APRIL, 1994

4-3-94 - DREAM - I was dreaming that someone was taking me for a ride in a car. I asked to be taken to the library. In the library, I picked out two smallish books. The blue one was Psalms, written so as to read one every day. The yellow one was "Meditations" and included music written so to work on one page a day.

In the morning, I woke up in my 16th St. house and I went to look if the dream was real and it was. I actually had the books in the house.

I wanted to tell Joe the maintenance man about it because I was so excited about this. I saw Joe coming into the back door from the yard. I had the books in my hand.

There was another girl living in the house with me. she had already been in the bathroom over two hours and I was waiting for my turn. I did not have a job and after looking at the clock, which said 9 a.m., I thought to myself, "This is nice, I could get used to this."

Joe came in and we hugged intimately and I enjoyed the sensations. At the same time I was feeling jealousy that this other woman was in the house with us.

Joe took a drill and put it under my dress. He drilled something but I didn't feel anything. He said, "I'm opening up a valve that is closed." Since I didn't feel anything, I didn't know what it was, but I knew it was sexually related.

NOTE: In 1999 while typing up this dream, I had to look twice at the date of this dream, because I couldn't tell whether it was a 1999 dream in error or not because I live with another Joe now. :-) Nothing has changed. :-)


4-4-94 - DREAM - I swam from one shore to the other through blue white water. I came out of the water on the other shore and I felt a little gold ring fall off the little finger of my right hand. I thought it fell back into the water, but it actually fell into the lap of a man sitting on the beach.


4-6-94 - DREAM - I was having a dinner party and invited a judge and his wife from Waukesha, WI. The judge was going to provide the salad and asked me if I'd like to go to the farmer's market to help him pick out the vegetables. I agreed but for some reason I went by myself. I chose lettuce, cottage cheese with chives, cottage cheese with pineapple, and cottage cheese with paprika (red, green, and yellow) and pear quarters. The store didn't have enough pears (I needed 20 servings) so I sent one of my sons to the store to get another can of pears.

While he was gone I looked at my mail. There was a large envelope from the Handwriting Analysis organization. The envelope contained copies of forms I should use to analyze people's handwriting and a letter said it was about time I started using my skills to read people's handwriting for a living.

NOTE:  I started doing this 4 times, and even wrote a book about it which I didn't publish (yet?) Maybe it's time to kick myself in the butt and get going with this in 1999?


4-25-94 - DREAM - I was moving into a different house. Nothing was painted. It was all brown like bare board walls. The house was huge so there was lots of room. T.M. let his wife pick out what music I could have and they threw away everything else. I was grateful to be allowed any music at all. All of the record albums each had a bra attached to it, either white, or black and white. the records were all put on the ground floor.

My husband (Ed?) was in full control of everything else. I was trying to find something to wear to go to work in and his stuff was everywhere. I opened one closet and everything, including the pole had been yanked down and left on the floor. I knew from this that he was in a bad mood.

I went into another room where I knew where my stuff was. There was very little and the hooks to hang my robes on were too high to reach without standing on a chair.

I couldn't find any skirts or slacks to wear, just his stuff again, so I ended up wearing the same thing I had on the day before. Brown slacks, a brown flowered blouse, rose pink socks, and a jacket that was white with flowers on it. The blouse and jacket didn't match and the sleeves were too long and uneven. I called it the 'layered look'.

Kenny, the maintenance man was trying to help me sort out what was in the closet and I told him he could throw away all the child's size hangars. I went to find Ed to kiss him goodbye before I left for work. I found him and Kenny working on something together.

Ed acted like I was the most disgusting person on the face of the earth and was already drunk. I heard Kenny tell Ed he would get him some kind of vitamins to help his attitude.

I didn't even try to kiss him then, but exited the house as fast as  I could, glad to get away without being hurt more than emotionally.


4-25-94 - DREAM - I was in a hospital examining room. A boy, chubby, age 8 to 10, came near and on his thigh was a big grey 4" piece of tape. The tape showed many thumb prints in it where it was pressed on. Hypodermic needle holes were made through the tape in a double row like a big triangle. On the tape was written:


Another boy came near. On his thigh was a piece of gray tape 1" x 3". It was on vertically. On his piece of tape were the words


There was one hypodermic needle hole in the center between the two names.


4-27-94 - DREAM - I was living in a house on National Ave. by Holy Apostles church. I got married to a man I barely knew, not even his last name. He was very sullen and looked like solo from the TV spy show. My family was all there. My daughter was about 10 years old. There was a festival going on at the City Park. He decided he was going to the festival for supper. I could come if I wanted to. If I didn't, that was okay too. He was in a very bad mood.

There were lots of people around. I explained my feelings to a woman who had been at the wedding and told her that the marriage wasn't even consumated that we had barely even touched lips.

I didn't even want to go to the festival. He didn't want to wait for me because I didn't have my shoes on. I went upstairs to get my shoes and came back down. It was a very narrow stairway. Upstairs, everything was built out of walnut wood. It was dark in appearance.

My daughter had written some letters, they were ready to mail. Her money for dinner was in a little blue pouch. I no sooner saw it and a man named Mr. Ganzer picked it up. The house was still full of people. There were people from the wedding and people from the festival. I didn't even know them. A girl came along and told me that Mr. Ganzer's name was Gerstwin. I pondered why he had two different last names. The girl told me that this man was very trustworthy, but I had just seen him take my daughters' little blue purse.

I needed to go upstairs and get my purse which was in my bedroom and I no sooner thought that and realized I didn't have so much as a penny in my coat pockets, Mr. Ganzer/Gerstwin ran up the stairs ahead of me. I hollered at him, "Get back down here", really loud, and woke up.


4-28-94 - DREAM - I was in bed with L.D. the mailman who lived in my apartment building. There was nothing sexual about it. He had seen that I received an envelope from Astara. I asked him if he had ever heard of it. He said that he had the whole set in his bedroom. I told him that I had the whole 8 1/2 years of their teachings and was going to ask him if he would like to start a study group.