JULY, 1998

7-1-98 - DREAM - I got lost walking around the block. Nobody can get lost walking around the block. No wonder I get panic stricken when I go out alone. :-)   To top it off, I don't know where I lived to start with. Here's the story.

I was inside my house. The kids were outside playing. They were quite small. My youngest was under a year old.  I looked out the window and saw that a workman had cut down a tree between the sidewalk and the road. I decided to go out and ask him if we could have the logs for our fireplace to save him the trouble of having to haul it and dump it.

There was no door on that side of the house so I went to the other side of the house and went outside. In the front yard, I met my daughter who was about 4 years old. I asked her if she had seen Bill - the youngest (was would be under a year old) She said, "Yes!". I asked her if she would watch him for me as I was going to walk around to the other side of the house to talk to the workman about the tree he cut down.

It shouldn't have been a big deal to walk around the house, but somehow when I got to the second side of the house, it was connected to a string of stores I'm familiar with on Center St. in Milwaukee, so I must have lived on 16th St. in Milwaukee. I thought it was strange, but no big deal to walk around the block and come to my house on the other side. The block seemed rather long and the walking was really slow and laborious, but I finally got to the corner of 17th and Center and made a left turn.  (To go all around the block, you either make 4 right turns or 4 left turns)  I would have to make 4 left turns.

At the store on the corner, I saw that my friend and former co-worker Jim (James) had just gotten a job as a checkout clerk, so I went inside the store to say "Hi!" and congratulate him. I saw several of his other friends doing the same thing.

I figured when I came out, I'd go through the alley, cut down through the back alley back to my house.

When I got done talking with Jim, which was more or less just "Hi! Nice to see you. congratulations on the new job."  Big smile, and "See you around - bye!" conversation.  I followed his friends through the store to the other end which I figured should bring me out at the alley.

When I got to the other end of the store and went to where I thought the door was, it turned out to be a window and had a screen on it. I looked outside, surprised both at seeing that it was getting dark outside and that there was a big street there. I went over towards where the door was and discovered a steep stairway with metal flat rungs and a metal hand railing. It was almost more like a ladder but not straight up and down.  I carefully went down the steps noticing how loose the railing. was. The two guys I had followed didn't have any problem going down the steps, so I figured my ineptness with negotiating the stairway was due to my unfamiliarity and they having been there before.

When I reached the bottom of those stairs, there was another staircase going down. Same deal - Real rickety metal steps, even steeper than the one before, but the guys had no problem going down.

In my mind, I'm thinking, "I shouldn't have to be going "down", just to go around the block. My block didn't have any hills up OR down, but I kept going because it was the only way out now. This staircase was so steep, I actually turned around, and climbed down it like it was a ladder towards the bottom.

At the bottom was another staircase going down, but I could see the door at the bottom so I kept going. This time, there were 3 staircases side by side. There were two rickety ladder ones, but the one on the far left was concrete with metal strips on the edge so old people don't slip and fall. I thought I was really being smart and took the concrete steps down with confidence like a person normally goes down a stairway.

I came out the doorway into the street. It was now dark outside. Completely dark and the street lights were on. When I left home, the sun was shining and the kids were playing outside and all I had to do was walk around the house. Now it was pitch dark outside and I was only half way around the block.

As I came out of the building, the two guys were still ahead of me. I knew they lived in my neighborhood. I didn't cross any street, just made the left turn which should have been Clark St. but it wasn't. The houses were larger than the ones on Clark St. and there was more traffic going by. Now that I was on the street, walking was again slow and laborious. It wasn't uphill so it shouldn't have been.

I was picking up trash pieces of paper as I went along and so were the other guys. Seemed like nice guys. We were doing civic duty...picking up trash. When I got to the corner, I looked across the street and saw a U.S. mailbox side by side with a trash box you normally see on busy corners. I decided to pitch the trash and not carry it home. So I wadded the paper tighter in my hands so I wouldn't make a mistake and put the trash in the mailbox.

I expected this to be Wells St. (This makes no sense because Wells St. was about 14 blocks south of my house. I probably walked that far inside the store. I should never have gone inside the store, I figured.) But I couldn't read the street signs because of the darkness and it was a wide boulevard with a grassy strip down the middle which Wells St. isn't either at 17th St.

So, I crossed the street to throw the trash in the box. On that side of the street I could se the street sign and it said 54th St.

That would make sense with the boulevard, but it should have been Wells. St. and wasn't.

I couldn't figure out how to find Wells St., nor how I got so far from home by walking around the block. I was starting to worry that I was lost and woke up. I was really happy to see where I really was and it was familiar.

7-2-98 - I spent a long time on the computer trying to get animated graphics OR real people who were in couples on ice skates to spin around each other on the page. I would see them all spinning around each other but when the page was uploaded to the server, just the names of the people appeared and there was no spinning. They could only spin in the physical.

I spent a long time working on a different page to get people's names linked, but it only showed their names underlined and the links did not go to another page. I spent a long time trying to delete non-working lines of text. There was so much, I couldn't accomplish it. I mostly just observed the page. There were many of them.

7-3-98 - DREAM - I had several dreams about creating complicated business pages One was with circles and one with rectangles.

7-3-98 - DREAM - Joe and I were living in an apartment building. I was the manager of the building. There were many people in our apartment as well as our several sons who were in the age range of about 4 to 7. (Joe and I have only known each other 1 year) I can't remember how the dream started but I determined that I was pregnant and had been in labor for 12 hours and was feeling strong labor pains. The door was open to the hallway and I saw two people go by...a tall man about 7 feet tall and a tall blonde woman who appeared to be about 6 feet tall. I heard someone say that she was going to move into apartment #106 across the hall. I got all upset because the apartment had only been vacated two days earlier and I hadn't yet inspected it. To top that off, our sons were playing with the tools. One had a bow handled saw and the younger one was spinning a red handled open handled pliers around his neck like a toy.

I tried to get past all the people to see who the people were, but they had already gone past. I determined that I had better get over to apartment 106 and see what it looked like.

I went out into the hall and directly across from our door was a large-wide blue door. It was between apartments 106 and 107. I didn't know what this door was for and I looked for a handle and there was none. The door needed a fresh coat of paint too. I was able to pry the door open on the edge using my fingernails. As I opened the door, I could see a steep, dimly lit concrete stairway to the next floor up and it wasn't until then, I noticed there was a dark concrete steps with no door on it going down right next to it.

I realized that Joe was not the maintenance man of the building, but I was going to ask him to please put a gold doorknob on the stairway going upward.

7-3-98 - MEDITATION - (About the dream of the child being born) A female voice said, "I can't tell you that Honey! I love you!"

I saw a web page (green) with my picture on it. A voice said, "We can't tell you that Honey! You have to figure it out yourself, Honey!"

NOTE: I started a web page on Comparative Religions the same day.

7-4-98 - NOTE: While I was listening to the radio, when Joe was on the computer and I was on the computer, information was given about Prison Ministries. when I closed my eyes to go to sleep that night, I was told that a prison ministry is what I should do. I did some research and found a man who publishes the writing of prisoners. I wrote to him and volunteered to do a prison ministry of dreams, publishing and feedback.

A month later, after not getting any answer from the man, I discovered that my mail program had never sent out the letter to the man at all.

7-4-98 - DREAM - There was a very important job to be done in an office across the street from where I lived.  I convinced the bosses  I could do it, and the boss said he would give me a chance at it.

So, I was all excited to go to work and prove that I could do a good job. The work day started at 8a.m. The next day, I had to get all the kids ready for school first and then myself. There were 6 kids. The 3 oldest ones managed to get themselves ready and left for school. I still had the 3 youngest to dress and then myself to get ready.

My husband wasn't home and I wanted to get the kids and myself ready and out the door because he didn't approve of my working outside the home. It took quite a bit of doing but I managed to find appropriate clothing for the kids to wear. There were so many different types, color, and size of clothes in the house, this was a difficult task. Nothing was hung up, but lay in piles all over the house.

For myself, all my clothes were in an upper room and I wanted to wear appropriate clothing for the occasion. I decided to wear all black.  I put on black slacks, a black and white flowered with roses, cotton shirt and a black sweater that had a white stripe around the shoulders. It wasn't exactly a matching outfit, but it was all black.

I went downstairs to finish getting the kids ready. The boys managed to get the clothes on by themselves, but my daughter was wearing a pink and white rose flowered two piece outfit that was about two sizes too big for her. (She was only 4 years old) It looked really cute on her but the problem for her was that there were about 100 or so tiny buttons down the front that had to be lined up (button holes were square and the buttons were round) She obviously needed help. I managed to line up 5 of them and decided that was good enough. It held it closed and was secure enough so the wind wouldn't blow it open outside.

At that point, my husband came home. I was panic-stricken that he would prevent me from going to work. He saw we were getting ready to go somewhere and that he would sabotage my efforts to go out and do this special job so that I could gain my self-esteem.

He didn't say anything but went into the diningroom and I breathed a sigh of relief and continued to look for shoes for the children and myself.

Here too, there was a multitude of choices of colors, sizes, styles, etc. and they were not all in one place, so we had to hunt for their proper size, color and style to go with what they were wearing, and of course they couldn't wear shoes that were too big either.

I set the kids to looking for their shoes while I went looking for shoes and socks of my own. Because I was wearing slacks, I didn't need panty hose, so I found the sock pile and saw that there were plenty of socks, but the trick was to find a matching pair. I chose a black sock to wear and then couldn't find one to match it. There were dozens of light blue socks, but no other black sock.

The matter of the shoes was the same. There were dozens of different styles of shoes to wear, most of them were sandal-like with straps and heels of various heights.All of those were inappropriate to wear with socks. I was looking for my pair of walking shoes, solid black, with good sturdy soles and tied to hold them on. The were professional shoes for people like nurses and waitresses who were on their feet a lot. I managed to find one, but couldn't find the mate to it.

At this point, I wondered if my husband had sabotaged the entire thing by taking one of each kind of shoe to the livingroom so that I couldn't finish dressing and leave the house.

I looked at the clock and it was quarter past 8 and I was already late. I hoped I could make a good excuse when I got to the office.

The children had finally found some shoes to wear and I helped them get their proper shoes on, but we still couldn't leave until I had my own shoes on because I had to take the younger kids to school myself.

My daughter (age 4) found a lipstick and decided to wear it. She put it on herself and it was totally inappropriate for her age. But, instead of taking it away from her, I asked her if I could put some on too and spent a moment putting it on quickly. I didn't get it on my lips very straight according to how I liked it, but it was on and I could get on with finding my other black shoe.

I sent the oldest of the boys who was 5 years old to the livingroom to surreptitiously look there for the shoe in case his father had taken it there to foil my attempts to go to work. Meanwhile I looked among the other shoes and thought I found the other black shoe, about size 16 and I wore a 10 and it didn't have a mate either, so there was no point in even attempting to wear such an inappropriate shoe.

I was barefoot because I had never found a 2nd black sock to match the one I found, so I was not looking at the sandal-type shoes. There were inappropriate to wear with bare feet and I realized that I would probably get blisters by wearing these.

I didn't want to wear any with higher heels either because then I would tower over my husband in height and he would be VERY upset and they were so inappropriate with bare feet.

I finally found a pair of maroon sandals with low heels. They were dusty and I saw a couple raisins in an upper fold of the shoe and began to remove the raisins and clean the shoes to wear when my youngest son who was about age 3 began to jerk on my arm. I looked at him and he was chewing on something and I saw a raisin stuck on his lip. He was at the point of choking because his mouth was stuffed so full of food. I pried his mouth open. His mouth was stuffed completely full of a mixture of raisins and sesame seeds.

I began to pull all these seeds out of his mouth so he wouldn't choke to death and as I was doing this I woke up.

While I was thinking about the dream, I remembered what the job was that I had to do. It was called "The Sisterhood of Southeast Asia".

7-5-98 - DREAM - Twice during the night I attempted to transfer a web page picture which was in green from the picture in my mind to my real computer. Both times it came out black and white. (The miracle is it got there at all.)

7-5-98 - DREAM - I was at my 16th St. house, but I wasn't living there, I was working there. The woman who supervised me let it slip that they were going to hire an alternate person for me. (She was older than me, blonde/grey hair. She looked a combination of my mother and a woman who used to supervise me at some apartments who used to holler at me for not dusting the bottoms of the chairs in the office) They were going to use her on the night shift. However, she didn't really tell me and the other woman I was with. We ran 3 shifts and I worked the night shift alone. We didn't see any reason for an alternate. The two of us confronted the supervisor about what was going on and she finally admitted they were thinking of hiring an alternate.

She brought out a huge piece of paper, larger than newspaper size on which they had tested me. This test was divided into 3 parts. I scored 95% on each of the 1st two problems. The 3rd problem which was even more complicated and long, I had scored 60% on. That section was labeled 'quality control'.

In the very first line of that problem was a short series of marks of up and down marks like ll //ll . The one she showed me were fat, multicolored rainbow-like marks. She said I had gotten the colors wrong.

Note: I recall a dream in which I was shown these marks and I saw them only in black and white.

7-5-98 - DREAM - I was an apartment manager and was renting an apartment to a pair of younger women who each had a young daughter. We went into an apartment which was rather on the dark side and two young men were sleeping on cot-like beds in the livingroom which freed up their bedroom to do other things.

The girls/women liked that idea so when we went to pick out an apartment for them, they wanted to do the same thing as the boys had and put their cot-like beds in the livingroom so their daughters could use the bedroom to play in.

They seemed hesitant to rent the apartment I was showing them. I suggested that perhaps they'd like to see an apartment that was larger and more brightly lit where the sun shone in from the northwest.

They didn't like that idea at all. The one girl said that was way too much light for them.

I felt rather dismayed about the idea that they wanted a dark apartment because I didn't have any dark apartments available and would lose them as customers.

7-5-98 - JOES DREAM: Joe and some other young men had the opportunity to get a lot of money, but in order to get it, they had to set up a gadget which contained cyanide gas.

Joe was the one elected to set off and detonate the cyanide gas on a time-delay charge. He was putting it on a special door on the building. The door was edged with metal and the cyanide gas containers were cylindrical.

There was a flexible, tubular rope which was soaked with chemicals. It had to be wrapped around the cylinders in a certain way. After a period of time, the chemical in the rope would match up with the gas in the cylinder and detonate it.

He was having trouble putting it together and was frustrated because he knew it was supposed to be real simple. He couldn't get the rope on right and felt so frustrated he finally yanked on the rope and stretched it and twisted it around and made a half-hitch. All of a sudden the gas started going off. He started running and saw a white cloud of gas coming out of the cylinder. There was a lot of people around and they all started running.

Later on, he went home, realizing that too many people had seen him put this cylinder on the door. He stayed at his home and waited for the cops to come and get him. A whole bunch of cops in plain clothes came to the house and stood around talking and discussing it.

During the drive home, which was very long and he was alone and it was nighttime. He was trying to catch up to his family, but would go his own way, then find them again, only to go his own way again. He could hear his son Michael calling him. D.P was working at a family restaurant and told Joe that he knew where Joe's family was. Joe had to trust D.P. to go find them for him.

He started getting off track, but was headed home. He knew that his home was in San Jose, CA. (He lived on Goddess St.)  He passed a sign that he pointed the right way, but he thought he knew a better shortcut, but after going a way he thought better of the original road as the shortcut was too risky. He was feeling a little lost but still felt he was on the right track. He got really tired and stopped at a hotel and was so surprised to see his mother there. He couldn't figure out how his mother had found him in a strange town and a strange hotel and wasn't even in the straight tract he should have taken. His mother said, "I knew how to find you. It wasn't that hard."

7-5-98 - 12:10 a.m. DREAM - I was visiting someone. There was a piano there with a thick beige book on the music rack. The music was in the last 1/4 of the book an was written in all whole notes, played very slowly, with long sounding notes. The piano reverberated the notes and it sounded like an organ.

When I had finished played, I closed the book. Some girls came in then and wanted to know if I knew how to play. I said, "Yes!" and they said they wanted to hear me play something.

At first I hit a very discordant chord, but then I found the music in the book and I again was able to play the piano like an organ again.

I then went out in the lobby and sat on the couch waiting for Joe to come back from somewhere. While I was sitting there, I had a long tube which was see-thru but hollow. I was pushing this long, long tube farther and farther down my throat which made the tube go down the circuit to the other end of my computer circuit where the sound and information came from. In the office where the computer was, 3 women were working there. They saw the tube come out at the other end of the computer. One woman said to the tube,"Hello Dolores!" The sound echoed in my head really loud. Then the other two women saw the tube and they all three started saying, "Hello Dolores! Hello Dolores!" and their voices echoed in my head. It was so loud, I couldn't stand having all three women talking at the same time, so I started pulling the tube back out of my mouth and it was coiling up on the floor in front of me It was just too much sound for me to handle.

There was a young man, dressed in a light brown suit sitting on the couch next to me. He struck up a conversation. I told him the story of the tube going to the computer and the too loud sounds like it belonged to someone else. I was too embarrassed to tell him it was me.

It was time to leave there and it seemed this was a place where you had to be over 55 to live there. There were a lot of people sitting around, including the manager who said she had just come back from vacation. She said she didn't want to work anymore and wanted to be on permanent vacation. In my mind I was thinking that I hoped she would quit because then I could apply for her job.

The people were talking about their rent was going to go up when their leases ran out. One man had his wife sitting with him and she had a job at which she had gotten a 10 cent an hour wage increase. He wanted to know if he rent would go up. I told him that their total financial picture would be re-evaluated when their Lease was up and their rent might indeed go up.

Another woman who was a nurse said that her wage-increase had been 10 cents an hour and wanted to know if her rent would go up. I gae her the same advice, that her financial situation would be evaluated when her Lease was up and her rent might indeed go up.

When we were leaving and going down the stairs to the door, I could hear an old woman bitching how she never gets to go anywhere. She was bellyaching and bellyaching that she never go to go anywhere and this was while she was going down the stairs going somewhere with the rest of her family.

We were standing at the bottom of the stairs laughing at her, because she kept complaining that she never got to go anywhere while she was actually going somewhere.

I went to visit my mother and father. My father had had two heart attacks in recent days, but he had forgotten what the pain had felt like and was doing okay and walking around like normal.

My mother said that the day before, my Father had not come downstairs at all, and she hadn't gone upstairs to feed him either. She had just let hi lay there because he was supposed to come down every day.

I was with my family then. We were visiting a house and it was time for the children to go to bed. Before they could go to bed they had to go to the bathroom. I seemed to be temporarily in charge of this little boy and I could feel that his pants were wet. I took him to the bathroom and opened the door and discovered an older woman was sitting on the toilet going #2. I kind of said, "Oops! Sorry!" but she was done and left the room. I pulled down the pants of this little boy who morphed into a little girl. I held her on the toilet and she did #2. I then took some wipette type things to clean her butt. I got her ready for bed. While I was doing this another woman came into the room and saw me cleaning the little girl's butt. I was hoping that the woman didn't think I had done something naughty with the little girl just because I had wiped her butt in getting her cleaned up for bed.

We went to the opposite side of the same house where I and my children were climbing this huge ornate and plush carpeted stairway. It was a stairway that curved up to the right. The carpet on the stairs was royal blue. The steps were not even, some treads were narrower than others. It was difficult climbing the stairs. We were more or less crawling up the stairs using our hands as well as our feet like climbing a mountain. Someone made the comment that only my children had the right to go up that stairway because they were of the right bloodline. Their cousins wouldn't be allowed to go up there because they didn't have the right mother.

When we got to the top of the stairs, it was very plush and ornate, persian tye carpeting, very thick and rich, and the rooms were huge. Someone commented that there were 60 rooms up there and I was hoping we'd get to see them all.

I came to a young girl about age 2 who seemed to be my daughter. She was sitting there spitting out a piece of candy. She had wanted to eat one that was shaped like a peanut and actually had peanut butter inside of it; and the one she had put in her mouth was just solid candy with NO peanut butter in it.

Later, I was with this same girl. She was driving a car and I was the passenger. (She was a young adult now) We were driving north on Teutonia Ave. She wanted to know how to spell the word 'peanut'. We were driving past a string of restaurants with other words like PIZZA, PITA BREAD, but I knew there was one with the word 'peanut' but we had driven past too fast. I told her to go around the block and I'd show her the sign that said the word "peanut." T

This neighborhood was very dark and I was afraid that something might happen, but she drove with confidence. We made a left turn onto Center St. We couldn't go around the block because 14th St. was a one way street going north. So we proceeded to 15th St. and made a left turn. I told the girl who was driving that my Father lived on 16th St.which was just one block over.

I then noticed that it was no longer dark but bright and sunny. The street was newly paved and there was a bridge ahead we had to cross.

We had to stop dead in our tracks though because in the center of the bridge were two young men, beating each other over the head with hockey sticks. They must have been from opposite teams because one was dressed in red and one dressed in blue.

We were too scare to go past them, so we turned around to go back. Our car had morphed into two secretarial chairs with wheels on the 4 legs. Behind us though, was a trio of hockey players with sticks, all dressed alike, but there were two boys and a girl between them.

We were scared because we didn't have any sticks to defend ourselves with.

I turned and looked back at the first two hockey players who were not standing arm in arm in the middle of the bridge.

I turned the other way and saw the trio of hockey players advance towards us in perfect unison, they skated in a line with their bodies moving in a curving S shape as their feet rolled across the pavement towards us.

I thought our best defense was to just stare at them in the eyes and as I did, I saw a reflection of myself but it was like it was a face from a different lifetime because the shape of the nose was different, straight and not sloped like mine is now and the hair was darker. The trio of hockey players and we two, my daughter and I, kind of slid past each other until they were on the bridge and we were back on Center St.

I wondered if these young hockey players had come across the river from the East side, and what their purpose was for coming across the river.

7-6-98 - DREAM - I was with my son Tom and got into a long narrow boat with him. The inside of the boat had a  diamond shape.  We were on an enclosed waterway which just barely enclosed the boat and there was a concrete wall both in front and behind the boat. making the boat go forward very fast, he expected a slingshot effect backwards off the concrete wall. The concrete wall began to give way at first for the force of the impact but then the force itself slingshotted us back and I landed in the center of the boat going the opposite of the 7 seat arrangement of seats held together in a row, but had no outside connections and they weren't inside anything but suspended in the air.

From there, I was taken inside a special mall which was entered through a secret door inside another store. Inside this mall...everything had to do with the number 7 and multiples thereof. Following this, I was presented with math programs al relating to the number 7 and these I transferred from my brain to my computer and at which point they were lined up 7 across and 5 down in rows.

This was all so clear, I was certain during the night I would remember the significance of these programs and when I woke up it and opened my eyes it was totally gone.

7-6-98 - DREAM - I went to visit my friend Alice who had moved into a retirement type rooming house with two other women. Her room was on the 4th floor so I climbed the stairs to her room. She didn't go with me. She told me her room was the 1st one on the right at the top of the stairs.

When I got up there, the 1st room on the left was the bathroom and someone was in it using it. Directly across from the stairs was a small room, which seemed to be decorated all in gary. That's the way I more or less expected a retirement room to look.

To the right, there were two humungous rooms that were barn-like and not very enclosed from the weather it seemed, more like porches.

The 1st room seemed to have kitchen-like appliances in it and narrow table covered with a white cloth. I was curious to see what the view was from the porch. I worried that in winter it would be very cold and in summer, very hot.

When I reached the railing and looked over, I saw that it didn't overlook an outside scene, but an inside game preserve type place which was 4 stories down. It was all enclosed and provided more or less natural habitat for exotic birds and fish.

There may have been small animals also, but when I saw the exotic birds and tropical fish which were multitudes of other-worldly-type colored feathers and scales. I was enthralled. The vastness of the animal preserve to be indoors was thrilling to see.

At that point I was thinking that people on the first level could see this exotic place and how fortunate they were.

But, my reverie of thought was broken by some men who pushed their way in behind me and next to me.  They had long guns like rifles and took extreme pleasure in using these exotic animals and birds and fish which were one of a kind, for target practice.

These were not the type of birds or fish one would raise for food, but just to enjoy their exotic beauty.

I was appalled to see this happening and that it was allowed to happen. As I was thinking this, some birds with long yellow beaks like ducks came up from below and started attacking us in the only way they knew how...with their beaks.

I got bit on the butt by one and the only way I could prevent another bit was to hold the bird's beak shut with my hand as I ran to get away from the place.

7-7-98 - DREAM - I was on the computer all night. I have now gotten very good at mentally sending files from one computer to another during the night. I sent one to Joe's computer. I realized that if he ever get's up in the morning and finds a file on his physical computer, that I sent from my head/brain during the night, I'll probably fall over and pass out from shock. I really work hard during the night to accomplish that feat.

7-7-98 - DREAM - I just moved into anew apartment and this was the first night sleeping there. I woke up in the morning to find a man sitting on my couch reading a newspaper and people of various sizes walking through the hallway like it was a shortcut from one place to another.

Seemingly normal people ranged in height from about 1 1/2 feet to 6 ft. I didn't seem to think that was unusual. I went to the front door to see if I had locked it and I HAD locked it, but there was no door frame and the door just just swung through back and forth and was totally useless.

I was in the process of getting dressed for the day and I heard a buzz in my left ear like a psychic message was coming in. I paused to listen but instead it was a smiling, enthusiastic woman whose job it was to give out exercises and tests for the day to everyone and take their picture and check their progress.

My girlfriend Donna from my childhood also lived in this building and she quickly ran to change clothes and to have her picture taken. Her dress was almost totally see-thru and fitted and shaped in the bodice. However, Donna wore no bra and her boobs sagged way below where the dress was fitted for them to be and she had also decorated her nipples with sparkling fake diamonds and flashing lights to make them show more.

She went out then to have her picture taken with 5 or 6 other people. I saw the finished photograph a moment or so later and she had been placed in the back row because when was tall like me at 5' 10" tall and all the shorter people were placed in front of her, so only her head showed in the photo.  It was laughable, at all the creative ways she went through to get noticed and then to be hidden behind everyone else.

I then left my apartment and went down to the basement where all the work was done, but my memory lapses as to what we did.  I just remember planning to ask to move to a different with doors on it.

7-8-98 - DREAM - I was in my 16th St. house. We needed some food so I made a short list and give it and my credit card to my daughter so she could go over to the corner store on 15th St. She came back moments later saying that they wouldn't allow her to use my credit card. I was upset and went to my purse and pulled out a piece of paper that had the names of people who had been allowed to use my credit card before. It said $1,000 on it. I gave her the card and both pieces of paper and sent her back to the store, saying, "Anyone can use this card if they have it in their possession."

7-9-98 - DREAM - I was in a place that seemed like where I worked, but I was in the bathroom getting ready for work. I had to hurry because people were waiting for me so I took my makeup case into the office and began brushing my hair. My hair felt longish and fluffy like I had a lot of it. I picked out two small red pins with which I was going to use to pin it back from my ears a little. I headed back to the bathroom and one of the men went with me. He put his hands on my shoulders which felt like he wanted to steady me for a shock.

Two other people were in the bathroom looking in the mirror. The man behind me and the other man exchanged glances and the other couple left to make room for us. Gradually, my male friend led me in front of the mirror. I looked at myself and began screaming, "That's not me, that's not me."

The woman looking back at me in the mirror had really short dark hair, was about 6" shorter and had a long prominent nose.  I woke up feeling really shocked.  Who was I?

7-9-98 - VISION - I saw a blonde woman sitting at a long table covered with a white cloth. There were other people on both sides of her.  

I heard these words:  The Lord is the Cause of Versatile Purposes.

Then:  Speaking of Versatile Purposes, Ghana is being used by T. Bonn, Germany.

Then:  The Amazing Thomas Wolfe.

Then I heard a telephone ring in my left ear.  The foreign sounding female voice said, (like Arabic or Turkish accent) "Tell Arthur I'll be at 3553 West Ring in 15 minutes.

VOICE: "Join the Forbes Ring. There is no accounting for people who hang out on 30th and Ring. There's no accounting for people who hang out at Thomas Forbes Ring.

7-9-98 - DREAM - I was at a gas station repair place to buy a small part for my car. The gas station owner who was dressed in dark blue jump suit said that since I did a favor for him, he would do one for me and fix my car for nothing. He told me to be sure to pick up everything from the driveway before I moved my car. I found a toy with a stick pin on it.

The best friend of the owner was going to pull his car into an inner courtyard and the owner told him, "No! She's going to park her car here."  The other guy looked shocked because he thought HE was the special one.

So, I pulled my car into the inner courtyard to be worked on. I then had to walk to school. Someone was walking down the sidewalk behind me. I looked way up in the sky, it looked like several helicopters flying near a big round object. They were coming downward as we watched.

I could then see that the helicopters were actually clowns in full costume. There were several sizes. They were making wild antics in the air like running and swimming and making me laugh. I told the guy with me, "Remember they are falling at the rate of hundreds of feet a second." I was assuming they had jumped out of an airplane and were skydiving, but there were no chutes in evidence, just the blades rotating at the top of a stick they each held.

It was so cute to watch, we completely forgot to think that there might be any danger either to us from them, or to them from hitting the ground.

I do not recall if they landed, but I was at school and one of the girls said that I had forgotten to draw the arms on a drawing in my drafting class. I looked at the complicated drawing. It was of a machine that looked like someone would sit in it and it would definitely need a place to put your arms while sitting in it like an armchair.."Perhaps like a time machine I was thinking."

The girl told me she would fix it for me. I looked at the drawing and didn't remember having drawn it. I told her, "Perhaps I was absent the day they did that one." She repeated that she would fix it for me.

There was a guy in the class  I remember from work. (Frank ___. He is deceased) I told them, my best friend Michelle, whom I've never seen in person, but she's my best friend on the Internet on the computer, earns $60 an hour doing drafting. She's doing CAD drawings.

7-10-98 - DREAM - I was with an older woman and we were driving up a steep, steep hill into Donner pass. We got to the top of the hill and the light at the intersection was green, so we made a right turn and continued on driving. I made a comment that I like it that after you traveled the same way several times you began to feel at home because you knew where all the corner drug stores were and the grocery stores. (bathrooms :-)  )

She agreed, but where we were didn't look familiar. There were so many stores of different types, the road and the buildings were pure white. Then we noticed that there were hundreds of red, Christmas bows hanging down from the ceiling and numerous short red pillows  standing up on the floor. I said, "Oh my gosh! It's all decorated for Christmas."  The way got narrower and narrower between the pillows and there were women walking around everywhere carrying packages, so we stopped to ask where we were.  A woman said, "This is Mall of America."  The woman I was with said, "Gosh! I must have made a wrong turn back there at the border on the highway.  One sign said "Nevada" and the other said, "Mall of America."  and I thought I was going to Nevada.

7-9-98 -  VISION - I saw a small girl. She said, "How was it when you were my age?"

I said, "Princess! Back then, I was even younger than you." I stroked her cheek lovingly with the back of my fingers of my right hand.

7-12-98 - VISION - I saw a spiral (widening gyre) similar to the one I saw the  other night. It was huge like a galaxy. It was much larger and spinning faster  - counter-clockwise.

A few minutes later, I saw a smaller one, going clockwise, and it spun smaller and smaller until it became tornado-like and gradually got smaller and smaller until it was gone.

7-12-98 - DREAM SCENES - (cannot remember a whole story)  There was danger from flooding from a plumbing pipe. We were able to cap if off sufficiently and prevent the flood.

I had been doing laundry for other people. All I had left to do was to iron two shirts, but there was so much interference from other people, I was trying to decide whether to iron these two multicolor plaid shirts on the 1st floor where I was, or to take the ironing board and the iron to the 3rd floor where the man's HOME was. I decided I could finish the ironing on the 1st floor. I held up a shirt I had finished ironing. This one too was multicolored man't shirt. It was all water-stained below the chest level.

I was in an apartment with a woman and we were going to look at another apartment for rent. she said, "It seems awfully dark". I knew one wall was all glass windows. I told her, "That's because it's a garden apartment on the lower level."  While I was waiting for her, she was in the bathroom which was down 7 steps on a lower level.

Following seeing the water stained shirt, we were standing there and a huge, horrific wind came out of the furnace grid which was on the baseboard by the floor. the grid which was brown began to shudder and flap violently and made a horrific noise and finally blew off. As it did, eons worth of dirt fell on the floor - all brown crud dust. We knew we could clean it up and everything would be fine.

I went to the store and bought myself a makeup kit. I opened it up and it was full of hundreds of colors of eyeshadow and rouge and multitudes of brushes. I was thrilled with it.

I went out on the street and met a woman on the corner whom I knew well. Instead of giving her a Christmas present, I gave her $25 in cash. She was perfectly content with that. She was waiting to catch a bus, so I crossed the street and continued on my way.

I came to a set of shelves on which Christmas presents were being stored for people until they were picked up. There was one there for me from my brother. It was wrapped in green tissue paper. When I first opened it, I thought all it contained was 3 oval bars of soap, yellow, green, and white/pink.  I was very disappointed at first, but as I opened it further, I saw a makeup case and it contained hundreds of colors of eye shadow and rouge and a multitude of brushes just like I had just bought.  I was thrilled to received it.

I was sitting in the house waiting for the right time to do something, thinking I needed my husband and family to do it with.

A young girl was there who had become motherless. I took her in my arms and cuddled her and comforted her.

While I sat there, my husband and two sons came home. I was dismayed to see that all three of them were injured in one way or another. My husband had a cast on his right foot, one son had no apparent injury, but I knew there was something wrong in his heart area, and the second son had a cast on the left foot. I knew then that I would have to do project myself anyway, that they would be of no help.

I was outside the house, standing in the driveway with plans to go to another state. I knew how to get there and that if I waited, a car would pick me up and take me there, and that if I went now, I would have to walk. There was a dark forest between me and main highway and there was like a red warning  flag hanging on one tree, so I decided to stay where I was until a car was provided. I was VERY disappointed.

7-13-98 - DREAM - This dream lasted all night, but seemed to take an hour or less.

The dream took place on my Jackson St. apartment building, but the elements and scenes don't belong to that building.

In the dream are memories that are from an earlier dream, like I got interrupted and went back to it.

DREAM: I went to work wearing cocoa colored slacks. I knew it was Monday (It really was) because two other co-workers also came to work wearing cocoa brown slacks.

(This reminds me of highschool where certain colors were worn on certain days to show you belonged to a particular group of people)

I was asked to show an apartment to a woman who was used to living in a huge house. I agreed to do this, however at first I couldn't remember which apartments were available. The two 2 bedroom apartments I recall having seen earlier had been totally trashed and I didn't want to show her those and make us look bad.

I excused myself to go get keys from the key box which would tell me which apartments were empty. I went down the hall to the key room, opened the door, and only saw one gold key hanging there.

While I was standing there, a door opened across the hall which looked like a men's locker room. A young man who worked for us part-time came in wearing dark blue trunks. He was going to take a shower.  I started back towards where I left the rich woman carrying some things others had left behind and stashed them on an upper shelf. ... an egg timer, a thermometer, a ruler (all measuring type gadgets)  

At that point, I remembered that a woman who had rented apartment 311 where I used to live before it was remodeled into a two bedroom...two story apartment, wanted to leave early and had asked us to show it anytime, so I decided to do that instead of showing her an empty apartment.  311 I knew was beautiful, well appointed and clean.

I then met my mother. Her Father had told her to go to the doctor.

NOTE: She didn't look like my mother, she was driving a car which she had never done in her life and she was younger than I am now. Her father was deceased many, many years.09][


I was going with her as a passenger.  We got  to a street where the road went up and around a curve to the left with a railing on the outside edge and  I knew that the ocean was on the other side.

She refused to drive up there, so stopped at a grocery store parking lot where we turned around. I thought it looked familiar where we made a U turn but I knew it probably really wasn't. So, we went back to the apartment building and went upstairs to the 3rd floor.

My mother went into an apartment and lay down on a cot where she didn't even know the people. She was very depressed that she wasn't able to do what her Father had told her to do.

I said to her, "Come on Missy! You have things to do!"  But she didn't get up, so I had to go get the baby which was in another apartment and change his diaper.

When I first picked him up, I recall that he was bare butted and I just needed to put a diaper on him but when I laid him on my big bed, where I laid him left a big wet stain that looked bloody and watery.

I knew he was overly wet and would probably even need a bath...I moved him to another spot which became equally stained with water and blood. So, now he was in a 3rd spot and I saw that there was no zipper on the first of his little pajama suit, it was on the back, so I rolled him over and unzipped the suit. It was all bloody and watery.

I sat him up to take his suit off and as the suit came down, his tongue came out of his mouth like a huge blood clot. I got pretty grossed out and upset but it was just his tongue and as I pulled his suit down off him, gushes of bloody water poured out onto the floor. I was really scared to find out that there was something wrong with the baby.

Then the baby spoke, "It's just the amniotic fluid."

Then, I realized I wasn't just changing his clothes, he was being born.

7-13-98 - DREAM - Note: I had three dreams...each alike, but different in that the first time, the screen came up but the page was only 1/2 full. The 2nd time 2/3 full, and the last time it was full and the words were all positive and were for well-being and positive co-creation

7-13-98 - DREAM - I was in a city in a VERY large building. Various floors were different uses. I wanted to go to floor 7 but the elevator didn't go to any odd numbered floors, so I went to floor 6 and proceeded to walk up, but 1/2 way up there were a complicated series of railings which you had to climb over and through and I couldn't do that, so couldn't get there that way. I went back down to floor 1 and met a black woman and a white woman. The black woman told me she could take me where I wanted to go, so we got on the elevator and zooped up to the floor. I discovered we were on 134. I didn't want that floor either, so went back to floor 1. I was supposed to be working, but for some reason, couldn't keep my pants on. They were off completely at first and I needed to complete some work and deliver it to another location. When I stood up, I realized I DID have pants on but they were sliding down in back so I had to keep hitching them up.

I completed the project and delivered it. It was a typed sheet which was a reward for good work done.

I was asked to help someone complete an application for something. He had brought in multiple small photographs and they all needed to be put in order and assembled in a folder, I set him to doing some of that work and went on to do some other work.

Then I had to go to the 7th floor again and just pushed the button for 7 instead of fooling around with going to 6 or 8 and walking up or down. To my surprise, where I pushed 7, a complete wall slid over and I was instantly on 7 right where I was standing. As soon as I took a step forward in this hallway, I saw a shift of perception and I could walk forward and actually be on the 7th floor.

I was hunting for a bathroom, but all the rooms I was going by were classrooms. The rooms were empty now, but each room had a separate desk or work station for each individual where they would learn to do just one thing in that room. The rooms I could see into were huge and held what looked like 100 work stations per room.

Then I noticed that this floor was also segregated by religious persuasions as one whole wing was labeled CHRISTIAN.

I got half-way through that floor and came to a door I thought might be the bathroom.  I pushed it again and it turned out to be another elevator lobby with many people waiting for the elevator to go down. These people were all really happy and welcomed me to join them.

I still needed to find a bathroom, so went back down to floor 1 to look for the bathroom.

On floor 1, I met people who were crippled and slow. They were admonished to move over to the side of the hallways and not block the way of people who could move faster.

On floor 1, I seemed to find a place I called home. Here, my real life Father came and 3 old cronies of his came to visit. They were so old, they must have been in the 100's of years old. My Father took them out into a garden that was at the rear of our house. While my father was entertaining them, I began to dance and prance in front of the mirror to see how beautiful I was. I wanted to see my whole beautiful naked boy, but I didn't want the old men to catch me looking at myself, so I would only flash on the upper half or lower half at a time.

Then I saw my Father walking in the garden with the 3 other old mena nd I took a chance on looking at my whole beautiful naked self in the mirror and struck a final model's pose in front of the mirror with a big smile on my face and woke up smiling.

7-14-98 - DREAM - NOTE;  Before I went to bed, I was on the telephone talking with a friend who was telling about her experiences with "little people" in New Hampshire. I told her that we didn't have any "little people" in California, or at least I hadn't seen any since I was in Wisconsin where I lived with elves and other little creatures in my various apartments.

I then went to bed and dreamed I was on the computer, reading long web pages about dreams.

I woke up and opened my eyes. One of my feet was hanging over the edge of the bed. I saw what appeared to be a tiny monster with a little head and huge fangs sticking out of it's mouth. It bit me on the bottom of my foot below the big toe. I screamed out loud and pulled my foot up on the bed and the little monster disappeared. At that point, I was too afraid to go back to sleep and pulled my foot up as far away from the edge of the bed as  I could.

Eventually, I fell asleep and dreamed the exact sequence of what had just happened and woke up when I screamed in the dream. So, I spent awhile cowering in the center of the bed.

I then fell asleep and dreamed more dreams about reading web pages about dreaming.

7-14-98 - DREAM - I was with Joe nd we were driving down a road. At first I was driving and along the edge were some dangerous dips, so I drove down the center of the road to avoid them.

Water started rising on the road and I knew it was dangerous to drive through deep water, so I stopped and we got out of the car. We saw a sort of drain pipe  in the center of the road. As we neared the pipe it made a noise of warning. It almost sounded like, "Hello!" but I wasn't sure. Joe tossed something at it and all the water drained down off the road and surrounding area.

So, we got back in the car and drove farther until the water became deeper and deeper as we had to stop driving again.

There was another drain pipe in the middle of the road and as we approached it, it made a noise, similar to, "Hello!" but I wasn't sure. Joe was walking in the water past his ankles. The pipe stuck up high enough so the water lapped at the pipe edge but not higher.

Joe tossed a cigarette butt at it and instantly all the water in the area drained down. We walked back to the car, supposedly to drive further, but I was pretty scared to go further, expecting the water to get deeper each time and possibly prevent us from going back if we wanted I woke up.

7-14-98 - VISION - Joe gave me a gift of two decks of cars and two packages of candy - yellow and green balls in a wicker basket.

7-14-98 - DREAM - I only remember part of this dream...  I went into a room in my house where there was a long narrow table set up for dinner and two tall candles that were lit up in the center. I practically threw myself on to of that table, scattering everything on the table onto the floor. On the bare-white table top, I laid two decks of tarot cards.

I went across the hall. There was a huge room there with a step down right in the middle. I took this to be a bedroom, but I don't know because there was no furniture in it.

I left the room and did something. when I went back, the room was carpeted in fur which reminded me of tiger skin. Then R.R. appeared and he was wearing a really long shirt made of the same carpet design. There still wasn't any furniture in the room, but I noted that water would run easily down that step.

7-15-98 - VISION - I saw a woman with a black nose. She looked kind of witch-like, but her nose was longer and a bird's beak...eagle or longer...  She said, "Now we'll have a message from Betty Jenkins to her people."

7-15-98 - DREAM - (This was a longer dream)  I was at a school taking lessons. A man kept following me around. There was something about an eclipse in the fall of the year. Somebody died during the eclipse. But a voice overrode the dream and said, "It's important that it be in the spring of the year. It's important that it be in the spring of the year."

7-15-98 - VISION - I saw a three tiered group of people like a choir standing on line to sing. In the center of the group were were people missing which had to be filled in. The missing people were in a triangle.

7-15-98 - DREAM/VISION - I was making a model of something. I then saw a vision of the word SACCRETE

7-15-98 - DREAM /VOICE - I was in a school-like place. The male teacher said to the students, "Put your coats on and get out quick, put your coats on and get out quick."

The girls were all wearing dark gray and white checkered coats, but I couldn't find my coat. So I had to go upstairs and look for my coat. On the way up the stairs, I smelled some chemical fumes. I was concerned that that was the reason that everyone was being evacuated, that there was some kind of worry about being gassed to death from something.

Then I saw the roof of this building and there were several pipes and chimneys up there from several businesses as well as the schools.

One pipe was from a beauty parlor and I could see the fumes going from that pipe across the roof and down the air vent into our building.

The dream Voice message said, "You shouldn't make snap judgments on situations".

NOTE:  Twice within the next month two adult schools in California  were evacuated because students were getting sick and passing out. Many were sent to area hospitals.

7-15-98 - DREAM - Joe had to write an article about something. He didn't know where to get the words from. We were searching between people on the ground. (The people were standing in 3 rose like in the other dream)

NOTE: On 9-1-98, Joe was asked to write a quick article about dreams vs mythology. He took the words from a previous e-mail to someone which I had copies and sent to other people.

7-15-98  DREAM - I saw the three rows of people again. On the ground were words like "Beware, Restrain, Wait, Refrain!"  All words of warning.

7-15-98 - VISIONS - I saw a pyramid. It was not solid but had spaces between the bricks. I was coming down the outside of the pyramid. I saw the words, "SA - SACRED WHEEL"

7-15-98 - SPECIAL MEDITATION FOR AUG. 28, 1998

This was a special meditation about the dire prophecies for Aug. 28, 1998.

I called my angels, personal guides, Metatron, Babaji, and all other entities who would be interested in the question.

These are the responses:


"Isn't that gorgeous?"

"Isn't that beautiful?"

"Oh, how glorious"

Foreign words - "Bit it ma, bit it ma" (Might be American Indian)

"Do not fear it"

"Do not worry about it"

"There will be much of world importance that day, there is nothing to be alarmed about, however"

"Everything is stable as it should be"

"There is nothing to be concerned about"

"Everything will be harmonious"

"There is nothing of world-wide import to be alarmed about"

I saw a pulsating hole in the ground, surrounded by green grass, but there was nothing coming out of it.

"This is to give you assurance. There is nothing to be alarmed about."

"There is much to worry about family values"

"There is much to worry about the crime rate"

"The article looks good"

I asked specifically:

Q. Will the Pole Shift happen on Aug. 28, 1998?"

A. ' "We would contact you if there would be a pole shift on that date."

"There is nothing to be alarmed about"

"There is nothing going to harm you"

I stated: "There are many people afraid at this time because there have been dire prophecies of something disastrous going to happen on Aug. 28, 1998."

"You would be told in advance"

"There s nothing to worry about"

"There will be fires that day, but that will not be unusual"

"There will be storms that day, but that will not be unusual"

"There will be windy weather that day but that will not be unusual"

"The oceans will be wavy, the sand will be warm, the sun will

be shining. That also will not be unusual".

"There will also be earthquakes that day, and that also will not be unusual."

"All will be well. There will be nothing to worry about."

"That will be all"

I stated: "Thank you very much! I appreciate your help".

There is no need to check that specific date again.

NOTE: On Aug. 28, 1998, I had what I call a BLACK VISION -

I had a black vision this morning, which is a little ominous. I have not figured out the portents yet. Here it is:



I couldn't read the rest of the list, but then saw a page which was a lot of written things by Dee777 (ME)

That was followed by these:





At least it ended with a wish for good luck. All I have to do is figure out what it's about.

7-16-98 - JOES DREAM - He was seeing web pages about the Grail. The Dream Voice said,"The name O'Shea is related to the Grail story." This is a family in the bloodline.

7-16-98 - DREAM - I was in a very large building with a lot of children. Eight to twelve years old. We had to clean the whole building and it had to be perfect before we could take them to church. We got most of the work done except for the main hallway. Church was about to start. One of the main bosses came through and went into apartment #114. He said, "What if the President comes through here? It has to be absolutely clean before you leave here tonight."

The hallway contained numerous Christmas presents. The presents were so large they were larger than people size. One was made of cloth and had a huge cloth bow on it. It was all gray. I didn't like it. One I liked the best was light blue and covered with ostrich feathers. As I pulled it through the hallway, it littered the hallway with ostrich feathers.

We worked like crazy and so did the kids. We had the whole hallway cleaned perfectly. then we went to church. We did NOT go inside. We stood out in the street, listening to the beautiful music. It seemed there was a wedding going on inside. It was so beautiful and as the bride and groom came out, we just stood there in awe. One of the older ladies standing there with us, said that the next time this happened, she was going to have to take some lessons so she could actually participate.  She said, "Never again will I ever have to stand there and watch." We stood there and listened to the beautiful music. As the music ended I woke up.

7-16-98 - DREAM - I was waiting for a phone call (which I really was in the physical) I heard by baby wake up. I knew I was going to have to feed the baby while I was on the phone. I thought I would give the baby a bottle. He was actually 4 years old and didn't need a bottle. However, I didn't have any food available for the baby either.  I then went looking for food for the baby. I went outside to the parking lot to go home to where the food was, but it was so foggy on the parking lot, I couldn't actually see my house and I didn't want to go through the fog without being able to see. So, I went through the parking lot to where my work was in another building.

In that building I had a locker. The locker was behind an area where they were putting on a stage play. There were a lot of people there, but I was able to go behind the curtain on the stage to get to my locker. I opened my locker. Inside was a multitude of books like in a library. The books were all about 2 feet and 2" wide or so. There was nothing in there I could feed the baby with through. As I walked back through the building, I noticed that the building was being remodeled and the more remodeling they did, the more beautiful it became.

A huge stained glass window was located on one side of the hallway. There were many decorations that I thought might be for Christmas but I didn't know for sure, only that they were beautiful.

I headed back out of the building, meeting many people I used to work with. We greeted in passing but didn't stop to speak. I went back to the original building where the baby was waiting and I saw that it was past the time the phone call should have come in and that they weren't going to call me afterall.

I looked at the clock when I woke up and it was 7:07 a.m. The phone call actually had not come in which was expected at 7 a.m.

NOTE:  The phone call came in 5 minutes later - about 15 minutes past the time it was due.

7-16-98 - VISION - First I heard a bell ring in my right ear.  I then saw a web page close down. The voice said, "The close-out on your business is '0'. I heard a bell ring in my left ear. The voice said, "You will go for a wild ride on your web site." I saw numerous people dancing wildly in fancy costumes on the page.

7-17-98 - DREAM - I was at a hospital with my friend Alice. Her father was there for tests. They were going to take him down the elevator. A man in white was by the controls of the elevator and Alice was standing in the back. Her father's cart was by my right side. Suddenly, a short little woman pushed past me and said, "Her Father is dead!"

There was no need for me to squeeze into the elevator with them and the body, so I went into a room nearby. Suddenly, Alice's Father appeared in the doorway. He looked like a big white square pillow. His eyes were huge and yellow and were looking upward and to the right.

A voice said, "THE BIT-MOTHER" is dead".  

The scene changed to a web page. I could see just the big triangle from AOL on the page, and as I looked at it, a big dragon head or alligator came out of it.

7-17-98 - DREAM - I was with my mother. I was writing checks for her and paying her bills. When I was done and was going to go home, a relative came up to me and insinuated I was writing checks for myself. I wrote all the checks with her sitting right there while I did it. They were going to take that away from me and let an accountant do it.

I left the house and walked up several blocks. I was like on 19th St. at this point. Several dogs came running out of an alley.  I knew my ex-husband Jim would be right behind them. The kids like my grandchildren were there too then and I headed home with them right behind me. They were slower than I was. I led them through shortcuts of houses and yards and alleys. I was sneaking around low to the ground so no one would see me.

When we were in one house, one of the boys wanted to take a baby playpen from the house. I could hear the baby crying in the background and told him he'd better not take it. I told him to put it back but he just let it stand there. When we got to the next corner of 18th and clark, ahead of me in the dark, I saw two guys fighting. I turned to the left and there were two guys fighting. then I saw a light blue station wagon. I thought it belonged to my ex-husband. It was driven half way up on the sidewalk on an angle.

7-18-98 - DREAM - I was in a house where people came to get advice. I saw a crystal table out in the hallway. People used to get advice from angels out there. The table was moved into our room and the table was turned around so that there was a seat where people could sit and get advice. The angel came in and sat on the end of the seat but it seemed she was too big to sit there.  It also seemed that I was going to take over her job and that's why the table had been brought inside.

There was a huge dinosaur carcass and human beings had eaten all they could off of it. They were going to turn it over to the dogs and the cats. We were finished with it.

A girl came in from a date. She had requested dinner and dancing and he just wanted to use her for a model and she was all disappointed. So, I took her in my arms and hugged her and we started to talk about it.

There seems to be a lot of young people.

While I was laying in bed thinking about the dream...I saw a stack of book I received but they hadn't been opened yet. One was about cats and dogs, pharmacy, medical, and the smallest one was called BASIC WAVES.

7-20-98 - VISION - I saw a black web page that said, 'INVITATION TO GOD'. It was followed by an url - http://whitewater . NOTE: I went to the url. It's a web page about whitewater rafting trips)  

The voice said," Here's some more good stuff."

"Come along with me"

"Watching over Jesus. There will be No Jesus"

"Now the gypsies will play"

"She is triumphant and secure"

"Your stepfather is here too"

I then saw a garden surrounded by a black iron fence. The voice said, "I was hoping it would never come to this!"

I then saw a woman's left hand. She was wearing a ring like mine only all gold, plus other rings. She wore 7 rings in all.

I then saw a web page that said, "CIRCLE OF DREAMS - CIRCLE OF DREAMS"

7-21-98 - DREAM - I couldn't get my car started because I didn't have the right key. Men were trying to help me. There were 7 of them.

E.R. came over to help. He was rather help-less. I saw one car park in the lot across the street and because one car parked, hundreds of other cars parked in rows beside it.

I went upstairs. I was carrying a white sewing kit on a stand. I went through the door and was in a place like a theatre lobby. Someone there said, "Sh, sh, sh, nobody talk, nobody talk!"

Lots of people were there but not E.R.  On the left was a roller coaster and the car were two men wearing light blue shirts in the last two seats.One looked like Jerry Van Dyke. Their shirts said across the front...'MEN IN BLUE'  I laughed and said, "I don't know how you guys do it."  He said, "There are 7 of us". I woke up and saw a vision:


7-21-98 - VOICE : I heard "Your place is with us." You are a week early on your vacation, but your place is with us.  These processes will never change.

I saw a page of links of work I had done.

I then saw three old white haired ladies, standing in a corn field.  The third one in moved to the end place. They wore old fashioned dresses.

7-22-98 - DREAM - I was managing a building and could hear a woman hollering so I went looking to see what was going on.

I walked into the room next door and two painters were wrestling on the floor. A man and woman painter were rolling over and over in the middle of the room and woman was hollering. I just walked around them, checking the plants  had left behind to see if they had been watered. Another female painter said she had been doing it. I thanked her and then noticed that there were little holes dug in the floor and frogs were using them for little ponds. As I walked out, I was determined to eliminate the frogs from the building.

7-22-98 - DREAM - I was looking at a web page with information about UFOS. It was a lecture that was to be given. I was almost to the end there was a woman standing there carving lines into her face. There was no blood but she just kept carving line after line into her face until her head was covered and I was thinking, "She looks like a Maori princess."

7-22-98 - VISION - I saw the UFO WEB PAGE. then, "See the 2 Japanese Sites...See the 2 Japanese sites."

I then saw the UFO web page, and the statements , "See the ______ ________, See the ______________"  Then the word Belize popped in.

7-22-98 - DREAM - I was living on the East side. I went into the kitchen. It was a mess but I could smell dirty laundry and knew that I should be doing it. I went to get the baby and went outside with him. Then I realized I had forgotten to take my keys with me.

The lady in apartment 304 was usually home, but she had just left in a horse drawn cab to go somewhere.

So, I walked to the back of the building to find someone home. There was some strange things going on and I was very suspicious. A hug box was being carried into the building that I thought contained something dangerous, by some tall men. A friend of mine jumped into the elevator at the last moment so they couldn't protest so he could ride along to find out what floor they went to.

I had to walk past a dark haired man who was outside the building. He was treating the sideyard as his own apartment. I was afraid to walk past him, but I had to. Once I got inside the building, I had to carry my baby up the stairs. The baby got all wiggly and wanted to fool around on the steps and started to slide down on his belly. I was afraid he would hurt himself on the concrete steps. I no sooner thought that and he hung himself between the railing posts from his suspenders.

7-22-98 - VISION - I was scrolling down the web page on the computer. I saw the words, "WIDENING GYRE" and when I went back up to see what the article had to say bout it, the words were not there.

7-23-98 - DREAM - I was working in a school/house. Classes were held in the basement. I was going to correct the student's papers, but there was no place to do it because there was so much stuff down there, so I decided to go upstairs to the 1st floor to do the work where there was a table.

our dog was with us in the basement and when I went upstairs I had to make sure the dog stayed in the basement so it wouldn bother me. Joe, the maintenance man was one of the teachers as well.

After I went upstairs to correct the papers, I went outside where the students were going to perform music for a play.

Joe, the maintenance man tried to sit in the center seat of the 2nd row with his clipboard and a voice of authority from behind me said, "Joe! You can't sit in the orchestra."  So Joe had to move.

The students still hand't come out to perform and again, Joe tried to sit in one of the empty seats and again the voice of authority told him he couldn't sit in the orchestra seats.

While I was on the 1st floor,  I found out that my son Ken had pooped his pants in the car and felt bad about it. I had to go to the bathroom so I went up to the 2nd floor. There was a toilet in the bedroom that we had used as kids but there was a problem. The toilet didn't have a seat, the door wouldn't close on the room and three men were standing there and wouldn't leave me alone so I could do it in private.

Joe, the maintenance man, Ken, my son, and Todd from One Life to Live were all hovering around me and wouldn't let me close the door.

So, I decided to go across the hall into the Master bedroom where there was a toilet in the closet.

Again there was a problem because not only did all three men follow me, there too, we discovered that Todd had pooped his pants in the car and had lai d al his brown wool pants and blankets laying on the toilet to be washed. Todd felt really bad about it, so Ken kindly admitted that he had pooped his pants in the car too so Todd wouldn't feel bad.

Meanwhile I was stacking all of Todd's brown wool clothes into the oval white bathtub for washing.

I still couldn't use that toilet, so I went back outside to see if the students were arriving to play their instruments because the audience had been sitting there waiting all this time.

It was then I was shown on a web page that I was to teach people to play the note "C". There were many links to it, but there was a special way to play it and a lot of information about the note. Then I wasn't sure if it was the note "C" or crop circles I was supposed to teach them.

7-23-98 - VISION - It seemed I was getting ready to go to a meeting. Two hulking men stood on either side of me and held up the hem of a type of flounce on my dress around the shoulders. It looked like angel wings. The dress was red and white pin striped and was short, kind of like an apron.

7-24-98 - DREAM - I was on the computer, looking at a screen. It was all links of spiritual instruction. I was able to click on them and bring them up. The name of the page was LIST. I tried to FAVORITE PLACE it, but the top of the page was blurry and I couldn't see the little heart to use it. I tried several times and it seemed to be up too high to see. I also tried to copy the page and save it for myself but couldn't figure out how to do it. I knew I was dreaming, but was laying there trying to figure out if I used my physical fingers and moved them like I did on my real computer, if it would work and that seemed stupid. I eventually just came all the way to consciousness.

7-24-98 - DREAM - It seemed to be Christmas time but it was warm outside. I complained that it was too cold out but a woman showed me on the thermometer that it was 85 degrees. Someone else had told me it was 105 degrees. It was really heavy dark clouds outside.

The kids began opening Christmas presents. My son Bob got 3 presents, one of which was hand made. He complained that he had had to pay for the yarn for it and a friend had made it. It looked similar to a dream catcher but a 6 pointed star of white yarn.

I went into the pantry where I had stashed huge boxes of cookies. I brought them out to eat and carried them to the livingroom.

There, under spotlights, I saw my own gift, a white overstuffed livingroom chair, with a red ribbon around it and a gold candle sconce on stands on both sides of it.

We were going to go visit someone and all the kids got in the car. It was actually big enough so they could run around and play in the back like a travel coach. When we got to where we were going, my daughter was really tired. She was wearing an orange jump suit. I laid her on the couch to sleep, but another woman insisted that she would carry her around so she did while my daughter slept.

We went to the basement garage then where cars were bought, sold, and repaired. My husband had bought another car and was up next for repairs and testing. He came over to talk to me. He said he had gone for a new job in a play and the director of the play had left before he had finished and he began to cry.

7-24-98 - DREAM - I went to stay with a friend of my daughter-in-law. was laying in bed and the woman was laying to the right of me. All of a sudden I heard a baby cry. I said, "Oh! I didn't know you had a baby!" (I was actually shocked to find this out)

The baby grew really fast and appeared to be about 2 years old in mere moments. He had been newborn on the bed.

I took him with me everywhere in the house. I was surprised to see he wore one shoe on his right foot and what looked to be a sock over a hoof on his left foot. I saved his life at one point when he was trying to poke crayons and other objects into the stove electrical outlet.

Then I caught him going through my purse and my books and I had to tell him not to touch my stuff.  

I have no memory of how the dream ended. I think it just faded.

7-24-98 - VISIONS - These visions were signed by someone named "Amanda". One said, "Ephesians didn't ride horses". I've forgotten the second one. I saw little red hearts on each one.

7-25-98 - DREAM - I was with Joe in a car and he had to go do something so I was left in the car alone. I spotted a thick plastic ring like a pony bead.  I picked it up and slid it on my finger like a ring. It was see-thru like crystal, but it was plastic. I threw it back on the ground again.

Then an old man I didn't know got in the car. I was sitting in the car in the back like a stationwagon on a long platform thing and the old man crawled into the car with me like he wanted to tell me something. He came close to whisper his message then kissed me on the cheek instead. At that moment, I spotted that plastic ring on the ground and I said, "Oh! What's that on the ground?" to distract him.

He reached over and picked it up and slipped it on my finger and asked me to marry him. I was so shocked  I took off the ring and threw it over toward a line of boxes of beads and it landed amongst them, but I didn't see exactly where.

Then the man got all upset and said, "What did you do with my ring?" I said, "Oh! I'm sorry! I thought it was that piece of plastic I threw away before."

I felt embarrassed and saw the plastic bead I had thrown down the 1st time and it was cracked and split open. I said, "Oh! I'll go find the ring. I'm sorry!" So I went over to the wall where all the beads in boxes were. There were a couple of people there who owned this little shop or whatever it was. I explained the situation to them and they helped me search for the ring but we couldn't find it.

I began to hear Christmas music and knew the parade was coming. I saw ______ and he was the drummer for the band. He was dressed in red and green slacks held up by thick, dark suspenders. The music got louder and he had to leave and go march in the parade.

I was in a school on Wisconsin Ave. and seemed to be the teacher. At the same time it felt like my old high school.

I could still hear the music playing and was rather marching East down the hallway and black students fell in behind me marching to the music. I got to the end of the school as the music ended. There stood ______ with his father. He was still wearing his red and green slacks and suspenders, but now his father was with him. I went over to him and hugged him warmly and he introduced me to his father. His father was all upset that the things my friend had in storage weren't safe and we began walking arm in arm towards the East to his apartment building.

We walked quickly along a precarious pathway, along an icy trail, then started climbing steps that were shoveled of snow, but that still had a slight coating of white on them. We climbed up three flights of stairs. In fact I ran up the 1st flight of stairs which were uneven and took three at a time at one point and got out of breath and regretted doing that. The last flight of stairs I was counting them, kind of pulling myself up going hand over hand on the railing with my hands. I got up to the second floor and we were at his apartment.

At that point I realized that he owned the whole building and there were plenty of empty rooms and there was no reason why I couldn't move in there. But I was out of breath and I asked for a drink of water.

I woke up just as a bad heat flash was going up my body to my head. I felt like I had a temperature of 150 and my blood felt hot all over my body.

I relaxed for a few minutes and it subsided. I wondered if the dream was caused by my physical condition and was still trying to remember the guys name who I dated for a few months in the early 80's until he decided he had to ask his wife to come back because he missed his son so much.  (At this typing, I still can't remember his name. :-) )

7-25-98 - VISION - As I lay in bed I had a vision of 3 "C"s in a row and the voice said, "Crop Circle Joe". Then I had a vision of 2 "B"s and it showed me a web page that said, "Beautiful Babe" and that was me.

7-25-98 - DREAM - I went right back to sleep and found myself in the same place I had woke up from. I was in _____'s apartment ( I still can't remember his name) and he wanted to make love to me, but he said his Father was coming right back and he had made a mess of things and needed to straighten it out.

So he started cleaning his house and I climbed across his couch which was the only place to walk. It was soft and brown with a fleur de lis pattern on it.

 I went out into the hall and was going to take the elevator up but everyone was scurrying around and the elevator was jam packed so I didn't want to crowd in there and let it go.

I went over to the stairway to walk up, but the stairway mostly went down into a dark pit-like place. There was a stairs going up also but it was dimly lit with the only light at the top of a very narrow stairway. So, I decided I would wait for the next elevator.

I went outside where there were a lot of children playing including my own daughter. These kids were all around 7 or 8 years old. I saw a station wagon coming, driven by our old friend/maintenance man. I said to the kids, "Here comes the book man."

The car was full of books like a library on wheels. I encouraged all the kids to get books. The man came over to me with a stack of books and handed them to me.

When I opened the books, they morphed into sheets of leather, each one cut out in a big circle and a design embossed on them. Each one was a picture of myself smiling. Each one had holes in strategic places for hanging up. I believe there were 7 of them. There were also two pieces of cloth with designs on with which I could make sundress tops. I cannot remember the designs now, one was red and one was yellow, but I had seen women earlier I had admired and now I could be like them.

I went briefly into the building where all the men I had loved and once thought of marrying were there and they all walked by. Each one was wearing a medium blue uniform and wearing a tool belt like a maintenance man and they were hurrying along with urgent things to do. None of them said even so much as "Hello!" and just hurried along.

I was disappointed but understood they all had urgent work to do.

I went back outside where a large rectangle field was being harrowed flat and being readied for the fall. All the crops were done.

I was presented with 4 different round fruit rinds upsidedown, each nested inside the other, and  I knew the harvest was over.  All that was past was past.

7-26-98 - VISION - We were waiting for something to happen. There was a young blonde woman sitting on a chair next to me and she was 9 months pregnant. Joe walked by and teasingly ran his finger down her stomach.

VISION #2 - We were waiting for something to happen and Joe and I were there along and someone said, "Her heart stopped beating."

VISION #3 - I didn't understand what that meant, so asked 'spirit' what it meant that, 'her heart stopped beating."  The voice said, "The Bitch killed herself. The bitch went and killed herself."

VISION #4 - I asked about the significance of the baby and what it represented. I was shown some small plants on a table with tender little shoots.

VISION #5 - I again asked about the baby and what subject it represented. I wasn't getting anything, then I saw an url for a website. It said, "ORBIT", and some further words. Then a woman started speaking with an angry voice. She said, "This site only hurts what is happening and "Enough is enough". She was VERY angry.

VISION #6 - I asked 'spirit' what to do about the past visions. The two of us were crawling on the floor together with me in her arms. she reached up and opened a white door to get something down from the 3rd shelf.

VISION #7 - I asked what was int he closet. She showed me my box that I keep my Tarot cards in.

7-28-98 - DREAM - I was seeing a map of France and 4 cities formed a cross. One of the cities was Languedoc. I saw the names listed but could not read them.

7-28-98 - DREAM - I was in a large room that seemed to be an office/living quarters. I knew work had to be done but before the box came I noticed that the traverse rod over the window was dusty so I took a brilliant cloth so I wiped the dust off. Then I noticed that where the bosses safe was, a whole stock of mens and boys pants were laying that needed mending up the back seam. They were beige to darker colors, all with the same problem.

I picked up this stack of clothing so that my boss would have room to work and carried them from bedroom to bedroom, looking for a place to put them that wouldn't interfere with what anyone also was doing because I didn't have a sewing machine to fix them.

Finally,  I came to a hidden bedroom where there were 4 sewing machines, one on each wall. On one sewing machine stood a crystal clear heart with a dozen or more silver pins stuck into it from every angle. I knew that this was the room the clothing repair work had to be done.

7-30-98 - NOTE: Last week I had an experience where an ugly monster being bit me on the foot. A couple days ago, it happened again only not so severely.

When I was falling asleep last night, I began to see an e-mail letter from Theldar. (Susan Ferguson) She was telling me that the little beings name was "Greatelf". During the night, I saw a page that had a dozen or more banner-like shapes on it, each one with a different name for the little being. Then those banners morphed into scenes in which the being lived. As I looked at that page I began to be drawn into one scene likes it was going to become real and I woke up.

Later on in the night, I began to dream the same thing again.

7-30-98 - DREAM - I was living in a building with a lot of other people. An older blonde woman gave me her baby daughter to take care of . Within moments the baby thought more of me as her mother than the other woman. The baby needed her diaper changed but I didn't have any clothes for her. I picked her up and carried her down to the parking lot where a rummage sale was going on. I turned around once and the baby was already walking and wearing a white cape with a hood that had little tiny roses on it. I had to take her back upstairs then and carried her on one hip for awhile. I noticed in a mirror that my blue slacks were split on the left seam by the waist and needed fixing. I walked by apartment 106 and actress/TV host Jessy Raphael_ (reddish hair and red rimmed glasses) was moving out. I said, "Oh! You're leaving already?"

I walked by some other women with babies and my baby was making cute little faces at them. I was pretty proud of her.

I heard my maiden name called at one point but couldn't see who it was. I wondered what they thought about me having a baby at my age.

I got upstairs finally and the dream drifted off into a web page of links and I started to worry about time. I recall seeing my sons bedroom and they had built an entire cit of Lincoln logs. I didn't realize they had that many.

7-30-98 - DREAM - I was living with Joe and our anniversary was coming up. I was thinking that I had to go back home and get my stuff. I knew there were 5 things that I hadn't brought with me. They were sitting on a shelf, one of which was a bluegrass vase. I was doing the planning of the trip after Joe went to work. I had to choose between plane, train, or bus and thought maybe I would take the train since it was fast and I had never been on one before.

I started to get cold feet about going though and thought that perhaps it was better not to go because those 5 things weren't that valuable and I could always replace them if I wanted to.

Suddenly, Joe came home from work and I was still laying in bed thinking about it.

I asked him what he was doing home. He said it was payday and they were painting so he came home. I told him about my plans so far. Then I said, "You know I really don't want to go." He said, "Why not?"  I said, "I'm afraid I might not want to come back." Then I asked him if he would go with me. I was waiting for his answer when I woke up.

7-31-98 - JOE'S DREAM - He saw a big white tree trunk...a creamy color.. The voice said, "This represents the God - Thoth - symbolic of the human mind."

7-31-98 - DREAM - I dreamed 4 times of reading a long e-mail about UFOs and consciously forwarded it to (I wrote to the list and told them it was coming to see if anyone dreamed about receiving it)

7-31-98 - DREAM - I was living out in the country. I planned to go to the store to buy food and got into the car and started it, but I sat in the back seat with my foot on the brake, waiting for to her people to go with me.  A woman and her three daughters got in to go along but I was still sitting in the back seat. Nobody was sitting behind the wheel to drive. Besides that it was dark out; the sun hadn't come up yet, and I couldn't get the lights to come on. I pulled on the switch and turned and twisted and poked it back in over and over and over and over and the lights just wouldn't come on. Finally, I told the woman to put her foot on the brake and I would come around the front and see what was wrong. I went around the front and got down on my knees by the light switch and immediately saw the problem.  There was a child-proof safety switch next to the light switch that had to be disengaged first. As soon as I disengaged the child safety switch, the light switch worked.

I got in the car and drove a few miles to the store. I don't remember driving though and I don't remember her driving there either. when we got to the store there was another problem with the car and when I got out to see what was wrong with the car, I was again sitting in the back seat on the right. I opened the car door and there was a man's body laying there and I had to stop on top of him in order to walk around the car and we had parked right next to a garbage heap and the stench of garbage was awful.

The man's body was clothed  all in white and I felt guilty walking on him, but there was no other way to get out of the car. He was laying in the garbage heap. He was face down, so there was no way for me to identify him either and he didn't wake up when I stepped on him either.

I went into the store and before I could do anything, my car disappeared. The woman and the girls were gone and so was my car.

I thought about reporting it stolen, when I saw the car again, but the three girls had taken it, had it painted purple and painted huge red, yellow, blue, and white fire stripes on the sides and were roaring up and down the aisle in the parking lot with it.

Then I remembered the child safety switch. I engaged it when I got out of the car and nobody knew it was there but me. While the girls were chasing around in my car, a whole stream of people went by with push brooms and trash bags and cleaned up the street. It was like a parade as they went by. After they passed, then a circus-like parade with music and dancing and clowns. When they were done, then another parade of people went by with push brooms and trash bags and cleaned the streets again.

All these people earned passes to go through a little door and had to duck down to go through a tunnel. They were all smiling when they went through so I knew they were happy about whatever was on the other side of the door. There was a ticket-taker standing by the door and I didn't have a ticket so I couldn't go see what was on the other side.

I wished  I had had a camera to take a picture so I could show people how that series of parades happened when I told others about it because it seemed like such a wonderful thing for people to clean the street, have a fun circus-like parade and then clean the street again.

There was a man there who looked like T.J. standing nearby and he had a polaroid camera, but it was too late. All the people from the parades had gone through the little door and nobody was now going into the tunnel. Nobody would believe what I had just seen.

At that point, it seemed like I was at work and someone handed me a stack of hand-written love letters from the President of the company to various employees. I didn't make any attempt to read these letter which were on pink paper and signed, "Love, Bob!" but I thought it best to sort them by name to make delivering them easier.

I didn't work in the department where these letters went so I didn't know any of the people, but I figured when I walked down the hall and asked for the people by name, someone would point them out to me.

A man came into the office where I was sorting out these letters and asked if he could borrow my black scissors.  I didn't know his friends and I suspected they would take my scissors outside and do something bad with them, so I said, "No!" I told him to get the scissors from his own department where the drafting was done. He said he didn't want his boss to  know he was using the scissors. But I stood firm on my answer. "No!"

The other man was a writer and was going to write a novel. He didn't know what to write about. I remembered that when I worked at Allis Chalmers it was called "A Peyton Place" and I indicated these love letters from the President to his employees and this would really be something worth writing about.

NOTE:  8-2-98 - Several of Joe's friends were arguing about some information they were trying to figure out. Joe said that the Goddess Kali divides people with scissors.