DREAM OF HITLER
1984
by Joe Mason
Hitler and Evan von Braun were taken prisoners after the war. While being taken across a big parking lot, they saw each other, broke away from guards, and ran to each other. They had planned to get free and be back together in 1981. They hugged and kissed frantically, saying quickly how much they loved each other. The guards were running to get them.
Suddenly, Hitler looked across the parking lot and saw a lady walking off alone, slowly. He told Eva, "Look! Look!" He grabbed her by the head and made her turn and face the lonely woman. "We killed her husband." he screamed, and his eyes grew wide. He was starting to realize the full impact of the responsibility for the first time. Overwhelming emotions were flooding into his mind so fast and so voluminous, he knew he couldn't handle it. His eyes grew wider and his face contorted to agony personified.
He screamed again, "WE KILLED HER HUSBAND! WE KILLED HER HUSBAND", and tears filled his eyes. "AND WE KILLED SIX MILLION PEOPLLLLLLLLLAAGHHHHHH!"
The emotions and realizations kept coming and his face kept contorting and his hair stood on end.
In the dream, I started out observing the characters. But when Hitler started to feel the heavy emotions, somehow, I was him or part of him too, for I was feeling what he felt.
I, as Hitler, was so overwhelmed by the immensity of taking that one human life and then multiplying by six million. I couldn't handle it. I closed by eyes feeling the tears pushes out and looked straight up.
I was losing consciousness as marble patterns were moving in my mind's eye.
I found myself in that half-sleep state where I know where I am (in bed) but I am still in the dream-state and can't wakeup. I started to call, "Honey! Wake me up!" and she did.
End of Dream
Later, I lay there thinking about the dream. I had always hated Hitler and thought he was the most evil man who ever lived. But in that moment of thinking about the dream, I felt more compassion for him than anyone.
I felt sorry of him. His love for Eva and seeing the lonely woman made him start to drop arrogance and start to realize what he was responsible for. It all started to accelerate and all the sins cascaded into a waterfall of emotions and responsibilities the size of Niagara Falls trying to fit into a tea cup, his mind.
What kind of karmic debt would it take to repay that awesome amount of transgressions, if karma is true?
I, as Hitler, knew the only way out was death for me and Eva. There was no way of removing the torment from my mind except oblivion.
But, as my waking-self, I knew there was no oblivion. I wondered how Hitler handled it when, after committing suicide, he found his consciousness still awake; found the overwhelming emotions still there, and then to realize you can't die. The last sanctuary from responsibility, that tranquil oblivion, did not exist.
In contemplating that moment, I felt so sorry for Hitler, I sent some thought waves to him, "I forgive you Hitler! I forgive you! This little part of all-that is forgives you!" (Tears were forming in my eyes) As far as I'm concerned, you don't have to pay any karmic debits. That moment you realized love and compassion was all that was necessary. Punishing you in hell for each transgression seems unneccessary to me after the emotions you felt. I know, I felt them with you tonight. They were so horrible, so overwhelming, Jesus! God! Adolph Hitler!, Jesus Christ! God!"