Dee Finney's blog

start date July 20, 2011

today's date October 27, 2012

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NOTE:  I was going through a drawer of old papers yesterday and came across a drawing I had made back in the year 2000 of a baby buggy, and next to it I wrote Scalar Wave Mechanics.

baby buggy scalar

 Naturally my curiosity arose as to whether I had done a web page on that image and if it indeed was related to Scalar Wave Mechanics.  I found the topic published on my website, but not the drawing itself, which surprised me, but it could be that I didn't have access to a printer that could be used to download to computers or something. I'm sure my computer/printer equipment back in the year 2000 was very antiquated. 

That said, today, I will update this page as it needs to be done.



with all apologies to James Redfield
who wrote the book first

by Dee Finney


5-7-00 - DREAM - I was walking through the alley from 17th St. to 16th St.
and one of  my neighbors had put several boxes of books out into the alley to
throw them away. I could no way walk by without looking at them.  Meanwhile
several of my sons came along and some other women. I then noticed that there
were infant shirts there on the ground and some of my own underwear and some
towels and I realized I had dropped my own laundry on the ground and some
infant wear which I had picked up at a yard sale since I was going to have a
baby soon. My daughter-in-law Sabrina was there who is expecting a baby and
I grabbed the infant underwear because I needed it myself and she was having
her first baby so would want all new clothing for her baby. I was willing to get
used clothing for my babies.

But I didn't let that distract me for long, I wanted the books.  I saw that one huge
box seemed to be all National Geographics. We collect them so I asked my sons
to take that box home and I grabbed the other one. Then I noticed that there was
a third box there that seemed to have garbage in it, but I looked closer and saw
that there was a book underneath the white foam stuff packing material.  

I took the packing material out and saw that the book looked like an almost new
copy of "Second Insight". The book was yellow flowered with an extra flap on
the front like it was a box with two books inside. The book was much thicker
than I had remembered it. I wondered why someone would throw that away. I
went through the pages quite quickly and saw that someone had scratched some
of the center of the book to make a hole to put some little treasure in it.  I had
read the book before but I was no way going to let this book go even with
some of the text missing.

I grabbed the boxes of books including "Second Insight" and headed for home.
By the some other women were coming through the alley.  One woman was
dressed in dark clothing and stopped at the first house to ask about the stuff
left in the alley. I could hear her crying about something.  She wanted something
from the woman in that house and had missed getting it. She was too late. I
heard two women farther over saying, "I hate it when women cry in public."

Meanwhile I had two long coffee tables on wheels ahead of me, and I was
pushing them towards home along with my stuff.  I wasn't leaving nothing
behind that was of use.

taken from James Redfield's Chapter II
of The Celestine Vision


                      1. Night Dreams
                      2. Seeing or Thinking of an Old Friend
                      3. Chance Meetings
                      4. Information Arriving at Just the Right Moment
                      5. Relating Synchronicity to Our Religious Beliefs
                      6. Responding to Skepticism
                      7. Taking Synchronicity Seriously

1.  Anyone who has been to our website before knows how much Joe Mason and I (Dee Finney) appreciate and acknowledge that 'dreams' are our most valued teaching tool for life. I personally have been journaling my dreams since 1980 ... over 20 years.  Unfortunately some of my dreams and visions and experiences are missing ... lost forever when I moved suddenly from Washington State to California in 1986.  I lost 4 years of dreams, all neatly hand-written in 3 huge three-post binders.  Perhaps someone picked them up and took them home, but I really doubt it.  They are gone forever except somewhere back in the recesses of my own mind where they could be retrieved if necessary.  However, those dreams were mostly for those years except for prophecies of the future, and those are still in my mind clearly whenever I think of the future.  

When I wake up in the morning now, the first thing I do ... without opening my eyes ... is to remember what I dreamed like my life depended on it ... because it does.  Once I have the dream as clear in my mind as I can get it, I open my eyes and immediately write it in my journal or get out of bed and go directly to the computer and type it into the journal page where all my dreams are now kept for the general public to read if they wish to.

When I met Joe Mason in 1997, he immediately saw some insights into my dreams that I didn't even realize were there.  I had many dreams I couldn't analyze because they were so strange, but Joe saw connections to mythology and Gnostic religious ideas which I had always avoided studying.

I had always viewed mythology as so many adult fairy tales and I had left fairy tales behind when I left grade school.  That was a dumb thing to do as far as education goes, but in this case, it was very important that I had done that since my dreams were relating the same themes as mythological stories whether I had read them or not and that itself gave the mythology more validity that the myths were based in reality from somewhere back in antiquity.  That also validates the fact that I don't necessarily just dream things I know anything about, which I don't in most cases. I dream all manner of things I never heard about in my entire life.

The Gnostic religious ideas in my dreams which would be seen as heresy by the Fundamental Christian church, whether Catholic or Protestant, were very important to me, however they led me away from the Holy Bible.  They weren't the same at all.

I wasn't raised within any particular religion as my parents were agnostic and but somewhat knowledgeable of the Holy Bible. My Mother had dropped out of church at age 16 and never went back. My Father had never been to church in his early life and leaned towards Evangelical Healers and Mary Baker Eddy as his health failed in later life.

I had struggled through several religions over the years, trying to find one that fit my life and none ever did. My dreams told me a different story than what was printed between those two Holy covers.  My dreams led me to a different Holy Life ... all based on what I saw in the spirit world at night.

A recent dream told me that Joe and I should start our own church called "The Church of the Holy Grail".  How fitting.  That's exactly how we both see our dreams.  Joe journalled his dreams for many years but just before he met me, he started forgetting his dreams and still rarely remembers them.  But when he does remember one I write it into my own journal, and when I get the time, all of his dreams journalled from the 1990's will be put on line just like mine are.  It's just a matter of time.

Note: This is not working out very well, as I don't have time to even type up about 6 years worth of dreams.  We really need a typist at our house who can work independently and read our handwriting also. :-)

I manage a dream journal e-mail group (   Joe and I study other people's dreams as we come across them and gladly analyze the dreams that people send us.  People need to know that our outlook on dreams is not the same as those who study dreams according to Jung and Freud in college.  Though most dreams of common people are about their daily lives, our website is about Big Dreams ... those which are about mankind and the 'BIG' picture of humanity.

All people have some Big Dreams from time to time.  Though people's daily dreams are what they need to lead a happy and fulfilled life, the Big Dreams, if shared, can lead all mankind to a grand existence.  Those are the ones we search for ultimately.

All this leads me to wonder what was missing in this book I found in the alley titled "Second Insight"?  Joe and I talked about it, and this is what we think it is.  The are coincidences between night dreams and real life events.  Dreams and coincidences connect to events such as the 11:11 and crop circles which unknown sources put on the ground in the middle of the night. Why do hundreds, if not thousands of people all see and dream the same thing?  Are these coincidences ... synchronicities ... or they planned and inserted into our dreams from the spirit world by angels or other dimensional beings?

When Joe and I look back at our lives previous to meeting, we both have dreams and coincidences to things such as places we have lived, the actual street names or numbers, people's names, people we have known.  All these things were there for a reason. One just needs to look for them.

Humanity on the Pollen Path

2. Seeing or Thinking of and old friend.  This happens to people all the time.  Someone will be going about their daily business and suddenly think of someone they haven't seen in many months or years. The phone will ring and it will be that same person on the line.  Or they will meet that person on the street.  Normally, a person will think, "Wow! What a coincidence."

But is it just a coincidence?  Of course not.  It was a meeting planned in the spirit world for the two of you to connect at just that moment to impart information to each other for a reason.

Most people get a kick out of such coincidences, but don't stop there ... look for the reason for the meeting ... there is a learning experience going on here.  One of both are learning something you need to know.  

As we say, "Wake up and smell the coffee!"  We need to be much more aware of these events. Most people walk around in a daze of getting from one end of the day to the other and are missing the joys of what is actually happening to them on a daily basis ... all the learning experiences they are letting pass by.  Each and every event of every day is for us to learn from.  Don't miss them!

3.  Chance Meetings - These might not be people you even know, but you might be going about your business and stop at a store or a restaurant and run into someone who makes your acquaintance.  That person just happens to know something about or be connected to something you are interested in.  A coincidence?  Not really.  This person was placed there by planned events in the spirit world to give you a helping hand up in the line of progress you are working on.  These meetings can be on more than one level and on more than one subject.

Perhaps you are interested in a particular subject or topic or planning on searching for a new line of work ... you walk into the restaurant and the hostess sits you down at the next table from someone who works in that business and some little event like dropping a fork on the floor will get you acquainted.  Don't let that pass you by. That person was placed there for you to get some information from.  Drop the fork twice if you have to, but learn why that other person is there.

Joe and I are probably as experienced as anyone else in this type of meeting.  In 1997, Joe and I were struggling through other events in our lives ... both living alone, but 'looking' for our next partner.  On a Saturday, both of us were on our computers and were sent a chat request by someone who had never been on AOL before and was only there for one time.

Joe recognized my name and IM'd me and asked me a question.  That strange tingling went through me and I knew instantly he was the one being sent to me.  It's an old story by now, but I didn't let it pass me by.  Even though we lived 1500 miles apart, within a couple months Joe came to get me and I moved to California to be with him to do our dream research and our website  was born.  

Was that a coincidence?  No way!  It was a planned event!  I had dreamed about Joe as far as back as 1991. I just didn't know who he was, though I dreamed of even the address we were to live at after we met and what kind of job he did.  

Don't let these kinds of coincidences pass you by.  You were meant to be there at just that moment and so was the other person.

4. Information Arriving at Just the Right Moment - Ever been in the library or a book store and have a book jump off the shelf at your feet?  Don't laugh!  It's happened to many people. I've even had a particular book lay on top of the television set for 4 months and suddenly have it fly off the television set and land face up on the floor 5 feet away.  Do you think I just picked up the book and put it back where it had been?  No way!  I read it cover to cover to see what it was I supposed to know at that moment?  

I've even struggled with a particular subject, not knowing something I needed, turned on the radio and heard an interview of a person who wrote a book on that exact topic. Yup! That person made a book sale at the same moment.  I was waiting for him to write it.  You may be smiling right now because you've experienced that too, or perhaps even thinking this is a whole bunch of crap, but unless you open your awareness and know that these things happen for a reason ... you are missing the boat.  The boat will sail without you unless you grab these opportunities and search them out.  

NOTE: I need to interject some information right here because my own coincidences and synchronicities are so overwhelming right now, I need to share them.

I had the dream at the top of this page, and it was the impetus for all the rest to follow, but also ties in information I've dreamed for 20 years.  This morning I feel like I have the secret to the Universe.  Whether anyone else will feel that way or even understand what I'm getting at or have any use for it is another matter.  I understand that we all have a little piece of the puzzle and we need to get together so we can create the 'whole' and all bring our little pieces together and share them.

NOTE:  The next paragraph is very much out of date and the links don't work anymore, but I'm leaving it here just for recording the experience.


The other night I listened to Anna Hayes on the SIGHTINGS.COM show for the third time. I knew the first time I heard her and bought her books that I was dreaming everything she was talking about.  I had lots of the pieces of the puzzle.  She had all the glue to put them together.

Her shows are at:  

12-6-99   - Second Half of Show  (you might have to reroute this though
2-4-00     - Second Half of Show    etc.
5-7-00         - First Half of Show   etc.

She mentioned on her show on 5/7/2000 that we need to learn scalar physics.  She stated in specifics that we need to understand scalar wave mechanics.

HERE IS ANNA HAYES ON  Note that she has changed her name since her remarriage:  She now calls herself Ashayana Deane

See if you can understand this one:

this is what it is about:

Star Fire Cycle
Sep 25, 2010 – Star Fire is a cycle of pulling inward on the Inhale of Source, into what is ... In a normal Solar Activation Cycle (SAC) as the Earth evolves, we ...
  1. the flakey 2012 crowd..Almine [Archive] - Project Avalon Community ...
    12 posts - 8 authors - Aug 21, 2010
    You have been evangelizing Ashayana Deane's material for a while now. ... you,2012 will free you, your DNA will activate automatically...the dumbed down .... We are on Starfire Ascension that includes the Adashi Return path.
  2. ReU-Ta Clusters

    Sep 25, 2010 – ... the Guardian Alliance's Freedom Teachings and the work of Ashayana Deane ... The Aurora Force which was needed to activate these natural ReU-Ta ... capsule capable of riding through the whole StarFire rebirth process.
  3. A Letter from James of Wingmakers regarding statements made by Ashayana Deane ...

    31 posts - 4 authors - Jun 13, 2010
    2) That the WingMakers art and music activate a DNA response from those who view .... to WingMakers from her video interviews with Ashayana Deane(as described at Kerry's ..... Starfire Tor actually proved them to be a hoax.
  4. Also curious, anyone familiar with DNA activation? › Science The Universe
    20 posts - 9 authors - Nov 18, 2007
    {quote Chelsea} He does DNA activation work. ... I recommend reading the Voyagers books by Ashayana Deane ( they are on Amazon) they ...
  5. Communion Conclave - Aurora Potential

    Secrets of the Yugas · The Real Christmas Story · Flame Body Activation .... ancient Density One planet Ur-Tha before undergoing its StarFire Cycle 550 million ...


I meditated on this term (scalar) and asked for a visual picture clue of what this was:  This is what I saw:

I'm no artist but you can see the similar shape of the buggy to the drawing below.  It also matches the drawing I just put on this page which I had dreamed.

Here is a recent coincidence.  I was sent this picture in an e-mail just yesterday.

Apologies for using this graphic from an unknown artist.
If anyone knows who did this artwork, I'll be happy to give credit.

Joe mentioned that the book of Ezekiel describes the 4 wheeled vehicle in Chapter 10 starting in verse 9.  It rather sounds like a flying shopping cart with the ability for the wheels to go in any direction ...  

I've had dreams about carts like that also in the past.

12-11-89 - DREAM - I was in the grocery store buying food. A symbolic Edward was with me and I was suspecting that he was filching my money. He paid for the groceries and we headed home towards 16th St. Going up Center street, we ran into a gang of kids with squirt guns who divided in half and tried to get me. The grocery cart turned into a closed umbrella which became my defense weapon. I held the giant at bay with the umbrella while swinging it around me. Some big shot guy who was a supporter of the gang was singing a song about donuts and he attempted to trap me by shining donuts at me. I used my umbrella to ward them off and went on down to my house. Some guy there was trying to tell me that it was important to wear shoes and I proved to him that wearing shoes was a cover-up for everything negative.


2-15-92 - DREAM - I was with my son Bill. He was driving a car south on Hwy.100. (108th St.)  My side of the car was wet like it had rained and it was shadowy. His side of the car was in the sun. I thought that if we changed direction, I could be in the sun too, so I told him to go around the block, then we could go east. He made a slight left turn before he turned right and I hollered at him and told never to do that. We were now on Grange Ave. going west and we were riding in tandem, he was on a tractor of sorts and I was on a grey wooden chair hooked on behind.

In the road was papers from someone's careless left-behind trash. I was going over pages of brown lined accounting sheets and I thought that I should consider getting some because I might need them in the future. Each succeeding set got longer.

Then we rode over a map. I grabbed it. It was of Arizona. I kept that in case there was a future use.

NOTE:  The above map is very important in my life, because in 2010 we decided to move to Arizona and start a spiritual health-wellness community. We ultimately were forced to change it to California, but our nonprofit business is registered in Arizona.  See:

Then, there were more maps we drove over. Those were of two other southwestern states. I took them also. then we came to a stack of brochures for some Bear Park "Care Bears" or something. I told him we should take the coloring books only. They were yellow an I took five of them.  (This is interesting since I now live within a few blocks of Big Bear Park in California)

His cart stopped running then and I saw that a wire was disconnected but he could fix it. We were at the corner of Moorland Rd. then.

We were at my New Berlin house then and I was doing typing in an office setting. I came across some silver grommets that had no purchase order, so I took them in the basement knowing that everything that is used should have a record of it. My ex-husband was in charge of the factory and I told him that if he would sign the paperwork, I would type up the purchase order for the silver grommets that were used between every piece of piping.

I saw then that he was crippled, his right arm was missing and his back was bent backwards like it had been broken. I heard someone say, "He's been like that ever since the accident, but he keeps right on going."


10-23-93 - DREAM - I was cleaning up the house and the last place to clean up was my daughter's bedroom. The last bag contained 5 old dolls and a broken telephone which I thought should be thrown out, but they were sentimental to her and kept anyway though she was old enough to give up dolls.

Because I wanted to throw out her dolls, my daughter decided to get back at me by messing around with the man I was going out on a date with. As we were walking up the street towards where the man Bob was, she said, "We're going to act out a book."

When we got to Bob's house, there were a bunch of men of various ages playing cards through a broken chain link fence. My daughter being more agile than I jumped the fence; so she was on one side and I on the other. Bob's son was also there as were several of Bob's son's friends.

Bob and his son knew that my daughter and I were mother and daughter but the other young men didn't. My daughter made a sarcastic comment about the card game as she got there first and the men naturally made one back to her. I came up to them next and I said to them as sexy as possible, "Hello Gentlemen" and the younger man not knowing who I was, said, "Now! There's class!"

Then I chose Bob, the oldest of the men to be with and the younger god looking men couldn't believe my choice. Bob and I went grocery shopping and we picked out all the vegetables first and strangely enough the cart rolled backwards toward the meat counter last. An older woman asked me to help her with her cart because her cart was rolling backwards too, but I explained the situation to her that that's the way the carts behaved...backwards towards the meat counter.

Bob put a huge roast into the cart, 10 times more meat than any one person could possibly eat and asked if I would pay for it and he'd pay me back later. I agreed and then woke up.

NOTE:  During 1993, I met online a woman by the name of Mikki Wedel, and she makes reborn dolls which she sells on  They are so realistic, they look like newborn infants.  I personally own four of them now and the energy they have is phenomenal when you hold them.


10/97 DREAM - I headed towards home and met 2 of my youngest boys. They were about 6 and 8 years old. Bill was young enough so that I could lift him off the ground with the hand when we came to snow drifts and ruts. We were on Center St. and I looked up into the sky. There was a brown cloud scudding across the sky. I stared at it and saw that it was a painting of a UFO with 2 moon-like circles in front of it partially.

I couldn't figure out why it was painted in the sky but I didn't want to find out why. I was afraid of a beam of light that might come down to zap me. We hurried as fast as we could around the corner of 17th St. and I noticed it had started to snow which obscured the sight of the UFO. I said, "Let's hurry now. They can't see us either", and then I realized they had infra-red radar and could still see us even if we couldn't see them. We couldn't make much headway on the sidewalk and Bob complained that I couldn't lift him by one hand like I could do with Bill, so we ran out to the street and headed south on the hard packed snow on the road. We suddenly met the mailman going north. He was totally out of character in summer shorts, pushing a cart that had a hedge trimmer on the right side. We hurried past him and headed for home.


1-11-98 - DREAM - Everything was greatly exaggerated. when I was in my office with the bookcase and file cabinets, I was somewhat tied to them which kept me from falling into a dark bottomless abyss just one step away.

When my father appeared to talk to me on a great plaza, he was standing up on a huge brown square platform, driving it like a chariot on huge spoked wheels . When he came into the plaza, there was not even 1/4" space leeway to spare for him to move in.

When I was on a street later trying to explain this to someone, a huge truck came by like a UPS highway truck, dark, dark green with no writing on it. It seemed as tall as the sky, and it too, when it turned left at the intersection, didn't have any leeway of ever 1/4" to go by either.


1-12-98 - DREAM - I was on the computer and twice they showed me a pattern of stars like a chariot. They called it "The Ancient of Days".


1-15-98 - DREAM - I was working in the 2nd story of a church-like place. there was a section like a jewelry store where hundreds of crystals were setting on counters and hanging from jewelry trees. My little daughter was there admiring them and she said, "I went downtown with A.O. to the jewelry store and we looked at everything, but I came home empty handed." I felt kind of proud of her.

I was standing by a desk where people bought tickets to something and the woman who was in charge of that hadn't yet done the book work for 1998 so no work could be done yet.

I went outside and found out that B.G. was leaving town. I had a chariot which was red leather upholstered for him to use but someone had dumped tomatoes all over it and I had to clean it up. I began wiping it off and it was pretty gross, then I had to take the rag upstairs, wash it out, then come back down and wipe it off one more time.

B.G. was wearing a yellow sweater and was going around saying goodbye to people so I rushed back upstairs to wash the rag. There were a lot of famous church people up there...all really tall and thin, these were all people from television. One kind of looked like Princess Di. There was also a very swarthy man up there and was questioning people about some oil stealing scandal.

I was looking for B.G. at this point because I didn't want to miss saying goodbye to him. I finally spotted him leaning up against the wall at the bottom of the stairway where 3 ministers were having a discussion. He was either listening to the conversation or talking to them, I couldn't tell. I spotted his yellow sweater and went down the steps.

I went to hug him goodbye and we both morphed into gold robotic figures. I was the Lion and he was the Tin man from the wizard of Oz but we were both golden colored and sat down side by side on golden thrones. I was on the right and he was on the left.


1-27-98 - DREAM - I was getting ready for the day, and was down on the floor, I saw an old newspaper on the floor and decided to clean them up and throw them away. I started to pick them up and put them on the bed when I saw letters on the bed that needed answering, so I started to answer the letters. While I was answering the letters, visitors started to arrive, including my brother. I said, "Oh! I just wrote you a letter, and I was going to give it to him, but I couldn't find it because there were too many newspaper on the bed. I told him I'd mail it when I found it.

I had to go to work and I volunteered to deliver some soup to some needy people. The soup tureen was way too long and narrow with little short handles and I couldn't hang onto it good enough, so I put it on the floor and decided to get a cart because it was a long way to go and I knew I would drop it on the way.

I looked up and a black woman and a white man came along with a cart full of planted flowers. She talked to me like she knew me too. I followed them into a schoolroom where they had a flower nursery for the school children. They had all the little flowers started which the children would later plant and grow outside. They had plants growing everywhere in this low light and tulips were even coming out of the concrete.

I went outside and was walking on the lawn looking at the trees and flowers and I fell into a huge hole. It was so deep I thought it was going to swallow me up, but I saw a man coming who I recognized. He was the white haired movie actor (Neils.?) He had a black man companion. I waved my left arm over my head wildly. "Help me! Help me!", I was yelling. I knew the man was a magician because I had seen him do a magic trick sometime earlier.

He came over and standing next to the hole and without touching my outstretch hand, he more or less twitched his nose and I popped out of the hole like I was on an elevator. I thanked him profusely and went on, headed for home.

(After I woke up, I realized that in the whole dream, I never finished anything I started)


6-24-98 - DREAM - I was at a school playground. Someone asked me if I remembered what R___ looked like. I said I did. They said, "See if you can pick her out. I looked and looked and looked. I even looked at the men in case she had had a sex change operation. I didn't see anyone that looked like R___. Then I took a good look at the person who had asked me the question. I had to look real close but it was her. I said, "The person who looks the most like her is YOU. I'm going to say it's YOU!" She said, "You're right! It's me! And this is how I did it." She handed me a big white pill and a glass of water. She said, "Take it!" And I did.

I half woke up and went right back to sleep. I was back in the same place with the same woman. She said, "My name is Paulie Chamish!" They were trying to get other people to recognize her in order for others to know they could become young again.

We went inside a shopping mall then, and I picked out some pretty clothes to wear. I was going to put it on a credit card so t wouldn't seem so bad. I ran into a couple women from One Life To Live. "Dorian" was attempting to steal some clothes by putting them in a big black gym bag and slip them out to the car without paying for them. She pulled some piece of green cloth over her face so nobody would see her face. I knew she was going to walk out with the bag of stolen clothes, but I asked her to take my green and white bathrobe which I had been wearing earlier. I had it stuffed into the shopping bag I was carrying. I handed it to her and said, "Here! Do you mind putting this in the car?" and she put it over her black bag and pulled the green cloth closer over her face.

I walked down the mall, worried that I spent too much on clothes. I pulled the clothes out of the cart and looked at them. There was a skirt and a blouse which I had spent $36 and $42 for. And there was a veil/scarf of see-thru gauze thread in red/green which I said only cost a couple of pennies and I realized that I hadn't spent too much after all.

I put it in the shopping cart and started to push the car around in a circle to go back the other way. I almost ran into a man's legs. I apologized and then backed up and almost ran into a black man and his child. I started to laugh. I said, "I'm sorry. I really don't have very good control of this thing." The man laughed with me as I headed back towards the parking lot, trying to remember that person's name, "Paulie Chamish."


6-24-98 - DREAM - I was living in a house with a bunch of other people. B.G. the painter came to visit, so I started telling him the dream I had about him earlier this year about how he was leaving. In the dream I told him that I had a red "Excalibur" leather upholstered to give him. (It had been a chariot) I told him in the upper church Princess Diana, Jacqueline Kennedy O'Nassis and the actor "Neils"sp was there. (J.K.O. was not there) and I told him that when I hugged him goodbye that I had turned into the Lion King and he had turned into the Queen of Diamonds. (He was the Tin Man from the Wizard of Oz and I had become the Lion and we had sat down on golden thrones) B.G. was all disappointed that he was the Queen of Diamonds. After he left, I remembered that it actually was the Knight of Diamonds and visualized the horse figure on a chess board game.

In the next part of the dream, I was talking with the other women about our responsibilities in taking care of the house. We each were responsible to take care of the part we lived in. W.G. came in and told us that her car was all messed up and I explained the deal, how we were all responsible for our own little area we lived in. And I said, "And who is responsible for your car?" She looked around wildly looking for someone to blame. I asked her again, "And who is responsible for YOUR car?" emphasizing the word Your. She again looked around for someone to blame, so I said it again, "WHO is responsible for YOUR car?" and then she finally got it that she was responsible for her own car.


7-16-98 - VISION - First I heard a bell ring in my right ear. I then saw a web page close down. The voice said, "The close-out on your business is '0'. I heard a bell ring in my left ear. The voice said, "You will go for a wild ride on your web site." I saw numerous people dancing wildly in fancy costumes on the page.

7-17-98 - DREAM - I was at a hospital with my friend Alice. Her father was there for tests. They were going to take him down the elevator. A man in white was by the controls of the elevator and Alice was standing in the back. Her father's cart was by my right side. Suddenly, a short little woman pushed past me and said, "Her Father is dead!"

There was no need for me to squeeze into the elevator with them and the body, so I went into a room nearby. Suddenly, Alice's Father appeared in the doorway. He looked like a big white square pillow. His eyes were huge and yellow and were looking upward and to the right.

A voice said, "THE BIT-MOTHER" is dead".

The scene changed to a web page. I could see just the big triangle from AOL on the page, and as I looked at it, a big dragon head or alligator came out of it.


12-4-98 - DREAM - The event seemed to take place about 35 years ago. I was asked if we could send healing, love, and light to a young boy who was having breathing problems. Instead of doing just that, we actually went to the hospital to visit the young boy. My oldest son was younger than 10 in the dream and the rest were all younger.

To go there, each person had to take an extra pair of boots or shoes. We went into the hospital and commiserated with the boy's mother who thanked us profusely for coming. When we got ready to leave, we had to pick up the boots and shoes and some other stuff we accumulated while there, and cut up paper off the floor which I had to clean up. It ended up we had to take two carts of stuff out of the hospital. One was full of boots and shoes in a grocery cart and all the other stuff was in a dumpster-like cart.

When we went outside and went home, I discovered that a young female friend had turned the water faucet on and the water was a foot deep near the faucet. I managed to wade through the water and shut it off before it did any damage.


12-7-98 - Meditation for Billy Graham - It started out that there was a baby which needed healing, so we got it ready to go to the hospital and it was placed in a buggy-like cart. Then there was another baby which needed healing so we put that one next to the 1st one, wrapped it tightly and put it in the buggy with the 1st baby. Then there was a 3rd baby which needed healing. We put it too into the buggy to take it to the hospital for healing. I tried wrapping the baby tightly for the trip and we put a blanket around the baby tightly. But the babies became one baby and we couldn't wrap the babies tightly enough. I had a blue blanket, a yellow blanket, and a white blanket and when I put them all together the baby became so strong, I could not wrap the baby tight enough to keep it from seeing where it was going.

A finally had to pick the baby up, hopefully to rewrap it for the trip to the hospital and the entire baby and the buggy was wet underneath.

It didn't need just a diaper changed, but it's whole clothes and the blankets. The baby seemed not to need healing. It was so strong as the 3 in one baby. It was obvious that when I put a new white outfit on the baby, it was a whole and healthy baby.

I saw many web pages about Billy Graham and I created a web page with music and the music was , "His Love Amazes Me."

NOTE: We put the music "His Love Amazes Me" on the front page of our web site for a week prior to Christmas.


12-30-98 - DREAM - I was taking care of an infant. I don't know if it was mine or someone elses, but it was doing things that were way beyond the capabilities of what I thought an infant would do. I went to get it some food to feed it, and it was sucking on a hamburger and pickles. Then the baby made it's own hamburger on a tray and the lettuce pile was three feet high and 3 feet wide and the hamburger part was way too top-heavy ad fell over on the floor. A waitress and others picked up all the lettuce. We ate it anyway so it wouldn't go to waste.

A girl visitor wanted to go to 35th St. We had to take the baby with us in a cart, pulled behind a jeep. I was trying to figure out the logistics of getting her there and still have a car to drive and leave anyone stranded.


1-11-99 - DREAM - I was taking over as manager for a large apartment building. I was standing on the sidewalk meeting people I would be responsible for. Some were new tenants and some I had known before when I managed the building earlier. I befriended a tall blonde woman who looked much like myself. She was from apartment 301. She seemed angry at first, then a relative of hers came up to her on the left and I was on the right and her attitude completely changed and she became teary-eyed and sad.

Other people were coming along that looked familiar. They would walk up to me, touch foreheads with me and continue on their way.

A married couple asked me if I would like to go to the mall with them. Their car was very narrow, about half or less of a regular car. They wanted me to sit between them and there was only two inches of space there. He was really a bad driver and in turning around he locked his back bumper on the bumper of the other car. That was a bad sign to start with. He got the car turned around and told me to get in. The car was more like a golf cart now and very flexible. I told them I was not going to fit and just like I said, I didn't. The woman had to stand up and sit on my lap and there still wasn't room for me and the guy either and I told them it was illegal to drive with her on my lap, there was no seat belts and no windshield. I told them they'd have to go in my car instead.

I went to get my car from the garage. There was a big blue car I normally used and a silver Chevy wagon behind it. I realized that I didn't have the keys to it. The keys were in New Berlin and I would have to get them back. So, I got in my car to go to New Berlin. I had to go east to a T intersection. The road to the left was newly paved, but I needed to go right towards Greenfield Ave. and then west toward New Berlin which was also the direction of the mall.

I noted that the name of the street was "Schism Way". As soon as I turned that way, I knew there was something wrong. There were weeds and flowers growing up through the roadway pavement. The further I went I could see weeds encroaching along the edges. The road was getting narrower and narrower. The road began to go up a hill and made a curve to the left towards the east. It was beautiful to be in this wild country and I could see off to the right as the road got higher and higher up the hill. The view was beautiful. I came to some huge dark apartment buildings and this road curved up and around the back of them. The road got so narrow, it was not long drivable and a huge drop off was on the right. The road was now all sand and to continue, you would have to walk and it wound up behind the dark apartment building and ended there. I knew now this road was the wrong way to go, so I turned around to go back the way I had come. As soon as I turned around, I saw a huge sign that said, "Thanks for sightseeing at Schism Way."

My car was now like a round snow sled kids use that you sit on and slide down hills of snow. The road was deeply grooved sand from the other people going this way and weeds were all along the edge, but I got on my round sled and started sliding down the hill which wound around back down the hill towards the right and woke up.

I immediately had a vision of seeing a list of things I had yet to do in my life. There was a lot of them. About half way down the list was the word DEVIL. As soon as I saw it, it became animated and turned into a snake. I somehow stomped on it's head as soon as I recognized it. The black snake which was still on the line on the list, stretched out and began to sizzle like it was burning up and poofed out of existence. I had killed it.

I woke up feeling joyful.


1-15-99 - DREAM

There was a dog tied to the right side of the horse, also carefully harnessed. The woman was driving the car which seemed to be motorized but the horse and dog were pulling it too. I recalled the cliche, "Don't put the cart before the horse."

The dream started with me in the house with my husband who decided in mid-day that he wanted to make love. He got down on all fours on the floor like a dog, playfully. The timing was all wrong. There were glass doors on our room and the room across the way also had a glass door so my son Tom could see us.

Also, the maintenance man named Jim came and lay on the bed behind me to take a nap. Two other maintenance men were in the kitchen but there was no wall between the head of the bed and the kitchen so they could see in too. I squirmed out of my husband's clutches and went over to my dresser where I was trying to balance many little perfume bottles in a small container without knocked a box of light bulbs off onto the floor.

I went outside to do an errand which I can't remember. As I was walking down the street, the cart I drew above came by. It had just come down from up north. The woman was driving the horse with reins and a whip. she was dark haired, peasant-like, and two children were in the cart with her. The cart was unique in that it had a triangular cage around the horse that went way out in front of the horse so that it was enclosed in the cage. Alongside the horse, a reddish colored dog was harnessed to its right side. The cage had a top on it like a surrey and there was a big wheel on top of the cage as well, with flags flying. It seemed like they actually lived in this horse drawn cage, but I could hear a motor running so it seemed like the cart was actually motor driven and th house was just for show.

The cart was very unstable, running down the left side of the road besides. There were many dogs in the street. I saw at least two dead dogs laying in the street with red leashes around their necks like they had run away. Other dogs were sniffing and eating on their bodies.

Three dogs were running alongside me on the left. One was black lab, one red Irish setter, one light tan Collie.  all three dogs wanted to be with me. The black Labrador was closest and actually wrapped his body around behind my legs and when I put my hand down in front of his face and hollered, "Heel!" He sucked on my little finger. I continued to holler "Heel!" to control the dogs as I crossed the street to go home for lunch.

I only allowed the tan collie to go into the house with me. The other two had to stay outside. I ran up seven steps in the hallway up to the kitchen door. My little daughter was sitting on the floor cutting a picture out of a magazine or book. I said, "Did you start lunch without me?"  I picked her up and placed her on a high pedestal type structure. In her hands was the picture. It was a house, shaped with a triangle on the upper left. (There were some marks inside the picture similar to a stock chart like I had seen before I went to sleep) I thought of using the scissors to trim the picture more carefully than she had.

The dream voice message said, "Do you remember Poe and Hague?"  Poe appeared as a triangle and Hague appeared as a spoked wheel.


1-14-99 - DREAM - This was a totally sad dream. A job I had done for a woman was over and I was being let go. I actually don't know what I did there at this large company except that I made a web page. Everyone seemed to be angry at me for something I had said but nobody would tell me what I had said. The boss I worked for never told me how much I was earning and I had no money. The room I spent the nights in was a bathroom that I was locked in. One woman who felt sorry for me slipped two dollar bills, some dimes and a small pile of used stamps under the door to try to help me out.

I managed to get out of the building at one point and went walking down the street. A farmer had left a small wagon with the last of his harvest by the side of the road for anyone to take. I looked in the one bag. Everything in it was unripe. I saw tomatoes, bananas, and corn, all so far from ripe they couldn't be eaten. Also in the cart were many watermelons which I didn't bother to look at because I wouldn't eat it anyway.

As I was walking away again an old man I knew from Milwaukee picked up the bag to take it home. My daughter-in-law Becky came along and took it away from him. At that point I picked up the bag again and everything was hot like it had been on a barbecue.

I went back to the office to get whatever was there I could take with me. I saw two coats, one brown tweed and one brown fur. I left both of them there. I was looking at the desk to see if there was anything there and a young girl came up to me so angry at me for what I had said. She got so angry she started to cry. I went over to her and put my arm around her shoulder while she cried. I saw she was pregnant...maybe 4 or 5 months. I had my hand on her stomach and her baby was kicking really hard. I asked her what was the matter. She said, "You told me he didn't love me."

She was speaking of the father of the baby. I said, "No! I never said he didn't love you. You ARE loved!" At this point her skin was very dark. I felt she represented another time and place. She said, "I thought I had nothing left to live for." Just then her baby kicked her again really hard and she got a big smile on her face and she knew she could live for the baby.

I went over to a table and sat down to contemplate what I was going to do next.

A short swarthy man and his short swarthy cohort came over and asked if I had another job to go to. I said, "No!" He said, "What were you paid here?" I said I didn't know. He said, "That's what I figured. I have a job for you.!" I said, "Oh?" He said, "Yes! I'll pay you ____" (like lira or some other foreign currency) It sounded better than nothing to me. I agreed that it was okay. I said, "You want to give me your business card so I know where to go?" He handed me the card. It said, "Frank's Part Time Delivery Service." The address was on it and I was trying to make it out but I knew then as I held the card that it was a cover for something else and I started having visions of what I was really up against. I saw LUXAN as the place I would work and that my job was SPY and I saw CD, and then the logos of hundreds of companies I would be expected to spy on.

I woke up as these logos continued to flash in front of me.


1-31-99 - DREAM - I was managing a very large building. It seemed to be more than an apartment building because there was a large public areas as well. I had several people working for me, and I heard from one of the women who was a cleaning woman that there was a problem with the key box.

Before I went to take care of the problem however, I met some people who looked like they were shopping in a store-like area where boxes and boxes of food were. The man said something to his wife that I looked like some celebrity. She said, "No! She can't be because of her age."

Out of strong curiosity I had to ask him, "How old do you think I am?"

He hemmed and hawed a moment and said, "40!" I laughed and said, "I'm 60!" I felt really good at that moment.

I then went upstairs where the women were working in a big public kitchen. I saw that my old friend Dee who I was friends with in the early 80's had returned. I didn't make any special notice of it at that moment, but a couple minutes later, she came over to where I was and mentioned there was a problem with the key box. I began to walk over to where the key box was and another woman came by. (looked like what I think Judy Beebe looks like) She got into a cart that had 2 large wheels on it. Inside the cart was a huge of maintenance tools and there were a 'coping' saw on top. There was also an empty laundry basket as the laundry was done. She indicated I should look at the tools. I said, "What! Are you telling me I have too many? I began to tell the two women about the man who thought I was 40 years old. I laughed and told the women, "I've never been so happy since I turned 40."

I woke up laughing.


2-6-99 - DREAM - I don't recall how this dream started, but I found myself in an upstairs room with a dark-haired woman who wanted to watch what a close male friend was doing without him knowing it, so she constructed a mirror on the wall out of golden mirror tiles with a hole through the wall behind it, so she could look out through the mirror in the center, so nobody could see anything but themselves if they looked at the mirror, but she could see everything that was going on.

I had a small boy infant there. He was infant size, but was obviously more mature than his size would portray. He talked like a very mature person for his size. We were going to go downstairs. He didn't want to be carried, nor would he walk down like a normal person. He spoke as an adult would, he stiffened his body out and slid down the stairs like it was a slide. We reached the platform where the half-way point was the stairway continued on in a different direction.

He got up, walked to the next stairway, again stiffened himself out and slid down to the 1st floor. He explained that he wanted to make it fun.

When I got down to the first floor, I heard a baby screech from the other room. I ran to the kitchen and found a girl baby who seemed to be mine in a silver grocery cart. She was covered over by stored Christmas decorations. I moved the Christmas decorations over and picked her up. This baby too spoke with a maturity that was way beyond her infant size also.

I don't recall exactly what I did with her, perhaps get her dressed for the day. The boy baby was not in evidence at this time.

Then we were going outside and went past a bunch of old ladies as we went out the door. The girl baby walked outside ahead of me and said to the old ladies, what sounded like "I'm 'S_____ K______ " I said to the old ladies, laughing, She named herself that. (I recall that it was two one syllable words like one would say "Sweet Sue" but it was an unusual name... like a well known cliche...about a city or a state I thought when I woke up.

As soon as she said it, the girl turned into a puzzle...not like a jigsaw, but like a colored map of the southern United States with the Mississippi River in the center. Florida was on the right and Mexico country on the left, but not the whole states, only half of them. It was very close up. Only about 2 states showed south to north. Not much of the Gulf of Mexico showed.


2-10-99 - EXPERIENCE/VOICE/DREAM - I listened to the Garnet Frequency Healing tape at 2:10 p.m. At the point in the tape, one of the healers named Dan pulls a pink taffy substance away from a meridian doorway in the Immune System triangle on the spine. As soon as he did that, I began to feel tremendous chills as though a doorway had been opened in myself and spirit had entered into myself. These tremendous chills lasted at least 5 minutes while the tape continued.

When the tape went off, I continued to pull in God's white light from the Universe and continued the breathing technique of breathing in the white light through the nose and breathing out the negative energies through the mouth.

While I was doing the breathing, I heard a voice say, "I will serve your name! I will serve! I will serve!" I thanked the spirit and continued the breathing. The chills were still continuing and I knew there was work going on in my body so I continued the breathing. At this point, the sun was streaming in the window right into my face and it felt warm and wonderful.

I slipped into a dream in which my Father took me shopping. The store was in a tall building. I don't know what floor we went to but when I got up there, I met a woman and her little son who was about 4 years old or so. She wanted to do some shopping but the little boy was so anxious to get a Christmas tree and take it home, he didn't want to wait. My Father had gone off somewhere and the woman, who was tall and heavy set like me was standing there with her silver grocery cart. She was wearing a beige dress and had a veil over her head.

The boy was in such a hurry, he grabbed a hold of the tree and it started toppling over because it was too big for him to handle alone. This tree was already decorated with colored balls and lights. I didn't want anything to fall off the tree, so the woman gave us her veil to wrap around the tree. I don't know why she didn't scold her son or help him, she just stood there and looked on while we struggled with the tree. I took the beige veil and wrapped it around the tree to hold the decorations and lights in place and helped the boy pull the Christmas tree to the elevator.

There were two elevators. A crowd of people got on one elevator and there was no room for the boy, the tree and me, so we let them go ahead. The other elevator door opened and another woman was on the elevator. She was also wearing a beige dress. She saw the boy and the tree and me, struggling to get the tree over to the elevator in time before the door closed, so she pushed a button on a plaque on the wall she said was the 'hold' button. I had never seen a 'hold' button on the elevator earlier. It was on a round plaque that was scalloped around the edges. In the scallops were white buttons that were the size of pearls and the same color.

As soon as I saw her push the 'hold' button, I ran back to get a better grip on the tree with the veil over it and almost fell into the elevator which was slowly descending despite the 'hold' button. It seemed like the elevator was in a hurry to get the Christmas tree where everyone could see it too.

While we were standing there waiting for the woman to undo the 'hold' button, we overheard an announcement over the loudspeaker. The people on the other elevator never made it to the ground level...they were gone!

NOTE: This is an interpretation from a friend:

Of your dream, I see the little boy represents the Pope and all worldly leaders of Christianity, with the Divine Mother watching. Mary is for now only a watcher. The leaders are portrayed by a very young boy because they have fallen in awareness, along with all Christianity, fallen so far that they can't see the Beauty of the Divine Mother, and now it is thought that the trimmings on the tree and the size of it are of spiritual importance.

The Cross is leaning over, as is the tree. Elevators downward signify further losses of spirituality, upward the reverse. The "hold" button means that a reprieve of some time has been granted.

Few will understand what is occurring if awareness of the mass consciousness is given the message from your dream. If the dream reoccurs, focus on speaking with the mother of the boy, for there are many answers to be had in seeking Her out.


I don't necessarily agree in totality with this interpretation. I think the boy is the second coming of Christ and my struggle to help the spirit of the Christ to return to the physical realm. I think the people on the other elevator ... ascended.


8-5-99 - DREAM - I spent many hours working on a web page about John F. Kennedy, Sr. conspiracy links. Each person's ideas were in rectangular boxes which were turned on edge so they were diamond shaped.

My job was to delete lines and spaces to make the information more concise. There were many conspiracy ideas, so this took a long time.

I then went into an even stranger dream.

I was standing out in the yard by the garage door at my New Berlin house. I was there with my young son Bill. I saw a rain shower coming out of the southeast. (Rain always comes from the southwest there) I saw it coming and hollered for Bill to come into the garage with me so as to not get wet, but he ran up the hill behind the garage. I kept hollering for him to get back into the garage and water was already cascading down the hill like a waterfall when Bill came down the hill driving a large cart like a chariot pulled by two white ponies in tandem.

I kept yelling at him to get into the garage and he pulled the animals around and the ponies turned into a coarse haired white yak with fur. I grabbed it by the bridle and held it and petted it until it was calm. The other pony turned into a beautiful white horse and then into another white yak with long coarse fur.

I grabbed that one too by the bridle and we stood in the garage while it poured rain outside.

Meanwhile Bill went into the house to talk on the phone with a woman. I could hear the voice outside but not understand nor remember the words.

I followed Bill into the house because now something had to be done with the yaks because I didn't know how to feed them and there was a secret feeding spot somewhere under the fur near the ear.

I stood at the bottom of the stairs and called Bill down. when he arrived, he was now Stephen King with a green face. He said, "Now you will know who the true ME is when I appear like this."

I was quite astonished to know the truth. At the same time, I heard another man coming down the stairs. This man stopped at the top of the stairs to talk to us.

He was an older, dark-haired man and his job was to watch people and to report back to another man whom I could hear coming down the stairs from even higher up.

I felt I had to leave before that man appeared. I opened the door and woke up.

From: (Gerald D'Aoust)

Dear Lady Dee,

I had fun reading your last Horsey dream and as you can see dreams are divine messages which are staged like great theatre plays in which we must try to figure out the message. Your initial thoughts on it are very nice and quite in line with the topic... and rather finely intuitive I must admit. :)

Anyways, in the land of the yak... the whole essence of the Tibetan Scriptures is written on the Airy-Horse World Prayer Flags of Tibet which are hung everywhere in great numbers. On these, which tradition is said to come from the previous and very old Shamanistic Bon-Po faith which blends into Vishnuism, Buddhism and Lamaism and all other Faithisms,... on can read...

The familiar legend "The Buddhist Creed"...

"Of all objects which proceed from a cause...(a dream for instance) The Tathagatha has explained the cause. And he has explain their cessation also; This is the Doctrine of the Great Samasa." ( Vinaya Texts, i., 146 )

...followed by the letters of the alphabet to indicate that language had been created for this purpose only...together with the words...

"May the life, body, power and the "Airy Horse" of the holder of this charm ...prosper his body, speech, and wishes, and cause them to increase like the Growing New Moon; may He be possessed of all wealth and riches, and be guarded against all kinds of injuries."...and this is followed by some invocations...

"May, the body, power, wealth, and Airy-Horse of the Charm-Holder be raised sublimely and all injuries be guarded against and may He be given the undying gift of Soul Everlasting." (as the adamantine cross herein pictured)..BLT, p.417

"May we be freed from all kinds of injuries and be favoured with the gift which we earnestly seek!"..."May virtue increase!"..."Glory!"


Now, this is a Universal Prayer called the World Prayer which just like the Khorshed Yast of the Magis to help recognise the Avatar or Universal Monarch or Messiah when he shows up and to show the people what to do when he shows up... which is to prosper his body, speech and wishes... because he is the Verb, the Logos and the incarnation of the Universal Monarch... the King and Judge in the Other World... and that is most important for everyone to know and realise because he doesn't come every other week.

Being unfortunately stuck in all kinds of earthly survival duties, I will be forced shortly to do other things than devoting my time to my favorite passion of living within the dreams and interpreting them.

Regardless, I keep the hopes that one of these days several people will finally awaken to the Dreamland Reality and will work together to the Recognition of it.

With Best Regards,

Charm-Holder Gérald

NOTE:  Gerald's dreams, writings and drawings are on another one of my websites:


9-15-99 - DREAM - I was at my 16th St. house and was sitting by the piano and was told by someone that a famous football coach, when things got out of control on his team, would call out, "Matthew 21:7" and things would settle down. This was his secret.

I then went to 20th St. school (K-8). I was on the football field next to the school and the kids were practicing. I saw the coach and decided I wanted to see what he would do if he knew that someone knew his secret, so I hollered, "Matthew 21!"

Everything came to a standstill, as if they were waiting for the verse to be announced and it was like chaos reigned and everything went berserk. The coach came out on the field hollering, "Matthew 21, verse 7" and I ran off the field, through the alley which is '19.5' and went down to the corner of 19th St.

There on the corner, I saw a cute little roly poly blue and white striped Hinduish decorated elephant pulling an oriental wooden cart with a roly poly Hinduish garbed guy driving it, pulling out of the alley going south at 19.5 and he came down to the corner at 19th St. At the same time, a huge grey elephant came running up the street going west from 18th St. to the corner at 19th St. and it collided with the Hindu elephant and the cart went flying end over end.

I ran south on 19th St. back towards the school which backs on 19.5 hollering, "Time to put the animals in the cages! Time to put the animals in the cages!"

I ran to the school which was like a zoo and the guy who ran the thing was manhandling a whole string of 7 glass cases which actually looked like what you put on the back of pick up trucks with windows. (I can't remember what that is called)

He had a stack of them 3 or 4 high there to use for animal cages. He said to me, "I hope nobody gives me any more of these cages."

I said, "Why not? They are free, aren't they?" He said, "Initially they are, but then I have to start paying!"


NOTE: Matthew 21:6-7 - (And the disciples went, and did as Jesus commended them, (7) And brought the ass, and the colt, and put on them their clothes, and they set 'him' thereon.

In the dream which followed I was seeing a series of religious symbols, one of which was 4 wine glasses sitting on a small square plaque with 4 squares on it, and one of which was a scene of an ivory colored statue of a man, which was standing a small round pedestal type table. I could see a man's hand holding a small round incense container with a bell on it, in which the incense was smoking, and as strange music played, he waved the incense smoke towards the statue 21 times.


October 27, 1999 - DREAM - It started out at home, that I had forgotten I had a job and was walking around in my green and white striped bathrobe. (This is my own). After I remembered that I had a job, I was making excuses in my mind that other people get sick and don't call in and one missed day wasn't so bad, etc. However, once I remembered I had a job, I had to go in which I did and then tried to pretend that I had been there all the time, they just hadn't seen me.

I was on my way to my office and kept getting waylaid by various people who wanted me to look at this or that and give my opinion on it like it really counted.

I had to walk through an auditorium/lunchroom type place and I was still changing clothes from my bathrobe to office attire. I was naked from the waist up, but holding two short sleeved sweaters in front of me, one beige and one white one. I was trying to pretend this was normal and everybody did this.

I saw someone was taking care of my baby daughter and feeding it some milk from a bottle. Other people were keeping me so busy I couldn't do this myself so I relented and allowed others to do this. I tried to keep my eye on who had her, but finally I lost track of her completely. A lot of the people had left and I had no idea where she was.

I went into a closet like area where other clothes were hanging on hangers and pulled one of the sweaters over my head. However, when it came down over my body, it wasn't at all like the sweaters I had been carried. This outfit was green, orange, and yellow and was like a Halloween costume and it seemed Chinese. It went all the way down to the tops of my shoes. I started to laugh because I had never seen anything like this before. Some men came by and asked my opinion on something they were doing and I showed them my outfit while laughing, and they laughed too, but as they walked away, I heard one guy say, "That really wasn't funny at all."

At that point, a woman came near me and showed me that her skin was hard like stone. However, she was walking around okay anyway like everyone else.

A moment later, I was nearing my office and a woman, dressed like a detective with a slouch hat pulled half way over her face and a trench coat on, came up to me and told me that my baby had been taken to the hospital. It had been found out that someone who had been feeding her, had put liquid chalk into the bottle and was attempting to fill my child's system with chalk to make her like stone and kill her. However, they were able to pump her stomach at the hospital and that she would be fine.

I thanked the woman and continued on towards my office. I passed by my bosses office whose door was open and I could hear him talking to someone on the phone. I sneaked past his door and got to my own door. There was a mailbox on the outside wall there and there were gifts and flowers all over the place. I couldn't even get in the door without picking them all up and carrying them. However, other women were still asking my opinion on things and stopping me from actually going into the office.

At this point, I started having visions within the dream, rather superimposed over the scene. The first one was "The Chinese Phonic Afterlife".

After I got into my office, there were stuffed animals all over the desk and I had to rearrange them on the floor behind me. There was a big colorful rabbit and one was a white elephant pulling a white two wheeled cart behind him.

I finally managed to turn around to begin work and saw another vision as I woke up, it said, "The Phonic Life".


Note: I've probably forgotten some details... like the things I was asked my opinion on, but the visions of the Phonic Life were very prominent towards the end and I know they are correct.


1-20-00 - DREAM - My husband and I were leaving one place and moving to another but we weren't telling anyone. We each had a grocery shopping cart which we had parked side by side. We were laying on top of them so they had a wire grid on top as well as the sides and bottom. There was nothing inside the baskets.

When we left the place where we lived, we pretended we were just going shopping and didn't say goodbye to anyone so nobody would be sad. We left as though we would be right back. Then we pushed, pulled, and rode on the carts side by side down the road.


2-5-00 - DREAM - I was an apartment building. I think I was the manager. Some devastating event had happened and the hallway was full of large shreds of wood and fallen, broken trees. (In order for this to happen, one would assume that there was no roof, but I didn't notice that at all.) Every apartment door that we went past was open. I could see a shaft of sunlight inside every apartment, but there was nobody in these apartments. They were all vacant. I was thinking about the wisdom of having these doors open. Normally, all vacant apartment doors are kept closed.

As I and the other people went down the hallways, we were pushing some kind of cart and had to push all the shards of the destruction aside in order to get to the other end. It seemed that the hallways was extraordinarily long compared to normal.

When we got to the other end, we went downstairs to our meeting room where survivors of the destruction were gathering.

As people gathered, I noted that my husband was missing. I started to get concerned as others came in and he didn't show up. I mentioned this to another person, then another, trying to figure out where he might be. I remembered that he had gone to a church meeting and just had not returned. I wondered if he might have gotten involved with some kind of occult church and they were hiding him.

Down the hallway, I spotted a friend of my husband and the group of us who were now concerned about his being missing went down to question the friend about this, and I mentioned the possibility of his being in an occult group to him also.

While we were quietly discussing this, I saw a group of black people come into the building.  They all lived together down on the far end of the building. They were very noisy and were following a young white man. I couldn't tell if they were arguing or questioning, but they were very loud. They all went into an apartment but didn't close the door. I saw the young white man go into another room and all the black people followed him in there, still all hollering excitedly.

Meanwhile I was talking to my little group of people about my missing husband and the noise was very distracting. So, I motioned to the young white man to take their argument or whatever it was 'outside'. So, the young white man went out the door and all the black people followed him on down the street. I saw him follow along a long aluminum cyclone fences. He went through a gate and I woke up.


End of dreams about carts.  I've had lots of dreams about wheels too, and grids, and ley lines, but it's a little much to go into all at once.

5. - Relating Synchronicity to Our Religious Beliefs.  This is a 'big' subject.  I've had numerous positive and negative synchronicities in my life about religion and how it changed my religious beliefs.  Here are a couple:

In 1982 or so I went to hear an evangelistic healer/preacher at the auditorium in Milwaukee, WI with several friends. We were all rather sickly ... some more than others ... so everyone was hoping for a healing.

During the service I could see the preachers aura around him. It was a brilliant purple and extended way out into the audience. I prayed to God that the preacher would have a word of prophecy or healing for me.  And indeed my prayer was answered and he put his hand on my forehead and spoke in tongues and I was filled with joy. A smile stayed on my face for several days after that.  

However, I went to see him again, and gave him several hundred dollars to sponsor a child in an orphanage from which I was supposed to receive a photo and a name so I could write to her and send more money.   I never received any photo or a name and when I wrote about it in case they had misplaced my offer, they never responded. I was very disillusioned with that.

Soon after that, I went to a funeral and the preacher there had an aura that was pitch black. Perhaps it showed his mourning, but I never wanted to go back to that church either.

Another time I went to an Assembly of God church in another state. A girl in the congregation stood up and said that she had a vision of 4 gargoyles standing on each corner of the church roof.  Of course everyone prayed hard after that.  But what was worse was when 5 women got up in the church and came to pray for me.  Each one of them put one hand on me somewhere and all started praying for me.  I started feeling and hearing sounds coming out of my mouth which they said was 'praying in tongues'.  It not only felt nasty and sounded nasty, I couldn't make it stop until they took their hands off of me. Then they made me get up in front of the church and give my testimony that I had received the gift of speaking in tongues.

A week of so later, a woman who went to that church told me that if speaking in tongues doesn't come naturally, one should 'pretend' to do it and then it would come naturally later on.

Talk about disillusioned???  I have never gone back to a church like that.

I don't know how meaningful this would be to others, but I used to teach Sunday School in a Protestant church. I was teaching 5th grade boys and telling them about Joseph and his many colored coat.  I quoted some scripture that went with the story and I realized that I was teaching them something I didn't even believe myself.  That was the end of my teaching career, and the beginning of my search for a different religion. I just couldn't buy that one any longer.

6. Responding to Skepticism -  I used to think that I had to defend everything  I said to the nth degree, but I learned long ago, that if one can't explain something simply and have it understood, then it's wise to drop the subject.  That person just isn't ready for what you have to say.  The person will learn what they need to know in their own time and their own place when they are ready for it.

7. Taking Synchronicity Seriously - Besides James Redfield, many other people believe in taking synchronicity seriously.  All positive co-creators believe in using synchronicity as the key to their own future. Every time you think you want something or plan for something in your future, if it's meant to be, events will start to fall into place that make it happen for you very easily.

On the down side ... and I've seen this happen numerous times to myself and others.  When you want something and it's not meant to be, if you try to push the idea forward and things start to go bad with it, it's wise to drop it.  You cannot go against the plan for your life without bad consequences. Ease of flow with life is the key to success.  Watch for the synchronicities and you can't go wrong.

A Conversation with James Redfield

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