigger than normal heads and blonde hair. A little girl was with them and she handed me a balloon to take with me. As she said, "With a balloon in your hand, " she was so close to my face, I could feel her breath in my face.

I then raised my vibrations and asked to go to the Sugmad level. A man in a shiny black robe with a shiny black shield completely over his face was standing there. He was blocked from getting in by a stand in the doorway and he couldn't get past it.

I immediately thought of Darth Vader but his shield on his face had a sharp triangle over his nose.

Vader, Darth


Darth Vader, Dark Lord of the Sith, was the scourge of the Jedi, a master of the dark side of the Force, and one of the Emperor's most trusted servants. He wasn't always a fearsome enforcer, however.

He began life as Anakin Skywalker, a young slave from Tatooine skilled in piloting and strong in the Force. Once discovered by maverick Jedi Master Qui-Gon Jinn, Anakin was taken before the Jedi Council to be trained. There was some controversy on the subject -- despite Jinn's adamant assurances that Skywalker was the chosen one spoken of in an ancient Jedi prophecy, the council was hesitant to allow his training at the age of nine.

Finally, the council agreed that Anakin should be trained, and he was assigned to Jedi Knight Obi-Wan Kenobi. Kenobi recklessly thought that he could be as skillful a master as Yoda. His mistakes had dire consequences for the galaxy.

Skywalker was seduced by the dark side of the Force. Fueled by rage and discontent with the pace of Obi-Wan's training, Anakin challenged his master to a duel. Despite newfound power bestowed by the dark side of the Force, which added to his already formidable abilities, Anakin was grievously wounded in the fight. His burning anger kept him alive, and he was forever scarred not only by his wounds but also by betrayal. He abandoned his former identity. When metal coupled with flesh in the form of cyborg implants and enhancements required to sustain him, Skywalker's transformation was complete. He was no longer Anakin. He was Darth Vader.

At the time of his transformation, Vader never knew he was due to be the father of twins. Obi-Wan Kenobi hid the children from the Dark Lord and Vader's master, Emperor Palpatine. Vader somehow discovered that he had a son, Luke Skywalker, but never suspected he had a daughter, Leia, who was secretly taken to be raised by Bail Organa, Viceroy and First Chairman of Alderaan.


12-31-92 - DREAM - I was at a house somewhere in the country. There was a heavy rainstorm and the water created a heavy stream which came down a big hill bringing a great deal of borken tree branches with it. (The water then ran over the edge of a bank and down into the river below). I and some other people gathered the dead broken branches into a pile and then I set the pile on fire.

I then took my pale beige horse which I kept on  100 foot leash like a dog and together we forged a new path down the hill to the river for the water to flow so it would never create a flood again

After that was done, I took the horse back to the garage at my New Berlin house , keeping the horse on the long leash.

The horse reached up with it's front feet and took the leash off of it's neck when we reached the driveway of the house, but I rode it, put the leash back on again and then took it up hill to the garage.