(Abductees Might Want to Read the Dreams about the Underground Malls)


11-15-89 - DREAM - I promised to go shopping with my friend Dee instead of going to work, but as 8:30 a.m. neared, I realized I hadn't told my boss that I was taking off. So, I went to work on the bus to A-C. I got off the bus, not having been there in a long time, I was quite disconcerted to find that all the shops and the bank were sort of attached to A-C by a red brick mall where everyone was walking. It was 8:30 a.m. and I wasn't even dressed for work yet. I went into my office to get dressed. I was putting on all Burgundy colored clothes, hoping to get dressed fast enough before my boss realized I had come in late.

I was hearing two radios playing. The one in my office had on all news with a female announcer, the one outside my door was all music with a female announcer. I realized I would have to turn one or the other off.


6-15-96 - DREAM - I was in a school with an acquaintance from a couple years ago. She wasn't paying attention to her daughter who was about 4 years old. She left, so I took the little girl by the hand and went to a shopping center. When we got there, some young woman grabbed the little girls other hand and took her into a ladies dressing room. A couple minutes later, they brought her back out with her face all made up.to me, she looked like a little prostitute and in my mind I remembered how pretty her face had been when it was clean and her mothers face too without makeup.  I took her home then and on the way met another young girl I had known 15 years ago.  I went home with her and when we said goodbye, I hugged her to tell her I loved her and she said the same back to me.

I still wanted to go shopping but I couldn't find my keys in my pockets. I said I had to go home and get my keys. On the way out the door I spotted her keys on the floor. They were brown keys and wrapped together with a rubber band. Instead of giving them to her, I surreptitiously put them in my own pocket so I'd have them if I wanted to get back in.

I went home to get my keys and met two other young women. We agreed to go shopping together. I wanted to get some brown loafers at the shoe store and one other thing. We started off towards the mall and I walked ahead of them walking much faster than them. I realized I should have waited for them. As I walked quickly, my chest started to feel uncomfortable to the point I had to stop walking completely because I was getting scared of the feeling.

I woke up to feel my heart beating wildly and my ears heard a rushing sound inside of me and I was hot and weird feeling. In my ears I could hear two different heartbeats. One beat was really fast and one beat was normal. One ventricle was either fluttering or beating very fast. A voice in my head  said it was beating at 115. The other part was beating at about 70. (I think the fast beat was more like 150)  I rolled over in bed a couple times to force my heart to beat faster and the beat normalized again.


2-12-98 - DREAM - I was working as a manager in a very large building with many offices. It seemed I was in charge of maintenance supervision which kept me on the run a lot of the time checking up on the men's work. I carried a huge ring of Master keys out in the open so everyone knew who I was on sight.  I was walking down the first floor hallway and met some very old women with white hair, all dressed in pastel outfits. They were having an employee's reunion. One of the women stopped me to ask if I had some larger notepaper to write on as she had none after her few sheets were gone from her small pad. It wasn't part of my job, but I told her I would get her some.

When I started walking back to my office, I decided it would be closer to go across the street and buy some at Sears and Roebuck even if it did cost me money to get it.

So, I went outside into the sunny street through some big glass doors, turned left and crossed street and went to the huge mall that Sears was a part of.

I went inside and was dismayed. The inside of the mall was very dim, the halls were immense, and there were many stores but the store show windows were very dim also. Even worse, I could 'see' the air. The air quality in the mall was so poor with pollution, I could actually see it.

I decided right then and there to get out and go back to my office. At the exit  I chose, it seemed to be where deliveries were made. I was confused to where I actually was. I knew I had only crossed one street, but it seemed I was way down the block from where I originally crossed. The street name started with 'M' like Masters but I'm not certain what it really was.

When I got outside, I could feel my heart pounding very hard like I needed more iron in my blood, but it didn't hurt.  Right where I was, I decided to take a shortcut down a hill and I looked down this large area where I could see tiny houses and vehicles and trees and even tinier people. Not as small as ants, but VERY small. The vehicles were rushing around trying to make repairs to areas where some children of my species (human) were playing on the edge of a cliff where their world ended.

I was amazed that these two worlds were coinciding precariously and we were creating havoc in their world with our carelessness and allowing our children to destroy their world. I wondered how long it would take the adults of our world to stop the children from being destructive to their world. I saw no one who cared.

NOTE:  2-13-98 - There was a major evacuation of a nut factory because of carbon monoxide poisoning. The town was nearby and started with the letter 'M'.


4-30-98 - DREAM - I was living in the NW corner office on the 1st floor at Northwestern Mutual Life Insurance Co. (I worked in that office when I was 17 and 18 years old)

Ralph, my old boss came along and saw me and handed me a piece of paper thru an opening in the corner of the window.

I thought to myself, "Boy! someone could really do a drug business out of this place."

He came inside the room then and so did some kids. I had a pile of pink slips of paper on which my dreams were written. Either the kids or I knocked them off the table and the got scattered and out of order. I got really upset and started picked up the slips of paper.

I actually woke up at that point and started to jump out of bed to pick up the pieces of paper because it seemed so real.

I went right back into the dream and from the same place, I decided to go shopping and went into a Mall on Wisconsin Ave and Jackson St. I wandered in the mall along time and came out on 3rd St. and Wisconsin Ave. I was really distressed about it, but in actuality it is possible because of the Mall bridges from street to street along that stretch of businesses.  I  walked home from there and woke up.


5-13-98 - DREAM - I was at my 4800 N Pt. Washington Rd. address. I didn't have a car and needed to go shopping, so I called a taxi cab. When the cab arrived, the driver was a good looking blonde guy. We pulled around the corner and I could see a huge derrick moving earth next door to the south of us. I thought to myself, "I should get out more, I didn't even know they were doing that."

He pulled around the corner going north on Port Washington Rd. going north. All of a sudden I noticed we were going backwards. Then he let go of the steering wheel, climbed over the seat into the back with me. I didn't feel any fear, but I was trying to figure out how this was happening. I could see the steering wheeling making little movements left and right. At that point we were along the curb. I figured we'd just keep going backwards until we hit something. We weren't going fast enough to get hurt I didn't think so I didn't attempt to open the door and jump out though it crossed my mind. The man didn't try to hurt me, he just observed me to see my reaction to what was going on.  I decided to just sit there until we ran into something and then get out.

I was amazed because we were driving around people and obstacles like holes in the road that were being fixed in the road with workmen in orange hats standing around. I looked at the steering wheel again and it was moving back and forth. I thought maybe there was a small monkey driving or a midget who could see into the rear view mirror, but I could see nobody. We drove backwards more and more blocks and finally reached an area where there weren't many buildings. The car then ran backwards over some grass where I saw a bridge. a black woman ran behind the car and we just missed her and ran into a short yellow pole or something.

The man seemed stunned and I opened the car door and started running towards a bus I saw coming. I got pretty far before I saw the guy get out of the car and limp away from it. I was running pretty fast, but I saw him coming up behind me. I had to pee really bad and I almost missed the bus. But he had to let a lot of people off so I managed to get on and stand on the steps right by the door. I had to pee so bad, I just let it go and it ran down my legs over my feet and out the door of the bus. Unfortunately, the old white lady standing next to me got some on her shoes too and when the people moved back in the bus, she noticed her feet were wet, but I didn't say anything.

I looked in my purse then for change for the bus ride and couldn't find any. It was a very tiny purse.  I said out loud to the driver, "I can't find any change." The woman next to me helped me look, and while we looked, my purse turned from black to white and got larger and larger. We soon spotted some dimes and then I found a nickel. But when I picked up the dimes, they turned into diamonds, and the nickel turned into a white/silver buffalo. The bus driver didn't seem concerned. As I walked back in the bus, I noticed it was a gambling casino and shopping mall.

Suddenly, I had to pee really bad again and I got off the bus at a real shopping mall to look for the ladies room. I had to walk up a steep hill inside the mall. I saw the men's room, but where the ladies room should have been, a man came out the door. I kept walking and came to some shops and I knew I had gone too far. I really had to go bad, so I decided I would go back to where I saw the man come out and use that bathroom. I was in agony by the time I got there. I pulled the door open and woke up at the same moment. I really had to go pee bad and jumped out of bed.


6-1-98 - DREAM - I was at an airport. I seemed like we lived there. The ceilings were really high, but there was a living area with trees and plants and other furniture and my daughter and her children were there also.

I was looking out the window at a large passenger plane coming in and a small jet came in at a slightly different angle. The large plane turned sharply to avoid the obvious crash of the two planes. Then, a strange thing happened, the small jet shape-shifted and became cartoonish and bent it's nose over to avoid the crash. It then shape-shifted several more times as it seemed to play with the big plane and it bent and darted around the big plane. I was still standing there watching this happen and it all evaporated in a "poof" and in its place was a huge dark green ...almost black ... government helicopter which had created a hologram of the two planes.

When we saw the government helicopter we became terrified that it had seen us. We must have flipped off the lights because it was suddenly dark. I sat down quickly at a table and put my arms over my head.

The helicopter turned on a spotlight and showed it around the room looking for people. Everyone was hidden. The lights swept over me, but I didn't know if it saw me or not.

When the helicopter left, my daughter (who was her real adult age) jumped up, turned on the light and ran over to the corner of the room. She began pulling on a dark screen which eventually ran all around the room walls from floor to ceiling. (It did not block the ceiling or the floor) I noted that 4 trees against the wall were left on the outside of the screen, but some other objects in the room which were in the way of pulling out the screen, there was a door in the screen that these things were able to slip past so they were inside the screened area.

We continued to pull this screen down a long hallway area which seemed like a mall. On the outside of the screen sat my mother and her sisters on a bench. (all are deceased except my mother). We pulled the screen down to a shop on the corner which was run by all Polish women. They were all terrified of the government helicopter as well and as we pulled the screen through their area, they began packing up everything in boxes as they didn't want our government to see all the things they had handcrafted.

I looked at what they were packing up and on the table were numerous ceramic jungle animals, elephant, giraffe, zebra, lion, tiger, antelope, etc. I thought to myself, "these are all commonplace animals, why do they think they have to protect them?"

I then saw a box of jewels which were strung on necklaces. I wanted one desperately. I bent over the box and tried to stuff the largest tear drop shaped diamond down the front of my shirt but it didn't fit. I couldn't see any opening in the front of my yellow shirt to put it through, so I ended up selecting a smaller one, less perfect and bumpy, it seemed, and pushed it down my shirt where it buttoned at the throat.

We got everything packed up then went and sat in the livingroom, playing with my daughter's children. I was holding her youngest daughter Gabrielle on my lap when we heard a loud droning sound. We looked out the window and saw a UFO shaped object coming towards the house. It was barely above the treetops and coming downward. My daughter said, "It's not normal for them to come so low!" I was thinking that it reminded me of advertising blimps because it was so colorful and shiny. It was glinting colors of red, white, and blue.

My daughter said, "Don't let my daughter see it, and I clutched the baby on my lap, within my arms and bent my head low over her to hide her.

The UFO made a second pass over the house and then it left and I saw up again, and held the baby up, saying, "She seems just like a doll!" She didnt' seem real anymore.

I then got really hungry and decided to go out and get some donuts. I was going to have to walk, but another girl who was getting ready for work and dressed up in a neat suit-dress said she would drive me there and drop me off. I thanked her for offering the ride. Then the woman said, "Yes! I have to get there by 8 a.m. and we looked at the clock and it was actually almost nine o'clock.  We had lost almost one hour of missing time.

NOTE: On 6-5-98, a news report came out that there had been 20 major misses of two jet aircraft reported from January thru April. The government said that the air controllers had to undergo 10 hours of training within the next month to counteract the danger.


6-8-98 - DREAM - I lived in a huge house which included its own shopping mall.  I was cooking two kinds of food. One kind could be cooked in it's own box. It had a silver lining which was washable. The box opened up flat and was soft like a cushion. I tried to get the hooks to go back together but I couldn't do it, so I had to ask for help from my husband to get it hooked back together. Dinner was almost ready to be served but there was food all over the floor like baked beans and popcorn, etc. I made a decision that we would not be eating dinner until I cleaned up the floor. The house was immense so I knew it could take quite a while. I got a broom and was sweeping the floor and began to find red jackets and blankets mixed in with the food and knew that I was going to have to do the laundry of the red clothes too.

My cousin Shirley came to visit. We discussed how it was Christmas and her mother and my mother were also visiting. My mother said she was going to give me a coat for Christmas. She wanted me to know so I wouldn't worry about getting perfume for Christmas. I was happy about that. Shirley's mother ( her name is Ethel) said she was going to give Shirley a coat for Christmas too, but Shirley refused to accept her Christmas present because she was afraid it was going to be perfume. She didn't trust her mother to give her what was promised. While we discussed this, we were in the shopping mall room of my house looking at the all the coats and perfume counters.

When we came back into the house proper, my husband received a guest who was a boat mechanic. We went outside where my husband's boat was moored. The mechanic said he was going to give my husband a special part for his boat steering mechanism and it would be a free gift and would install it for him. I was happy about it because my husband deserved the gift. (My husband was Joe)


6-24-98 - DREAM - I was at a school playground. Someone asked me if  I remembered what R___ looked like. I said I did. They said, "See if you can pick her out. I looked and looked and looked. I even looked at the men in case she had had a sex change operation. I didn't see anyone that looked like R___. Then I took a good look at the person who had asked me the question. I had to look real close but it was her. I said, "The person who looks the most like her is YOU. I'm going to say it's YOU!"  She said, "You're right! It's me! And this is how I did it." She handed me a big white pill and a glass of water. She said, "Take it!" And I did.

I half woke up and went right back to sleep. I was back in the same place with the same woman. She said, "My name is Paulie Chamish!"  They were trying to get other people to recognize her in order for others to know they could become young again.

We went inside a shopping mall then, and I picked out some pretty clothes to wear. I was going to put it on a credit card so it wouldn't seem so bad. I ran into a couple women from One Life To Live. "Dorian" was attempting to steal some clothes by putting them in a big black gym bag and slip them out to the car without paying for them. She pulled some piece of green cloth over her face so nobody would see her face. I knew she was going to walk out with the bag of stolen clothes, but I asked her to take my green and white bathrobe which I had been wearing earlier. I had it stuffed into the shopping bag I was carrying. I handed it to her and said, "Here! Do you mind putting this in the car?" and she put it over her black bag and pulled the green cloth closer over her face.

I walked down the mall, worried that I spent too much on clothes. I pulled the clothes out of the cart and looked at them. There was a skirt and a blouse which I had spent $36 and $42 for. And there was a veil/scarf of see-thru gauze thread in red/green which I said only cost a couple of pennies and I realized that I hadn't spent too much afterall.

I put it in the shopping cart and started to push the car around in a circle to go back the other way. I almost ran into a man's legs. I apologized and then backed up and almost ran into a black man and his child. I started to laugh. I said, "I'm sorry. I really don't have very good control of this thing."  The man laughed with me as I headed back towards the parking lot, trying to remember that person's name, "Paulie Chamish."


7-6-98 - DREAM - I was with my son Tom and got into a long narrow boat with him. The inside of the boat had a  diamond shape.  We were on an enclosed waterway which just barely enclosed the boat and there was a concrete wall both in front and behind the boat. making the boat go forward very fast, he expected a slingshot effect backwards off the concrete wall. The concrete wall began to give way at first for the force of the impact but then the force itself slingshotted us back and I landed in the center of the boat going the opposite of the 7 seat arrangement of seats held together in a row, but had no outside connections and they weren't inside anything but suspended in the air.

From there, I was taken inside a special mall which was entered through a secret door inside another store. Inside this mall  ...  everything had to do with the number 7 and multiples thereof. Following this, I was presented with math programs all relating to the number 7 and these I transferred from my brain to my computer and at which point they were lined up 7 across and 5 down in rows.

This was all so clear, I was certain during the night I would remember the significance of these programs and when I woke up it and opened my eyes it was totally gone.


7-6-98 - DREAM - I went to visit my friend Alice who had moved into a retirement type rooming house with two other women. Her room was on the 4th floor so I climbed the stairs to her room. She didn't go with me. She told me her room was the 1st one on the right at the top of the stairs.

When I got up there, the 1st room on the left was the bathroom and someone was in it using it. Directly across from the stairs was a small room, which seemed to be decorated all in gray. That's the way I more or less expected a retirement room to look.

To the right, there were two humongous rooms that were barn-like and not very enclosed from the weather it seemed, more like porches.

The 1st room seemed to have kitchen-like appliances in it and narrow table covered with a white cloth. I was curious to see what the view was from the porch. I worried that in winter it would be very cold and in summer, very hot.

When I reached the railing and looked over, I saw that it didn't overlook an outside scene, but an inside game preserve type place which was 4 stories down. It was all enclosed and provided more or less natural habitat for exotic birds and fish.

There may have been small animals also, but when I saw the exotic birds and tropical fish which were multitudes of other-worldly-type colored feathers and scales. I was enthralled. The vastness of the animal preserve to be indoors was thrilling to see.

At that point I was thinking that people on the first level could see this exotic place and how fortunate they were.

But, my reverie of thought was broken by some men who pushed their way in behind me and next to me.  They had long guns like rifles and took extreme pleasure in using these exotic animals and birds and fish which were one of a kind, for target practice.

These were not the type of birds or fish one would raise for food, but just to enjoy their exotic beauty.

I was appalled to see this happening and that it was allowed to happen. As I was thinking this, some birds with long yellow beaks like ducks came up from below and started attacking us in the only way they knew how ...  with their beaks.

I got bit on the butt by one and the only way I could prevent another bite was to hold the bird's beak shut with my hand as I ran to get away from the place.


7-7-98 - DREAM - I just moved into a  new apartment and this was the first night sleeping there. I woke up in the morning to find a man sitting on my couch reading a newspaper and people of various sizes walking through the hallway like it was a shortcut from one place to another.

Seemingly normal people ranged in height from about 1 1/2 feet to 6 ft. I didn't seem to think that was unusual. I went to the front door to see if I had locked it and I HAD locked it, but there was no door frame and the door just just swung through back and forth and was totally useless.

I was in the process of getting dressed for the day and I heard a buzz in my left ear like a psychic message was coming in. I paused to listen but instead it was a smiling, enthusiastic woman whose job it was to give out exercises and tests for the day to everyone and take their picture and check their progress.

My girlfriend Donna from my childhood also lived in this building and she quickly ran to change clothes and to have her picture taken. Her dress was almost totally see-thru and fitted and shaped in the bodice. However, Donna wore no bra and her boobs sagged way below where the dress was fitted for them to be and she had also decorated her nipples with sparkling fake diamonds and flashing lights to make them show more.

She went out then to have her picture taken with 5 or 6 other people. I saw the finished photograph a moment or so later and she had been placed in the back row because when was tall like me at 5' 10" tall and all the shorter people were placed in front of her, so only her head showed in the photo.  It was laughable, at all the creative ways she went through to get noticed and then to be hidden behind everyone else.

I then left my apartment and went down to the basement where all the work was done, but my memory lapses as to what we did.  I just remember planning to ask to move to a different apartment ... one with doors on it.


7-8-98 - DREAM - I was in my 16th St. house. We needed some food so I made a short list and give it and my credit card to my daughter so she could go over to the corner store on 15th St. She came back moments later saying that they wouldn't allow her to use my credit card. I was upset and went to my purse and pulled out a piece of paper that had the names of people who had been allowed to use my credit card before. It said $1,000 on it. I gave her the card and both pieces of paper and sent her back to the store, saying, "Anyone can use this card if they have it in their possession."


7-10-98 - DREAM - I was with an older woman and we were driving up a steep, steep hill into Nevada...like Donner pass. We got to the top of the hill and the light at the intersection was green, so we made a right turn and continued on driving. I made a comment that I like it that after you traveled the same way several times you began to feel at home because you knew where all the corner drug stores were and the grocery stores. (bathrooms :-)  )

She agreed, but where we were didn't look familiar. There were so many stores of different types, the road and the buildings were pure white. Then we noticed that there were hundreds of red, Christmas bows hanging down from the ceiling and numerous short red pillows  standing up on the floor. I said, "Oh my gosh! It's all decorated for Christmas."  The way got narrower and narrower between the pillows and there were women walking around everywhere carrying packages, so we stopped to ask where we were.  A woman said, "This is Mall of America."  The woman I was with said, "Gosh! I must have made a wrong turn back there at the border on the highway.  One sign said "Nevada" and the other said, "Mall of America."  and I thought I was going to Nevada.


9-6-98 - DREAM - I was living in our present house in Waterford and I heard that a job was opening up at a new place on Oakdale Rd. which I'm thinking was like at a mall  ... specifically Marshall Fields.  I thought it might be fun to take a job there, not in the candy department, like I had when I was 16 (this was true) but perhaps in furniture where one could dress up nice.

When I got there, many women were applying for jobs and they were coming in two by two it seemed. They were being introduced as they came in. Each pair of women had a taller, pretty woman matched with a shorter, ugly woman and each pair was dressed in light brown dresses in a Fleur de lis pattern. They were being introduced as like Ambassadors or something of a political title.

While I sat there with all these women, one pair of women around the other side of a short wall, whom I knew well decided to serve cake to everyone. She said that all we needed to bring was a fork. Then we had to stand in line to get our piece which was very generous in size. It was like red and white strawberry schaum-torte or something similar.

Then too, while I was waiting and watching, I saw Marilyn Monroe being brought to the door. she was taller and thinner than I thought she was and when they brought her in, the men didn't recognize who she was but they still stood around with their mouths hanging open at her beauty.


9-14-98 - DREAM - I was at a University and was about 18 years old. I left the classroom at breaktime and went out into the hallway. Across the way was a shop and I noticed the word FREE on a sign so headed in that direction. I became aware of three men standing in the center of the hallway and I deliberately made myself walk with more purpose and even strided like a model hoping they would notice me.  They did.  I got across the hall and the place where I thought the door was, was only a window and I had to change direction and go left to where the door really was. Once inside, the whole scene was different than I had seen from outside and I ended up in the clothing department where everything was VERY expensive. I checked to see if they had TALL styles and they did.  I was looking at winter jackets in light blue and white and finally told the salesclerk I'd have to come back after I saved my money, after considering the various ways of possible payment.

I then went into a classroom where I and my brother were asked to work at a particular project. In this project we had to use a tank of gas of some kind which was attached by a long skinny tube.

We took the tank of gas outside and my brother noticed a problem with the tubing. He took out his pocket knife to work on the tubing and cut the tubing in half. At that point the gas began escaping and the only way we had to prevent that was to stand there and hold our thumbs over the tube ending.

My brother said there was only one solution and he sat down in the street and cut his leg off below the knee to use the tube of skin to seal off the tubing. He needed to cut 4 slices of leg off to get the proper size ring for this. Meanwhile I and another guy were using huge stacks of paper toweling to staunch the bleeding because his blood was draining out of his body.

I had blood all over me at this time also. Having successfully stopped the flow of gas, we picked up the tank and began to run down the street to catch a bus. I saw none coming but there were other people driving slick looking race-type cars.

We hitched a ride with a guy and where he stopped I had to maneuver between wires that were going several different directions which couldn't be seen at a distance. I commented that I was going to have to tell people about this. It was like something way up high was being held up by these hidden guide wires.

We got to a mall-like area where older people were out protesting about things they didn't like. We got out of the car and went up to the protestors who were shaking their fingers at us.

I became very irate and started telling them off and telling them about how my brother was now legless because he had performed such a heroic act on their behalf and then I went up to the woman and grabbed her by the collar and started shaking her and said, "I just want to shake you until you begin to understand what the real 'TRUTH' is!!!   and woke up.


9-27-98 - DREAM - I was at home and wanted to go to the mall. For some reason I took my motorcycle. (Oh! yeah! They took my car away from me yesterday! :-)  )   I got out on the highway and a truck pulled out in front of me with three girls in the back, standing up. They were out of control and came to a fast stop up ahead of me and all three girls fell out of the truck onto the highway.  Two of the girls managed to scramble to their feet and get out of the way of traffic, but the third one (a blonde) wasn't so lucky and must have hit her head and was unconscious on the road.  The guy who had been driving dragged her off the highway by the arm.

I looked up to check the light to see if it was red or green as traffic got moving again. My motorcycle wasn't acting right and then I realized I now had my foot on the gas at the same time I had the brake on. That felt stupid. Again I checked the light to see if it was red or green. I saw again that it was green. There was a huge intersection ahead of me with roads going in many different directions.  I didn't know which road to take and my motorcycle wasn't acting right, so I pulled over across the street to where there was a mall and stood with my motorcycle in the street.  I could see I was going to be in the way where I was because I was in the bus lane where they picked people up. I was pushing the motorcycle up hill at this point and it was hard but I had to figure out which way to go.

I turned the motorcycle around and tried to figure out which road to take to go back home because this was a divided highway and the roads went every which way. From my vantage point I could see a way to go around the block to the left and go back home and thought I would do that. So, I got astride the motorcycle to go again. The motorcycle was angled down toward the front at a strange angle. When I took a good look at it, I could see the front tire had a big hole blown in it which must have happened when I had to stop fast when I tried to avoid hitting the girls that fell out of the truck.  

Now I didn't have any choice, I had to push my motorcycle all the way home against traffic. I made sure I wasn't in anyone's way and saw I was far enough off the road so I wasn't in anyone's traffic lane. It was a long walk, uphill all the way, and pushing my motorcycle all the way home.


10-10-98 - DREAM?  I was seemingly in Milwaukee at A-C. I was in the main lobby. There was a man there whom I knew well. He had had a very horrible time as a P.O.W. in Vietnam.  He had committed atrocities at war as well a having them done unto him. He wanted to go upstairs and couldn't find the way. I told him I would help him and walked him over to the elevator. The 1st elevator door opened and the man got on. There was obviously something wrong with this elevator. It was made like a wooden box and the floor was about a foot down in the hole. He looked rather panicky so I agreed to go with him and two other men dressed like him in army fatigues said they would ride along.

I no sooner got on the elevator then the P.O.W. man got off the elevator, the door slammed shut and I and the two men began to move ... fast. I felt rather worried because it wasn't normal. The elevator opened and I got off the elevator. There was a lot of jostling of people at the elevator what with people trying to get on the elevator while I was getting off. I lost track of the other two men because there were so many people walking around. At first I thought it was an office hallway, but there were too many people for that and I looked around more and discovered I was at J.C. Penney store in a mall many miles away from A-C where I was when I went up the elevator.

I saw I was barefoot and wearing a simple coat. I searched my pockets and found no coins to make a phone call for help and I saw there was snow outside and I couldn't very well walk back. I didn't want to walk barefoot in the heavily trafficked area so I searched for a real door and found one which came out into a quiet neighborhood. I stepped outside into the snow which felt crunchy under my feet but not too uncomfortably cold, but as I walked down the stairs I saw lichens (a plant) sticking up through the snow on the sidewalk and they too were crunchy under my feet.

I didn't know which way to go, but I saw a bus going by going downhill and I determined by the lay of the land which direction I had to walk to go home.

I trudged along in the snow with my bare feet and saw a field with three reindeer in it.The reindeer started coming towards me and I got real nervous. As the largest reindeer came near he began to speak to me. He said, "Do not be afraid. Get on my back and I will take you to where you need to go."

The reindeer was very tall. I had never ridden a horse and I had no idea how to get on this back. He said, "Let me help you."  He got down on this haunches and said, "Just lay across my back and I will take care of the rest."  So, I lay across his back and held onto his fur as he stood up again and I found myself actually sitting astride the reindeer, however I lay low over his neck hanging on for dear life. I said, "Thank you, thank you, thank you", almost in tears.

He walked a few blocks and stopped in front of a small apartment building. He got down on his haunches again and said, "Go to apartment number 21. They are going to be needed a new manager here."  I hesitantly said, "But I already have a job back there somewhere."  The reindeer said,"That was about to end anyway."

A woman came out of the building then. She was the current manager who was going to be leaving. She saw me standing there with the reindeer and I felt obligated to tell her what was going on. I said, "Hello!" I'd like you to meet my ......... friend!"  And as I said the word 'friend' the reindeer was quickly changing into a big red dog, not a reindeer. I stood there petting the dog's head and I could see the dog was making friends with another person standing by and would be helping him next.

The woman took me into her apartment then and I saw how she lived and some of the other people in the building.  She said, "Come with me," and we went across the street to a restaurant she owned where she was going to be working next. She brought me a plate of food, most of which I didn't recognize as earthly food. There was a lot of tiny children's clothing on the plate which I pushed aside. The little bit of food I tasted had no flavor and the texture was like chewing on material  ... like cotton. Needless to say, I ate very little.

There was a man sitting at the counter whom she had fed before me and when we went back across the street he went with us. He sat on the floor playing with some children. The woman told me, "He's a very religious man and his wife has left him."  I didn't think too much about that, but noticed a computer game there. It was rather like a puzzle and you used the mouse to move a piece of puzzle and you used the mouse to move a piece to the proper place. I began to move the piece with the mouse. The piece looked rather like a pitchpipe, a straight one with seven notes on it. As I moved it downward, a picture was coming into focus and as it did, it became larger and larger and more and more complex. I wasn't sure what it was at first, but as I watched it, it looked more and more like a battle ship ... a large battle ship and the pitch pipe with the seven notes seemed to fit where the guns of the battle ship were sticking out. I moved the piece to the proper place and then walked away.

I went to the bed and crawled into the bed and curled up on my side (just like I was at the same time in the real life). I was feeling rather cold now and as I lay huddled in the blankets, ... a red haired man (the same color as the dog and the reindeer) walked up behind me. He touched me on the shoulder. I couldn't see his face, but he said, "I want to take care of you."  I stiffened, knowing what that meant ultimately. He said gently, "You will never have to do anything you don't want to do."  As I relaxed, feeling more comfortable, I became conscious and realizing I was in the same position as in the dream, I began to understand the red-haired man, the dog, the reindeer were all aspects of Joe.


11-22-98 - DREAM - I was in a huge building like a mall. I kept looking at the furniture department. I actually went by it twice. Seems like the furniture was all blue. The second time the lights were out but I could still see and found my way out and caught up to Michelle in the lobby hallway. We walked way down the hall to where Michelle worked.

There didn't seem to be anyone working down on the that end except a couple little very short engineers. They complained that Michelle didn't get their work done. I told them she was very busy and shouldn't complain.

It seemed my hands were dirty and I had to wash them and when I did I was wearing 6 rings on my two left fingers. They were too big for me. A couple were engagement rings. I was given them by a man earlier, probably was Joe but can't remember where in the sequence I met him.

At the end a pretty woman, I think might be my daughter, gave me a gorgeous diamond, gold, and pearl necklace to wear. I put it on carefully. I heard the snaps go together behind my neck and then looked in the mirror to arrange the collar of my skirt so that the necklace lay perfectly. It seems that along with the necklace my daughter gave me a wedding gown to wear.  I was wearing all white in the mirror, though I don't remember putting on the dress.


11-24-98 - DREAM - I was in school and we were putting on a demonstration at the mall. I had taken a long wooden table with metal edges, a quilt, a blanket, and some clothes.

During the demonstrations, I was a dancer along with two other girls. We all wore mauve dresses and we danced side by side in intricate footsteps. One of the other girls was considered 'perfect' according to statistics, perfect body measurements, perfect face structure, perfect hair, etc, but when she looked in the mirror she didn't like anything about herself.

I had to get back to the school and I was really tired. and I had all this stuff to take back there. The table broke when it shifted and the other woman said I should get rid of it, but I said, "No! I can fix it and I right it and put the metal edge back on it.

I didn't have a ride so I had to walk back to the school. I thought I would take a short cut but it seemed even longer. I seemed to be walking in slow motion and I was so tired, but I had to get there. The short cut was through a black neighborhood along a riverbank. I decided I'd walk along the riverbank and pretend I was out for a friendly stroll, but the walkway was so narrow it made me nervous. I finally made it back to the school and had to immediately get into the car and go back to the mall and get my stuff. I was with my mother and daughter and I tricked them into parking right by the door where I could get my stuff out and load it into the station wagon. We got it out and put it in the car and I woke up.


12-18-98 - DREAM - I was on 3rd and Center Streets. The road was brick. From the way it looked, I would say I was indoors and this was like a stage play road. A woman drove up to where I was and said she was trying to get to the mall. She was very upset that she would have to go back the way she came from over the bridge behind her. There was a brick covered bridge to the west but there was a bridge and door to the East as well. I told her she could proceed East to get to a different mall and she could get what she wanted. She had trouble understanding that she had to go through a door before she could cross the bridge. I told her I'd go with her. The door was metallic and all beat up from other cars bumping the door open. We went through the door and we were now inside a long hallway like a hospital with white walls but narrower halls.

We met one person coming towards us, dressed all in white. Beyond her was a room labeled Hollywood. The woman I was with was very happy to see that. We went into the room. The only thing I saw was a TV set with Art Bell with big yellow teeth interviewing Dr. Ruth. The woman I was with was so thrilled she lay on the floor in a strange way hoping to be noticed.  It was pretty pathetic and I left her there because she was so happy.


1-11-99 - DREAM - I was taking over as manager for a large apartment building. I was standing on the sidewalk meeting people I would be responsible for. Some were new tenants and some I had known before when I managed the building earlier. I befriended a tall blonde woman who looked much like myself. She was from apartment 301. She seemed angry at first, then a relative of hers came up to her on the left and I was on the right and her attitude completely changed and she became teary-eyed and sad.

Other people were coming along that looked familiar. They would walk up to me, touch foreheads with me and continue on their way.

A married couple asked me if I would like to go to the mall with them. Their car was very narrow, about half or less of a regular car. They wanted me to sit between them and there was only two inches of space there. He was really a bad driver and in turning around he locked his back bumper on the bumper of the other car. That was a bad sign to start with. He got the car turned around and told me to get in. The car was more like a golf cart now and very flexible. I told them I was not going to fit and just like I said, I didn't. The woman had to stand up and sit on my lap and there still wasn't room for me and the guy either and I told them it was illegal to drive with her on my lap, there was no seat belts and no windshield. I told them they'd have to go in my car instead.

 I went to get my car from the garage. There was a big blue car I normally used and a silver Chevy wagon behind it. I realized that I didn't have the keys to it. The keys were in New Berlin and I would have to get them back.  So, I got in my car to go to New Berlin. I had to go east to a 'T' intersection.  The road to the left was newly paved, but I needed to go right towards Greenfield Ave. and then west toward New Berlin which was also the direction of the mall.

I noted that the name of the street was "Schism Way". As soon as I turned that way, I knew there was something wrong. There were weeds and flowers growing up through the roadway pavement. The further I went I could see weeds encroaching along the edges. The road was getting narrower and narrower.The road began to go up a hill and made a curve to the left towards the east. It was beautiful to be in this wild country and I could see off to the right as the road got higher and higher up the hill. The view was beautiful. I came to some huge dark apartment buildings and this road curved up and around the back of them. The road got so narrow, it was no longer drivable and a huge drop off was on the right. The road was now all sand and to continue, you would have to walk and it wound up behind the dark apartment building and ended there. I knew now this road was the wrong way to go, so I turned around to go back the way I had come. As soon as I turned around, I saw a huge sign that said, "Thanks for sightseeing at Schism Way."

My car was now like a round snow sled kids use that you sit on and slide down hills of snow. The road was deeply grooved sand from the other people going this way and weeds were all along the edge, but I got on my round sled and started sliding down the hill which wound around back down the hill towards the right and woke up.

I immediately had a vision of seeing a list of things I had yet to do in my life. There was a lot of them. About half way down the list was the word DEVIL. As soon as I saw it, it became animated and turned into a snake. I somehow stomped on it's head as soon as I recognized it. The black snake which was still on the line on the list, stretched out and began to sizzle like it was burning up and poofed out of existence. I had killed it.

I woke up feeling joyful.


3-11-99 - DREAM  - (I was laying on the couch, thinking about whether to buy some tropical fish, whether to look up tropical fish pictures on websites for my fish dreams page)

I slipped into a dream in which I was going to walk down the street to the closest mall to a pet shop and look at the tropical fish. I wasn't quite sure where that was.

I had my hair in curlers with a scarf  tied around my hair, a heavy coat on, my hands in my pockets and no money and no keys. My pockets were empty.  Besides that I was walking stiffly like my feet were moving slowly but the rest of me was laying on the couch and the scene playing out in my mind ... which it was.

I thought about crossing the street to the east, but there was a stream of cars headed south that was unbelievable and I didn't want to buck that traffic.  So  I began to cross the street headed south. I was half way across and saw that the street to the east was completely blocked off and no traffic could go that way at all.

I knew there was a string of shops a block south but that was kind of far for how I was dressed so I thought I'd take a shortcut through an apartment building on the south side of the street.

As I crossed the street, I saw a bus coming and a couple cars ... a grey car, and an orange Volkswagen Bug. Since no traffic could go east, all three lanes merged right and the bus and the grey car almost cut off the Volkswagen bug, but it speeded up at the last second and they all turned right the corner and joined the mass of cars headed south.  I also saw a block west of me, a bus was headed east towards me and it too turned south at the corner west of me as traffic had been re-routed south.  Nothing was going east anymore.

I finished crossing the street and was by a huge bank. The bank didn't have any windows facing the street, but I was familiar with the neighborhood and know that's what it was.

A man, looking kind of disheveled was sitting on a stoop in the 1st doorway with his head down. Another man came along and started talking to him quietly. They were talking in low tones. It seemed foreign ... almost sinister.  I was afraid of being accosted, but the sitting man got up, and the two of them went past me on the left. As soon as they were behind me, a voice in my head reminded me, "You get what you ask for!"  It left me feeling guilty for thinking negative thoughts.

The next door was a wide glass door from the bank. Two guys were exiting the bank carrying what looked like a long, long mattress. It was too long and narrow to be a real mattress, but I didn't want to turn my head and take a good look at it and seem suspicious considering how I was dressed.

The next doorway was the apartment building. I went inside and through the halls figuring it came out at the far end of the block like my own apartments were built in Milwaukee. I walked through the building and came to a screen door which led to an inside bricked in walkway. It was completely inside the building and all red brick.

I tentatively pushed the screen door open and looked to see if I would be locked out if I went through, but there was no lock on this door. I went out into the hallway which was laid out east and west. It didn't go east very far. There was a brick wall at the end.  I was assuming this was an indoor walkway for the elderly to get exercise in inclement weather.

I got a big shock when I turned right and went toward the west.

I came out into a brightly lit underground shopping mall. They had everything down there. It seemed like I had been in this place before and had forgotten it was here.

Nearest to this doorway was a seating area that was more dimly lit with small round tables and two chairs at each table. At two of the tables along the wall, a person sat alongside a seemingly stuffed animal bigger than life. One was the purple Barney and the other was equally large but I didn't want to look directly at it. I knew these were security guards in case there was trouble.

I was still walking weirdly as I explained in the beginning, still had a scarf on my head and had a heavy blue short coat like a sailor's winter Pea coat and slacks I believe.

The first big room on the right was a huge underground restaurant. It was elegant with a high white vaulted ceiling. All the lights were on the walls, not on the ceiling. The tables in the restaurant were small and round with elegant round white linen table cloths on them. There were a few people sitting at the tables but very few. I kind of took a peek inside and saw they had a bar.  Next door was a jewelry shop and I could see on down the mall.  You could buy anything down here in this completely underground mall.

I really wanted to buy something but  had no money, so  I decided I'd go home, comb out my hair nicely, get some money and come back and shop.

Just as I turned around to head back to the screen door, one of the security guards got up from the table and came over to me. It was an older gray haired woman but nevertheless still threatening and intimidating.

She asked me for my I.D. with a picture on it.  I said, "I'm sorry! I didn't bring it with me, nor any money."  She repeated strongly, "I NEED to see your picture I.D.! "  I repeated, "I'm sorry, but I didn't bring it with me, nor any money. You can put your hands in my pockets to check if you like!"  She put both her hands in the air indicating she wasn't allowed to touch me.  I reached in my pockets and pulled both of them inside out for her to see.

Satisfied I was telling the truth, she said, "Maam!  You're going to have to leave!"

I had intended to do that anyway, so I put my hand on the handle of the screen door a nd opened it and my eyes popped open and the scene was gone.  I almost felt shocked because it was so real AND I know I've been down there before.


3-24-99 - DREAM - I was in Milwaukee. I had just moved back and took over the manager's job again. I don't know what apartment number this was but it was on the 1st floor and there was no privacy. People were wandering in and out at will. Where the windows should have been, it was wide open to the open air. I wasn't settled in yet, had little furniture, a desk, a chair and a dresser and that was it. It was almost noon and I hadn't been to the office yet. Then I realized I didn't have any keys yet either, nor did I have my own keys. I started hunting for my coat figuring they were probably in the pocket. I looked in the closet and saw that Ed (my ex-husband) had been there. He had hung his own four beige coats on the hook by the door and he had thrown all my stuff in a heap at the back of the closet. That was typical of him. I didn't know where he was but he had obviously been there.

I finally found my "Joseph's coat of many colors" laying on the dresser and sure enough there were keys in the right pocket. They weren't on a ring like they used to be though.

I knew immediately that Ed had taken them, and I tried to see what keys were missing. I saw my car keys and there was a bunch of apartment keys and other keys, but no building keys. that was okay because I was in a new building now and the manager had had all the locks changed while I was gone. All of a sudden I spotted a pile of building keys. They were gold and double sided, more or less like a tall ... wide Christmas tree.

I was so happy to find them. Now I had access to everything again. I put them in a neat pile on my desk. There were a lot of people milling around.

A guy named David who I used to work with and a woman came in. I was just about to water two vine plants that I had neglected. One branch from each one broke off and I was going to replant them, but instead I gave them to the woman. She smiled and took them and left. David said, "Do you mind if we hang around together? Today is Thursday!"  I had to read between the lines on that one. It meant his wife was busy or working and he was at loose ends. However, "Hanging around together" sounded safe enough.

I saw several bosses come in, some were inspecting the building it seemed. They said "Hello!" and moved on. But the head boss came over and said, "We need to discuss this man in your life," indicating Ed's coats. I assured him that Ed would not be back. He seemed happy with that answer and went on about his business.

I continued to try to figure out how I could close the front windows. There were people everywhere in my apartment. Two guys brought in a purple couch and asked where I wanted it. I knew they'd want to put it down somewhere, so I told them to just put it along a wall and I'd move it to its exact position later. They were happy about that. When they sat it down, I adjusted it a little.  I was amazed at how light weight it was.

Then a girl called my attention to an animal cage up near the ceiling. Inside the cage I could see black cats, exotic ring tailed monkeys, all small animals that can wreak havoc if they are loose. On the outside was a rod where a bunch of birds were sitting. I looked closer and they looked more like bats in color though they weren't hanging upside-down. A couple came down and landed on my arm and I flung them off saying, "Wild animals have no place in a house." I knew they'd have to be moved out.

I still had to get to the office and I just let the people mill around in the apartment. Except for the purple couch that had just been brought in, there was no furniture. I even noted that there was no washer and dryer to do laundry yet.

I started walking down the hall and it appeared I was inside that underground mall I discovered last week in another dream. I had to walk a long ways through the mall. There were lots and lots of jostling people out here. I assumed my office was at the far end.

I was having trouble getting through the crowds and a big heavy set woman came up behind me. She grabbed me by both arms and said, "Let me help you find a way!"  She began steering me between the crowds of people and I was grateful for the fast pace we were moving , but then I noticed that as soon as we went through a door and down a narrow hallway, it seemed more and more nasty looking. The walls were dirty and so were the floors. There were fewer people here but those I saw looked like bad off drug addicts, drunks, and the really bad off people. I was getting nervous that she was taking me the wrong way, so I wrenched myself out of her hands and ran back the way we had come. I ran up a stairway and was now outside. It seemed I was on 108th and Greenfield Ave. I was going to cross the intersection and head east on Greenfield Ave. but a huge construction truck had flipped over, spilling all the construction materials. A bystander said, "When the truck flipped over, the driver ran right into the bar over there."  I took a look and sure enough, the truck driver was sitting at the bar, swigging drinks down as fast as he could.

I continued east on Greenfield Ave. which was uphill to 92nd St. I had to pick my way through all the construction materials that had fallen off the truck.

I got to 92nd St. and was about to crest the hill and a man grabbed me by the arm and said, "I want you to see something." I got to the crest of the hill where I could see the entire city in the valley ahead. I couldn't believe what I was seeing and backed up a little and couldn't see it.

He took me by the arm again and said, "Look! I want you to see what a city looks like when it's hit by a nuclear attack!" He made me look again. The tall buildings were standing, just twisted girders of steel, where there was any brick, it was just partial and hanging off, no windows anywhere. It was just total devastation. There were NO people. It was a dead city.


4-5-99 - DREAM - I was at home in an apartment, but there was a lot of young people here. I and a bunch of teenagers were sitting on my bed just talking about stuff. One girl was typing what we were saying. Then I noticed two guys had joined us and one wanted to know what it meant to be 'reborn'. I told him it was a 'change of consciousness'. He needed more explanation than that so I told him to story of how a plant grows, blooms, creates seeds, then the seed has to 'die' in order for a new plant to be born.

While I was telling him that, the girl hit some wrong keys on the computer and messed up the program. I said, "I'm glad I'm not the only one who does that!" and laughed. All of a sudden I noticed that the computer was gone. The girl said she had broken it so the guys took it to a back room to fix it. I said, "There was nothing wrong with it, you just hit some wrong keys," and ran from the room to find my computer. I got to the back room that was full of young guys all working on things, supposedly 'fixing things'. I asked, "Where is my computer?" One said, "T.J. took it to Sears to be fixed."  Now I was really upset, so I ran down the stairs to go to Sears. I got outside and saw great destruction. I was under a freeway bridge ... sort of place ... and someone had dropped a bomb on it and there was a huge hole and the roadways went nowhere so there was no traffic. I carefully walked under these bridges where water was dripping off the edges because it was raining, but I didn't get wet because I was 'under' the bridges. I was careful to watch to make sure none of these structures was going to fall down.

Then I saw T.J. ahead of me, coming back from Sears. He had my computer in a box and several other packages which he was trying to balance. I offered to help him carry his packages and one by one I got my computer box back. I asked him what was wrong with it. He said, "They didn't find anything wrong with it."  The box was surprisingly light weight.

So, I carried the boxes, looking for a way back upstairs. I was now in a huge mall being constructed. Workmen were everywhere. I looked for signs on stores to try to figure out where I was but couldn't find any. There were lots of stairways going up, but they went up into darkness, so I couldn't use them. Then I went around a corner and saw two women coming down a stairway, each carrying a glass with some kind of liquid that was a golden color. So, I decided to try that one.

I climbed the stairs and found myself on a balcony that was a bar. There were only women up here. An older woman offered to buy me a drink. I said, "No! I don't drink." She said, "Well! They have Sprite too!"  I said, "Okay! I'll have a Sprite!" So I sat down at a table with the woman and some other women who were just talking about 'stuff.' All of a sudden I started feeling strangely sexual and realized something was in the drink. I said, "Oh! I get it. This is a place for women who want to get off by themselves", and jumped up to leave.

Now I had to find a stairway to go back down but couldn't find where I had come up. Each stairway had a door on it, so I had to open a door to see where the stairs went down to.  One door opened and the whole stairs smelled strongly of urine. One went down into darkness. Another one went down into a strange atmosphere. Then I saw one that was rather narrow and two young girls were coming up it. That one didn't seem too bad but the girls started telling me their mother had just given birth and how wracked with pain she had been in and how they had to cut her open to get the baby out. I decided I didn't want to go down there either and continued to hunt for a stairway where it would be pleasant. I couldn't and finally woke up.


8-6-99 - DREAM - I was in a huge school with theatre-type sloping floors. I wanted to leave the room but the entrances were all blocked by cushy white wheelchairs. I finally had to squeeze sideways around on to get out.

I went across the street. Then seemed like 70th St. but there was a mall. I tried driving a woman's car who had a bunch of little kids. The steering wheel was on the upper left by the back window and was driven backwards. It was so disorienting, I left the car there and I met my husband and the gave me my own car keys and I had access to my own car then which was a long maroon station wagon.

I didn't drive it at that point because I had a lot of shopping to to.

In one store, I picked up a red ruby heart and immediately was followed by a woman and man detective-type people. I tried hiding the ruby in various places but they knew I hid it and continued to follow me though they didn't try to arrest me. Finally they got distracted and I went to the paint department and got distracted myself looking at furniture for kitchen like hutches and smaller furniture. I finally determined I didn't like anything and went out into the hallway where my husband was sitting surrounded by old women who wanted to hear what he had to say.  I beckoned to him and he got up and we walked out together hand in hand.


8-21-99 = DREAM - I was on third street just south of Center St. by a river. (There is really no river there. . . though in another dream I had a couple years ago, a river was in the same spot)  The city had turned the street into a mall-like area where the elderly could come down, have lunch, and do some shopping.  I thought this would be a great place for my mother to spend some time.

All of a sudden I spotted my mother coming down the steps (3) from the street into the mall plaza. I saw her sit down on a chair and I began to walk over towards where she was sitting. As I was walking towards her, the whole row of chairs where she sat began to move southward towards the other end of the three block mall. The chairs had been on a motorized, wheeled platform and in a moment, she and the others were out of sight.  I did not know if I should follow her or wait for her to come back.

It began to rain hard as soon as my mother left and I didn't want to get wet if I took the bus west on Center street towards home on 16th street because I would have to get off the bus on 15th street and walk the two blocks to the house in the rain. (The house was almost a whole block south of Center street)

So, I went into a private seating area where other younger women were resting and stood by a window looking at the rain pelting the city.

I decided I would walk down to the other end of the mall and meet my mother and shop with her.

As I walked down the mall, I saw my mother walking back and I met her halfway. She looked a little stunned that I was there and told me I needn't have come there. I told her that I had wanted to and walked back along the mall with her. We got back to the starting point where my mother met two other old ladies and began to tell them her money problems with her inheritance.

I immediately got concerned that she would tell them all her private money problems. One of the women said, "You aren't trying to get out of paying taxes are you?

My mother said, "Oh no!" and while she told them more details, her head morphed into a blue rubber doll head with a broad groove around her temple area, all the the way around her head.  There were little numbers tattooed all around the groove like a record of her history. It was a little disconcerting. She went on talking to these other two old ladies while they stood by a window-gate, waiting to go through.

My attention was caught by a tall, blonde man wearing blue coveralls. He was starting a new locksmith business and I introduced him to my old bosses truck driver David and they began discussing the details of having the truck inspected for safety and paying for the work 50% down ahead and 13% installment payments later. As they talked, the guy turned more and more feminine and I saw that he was really a she and I gave her a lot of credit for starting her own business.



I drove one of my sons to a farm where one of his friends from school lived. We drove through the gate and drove up a long driveway. As we neared the wood slatted fence which hid the house proper, there was a wire fence on the other side of the road on which were hung freshly killed chickens and geese.  The boy opened the gate on the wooden fence and let my son in and I asked if I might collect a few feathers to take home with me. He said, "Sure!" so I stayed out in the farm yard while the two boys went inside to play.

I thought I would find some loose feathers, but didn't see any. I didn't feel comfortable about yanking on feathers on the dead chickens and geese so I walked along the fence looking for some loose fallen feathers.

I came to the barn.  There was an open door, so I walked in. My mouth about dropped open. Inside the barn were hanging on hooks from the ceiling, hundreds and hundreds of pelts of white mink. Then I saw all the feet hanging individually from more strings from the ceiling.

I saw another door which was open and a blonde woman walked through the door without closing it behind her. I followed her through the door without saying anything. When I went through the door, I found myself in a huge building, painted in a cream color, decorated with fancy statues on pedestals.

I went through another open door and found myself in a large room that looked like a fancy waiting room for a shopping store. There was a large shaded window so I went over and looked out and sure enough, outside was a shopping mall with a big red lighted sign that said PLAZA, but the name of the plaza was out of my sight. There were 3 stairs up to an office and a couple women were in there talking, but I walked by without saying anything and they didn't see me.

I saw another door open and it was dark inside, but I peeked in. There was enough light inside so I could see what was in there. There were thousands of tails of white minks hanging from hooks from the ceiling. It was cold in that room, so I knew it was storage and I knew too that these people were probably making millions of dollars selling the pelts, tails, and paws of these beautiful creatures.

I suddenly felt I'd be in trouble if someone knew I was here, so I left and walked back through the open doors, making my way back to the barn. I was almost back to the last door when the blonde woman spotted me.

She was about to ask who I was when I spotted my two year old son Michael standing by the door to the barn. (He was not the same son I took to the farm) He said, "Hi Mommy!" So the blonde just smiled at me instead of questioning me. I said to her, "Sometimes it pays to be known as just someone's Mommy!" and smiled.  I knew she didn't have a clue as to what I meant by that.

I went back into the barn and she closed the door behind me.

Now I was back in the barn but I was lost and had forgotten how I had gotten to this door. My son was not in sight so I just kept wandering through the barns.

I went around a corner and came to a room where there were chickens with blue and white feathers. I was astonished to see this color bird and started looking for dropped feathers but didn't see any. The birds were loose and had perches to stand on if they wanted. The floor was pure white crushed stone. It was very clean in this room.

I went around another corner and saw some long blue feathers on the floor. I was just about to pick one up when it moved. I looked up and saw that these feathers were attached to peacocks that were all blue. I could hardly believe my eyes to see these gorgeous birds.

Again the floor was pure white crushed stone and perfectly clean. Little girls were playing here on the floor with colored balls.

I marveled at all this and wondered if the farmer sold the blue feathers for a lot of money. There were none laying on the floor so I knew that people came through regularly and picked them up.

I then went through a door where I saw some maintenance men working. They were wearing military colored coveralls and they didn't see me. Again I was astonished. Inside this barn were stored some kind of dark machines with long barreled guns on that I had seen used in the Gulf War on TV. There were dozens of them lined up, all ready to go if needed.

The maintenance men were finishing up their conversation, so I decided I'd better get the heck out of there.

So, I went back to the original barn and made my way back outside to where the gate was where my son originally went into.  The boys were just coming out and I got a glimpse inside the gate and saw a huge circle driveway up to an immense white brick house. I was astonished at how much money it must cost to run a place of this size.

My son and I got back into the car and I woke up.


11-13-99 - DREAM - I was an old white haired man walking on a street. It suddenly started raining so hard I couldn't even see through it, so I went up on the porch of a white house.

The rain stopped, so I continued walking down the street. Suddenly it started raining so hard again I had to run up on the porch of another house, but when I was on the porch, I could see inside that there was a series of hospital-like cots with people laying on them.

I had my arm in the air over my head and I moved it to see that one of the people was Dolores which reflected me ... the old white haired man.  The woman in the second bed over had her arm raised in a similar manner so I assumed she was my reflection.

The scene changed and I was at a lake.  I was now myself ... Dolores. The water was high and clear. The water was so clear I could see huge ocean fish swimming by of various kinds. Some were very colorful and tropical types. The water had never been so clear before. There were artificial islands built in the lake and a man came by and told me that there was a huge new mall built at the end of the lake and we should go check it out.

In the meantime, I went out behind the houses built along the lake and they had large depressions deliberately built to catch rising water. I didn't think the water was that high, but while I watched the water began seeping into the depression ... filling it up.

The scene changed and I was in a convertible car with a man and we were going to a meeting in a subdivision type of housing.

The man said he was going to park in the visitors lot so others could park by the houses which were up on high embankments.

Instead of just parking in the spot for cars, he backed up until the back end of the car was in water which seemed to be rising. I wouldn't have even been able to get out of the car by now, but he kept backing up until we were parked in a black quagmire.

The scene changed and I was looking at a map of the world that was in several shades of white, gray, and black.

Several areas in the world were highlights black and labeled "Jack Kemp-itis".    The Dream page


11-17-99 - I was too lazy to get up, so fell asleep into a working scene where I was cleaning up for other people.

DREAM: Several friends were there. One complained that her paycheck was going to be small (Alyse) and showed me her personal calendar where she had drawn lines through2 whole weeks and said she only had excuses for 2 days.

I missed days of work and nobody even knew I was gone because my work took me to many different floors and departments nobody could keep track of me by myself.

A friend (Kimber) was there with a group of people and then a woman who looked absolutely stunning who looked like ex-Princess Fergie.  She was dressed totally in silver and had a silver straight brimmed hat and her makeup was the identical color of her suit and hat. I saw 2 small white spots on the bridge of her nose where she missed with the makeup and I saw that her nose was bent to the right with a pert little flat brown bow with a diamond attached to it.

She hugged me and then Kimber.

Fergie went inside a dark cabin like place. I saw her standing half hidden inside.

Kimber asked if she could go play with her instead of working and I agreed, telling her I had to do laundry.

I then went inside the building and immediately felt lost. The basement corridor was like a combination Allis-Chalmers and Simpson Electric put together. It all looked familiar, yet different. I intended to go up one floor before going back but the way was blocked by scaffolding and paint cans of white paint.

I went the other way where I saw stairs but when I turned the other way, my left eye shut and I was now half blind. I inched my way to the stairway that went down into a big tourist center. The carpeting was brown, but way too thick for a stairway ... it was like one of my old winter coats.

I hung on the railing, feeling my way down the stairs with me feet. But a blind woman was coming up and stairs and I had to give her way because I was only half blind. I saw some other stairs back up, so I turned to go back down a hall in the direction I had come from. But this floor was like a huge shopping mall ... brilliantly lit and decorated for Christmas. A toy train ran along like in a big figure 8. An animated manikin at the entrance turned around a few times and then toppled over and bopped her nose on the ground. I started off down the aisle but I knew the other entrance was way down at the other end. I said, "Oh man! I don't want to go through all this" and opened my eyes into my own life.


11-24-99 - DREAM - I don't know what city I was in, but I was with a woman who had met the owner and operator of a fancy bar and restaurant in a mall which had a basement bar and dance hall.

I had been to this place before for parties but the other woman hand't. She said, "I've never been to a ___ before." (meaning fancy bar)

Many rich people came here. We were both dressed well with short skirts and sleeveless blouses like all the other woman there.

The owner told us that she had created rather a shrine downstairs of the original kitchen because Hitler used to come there and stand outside a window and paint postcards and scenes of the women there. We went dowon the stairs which were side and deep. I felt really comfortable going down these stairs because I had done it so many times before.

But instead of going straight ahead to the dance hall, she took us to the right and up a couple of stairs. Here there was a huge old fashioned kitchen which had been preserved. On the outside of the kitchen was like a small porch which was now enclosed within the shrine hallway and we could stand in the exact spot where Hitler had stood looking in the window painting this woman. It was beautiful down there. The kitchen was brightly lit and full of flowers.

Then we had the privilege of meeting the woman Hitler had painted. She was now very old. She had a collection of little sculptures of herself on a bookcase shelf which Hitler had done of her and every day she would come here and kiss each little sculpture because she felt so honored.

I thought she was a little wacky in the head to do this but it was 'her' life.

Afterwards the first woman showed us a website url about this story and the name of the country 'Guyana' was in it.


12-22-99 - DREAM - I and a man went to a mall to have our photographs taken. When we arrived, a thin black man similar in build to Eddie Murphy came up to us in the photography place and asked us if we wanted to enter a contest to win a million dollars. The contest was merely to answer some questions about what we knew about ETs. There were only a few questions and I answered them all myself and got them all right.  So, we actually won the prize ... but of course the man didn't have the money there and asked us to do a few other things for him meantime.  

The man asked me if I would shave an extraneous hair off of his knuckle but the razor he tried to hand to me was invisible and I wasn't about to hold something invisible that was vibrating. However, it eventually became visible and then I played with it and asked my husband or whoever I went with if he wanted to shave with it and he said, "No!"  We went into a large room kind of like a dance hall and was given access to an organ to play, but I had to push it all the way down to the other end of the hall to use it.

Here again, the razor came into play and it was a normal looking razor, dark grey, same size as the hand and was vibrating. I didn't use it to shave anything, just played with the vibrations in my hands.

We then went to some apartment buildings that were close together that had a courtyard in the middle. I was asked to hold a large watering hose. The men went off to do something else and I held the hose so that the water went way up into the air and came down again like rain. I heard several people making comments from the apartments that they had never seen rain this hard ever before in their lives.  I had to leave, but left the water running in the hose and I propped it up and it is still raining as far as I know.


12-24-99 - DREAM - I started to redream the above dream I thought lucidly, and a squirrel came up out of a hole, but then the dream went off on a life of its own.

I was in a big house. . . it was immense and then was an old factory attached. The walls in the basement factory were being blowtorched with a welding gun to get all the old paint and grime off. Men kept coming in there to see how it was being done, but it was too bright to look at so I just peeked but didn't go past the barrier they had set up for the safety of our eyes. I was able to see that the walls were all blistered up and black.

I was helping to clean up another area and was told to turn the light off when I left.  But the string on the light was so short, I didn't want to make the effort to jump for the string. There were no chairs to climb on so I made excuses not to be the last one out of the room and left it to Dorian Lord Hayes from One Life to Live TV show to do that.

There was blue water flowing up into the area from several directions. I was just wearing just white socks so I had to leave quickly so I wouldn't get my feet wet.

I went into the house area then and my daughter came to visit. She needed a new place to move her family to. I told her that I had spare rooms she could move into. I had a whole suite at the front of the house that nobody used and an entire upstairs suite that nobody used. She said, "I never knew you had rooms upstairs."  I said, "Yes! Which would you prefer? I'll show you both of them so you can decide."

At that moment, two men came down from upstairs. They lived in other rooms up there and heard me offer the empty suite to my daughter. They said they would love to have her move up there. The first young man showed me a sailing ship he had constructed in miniature that had numerous sliced almonds on top of it arranged neatly. The other guy who copied him only had almond covering part of the top. It was a poor imitation.

I started to show my daughter the way to the 1st floor suite through a inner doorway. She said, " I prefer having my own outside door." I said, "This has it's own front door and I remembered it even had a crystal door knob and huge picture windows and white curtains. So I said, "Let's go around the front and I'll show you."

So, we began walking out through the east entrance through the parking lot. This was the factory and mall parking lot. For some reason I was dragging a heavy steel office chair behind me that the upper back was coming off. Then I remembered that I didn't bring the key to the front door with me. I said, "We're going to have to go back and get the key. I wish I had brought the car."

My daughter got a brilliant smile on her face and said, "Mine is right here. We can take it."  It was like a big green limousine. I saw that she didn't drive it herself and it started moving before she even got around to the passenger side.  

The car turned into a huge, long, old fashioned garbage truck. It was empty, but I thought "How convenient ... I could just throw my old office chair in the back." The truck started to make a right turn and completely flipped over on its right side.

I thought to myself, "Good thing I didn't throw my office chair in there first or they would have blamed that on me."


1-11-00 - DREAMS - There were several dreams about getting ready to go home, and had to go through a mall to get there.  I was inside a warehouse where huge containers were stacked that were opaque white and were used for collecting garbage. They were of numerous sizes.  The man who was in charge of moving the stacks of these containers used a crane that was sort of like a red dragon on long extensions where the neck would be and the head was like a steam shovel type bucket, only looked like a dragon head.  I was rather afraid that the dragon head would get near me as he was swinging it wildly over our heads, but I managed to avoid it.

While I was in this warehouse, I found two wooden candle sticks about 3 feet high. They were carved, but plainly and had a wide indentation on the top where the candle would stand in.  

On this adventure, I met a woman who was selling a cactus plant I really wanted but she wanted $28.00 for it.  I told her that was way too expensive.  After I left her, my companion bought a piece of the plant for me and gave it to me with one branch and the plant stem looked like a barrel shape and exactly fit into the candle stick top, which I used to carry it home. The cactus type was one I'm familiar with, the branches are not round, but shaped more like a thick X shape.

I was being driven home by I.R.  At first the street was two way, but then changed to one way and he said that he didn't even have to look to drive the car.  We were a long way from the cars in front of us which were all golden colored. However, he was always a bad driver and I kept my eye on the cars ahead even though he didn't ... he was sightseeing instead.

NOTE:  I understand through the physical telephone grapevine ... that I.R. is in very bad health with a heart problem, so this may be reflected in this dream.


1-19-00 - - DREAM - I was working on a web page and links were scrolling down.  I asked to see the original time line. Then I attempted to save it as a file.

The dream then turned to a people dream and it was early morning, and I decided to go to the mall and be the first one there so I could get what I needed and get on with my day.

When I arrived, there was very little traffic on the road, and it was snowing, so when I made my right turn into the mall parking lot, there were no cars ahead of me and I actually slid past the entrance where a female guard stood. We talked a moment and she told me that there would be no problem  if I made the first track through the snow. I preferred to wait and follow the first person since I didnt' really know the best way to go myself.

When I got to the mall itself, I seemed to be the presenter of a long line of people who were to get a doctor's checkup before they were allowed to continue their day and attend classes.

I spoke to the first woman in line, who came dressed in a light blue satin ball gown.  Since she and I were going to attend classes together and were coming from the same direction, I asked for her phone number. It was 306-1030. She said she was reluctant to give it out but understood I might need it. After that she made a comment to someone that she was going to be hanging out in the hallway with the others and I knew she would probably give her number out to everyone she met.

One of the other women who was standing in line was wearing a light purple satin cat suit.  She wanted to be different. All the men wore black tuxedos and lined up near the forest edge. They would be presented after all the women went first. All the other women were wearing voluminous ball gowns and lined up alone a circus tent like building. It was funny because there were other people inside the tent making it hard for the women to stand in line to be presented. They were like jostling them as they tried to stand still and wait their turn.

I then went into a cage-like room where we all sat in round backed chairs waiting to see the doctor who was to examine all these people to make sure they were fit.  He thought I was one of the patients but I told him I was just the presenter. He was a young, blonde, blue eyed man. Since I was the presenter, his first patient was then a tall, blue eyed, blonde male student.

Once I got established what was going on, one of the other women said that I must really know a lot of people in order to get this all together. I really didn't know how these people were chosen to be first so I asked the first woman in line who was a tall, masculinish type person. She was sitting next to me at that point. She said she had bought a ticket for $25 for 2 hours.

That made more sense to me.

After I woke up, I again was told that I would see the first time line. A lion-man type creature appeared and said his name was 890 Lion. His suit was rather handmade ... not a real lion... I could tell there was a person inside a costume. His suit was golden brown fur where the long fur was and short yellow fur in between like on the belly.

He then said his name in a rather like roar, "My name is 890 OLiono".

NOTE: I meditated on the 890 and a voice said, "F sharp".

There was also something about 7 colors but I can't remember the details.

I looked up 890 on the internet and found out that the Dewey Decimal System of Library filing is that it is about Literatures of other Languages, followed by Africa.  Lions come from Africa.

I then looked up "f sharp" and pyramid and came up with this:


It's about the Giza Power Plant and we have that book.

It also seems that my visions about the K pages from the other day are probably related to an e-mail we received yesterday about a K field and some information we are going to be looking at relating to the pyramid.

NOTE: I had all the dreams and visions BEFORE we received the e-mail and two days before I saw the e-mail and read what it was about.


1-9-00 - DREAM - I was living in an apartment building and taking care of several children. My cousin Shirley was with me and she went home, taking her youngest daughter with her, but the left the boys with me.  There was also another woman and her daughter.

We didn't seem to have a TV and I was trying to keep the boys entertained by reading to them. The woman and her daughter were both bored, so I allowed the daughter to go visit a friend in the building after I told her to telephone the girl first. The girl was going to just go out and knock on doors to find someone to visit, but I told her that if I was still Manager, and someone called me that they were being bothered by someone knocking on all the doors, I would have one big fit. They were going to write the girls phone number down for me, but I don't recall seeing it on the piece of paper they presented to me before the girl left.

The mother, who was dressed in a pink dress was really bored so I suggested I knew several single men who would be pleased to go out with her, and she said she would enjoy that.  She was laying on a couch of some kind at the time. I looked at the clock. It was then 10:30 p.m.

I had to look for the men's phone numbers and the problem was I had several phone books so it took me awhile. I figured it would be a simple thing to go out since we were living in a building that had it's own mall attached with a bar and dancing and everything. One never had to leave the building and get cold or wet. One didn't even need a coat.

I saw a guard in uniform outside the window. He was checking things to make sure we were safe. We assured him that the boys and I were fine.

The daughter then came back, carrying all my mail from Sunday's delivery. It was immense, voluminous envelopes, folders, and ancient books with records that went way back in time. All this was to keep records on people for years on their income and taxes, etc. It seems my job was to keep track of everyone forever or something.

The daughter and her mother who was then returned home, said I should look up one of their relatives. The person's name was "Penultimate" and it was in the red folder.  So, I started to look for the Penultimate name.

Somehow the scene changed and I ended up in a dark car that was hurtling down the highway with the guard and the boys and the guard was talking into a pager like he was announcing the news or our position. I couldn't figure out how he was doing that since he wasn't connected by wire or by phone. The guard, the boys and I were all in the back seat of the car. I don't know who was driving.

The scene switched again and I was looked at bright shiny red writing on a darker red background like a web page. The words I was looking at all started with the letter "A". Some were just words and some were names. I didn't see what I wanted in "A" and thought perhaps I needed the word 'color'. I started to scroll down the page towards the letter "C" and woke up.

NOTE: I was laying in the dark alone, but was seeing wild flashes of color through the cracks in the door out in the livingroom. Joe wasn't in bed and I hollered for him and he didn't answer. I jumped out of bed and opened the door to see the TV flashing wild colored pictures of travel scenes of the ocean with no sound playing.  (salt water?) (I'm starting to look for coincidences in events)

The dream jumped back into my head like it was a packet of information. I think I'm missing some details about working on a computer, but otherwise the information seems pretty complete.


3-1-00  - DREAM - I had a job in a place I worked at a long time ago. I didn't know what I was supposed to do yet as I had just come here again. I decided to go out to buy something at the mall and when I did I spotted a guy I used to work for a long time ago named 'David'. He looked very somber. I decided not to speak to him and ducked into a jewelry store. He followed me.

I didn't want to talk to him, not that we didn't get along, I just didn't feel that his mood was what I was looking for at the moment.  I went back outside and found that it was raining very hard.  In the middle of the road was like a bird bath ... concrete thing ... and under it were three big turtles. I looked in the water in the road and saw that there were turtles everywhere of all sizes, big and little.

I tried to get back into the building without getting my feet wet, but that was impossible ... the water was rising fast. I then went to a parking lot and saw my son Michael sitting there in his car ... description - like a off-white station wagon. He was laughing about the people driving in the water which was going down the hill so fast, it was faster than any river I've ever seen and this was the street they had to drive in.  He laughed that he had seen a long string of cars trying to get somewhere fast ... to get home probably before the big rains came ... and the drivers were complaining that the traffic was moving too slow.  Then they found out that at Medford, it wasn't moving at all ... and he laughed even harder.

He drove his car up the drive to the edge of the street and just watched the water running down the hill on the road. It was unbelievably deep and fast. I wouldn't have even have tried to drive in that.  It was too late now.

I then went back to work. I was waiting for instructions on what to do.  The ownership ... father and son came into the room and stood in front of my desk. I wanted to know what could be duplicated and what not.  The son gave me a blank piece of paper with the company logo on and there was a carbon paper under it and I understood that I could duplicate the son's work.  The father gave me a huge sheet of paper, that had like labels on it. I couldn't read them, but I knew instinctively that each one of those labels said on it in no uncertain terms ... 'Do Not Duplicate'.  There was a huge carbon sheet under his sheet too, to duplicate the "Do Not Duplicate' labels.


3-6-00 - DREAM - I was living in a house somewhere which also had a factory and a baseball field on the property at the other end. I seemed to be in charge of getting everything straightened, cleaned, and the color scheme changed. I also found some rectangular orange and green baskets I can only describe as plastic strawberry baskets. These had been thrown in the front window. There were several of them that were large about six inches across, but a few were smaller also, about two inches. This seemed to be very important.

I got several large containers (bags) of blue and yellow yarn which I was going to make into furniture covers.  Another change I made was to take off an avocado green cover (like drapery material) and changed it to gold brocade material. I let the kids have the avocado green piece to play with. They asked to have a livingroom chair covered in the bright yellow.

There was a young girl there who needed to take some yellow medicine on a daily basis. This medicine came in a green plastic container on which was a button so she could press it and self-dose herself.  Unfortunately, she didn't go to the bathroom first, so after she took her medicine, she laughed really hard and peed her pants.

When I took her to the bathroom, I noticed that part of the house was closed off with a drapery curtain. This part of the house was just past the bathroom ... like an extension of the house. It wasn't being used probably because it was winter and it was hard to heat all that house. I was thinking that I like to be able to see into the entire house. I didn't like having any part of it closed off.  I would see to that when spring came and it didn't have to be heated.

On the other end of the house was a baseball field. There were men in uniform playing a game. I assumed they worked in the attached factory.  One guy had a small green apple and batted it with his bat. It flew over and landed in the front of my shirt. They were joking about the ball, and I held it in my hand and said, "If there be any man here, let him step up to the plate!"  We all laughed.

I can't recall what was in the factory, just that I had to make sure that it was in good order and clean.

In the livingroom, a young woman came in with some poodle puppies They were really fat and one little yellow puppy jumped up on the couch and I was trying to control it and make it stay on the floor. I asked her where she had been keeping the puppies because I hadn't seen them since I was there and she lived with us in the house. She wasn't making any sense with her excuses, about where she had been, but she was there now and that's what counted.

As the dream ended, I walked into a part of the house or an attached mall-like place where a bell carillon was playing. The bells were large and small, all tuned to play songs. Some of the bells were hidden in the branches of green Christmas-like trees. It was playing, "Mine Eyes Have Seen the Glory of the Coming of the Lord"  Glory, glory, glory, Hallelujah!"  I woke up with the bells ringing in my head. It was a happy wake-up feeling.


3-16-00 - DREAM - I was working in a huge building that was part business and part living quarters.  The dream started out in my own apartment with someone talking to me about a purchase my son Bill was making about alien things.  I told the person that Bill was going to be paying for it himself.  

I then went over to where the shop was in a mall-like area next to my apartment. This area was all dark red brick.  I saw no one and wondered where Bill had gone.

I then saw several people coming out of the public bathroom area. I was tempted to ask the blonde girl I saw whether she had seen Bill in there, but thought better of it.

I went back to my apartment, disappointed that Bill hadn't purchased the UFO things.  j

When  I got there, my old boss Tom was there and he offered me $20 a day to watch his two girls while they were on their computer. (He had one girl and three sons at last count)

I said, "Okay!" and was pleased, but I wasn't really watching them, I just happened to be in the same general area as they were. They seemed quite capable of watching themselves, just needed someone nearby ... just in case.

I walked through the room just once and went back to my apartment. There I found that there was too much furniture to get through and the meditation chair I use was facing the wrong way and that was the problem. I couldn't get through the room at all. A huge brown coat I was carrying belonged to my son Michael.  I put it on the brown meditation chair to give to Michael the next time I saw him.

I then went back to take a look at the girls and my old boss Tom said, "I've decided to give you $2.25 an hour to watch the girls instead."

I thought to myself, "Gosh! I got two pay raises in one day. I should quit while I'm ahead!"  and woke up.

NOTE: I have no idea how many hours a day I was doing this babysitting job.


4-21-00 - DREAM - I was living in Colorado with my husband. (I never lived there before, only drove through it a couple times) We had a little apartment in a college town. There were a lot of people here, rehearsing plays and getting ready to do other things like cruises. They had lots of group meetings in a rather crowded large room.  I had done some writing and research on a computer but didn't complete what I did. I needed a break I guess. I met several familiar people there, but don't know their names. I don't recall any of the small conversations I had here either.

I noted at one point that my bedroom was outside. I hadn't noticed that at night when we sent to bed because it was dark out, but now that it was daylight, there was bright blue sky and fresh air in the room. (I think I dreamed that because the window was open in the bedroom and a breeze probably blew in)

One scene was like a commercial for dancers. All the black dancers were like on a screen over my head and I noticed that all the black female dancers were expected to show their crotches in the commercials. The dancers were younger and younger, though there was nothing sexual about the young girls who were performing, only anatomical, they were still expected to do this, even more so than the older ones.  I thought this was rather disgusting and unneccesary.

My husband and I decided to leave there and go to Wisconsin which we did. The drive took us two days. I remember only parts of it, where we stopped for gas and food. I just remember pulling into motel parking lots, nothing else.  

When we got to Wisconsin my first husband was there and he told me he had 4 weeks vacation and didn't know what to do with it. I was going to smart-ass suggest to him that he give it to me if he didn't know what to do with it, but  I didn't work anyway, so what would I do with 4 weeks of nothing to do either. I almost suggested that he get married and go on a honeymoon, but decided that wasn't a smart idea either. I almost suggested he drive to Colorado to visit, it only took 2 days to drive there,  but I wasn't there, so what was the point? It was a rather stupid scene. Then I started thinking about how much I like being on the open highway and as long as I had company, I didn't care how many days it took to get somewhere, I just liked being on the highway.

After that I rather lost my way. I don't know where I was because nothing was familiar. I ended up in an apartment building with 9 floors. I recognized the people on the elevator but didn't speak to them. The elevator was rather rickety and wooden and I knew I lived on the third floor so didn't bother to press the button. Several other people got off on three anyway, so I followed them.  This didn't look familiar at all.  The brick the walls were made of were rough and black and red.  Instead of where my apartment was, there was a book store. I almost thought it was Barnes & Noble, but I wasn't sure.  The next door had a painted sign on the door about what it was. I tried to read it in case it was telling me what my next project or job was but I couldn't read it either.  I decided to leave and get to the right place.

I left the building and went outside. I could see that at the next intersection was a busy shopping street. There was no traffic on the street, so people just walked whichever direction they wanted as slow as they wanted.  Crossing the street was a steep hill for some reason, and I could see a green street sign on the corner, so I thought I would find out at least where I was, but it was too much work to walk up that way, so I didn't.  I could see a freeway way over to the left horizon. One car went by with lights on while I was looking.

I walked slowly up the hill, crossing the street to the shopping mall part, but ended up following some old man  in a heavy winter beige coat into a building. I kind of felt like I was with him, but when we got to his apartment, he shut the door on me, telling me he had to go to the bathroom which was right by the door.  That was okay, there was a toilet for me in the outer hallway which I took advantage of.  All the toilet facilities in this building were visible to the public. There was nothing hidden except the old man's apartment.

I went back outside and saw that I was in a college town. It was so crowded, the kids desks were out on the sidewalks. Some were really long, and each student had their own little drawer with a key on it. However, if you were desperate for paper, pencil or whatever, some kids didn't lock their drawers, and you had access to study materials right out in the open. It seemed rather nice for students.


5-5-00 - DREAM - It was Christmas time and there was to be a big party but I wasn't ready. My hair was still all in rollers and wet and not enough time had passed for it to dry yet. However, I didn't want to miss out on anything, so went to the mall where the party was going to be.

There was hardly anyone in the mall, but the clerks had to work anyway and I felt sorry for them.  I went into the candy store and looked around and spotted some great looking chocolates there. I didn't want any with nuts, but another woman came in and said she would buy some for me as a treat and bought some with walnuts in.  That was fine with me as long as it wasn't peanuts which I'm now allergic to for some reason.

I then went to the party with hair still in rollers.  A man named David offered me a glass of wine. The glass looked more like a fluted eye cup rather than a wine glass.  (They used to use these to treat eye diseases in the old days of the early 1900's. They are lower on one side than the other to tip the fluid up to the eye without spilling in order to cleanse the eye)

The wine was purple and I never did drink any of it.

There was a discussion whether I had gone to see any of my relatives yet and I admitted that I hadn't. I wasn't ready for the party yet.  My mother was standing there with my Aunt Irene (deceased) and I was supposed to go see my Uncle Lester who was upstairs. (Also deceased)

I can't recall how this ended.


5-8-00 - DREAM - I was in my apartment and the telephone rang. It was my boss asking me if I was coming in to work to finish the special letters I hadn't finished.  I looked at the clock and it was 5 minutes to 8 a.m.  I had planned to go in early and didn't.  I said to him, "I'll be right there!"

I threw on some clothes, and ran out to the street and walked up the hill towards work.  (I used to live this close to work, but in another direction from the building)  I was living on 70th St. down the hill from the office building.  So, I walked up the hill and where the office building used to start, there were dozens of stores, only about 5 feet wide, all with famous names of shops in malls everywhere. All their goods were hanging on the outside windows of the shops below the names of the stores.  I rather took a little time to gaze at some of the items as I walked along, fascinated. (Note: There is a mall in this same spot now, but the stores are not just 5 feet wide)

The moment I walked into the door of the building, I woke up as my physical telephone rang.


5-28-00 - DREAM - This dream left me feeling disturbed somewhat because I don't understand it.

I was on 12th St. in Milwaukee. The High School I went to was on the east side of the street. On the West side, some farmer or someone was plowing up the entire area and the soil was turning to yellow powder.  It seemed like he was plowing it into useless nothing....???

I went to an outdoor bathroom and changed clothes. I put on a man's pair of black and white checked shorts with straps to hold them up. They also had a series of large black buttons down the front which seems superfluous but they all had to be buttoned.  I had to step into these shorts from behind, through the straps. It was kind of confusing but once they were on and I buttoned them, they fit pretty good.

I then went to a shopping mall where women were dressed like women in suits and high heeled shoes and for some reason I was angry or something and was throwing low heeled shoes at them like I was angry.  

I woke up feeling rather this way also.

I saw the word 'moire' which I've looked up. It seems to be a pattern of black and white which shifts as you look at it. Seems to kind of match the black and white shorts I was wearing.

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6-30-00 - DREAM - This was an all black dream.  All the people were wearing black. We were in a building or house where people were coming, pairing off, and waiting for something that was going to happen to all of them.

As we were all sitting there, a blast of white heat came and hit us all on the right side of our faces and hands.  

As this  point, my partner went outside. He offered to take me with him but I wasn't ready. I didn't have socks or shoes on.  I quickly pulled on some high winter boots with flat heels, but people said that wasn't proper. There were some black shoes there with higher heels and many laces, but I didn't have socks to wear with them so I couldn't leave right then.

I saw Zero Mostel and a lot of boys go into a side room. They were going to be dancing and this was like a rehearsal hall.  Zero was told that this was to be his last chance to perform if he wanted the opportunity.  I peeked into the room and the boys were like piled up like cordwood according to type.  Example: all the boys wearing black were lined up like this and laying against each other ... //////

If I was going to guess how many types there were ... 12.

Each type of boy was wearing a different color ... these weren't all wearing black. I remember the color green also.

When I went back to the other room, it was now a shopping mall and all new clothes had just come in, so I went to the sock department to buy me some green socks.

While I was standing there, I saw that the skin on my ring finger on my left hand was coming loose ... the whole nail and skin peeled right off. Underneath the loose skin, there was a perfect replica of nail and skin. I didn't pull it off, but used it as an example to show to other people.

Then I looked in the mirror and saw that the whole right side of my face and side of my head was peeling off like my finger had. Underneath the loose skin was a perfect replica of myself. This I pulled off and began to show everyone how perfect the skin was underneath the imperfection.

However, all my hair was short on the right side of my head and it didn't match the left side. I saw my friend Janice there who was a hairdresser and begged her to trim the left side of my head to match the right side.  She said, "No, no, no!" You have to go to a professional hairdresser to have that done.


7-17-00 - (I love this dream. It is so cool)  DREAM - I was in New Berlin. It seemed like my house, but it was also like a shopping mall type place. I picked up some jewels ... similar to white Onyx ... similar shape to the jewels above, but white. There were 5 of them. Two of them actually belonged to a woman from church, but now that I had them, I was going to have them set into a ring for myself.  I was also shown some painting skills like in a video but this was just in the air in front of me. I wanted to do some painting and was shown closeups on women's long fingernails and how the fingernails could be painted with tiny paintings. They were so cool ... so I went to the store part of the house to buy some fingernail painting gloss and brushes and to find someone to set my gemstones into a ring.

When I got to the store part of the house, my friend Nadia was there. (Nadia lives in New Jersey and actually just moved to Long Island, NY yesterday to be with her fiance. I had been thinking about her yesterday, wondering how her move went) Nadia told me that she always bought my jewels.  I disagreed totally and told her I had my own credit card.

I left the store then, wanting to go to a drug store across town to buy some herbs to help me lose weight. (I had a discussion with another friend about this yesterday also) However, when I got outside I realized it was going to snow so it was better that I not go across town but just go to the New Berlin drug store and see if I could get the herbs there.

I was driving my first car ... a 1965 Ford. It was a large car, but when I got in it and started it, I found that the brakes didn't work very well.  I could get the car 'almost' to a stop, but not quite, so I couldn't stop, I could only slow down. I noted that the snow was so bad in drifts that even people on snowboards and toboggans couldn't make headway, so how was I going to do this.  I attempted to stop the car after I made the first right turn onto the road from the driveway, but I couldn't stop ... so I tried steering into the side of a small hill to stop myself.

This didn't work either. I managed to get the car slowed way down, but then it was like being in a boat on water in a river and when I bumped into the hill, the back end of the car started coming around and continued on down the road.  I got the car around the next right turn onto National Avenue and continued on down that road.  

Down the road aways, which was already past the New Berlin drug store and into West Allis, way out of control, I spotted an empty field with rocks on both sides.  I knew that the Vietnamese had been ousted from the United States by Treaty just the past Saturday, so there was nobody in this field.  I pulled my car into the field off the road, and got my car stopped by the rocks. Vietnamese had been removed from this field and placed on the other side of the road. I didn't actually see any of them ... I just knew this.

I thought I would be able to run back to the house and catch a ride with my husband but I knew it was too late, that he had already left the house. So, I walked quickly back through the field, and saw that men were standing on the edge of a precipice looking past the rocks like they were perhaps being thankful the Vietnamese had been removed ... but forgetting how it might have been if they had not.

I got back up on National Ave. and saw Joe. He was parked by the side of the road in a giant sized car that looked like a train engine from the 1930's. (He was born in 1939) He was having trouble driving it so had parked it by the side of the road. The train engine looked like it was in good condition ... almost like new ... shiny light green with a darker green roof.  There were a couple men with him discussing why the train wasn't running properly.

There was a placard type sign on the front of the engine that said it was either owned by or managed by a man named 'FUDGE'.  I knew that 'FUDGE' really meant ROV (He is an ET) But Joe said it was 'FUDGE' and I wasn't going to dissuade him from his beliefs.

I was told by someone that I was supposed to turn myself in to the Vietnamese camp but I knew that the Vietnamese had signed the treaty the Saturday before, and I was not about to turn myself into them now.

I pulled my credit card out of my pocket and it was like electronic and it clicked down to a credit balance of $750. ( I think it started with credit of $900)


8-13-00 - DREAM - I lived in a city and had some errands to run. I particularly wanted to find a flower shop, to send flowers to my mother, before it closed and it was already 5 p.m. I ended up on a street I hadn't been on before like a street mall with lots of small shops. It seemed that none of the other people on the street had ever seen it before either. We were all rather ooohing and aahing at the quaint array of shops.

I somehow ran into James S. who I dated in highschool. I hadn't seen him in many years. He started to follow me around and volunteered to drive me to the flower shop so I'd get there on time. However, he more than wanted to just drive me to the flower shop ... in insisted, "We have to get married!"  (He was wearing a jacket of red and black plaid wool)

I reacted with shock, "What??????"  It was kind of cool to be wanted like that, but all I wanted was a companion/driver ... not married with all those extra responsibilities. I didn't even know him.

Anyway, he ran ahead to buy a car so he could drive me to the flower shop.  I walked through my apartment building to the far end, and went outside into the cold and snow. I didn't have  coat on and I saw that everyone else was dressed for winter. However, when I got outside, it seemed rather comfortable and I wasn't even cold.

The bad thing was that James had his new car parked the wrong way on the street. The car was small ... a reddish German type car ... rather like a Volkswagen but with a squared off back end. The street was a huge boulevard with a median strip that was like 1/2 a block wide and he didn't see that so parked the wrong way on a one way street that was going to the right ... he was parked so that he was going left ... against traffic.

I saw a car coming along the road going the right way, but unfortunately the car would crash right into James' car.  I hoped the person driving would see the car and stop in time and I ran out into the roadway waving my arms to stop the car.

The other car skidded to a stop before it hit James car, but the cops came and arrested him for inappropriate driving on a one way street.

Now I didn't haven't anyone to help me do my chores and errands, so I found someone (a black woman) to help me. James wanted to help me so badly, he allowed me to get a piece of his DNA and we got a plug of his flesh and I had him cloned.

For some reason James was badly injured. I don't remember how that happened, but while he was recuperating in the hospital and/or jail, I would have the clone of James.  As I was waking up, I saw a list of all the medical details of the cloning information which I thought I would remember, but I can't ... sorry!


9-6-00 - DREAM - I was with some people, walking along with them while they were mowing their lawn. They walked around the edge ... the Father mowing while the daughter walked along behind him. I was walking behind on one pass along the row, then walked alongside on another pass, walked backwards on the next pass. I was so close to them, it was like I was taking a closeup video and at one point I only had the Father's face in the frame.

Finally, we came to the garden area. They had an Asian tree that was so rare, they removed all the grass from beneath it so that when it bloomed and then formed seeds, the seeds could drop to the ground and reseed itself.  The seedlings were also in bloom and the flowers were all pale yellow.

Another tree we came to, the Father started to mow the leaves off the top. It reminded me of the trees in our backyard which have huge leaves on them and people cut all the branches off the tree rather than rake the leaves in the fall.  Thus the tree is left with a knobby top and then in spring, it branches out fully again. Pretty amazing.  

However, on this tree, I told him to stop mowing because there were purple flowers on the tree that looked like orchids.  These flowers were the largest orchids I ever saw in my life and I told the Father not to cut this tree down like he was.  Then while I was looking at the flowers, I saw tiny white birds in the branches opening their mouths and gasping for air like there wasn't enough air to breathe.

I then went into the house and was going to cook chicken for dinner. However, I couldn't manage to do that because the chickens were live and were standing on a square table in the middle of the room opening their little mouths and gasping for air like there wasn't enough air to breathe.

So, I called my sister on the phone and told her I had a dumb question to ask her.  I said, "I want to make dinner and we're going to have chicken, but the chickens are still alive.  How do I get the chicken from it's alive state to it's dead carcass state?"  I knew what the answer was but I didn't want to face it, and I was NOT going to do it myself. I was hoping she had an easier answer.

Note: Reminds me of the days when I was raising Cockatiels and had the cage in the kitchen. I couldn't eat chicken in those days because I'd think of my pet birds.

Joe and I went shopping then. We went to a big mall. While Joe was looking for a parking spot, I was standing on the sidewalk by the front door.  Joe was going up and down the rows looking for an empty space, while two other cars were racing up and down just having fun and endangering everyone else.  Nothing happened to those guys, but then Joe made a right turn into the outer lane right where the racing guys had to go and they had to stop.

The coincidence was that they had to stop right where some cops were standing, making sure a bunch of picketers were marching and the cops dragged the guys out of their cars and arrested them. I was glad that happened and if Joe hadn't been exactly where he was at that moment, it never would have happened.

Joe and I went inside the store then. It must have been J.C. Penneys. We were walking up an aisle and came to the furnishings department where they had a display of an old fashioned wooden highbacked chair with a selection of fancy pillows stacked on it.

Joe admired a green covered pillow, so we picked up the green pillow and asked the sales clerk to get us a matching pillow so we'd have two of them.  Joe paid for the pillows with his white J.C. Penney credit card, then took them out to the car.

While Joe was out at the car, the salesclerk brought out two more pillows to put on the chair.  These two were big and square with fancy flower prints on the face. One of them had a big dark green flounce around the edge, and the other had a bright purple flounce around the edge. They were so pretty, I wanted these pillows also, so I told the clerk I wanted them and asked him if he would get me a matching set so I had two of each.  

Then I remembered that Joe had taken his credit card with him and I couldn't pay the price with a J.C. Penney credit card.  Then I remembered I had a credit card of my own , a 'Mastercard' and I knew I could take care of the price by myself.

and woke up.


9-20-00 - DREAM - I was in a shopping mall with Joe and my daughter. We were all buying new clothes. The rack that Joe was buying his clothes from was next to the rack that my daughter and I was choosing from, but it was similar, just cut different for male or female.

My daughter and I decided to wear identical clothes and we chose summer casual clothes ... long shorts and matching T top in several shades of orange/tan.

We then went to a neighborhood where some people were flying a blue flag in honor of the first woman who worked for legislation to free the slaves. Everyone was so proud of her hard work.

We then went to another neighborhood where they were flying a green flag. People here were honoring a different person for working towards freeing the slaves.  However, the people who were honoring the first woman with the blue flag were upset that the second group was flying a green flag.

After a lot of discussion, the two groups finally decided it was okay to fly different flags. The point was that they were both honoring a person for doing a good thing, the importance should not be on what color flag the group flew.


10-19-00 - This was stupid night ...

DREAM - I was living in a large apartment building. I was looking for something while cleaning out drawers in the bedroom. I opened up a couple of the bottom most drawers and discovered that my husband was saving old candy boxes.  A couple of them were neat little boxes, colored green with many square compartments in them. They were empty and I decided I would let him keep them. I opened the bottom most drawer and discovered that there was a box of candy in this drawer. Only some of it was eaten and it was all wormy.  

When I opened this drawer the worms came crawling out into the light and there were so many of them, I felt quite overwhelmed and went screaming out of the apartment and down the hall to find my husband who was working in another apartment.  

The people around me in the hallway were not at all helpful, but were strange in themselves ... people who couldn't hear well, people who only spoke above a whisper so I couldn't hear what they were saying. There were look-alike people who only resembled people I knew but were too tall, too young, too old, or too short to people I really knew.

I didn't find my husband in the first direction, so I went running down the hall in the other direction.  This hallway became more decrepit the farther I went. First it was carpeted, then became only a concrete floor, and I got the impression that I was walking on the inside of a space station ... the floor was curved so I was always walking at the bottom of a huge curve which went upward just beyond me.  The fact that the hallway was getting more and more scary and decrepit made me finally turn around because I saw ahead of me, the curve was getting even higher as I walked.

So, I went back the other way and the hallway improved as I went and I finally got back to my own apartment and opened the door. A huge sign appeared that said "Entomology 101".


I didn't feel like getting up and finally went back to sleep and rather repeated the dream before except I was trying to tell my husband the dream while a video of the dream was playing.  We would get to talking and we got past the worm part and I told him to rewind it, then he rewound it so far, it went into a different black and white movie which he preferred to watch. I finally gave up trying to show him the video of the previous dream. It just wasn't worth the effort.

I got up and went to see some other people. There were some young woman who were just starting college and I was going to take the same class with them. However, they had gone a day early and got their books and papers ahead of time.  They showed me what was required. The paper they had was legal size and white and held on a clipboard.  

I was fascinated that the teacher expected everyone to label their papers in exactly the same way in specific spaces.  The girl I was talking to said that the teacher said she was only allowed to list one website and she was excited that she was going to tell the teacher that she was linked to MY website. That made her ecstatically happy.

I thought that was great for her, but I wasn't too thrilled by the prospect of having to do everything exactly like everyone else.

I started going through the building again, like before, but this time the hallways were jammed with stuff like a narrow mall and I came to one section where everything looked like it belonged to ME. I looked closer and everything in this section was exactly like mine only more of it.  It looked like I owned a whole store of my own. There were numerous duplicates of everything I really own.  It was pretty cool.

I finally went back to my apartment and my kids followed me inside. In the apartment this time, it was like being in the movies where everything we did was accompanied by dramatic sound. Every step the kids made was accompanied by booming tympani drums. The things I moved made sounds like in a baby crib with little tiny bells and tinkling sounds.

In fact, there were baby toys everywhere in the apartment now, stuffed animals, plastic things babies used, and everything was musical.

The kids wanted to see everything I was doing and I was getting annoyed with the sounds so I decided to wake up.



10-26-00 - (I had a really hard time going to sleep after writing long e-mails yesterday. Then when I lay down I felt a sharp like cold electrical poker going through my left brain to my left ear. I don't think it was going from my ear towards my brain ... it felt like the other direction. The pain was incredible. It happened twice, then sent away. I don't konw what caused it. At that moment I wasn't seeing anything astrally. However, after the pain passed, I started seeing gardens and parks with trees and shadowy people walking around in them. It was kind of cool)

DREAM - I was in my 16th St. house and needed to go to the upstairs bathroom. When I got there, I could hear water running behind the closed door and knew that someone was in there. It sounded like a shower was running ... something we never had back then. I realized it had to be my brother.  I quietly walked across the hall and went into my old room, closed the door and started to lay down when I heard my brother come out of the bathroom, go into the master bedroom and start to get dressed. When I felt he was dressed all the way, I quietly walked to the door and came out of the room.

In the hallway, I met my other brother also who only lived in that house as a tiny child, not as an adult as he was now. My brother Marty told me that my brother John needed help in sorting out or dividing some plants that he had growing in his room.  So we went in there.  It didn't appear to me that he needed any help. All the plants were tidy. Perhaps a little large in their pots, but definitely not really needing any dividing at that point.  I saw some really huge cactus type things behind that area and leaned over to look at them. Just my breath alone made one fall over backwards ... Ooops... I said and left the room.

I then found myself in a place that looked somewhat like my old apartment building on Jackson Street in Milwaukee in some aspects, but was quite different in others. It was rather de ja vu at the same time.

In 1989 I was the only white woman managing an all black building. Not the one described above. I  managed that building for a year and a half, then moved to one a block away that was half and half color-wise. Three years later I moved to one that was mostly white near the downtown area.  This was that building ... almost.

I went into one apartment which I asked the manager if it was apartment 5 because there was no number on the door. She didn't answer me, but invited me in to see the apartment which was a model, fully furnished.  

The apartment was fully furnished as I said, with furniture, curtains, drapes, everything. It was wonderful.  No one could have asked for better.  After I finished looking at the apartment, I went out into the hallway again and headed towards the lobby.  

Here in the hallway were all black men, dressed nicely in suits, but they would bump into me and I've have to say, "Excuse me", so they wouldn't think anything bad about me, but none of them said it to me. I was the only one who said it.  I went through some doors, feeling very nervous about being here. I felt quite intimidated being the only white woman with all black men.

I came to the lobby which was quite extensive ... more like a mall seating area.  The air felt quite heavy here and walking was difficult because of the heavy atmosphere it felt like ... like heavy gravity perhaps.  I was wearing a long maroon gown which dragged on the floor it seemed because it felt like the women in the room, of which there were many were stepping on the back hem of my dress as I walked.  Only by picking up my dress a little could I walk at all normally.  

I was walking past the women who were seated. They were dressed in fancy gowns like at the opera, all coifed fancy, and wearing perfume and jewels.  I then realized what was wrong with this scene and it rather horrified me ... these were all men ... dressed up like women.  I had to walk around the whole area so as not to appear uncouth. I couldn't just cut and run. Having this heavy atmosphere or gravity made it take all the longer than normal.

I was being trailed now by the manager and some other woman who were touring with me.  I was about to exit the room ... I was so sickened by what I was seeing, I started to say, "This place should bommmmmmmmmm.." and couldn't finish the word because as I turned my head, there was a cop sitting on the couch next one of them.

I knew as I was saying the word, it was a crime to threaten anyone or any place and instantly regretted it. I asked the women next to me in a whisper, "Do you think he heard me?" She said, "No! But he heard you say, "This is my first time back here! And he wrote it down and was watching you."  I whispered back, "This is the last time I will come back here."

We continued on down the hall and came to an area where there were water hoses on the other side of a door that divided the building in the hallway.  For some reason, I picked up the heavy hose and was dragging it down the hall with me, hosing down the walls to clean them.  

I got almost to the next section door and spotted my grandson Nathan.  He greeted me and said that he had been given the job of the hosing the area and he was allowed to go only to where I picked up the hose and he showed me how far he was allowed to go. He said it was area 'D'.

We went beyond that area then and I spotted my family having some kind of party. They were lining up on a stairway for a family picture. I heard my Father say, "It's too bad that Dolores isn't here."  I piped up and said, "Yes! I'm here!", just as others said, "She's here!" I saw my Father look over towards where I was and he smiled and then went back to the pose he wanted for the picture.

We then got up to go celebrate my mother's birthday which just passed on October 6th and I couldn't be with her.  The women were passing around little salty snacks on tiny trays and that's what my mouth tasted like when I woke up later.  I went to sit next to my mother on a stairway built into the lobby for sitting on ... like built in stair benches.  I saw knitting needles and a sewing kit there like someone had been sewing.  I started to pick them up so I could sit there and started to wake up, feeling a picking feeling under my arm like I was getting jabbed by something I picked up.  There was nothing sticking in my clothing that I could find however.


11-17-00 - DREAM - I was living in the city somewhere. I was rather at loose ends with nothing to do and just walking along aimlessly.

I came across Taylar, Joe's granddaughter and suddenly I remembered I hadn't picked up my mail in some time so headed back to my apartment building which seemed to be the old A-C building on 70ths St in West Allis.

Taylar ran inside ahead of me. Her apartment was on the 1st floor. Mine was on the 4th floor. I walked down the hall aways and found a stairway going up.

I climbed up to the 4th floor easily enough. However, I was shocked at it's condition. It was all newly carpeted but the carpet wasn't tacked down anywhere, just laid on the strais so it looked more like a bumpy slide than a stairway.

As soon as I got up to the 4th floor, I ran into a group of tall, large women, most of hwom were tlaler and larger than myself. They were all getting ready to be ms. Santa Claus for Christmas.

They begged me to join them, but I hate wearing costumes and begged off, saying I was too busy but "Thanks anyway!" They looked disappointed but there were planty of women there. They really didn't need me too.

I went on down the hall and I almost ran into a young woman who looked identical to my old best friend Nancy. She had another best friend, a girl she hugged and I saw two really tall thin men in her apartment behind her.  (They were wearing goldish/brown suits)

Out of instinct and perhaps shock, I told her I needed to talk with her. I wanted to desparately to tell her about Nancy. If this was her ... reincarnated, she would be dying and being reborn every 16 years. (She actually died at age 29 in 1968. I dreamed about her every so often over the years and once I was told she had died at age 29 again)

She invited me into her apartment, but seeing the men in her apartment, I told her I'd see her again tomorrow.

I went ont down the hall .. it seemed like a mall with real narrow shops.

I didn't have my keys in my pocket so I was hoping my apartment door was unlocked. When I got to where my apartment was supposed to be, not only was the door open, everything was gone and even the walls were pulled out and being re-wallboarded. I ran into some construction workeers and one said, "Remember that wet spot you discovered on the wall?  Well, this is what happened."

I was stunned.

A girl who looked like Lorna, our daughter-in-law came running out of the apartment with an armload of wallpaper samples. They were all various green flowered.

She said, "They moved you down the hall to the far end."

I tried to remember who had lived on the far end. It was Robert Monroe.  As far as I remembered, he had the largest, blue-walled apartment in the whole building. I was so excited. I couldn't wait to tell everyone where I was going to live.

I went on down the hall with Lorna. She stopped off at another apartment to help decorate it with the green flowered wallpaper and I went on down the hall to find my new apartment.

I was dismayed at the noise and crowds of people and circus-like atmosphere of the whole floor. I was hoping that the Robert Monroe apartment would be like an oasis and quiet and peaceful.


4-15-05 - THE ULTIMATE MALL BATHROOM DREAM -  I was in a HUGE mall. I needed to go to the bathroom and I found a ladies room on one side. Only one person at a time could go in and my friend Kimber went in first. 

I was standing outside when a group of people I came along and they all had to go to the bathroom too.

They were so exuberant, they jostled me out of my place, then decided who was going to get to go first and it wasn't me. All these people were 7 feet or more tall so I didn't get a lot of choice as to who was going to go first as they arranged and rearranged the line of people. 

Everyone was having fun, laughing and chatting and I didn't want to make a commotion about being first in line, so I just went along with it. As long as I could hold it, there was no problem. 

However, before I got to my turn, the whole group decided to go all the way across the mall and buy snacks at the food machines. 

I had been here before, so I knew where all the ladies rooms were at this mall. This was no problems for me and went along for the fun of it. 

I reached into my pocket and found only a couple of shiny dimes, not enough to buy anything, but I knew I had some quarters in my coin purse that is attached to the outside of my wallet in my purse. 

So, while my friend Diane was showing off the Cheetos she had bought, I went fishing in my purse for the wallet with the coin purse, opened it up and fished out one quarter.

I promptly dropped the quarter on the floor, heard it clink and roll.  The came the fun of finding the quarter. 

I looked down at the floor more closely. It was made of see-thru resin that was thick and had embedded white circles in the resin, that was just slightly larger than the quarter.

The resin was also very shiny, so we all slid our feet on the floor, trying to find the quarter amongst all the embedded circles. We never did find it, but it was fun watching all those people, trying to pick up the embedded circles they thought was the quarter.  

I finally gave up and headed for the ladies room which was quite a ways down the mall past all the shops, restaurants and a theatre down a side hall, where the largest ladies room was. 

I was walking really fast and didn't have all those friends with me. I was really glad to find the ladies room. I pushed the door open as it swung both directions and found myself in a long hallway that had stalls on both sides with closed doors on them. 

As I made my way down the hallway looking for an open stall, all of a sudden, nine foot tall men started coming out of the stalls, wearing white towels around their hip area, naked from the waist up. They were all really muscular and had odd long faces.

I was almost instantly surrounded by these tall guys whom I thought looked gay by the way they were all wearing he towels. 

I just said, "Oops! I thought I was in the ladies room", and started looking for the door and started running into tall masculine looking women in dresses on my hurried way back out of this hallway. 

All I cared about was getting to the ladies room and ran out the door and again walked fast down the mall to another ladies room I knew about.  

About this time, it seemed that everyone was either carrying a green - yellow polka-dotted umbrella over their heads or wearing a voluminous green skirt with yellow polka dots.  That doesn't make sense but that's what I'm remembering.

I ran into the door of the next ladies room I came to and found myself in a very narrow hallway with no doors inside it.

I both heard and felt a buzzing sound in my head as I started walking into that hallway and almost simultaneously fond myself laying awake in bed. 

I realized I needed to clear my throat of phlegm, which I did and almost instantly went back into the dream and found myself in a section of the mall where a guy was making pizza dough and mixing in white flour ad everyone was getting coated with white flour and laughing about it.

Now, all the umbrellas and skirts were dark blue with white polka dots and I was trying to figure out how white flour on green and yellow could become blue an white and I knew it can't. The reverse could possibly work, but you don't go from green and yellow to blue and white by adding white to green and yellow. 

But I still needed to go the bathroom and headed for another ladies room I knew about further down the mall. 

When I got there, I saw women going into it, so I was sure it was a ladies room, but when I got inside, it was literally standing room only. There were no toilets , only small stalls where you had to stand over a drain in the floor. 

I had to go so bad by now, I made an attempt to rearrange my clothing to do what was required, but I couldn't do it and gave up to go find a real ladies room where I could sit down like a normal bathroom. 

I gradually woke up this time and realized I'd better get up and go to the bathroom as soon as I remembered the dream I had just had.