DREAMS AND VISIONS OF FATHER/GOD
BY DEE FINNEY
7-20-88 -DREAM - My husband decided it wasn't worth living anymore. He was on the 2nd floor and set the house on fire with the blue gas from the stove. The baby was in the room behind him. In the note he left, he said I had been untrue to him, and he was going home to his Father.
That was why he was taking the baby too. I looked around the house and decided there was nothing in the house that was not replaceable. I ran next door to call the fire department. They didn't even care about the fire, my husband, or the baby. The said, "Nobody knew who the baby's Father was anyway!" They were trying to tell me they had been saving my mail for me while I was on vacation and they would make copies of all the "C.D." tapes for me.
I was sobbing hysterically because my husband was killing the baby too.
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7-24-88 - DREAM - There was a tent camp of many unruly men on the graveyard. A woman complained that they threw something on her grandfathers grave and they became very angry and wanted to fight, but they had counselors there who calmed them down and we left.
A woman was going all over town picking all the sunflowers. My husband was buying me an orange car.
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7-24-88 - DREAM - I was playing the piano for work while I was supposed to be working. I said, "This doesn't feel like work." My husband came in and put his red bible on top of the piano. I stood up to go to work. I took a knife and something else and held them out towards my daughter and said, "Would you please put these away?" She screamed, "No!" at me and threw herself on her bed and kicked her legs in the air.
I became outraged and tried to throw the Bible which had become a knife onto the floor. I was unable to. I then threw the first knife out into the backyard and went over to my daughter and took her by the head in both hands and squeezed and said while staring into her eyes, "When I ask you to do something and say, Please! Don't ever say "No!" just quickly do it without making a sound and then go back to what you wanted to do for yourself. I tried to throw the bible/knife on the floor because of my anger. I then went out into the yard and retrieved the first knife. Then I met my Father and he came back into the house with me. He asked my Mother, "Why does 'so n so" have to go to Melton's all the time and go bear hunting?" (can't remember so n so's name) He has a home church. What are home churches for?
I thought to myself, "We just learned that in church last week. A home church is where you go for fellowship to strengthen yourself so that when you go out into the world you can strengthen others.
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8-5-88 - DREAM - I was busy taking care of my children on 16th St. and the back doorbell rang. It was a black couple looking for a pickup truck or a motorcycle to rent. I tried to help them but nobody know who had the items they wanted. When they left, I had a good sized baby in my right arm and two little ones in my left arm. The one on the left needed its diaper changed and was trying to get away from me. I said that the child on the left belonged to my Father and all he was interested in right then was the island of Sumatra which is in the Aegean Sea of the coast of Greece.
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8-6-88 - MEDITATION - I asked for guidance about my health problems on the spiritual level. I saw that a lot of my problems are caused by my father. I saw that black computer floppy disks were handed to me (Heredity? Predestination?)
When I went to bed, I saw that I was surrounded by a group of women
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9-17-88 - DREAM - I was watching TV and was controlling the channels myself. My neighbor didn't like me to be the controller. I went out and met my Father on the sidewalk. He told me to go back and keep track of every nickel I spend and write it down.
NOTE: I followed that advice. It was wise advice.
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10-11-88 - I meditated on calling spirits. I called God, The Father, Son, and Holy Spirit and asked their opinion on calling spirits named Marcus, Crutus, and Babaji.
A man dressed all in white came and sat on my lap. He had a plate of food with three different types of food on it. Then I started to see little children at play.
NOTE: I take that to mean that each spirit is different and provides different types of spiritual nourishment. Also, that we should be like little children when we come to them.
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2-25-89 - I dreamed that my spiritual teacher showed me a notebook he wrote in regularly. His notes showed that he had a vision that the second coming of Jesus Christ would be soon. He had received the visions from an Ascended Master. At the bottom of the page signed seven times in various colors of pencil was the name "FATHER".
I woke up and instantly heard a telephone ring in my left ear. I mentally said, "I am ready for a message." I began to see a small graveyard. It was oval-shaped. A white arm and hand appeared and began digging a deep hole in the soil and bringing out objects which I eventually recognized to be the baby Jesus laying in a 'cradle' and surrounded by baby animals. I then saw another oval ring next to it and inside that ring, a full sized lamb and lion were laying down inside it...side by side.
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10-8-89 In Meditation, I called the Master named Marcus. He came and his voice said, "Call my Father". So, I then called Babaji. I then saw a white horse coming with a white robed man on it, followed by 12 riders on horseback behind him. I heard the words, "Holy Christ".
I then went back into Meditation and called "Holy Christ". I saw a door open up and saw 4 books open on a shelf. I asked him what he wanted me to do. He answered, "Love mankind".
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9-17-89 DREAM: I was at my 16th St house. My whole family was there, the generation before me, and the generation after me. My Father had an elephant and we were all afraid of it.
He always brought it out to perform for whomever came to the house and this was going to be one of those days. My kids and I were outside together and I showed them I could easily scale the nearest mountain. But when we were back at home, my Father brought out the elephant and we were all afraid. My Father had promised to get rid of the elephant but in this case, he had also promised he would give one last performance in honor of someone special in town. The kids and I all ran upstairs to the attic to hid behind some old furniture.
But I knew that my Father would bring the elephant upstairs and his trunk could reach behind the furniture and get us anyway, so I decided to run away from home.
I sneaked downstairs, expecting to see the elephant but I didn't. Everyone was dancing and having a good time. Each second that went by, I expected the elephant to appear but it didn't. I was sneaking out the front door when my Father yelled at me to stop, but I wouldn't. I was down the front stairs and up the sidewalk in a flash, expecting every moment I'd see the elephant and it would see me.
Suddenly, my daughter came up to me. She was about 10 years old. She was determined she wasn't going to be left behind. She was wearing a bright red dress, white socks and patent leather black shoes. suddenly, I spotted the elephant. To accommodate my fears, my Father had put the elephant in a rubber suit and it was laying down all tied up. Even it's head and ears were covered. I was surprised, but even seeing that wasn't going to stop me.
I was going to go to my girlfriend's house in the next block where sensible people lived.
My daughter was yelling at me to wait for her, but I wouldn't slow down. I grabbed her by the hand and dragged her with me. Then her left shoe came off and she started to cry. I wouldn't let that stop me either. I ran across Clark St. and dragged her with me. Then she fell head long on the sidewalk. I wasn't going to let that stop me either. I picked her up and attempted to carry her. She was crying and she was dead weight. I couldn't carry her. She was too heavy, so I grabbed her by the dress and dragged her with me. I said I was going to get there no matter what. Nothing was going to stop me.
Then my daughter started to shriek. She shrieked so loud I thought it would pierce my eardrums. It was so loud I woke up and as I woke up the thought went through my mind that there was an old wive's tale that if you shrieked in a dream, you would die in your sleep.
I woke up from the dream feeling perfectly calm, but wondering who was going to die. Her or me? That's the way I wanted to die.
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11-15-89 - DREAM - I was walking along 17th and Clark streets with a man. I escorted him across the street talking about love and he seemed negative. I left him on the corner and went back to clear the way from the tracks so others would have easier going. I went back across the street and was now walking with a black man. Other black men were very angry and I was afraid, so I went up the stairs of a house and called 911 on the house phone on the porch. within seconds I heard sirens, police, ambulance, and firemen then came marching along, along with the navy, army, airforce, and marines. I really felt protected.
I met my father and asked him if I could have the key to our house. He acted like I didn't belong there anymore and he said, "No!" I could feel my blood sugar dropping so I asked him if he would go with me and give me something to eat. He hesitated and then said, "No!" He then offered to buy me a cup of coffee at a restaurant. I knew that would make it worse in the long run, but I was getting desperate and woke up.
NOTE: I had to get up immediately and get a glass of milk to stave off my hypoglycemia.
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12-4-89 Dream: I was in a class on the third floor. An energy was sent out in the form of an arrow. The arrow got stolen by the enemy. This was sexually oriented. I had to hide my feelings because my father was expected any moment. I decided to join in the hunt for the arrow. My cousin Paul was one of the searchers and I fell in love with him. We were dancing together and kissing. It felt so sweet to feel the love between us. But the music changed to rock and roll and Paul couldn't rock and roll and he fell down.
Then the energy came to the house and I decided I as going to be brave and try to get the arrow back that contained the sexual energy. I walked with the man to where the lockers were. He said that it was hidden in locker 15. He opened the locker with the key. He reached into the locker and laughed as he took out a steel case with another lock on it. He threw away the key to locker 15 into the grass. When he wasn't looking I picked up the key and hid it in the pocket of my blue robe I was wearing. We walked along together and we were noticing that we were attracted to each other. We stopped walking and stood looking into each other's eyes. I said that it seemed that we were very compatible and it was a shame that we couldn't be together because we were on opposite sides of the fence. (That meant that he was negative/magnetic and I was positive/electric)
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12-19-89 - DREAM - I came home from work to find my husband talking to a priest dressed in blue. The priest was relating a dream to my husband that showed that when he went past a church with concave windows, each window had an outline of a woman's face with a light that shown where each cheekbone was and a light where the corners of her mouth would be and a hint of a line where the mouth was smiling and as he saw each window like that, we would hear a single bell ring.
I overheard him tell the dream, but he didn't know that I had. I walked in and told the two men about a dream that my Father had. It was identical to the priest's dream and then I added that the dream meant that the woman in the window meant that he belonged to Christ.
The priest was so pleased that he beamed me a smile that made me fall instantly in love with him.
I needed to change clothes and as I went upstairs, I asked my son to straighten up the livingroom which had gotten messed up from playing in it. My son grumbled but the priest reminded him that it was his duty as a son to be helpful and the priest set about to help also.
I thought to myself, "Oh my God! what a catch for a husband he would make. He would be perfect." And I fell more in love with him.
I went upstairs to change into a two piece dress that was both demure and sexy at the same time.
There was a woman upstairs who was composite...my daughter, my sister, my friend Sandy, and my reflection in the mirror it seemed. She had wild two toned hair, black and white and when I brushed my hair, she was my reflection in the mirror and her hair became like a ship at sea on top. I decided I would dye my hair to a pale brown because it wasn't fitting for a priest to be with a woman with wild looking hair.
Then I went downstairs to cook supper, deciding to make spaghetti, corn on the cob, and sliced tomatoes with sugar. My husband assured me that the corn in our own garden was perfect for harvest right at that moment.
I went out into the backyard and the priest was laying face down on our hammock resting. He was naked from the waist up and had on a long blue skirt. He had a birthmark on his right side so I knew he wasn't perfect and I fell more in love with him.
I watched the men play badminton and cook together and play with the kids and I fell more in love with the priest.
I stood on the sidelines, watching the priest at play and fell more in love. I said to my sister/daughter/friend with a secret smile on my face, "things are going exactly as they should." She agreed and smiled too.
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1-17-90 - DREAM - I went out dancing with N.M. We had a wonderful time and danced beautifully together. When we came home, we were at the New Berlin house. N.M. slept in the bedroom by himself. I slept in the 2nd bedroom with my mother and father. we were all in separate beds. My mother had a bright red blanket, my father had a bright blue blanket and I had a bright green blanket. My father's bed was across the head of mine like a T. My mother's bed was like extended out to the left of where my feet were like _| .
When I woke up in the dream, I was laying naked on the white sheet, curled up on my right side. There was a window at my feet and woman in the house next door on the next level up put out her hand in a stop signal to not expose myself. I pulled up a large piece of white cardboard to cover myself, then pulled up the green blanket which had fallen to the floor to cover myself. I knew too that I could not get up off the bed unless I had the green blanket around me because I couldn't expose myself in front of my father.
I realized that it was past 7:15 a.m. and N.M. had already gotten up and gone to work. I got up with the green blanket around me and went over to my mother who had an empty bottle laying on her chin. She handed it to me and said that it was empty and needed to be refilled. I looked at it and it appeared to be full, yet it really was empty. The fluid was sealed between layers of glass and only appeared to be full.
I felt very dizzy like I had a hangover and determined that I needed to get something to eat and woke up.
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3-21-90 - DREAM - I was living and working on the 55th floor and I was in charge of the elevator to make sure that other people got to the floors they belonged on. I pressed a button to make the light green. The people came to my floor, then walked down to the one they belonged on.
My daughter asked me if I was going to help my husband remodel the basement of his house. I had already moved out of that house and both of my husbands were in jail. I told my daughter that her Father hadn't been speaking to me, so there was no way I could assist him.
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11-1-90 - DREAM - I went to a high school class reunion. I almost cried a couple of times because it was so good to see everyone again. One person in particular I wanted to say "Hello" to and that was N.M. In order to not seem conspicuous, I went up to my Father who was sitting with the men and gave him a greeting kiss. My mother was also there and so was D.L., my old boss. (I have no memory of the conversation there.)
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1-22-90 - DREAM - I was driving down Clarke St. to the grocery store on 15th St. when I spotted a house with 4 fish tanks set up for sale so I stopped to see what the price was. I walked up to the house. The man stood on a side porch on the 2nd floor. He told me that in order to see the fish tanks I would have to go up to his Father's house on the other side of the railroad tracks near 16th St. and return through the alley. He said the round trip was about 3 1/2 miles. He said that he did that to weed out the lookers from the sincere buyers.
I really wanted to buy a fish tank set up so I went back to my car to make the trip up to his Father's house and back. I saw many other people with more money than I had ...come, look, and leave again.
I got out to my car and my daughter was sitting in my car. She aid that she knew people of influence that could get me into that house, but I knew that if I really wanted to get a fish tank set up I would have to do as the man said and go up his Father's house and back the long way, the 3 1/2 mile round trip and pay the price.
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2-6-90 - DREAM - I went to inspect a house with my Father. He had already cleaned everything out of the basement. It still had a few cobwebs to clean out and only one lightbulb was burning. I needed to put two more light bulbs into the empty sockets and the room would be as bright as upstairs. He handed me a huge bag of sugar to store for use. I put it in the baking cabinet, not for use on cereal.
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2-12-90 Dream: My Father had been ill and had been in the hospital and lost his job. I wanted to teach and had applied for a job in Albuquerque, NM. Then my Father came home and said that he had gotten a job and it was in a factory in Albuquerque, NM. Then I found out that my teaching job in Albuquerque, NM had been approved too, so the whole family was going.
I wanted to call my husband and tell him, but he was away in the Olympic Forest in Washington State and we couldn't get in touch with him, so all I could do was leave a message with his mother to pass on to him.
NOTE: I was not in a position to follow up on these clues so did not move to Albuquerque, NM, however, my husband ended up there by himself through other circumstances.
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2-25-90 Dream: My mother told me that my brother's girlfriend had left him on December 28th and that he was devastated by it. I then showed my mother my dream book, that on December 4th I had a dream that my brother's girlfriend had left him and that he was devastated by it. My Father came into the room and I showed him also.
I told my mother that I have about 12 dreams a night and they are little vignettes and that I wake up, write them down and go back to sleep. She complained that the dreams don't have conclusions and they don't tell whether the situation has a happy or sad ending. I said that occasionally they do, but mainly they just say the way things are at the moment.
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12-6-90 Dream: I lived in an apartment building. The Landlord didn't want to allow a second phone line installed so that the Father and the Son could each have their own lines when their rooms were only three feet apart, separated only by a door. I was going to try to convince her to do so.
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12-10-90 Dream: I went to church in New Berlin, WI. I had a book of music the choir was to sing for confirmation. The first three or four pages was written out ready to sing. The only words were "MY GOD". The notes were in minor chord C,E,G,B flat. I was going to sing harmony and I asked the pastor's wife to sing soprano. The word, "MY" was C, E, G and the soprano came in on "GOD", C,E,G,B flat and GOD was held for four pages. Following that was words of prayer and hand written song, but nothing was put together yet. The choir came into the church. There was no organ, so I went into my closet and got out my guitar to get the notes because no pitch pipe was available. We all went into the back room, waiting for the Pastor's signal to begin, but he had the congregation sing other songs first, including secular Holidays, the last one being Halloween and people were dancing in the aisles in costume. We stood and waited to sing "MY GOD", but he never got to us.
Finally, we left and went out the front of the church where preparations had been made for what seemed like an invasion from space. The people had covered the sidewalks with mattresses full of socks and anything else soft to walk on that they could find. They wanted it to look like their area had already been destroyed.
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1-8-91 - Vision: TM saw negative photos of the Father, Son, and Holy spirit. I went into meditation to ask about it.
Q. Why did TM see the faces of God the Father, The Son, and the Holy Spirit in negative?
A. Voice: "Tell him to think about how far he has come since the primordial scream."
Q. Why were the photos in negative?
A. Voice said, "They were representative since no one can look into the face of God."
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10-24-91 - VISION - I saw a female lion trying to jump over a fence. It only got half way. The voice said, "The Jewish are getting nowhere. The Lion of Judah can only get half way over the fence.
REF: Gen: 8 - 10 - Judah, your brothers will praise you, your hand will be on the neck of your enemies; your father's sons will bow down to you. 9: You are a lion's cub, 1O Judah; you return from the prey, my son. Like a lion he crouches and lies down, like a lioness - who dares to rouse him? 10: The scepter will not depart from Judah, nor the ruler's staff from between his feet, until he come to whom it belongs, and the obedience of the nations is his.
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1-3-92 - DREAM - I was headed home down a country road when I saw two men on the left. One was strangling the other. I knew that was "the strangler" and I had to get away. There was a road on the right and I headed that way as fast as I could go. The road ended up going under a bridge on a building. There was only one narrow exit and it was blocked by a monk dressed in orange. He allowed me to come into the temple courtyard where I saw many other monks dressed in orange. They were dismantling the temple piece by piece to store it for future usage.
I finally rushed home and someone was cooking oatmeal for breakfast. I knew how to cook it well, but the person cooking was thickening it with flour. When it was done, they threw torn up dollar bills into it. I was mad that they had done this and I pulled all the dollar bills out and threw them on the floor. I told them that they had better save the pieces.
When all the pieces were picked up, I also went through my father's wallet and pulled out all the bill receipts he had stored there. A man came up to me with one of them and it was for a singer at a wedding. I remembered the wedding. The singer had sounded like Andy Williams. The man asked me to look at the bill to see if it had been paid and it appeared to me that it had been even down to an extra 10% they charged to make the music faster so no one would get bored waiting around.
My father decided that he'd go down to the studio on 76th St. to make sure the bill had been paid because he wanted to use the same singer for another wedding coming up.
There was some other stuff about deciding whether to spend time laying in the sun and whether it might be dangerous and wanting to visit somebody named Ann who lived on 20th St. When I woke up, I heard the noise of a distant temple horn in my left ear.
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2-23-92 - DREAM - I was at home, yet at work. There was a cement stairway with very narrow treads, that was overlayed with thin tiles for walking on. The thin tiles were so compressed together that walking on was almost impossible for anyone except me. So, I decided to mak it a project to straighten out the thin tiles so they were even and more accessible especially Becky who needed to go upstairs.
When I went downstairs, I went to have breakfast and I saw that the milk was bright blue and I didn't think it was fresh to drink. I dumped it down the sink, but no matter how many times I rinsed the bottle with water, the contents were bright blue. I wanted to get fresh white milk for my children, but I had no money to do so. I asked their father to get some fresh milk, but he became so angry that I didn't want to do it myself. I convinced him of the truth of the matter. He left to get the milk and I turned around to see that I had one last batch of dishes to wash and these were the dirtiest, greasiest ones. I was determined that they would all be perfect.
I then went to the bedrooms to make sure that the bedrooms were clean and the beds made with their red and blue quilts.
I saw that many puzzle pieces were on the floor and I hollered at the children that they had better get picked up and put in the proper boxes.
I bought my daughter a toy that had a little red dressed dolls that went around and around on swings. She wanted to take it outside to play. I said, "No!" My mother stuck up for her that she would take good care of it. I knew that it would get dirty, it was meant to be played with indoors. I said, "I would rather give her $10.00 to run around with it and keep the dolls for myself so I know they stay clean, knowing that they were more valuable than that. My mother said, "okay" and we made the exchange and I took the toy back.
I then went to the office area where work was being done on projects. Someone else had cleaned up some big red pans to work in, but they still had some grease and sand on, so I took it upon myself to wash them to perfection, using hot water on the grease and cold water on the sand so as not to waste the hot water where it wasn't needed. My boss said that there was still some grease on the old silver pans, but I told him not to worry about the old ones.
My boss came and asked me if I would be able to midnight requisition some long sleeved sweaters and stools to sit on so we could work on a project and I would also need to get 12 silver, square pans. I would need 4 pink, 4 light beige, 4 silver and black sweaters and stools. The one thing I had to be careful of was that no ones name could be on the stools so if someone came looking for them, they could not be identified. I agreed. Another man, who I think was my bosses boss or one of his peers asked him if I had agreed to provide this equipment and he said that I had. They were both relieved to know that.
I then went into another department to look things over. I had friends everywhere, but the problem was that I was being watched. My ploy was that I carried a crumpled piece of white paper with me to throw in a waste basket so it wouldn't look I was there for no purpose and just wasting time talking to my friends instead of working. but when I got to the point where I needed to throw away the piece of white paper to save my cover, T.M. picked up the trash container to throw away the trash. I tried to signal him what I needed to do, but the was already holding the trash container and I knew I would have to tell him of my ploy so we wouldn't be working at cross purposes or he would spoil the ploy and prevent me from completing my part of the project.
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3-10-92 - DREAM - I was at a big building. I was on the first floor and wanted to go to the basement, but a bunch of rowdy girls were riding the elevators and I had to watch to see what they were doing. They got off the elevator and ran up a steep stairway to the top and let a basketball come bouncing down the steps. The ball ricocheted off of several walls and crashed into a window display breaking many picture frames. I counted carefully and 20 picture glasses were broken and I thought 1 green vase was cracked but I wasn't sure about that one. I gave a written report to my cousin Shirley because she was responsible for payment. I told her it would cost at least $2.50 per picture.She disagreed and said that she only counted 10. I told her that it would be thoroughly investigated.
I then went home and was cleaning and packing clothes and put them into a big black truck.
I had to investigate a young couple who was fighting in one of my apartments. I went into the darkened apartment and the woman came out of a back room and asked if I could give her a couple more days to work things out and I said, "okay!" I went back out then and drove the big black truck into West Allis from New Berlin and delivered the clean clothing to my family. There were blue things and blue and red things along with some other colors I didn't note.
When I was done, I told my family I was going back home and asked if anyone wanted to ride with me. They all got excited and wanted to go until they saw that I was driving the big black truck. They wanted to go with their father in the little green car. No amount of coaxing would make them go with me. My daughter sat on the hood of the little green car which was mounded with piles of mashed potatoes. She looked at me and said, "I really thought you were going to slap me in the face." I said, "I can accommodate you," and slapped her. The decisions were all made then and I had to drive the empty black truck out to New Berlin all by myself.
The thought came to me then, "I'm afraid to drive the little red car all alone, but here I am driving the big black truck and I feel no fear at all."
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3-18-92 - DREAM - I was in my 16th St. house. There was a property up for sale. My father baked a cake representing the sale of the property. It was a grave-shaped cake, frosted in white with a pink grave marker and a pink stick figure on top of the grave. There was some printing below the marker, but I didn't read it.
There was a court matter involved because there were over 200 relatives involved, including children. My mother said that there were 49 Andersons alone. I said, "There's only 1 Finney...me!" All these people had to sign off on the property.
I went to give my father a kiss and he turned his cheek to me.
There were some other people and things involving junk food (unremembered)
I had driven past the property. The main house was white and built near the top of a high hill. Below that, other people pulled in and parked double-wide trailers to live in. As I drove by, they were just pulling in a blue one, alongside the road.
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4-9-92 - DREAM - I was at home and lacerated my left foot. It didn't seem very bad so I didn't do anything about it. However, as the day went by, the cut seemed deeper and deeper and wider and wider. If dirt got into it I cleaned it out, but figured it would heal on its own. I put on white shoes to hold it together because my foot was nearly severed in half, if I didn't keep the shoes on.
The next day, my Father was taking care of a baby and her left thumb got a tiny pin prick. He handed me the baby and commanded me to take her to the hospital for treatment immediately. I took the baby and needed to change it into clean clothes from brown pants to white ones. When I tried to change the diaper, the baby got a grip on those pins so hard, I couldn't wrestle them away from her.
I thought about her small injury in comparison to mine and knew that if she needed treatment, I certainly did. the only problem was, my severe laceration was healed over already the way it was cut and the only way it could be sewed back together would be to cut the wounds open and then sew the foot shut so it could heal. The other alternative was to keep my white shoes on.
NOTE: This was about emotional and psychological problems I had had over the years which I was dealing with at the time regarding my failed marriage and divorce process, and emotional trauma I had gone through.
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10-29-92 - DREAM - I was chanting the 'Our Father' on a single note with a little trill at the end of the sentences.
A man with sparkly silver skin came and told me that there would be a Savior of the World coming.
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9-3-93 - DREAM - There was a family funeral going to happen. I couldn't go because I had to work. Suddenly I didn't have to work so I decided to go to the funeral anyway. I crossed the parking to and all the families were getting out of their cars. There were 15 grandsons and each one carried a keyboard or guitar and they would all play together to provide the musical service.
I walked slowly so as to be the last one to go into the church.
A black man tried to prevent me from entering the church. His intent was to rob me. I began to scream my brother's name, Marty, Marty, Marty, but he didn't respond. I managed to get past the black man, but when I got to my brother, he apologized. He said he heard me call his name, but he didn't realize I meant him.
I saw my mother then, dressed in black, sitting alone on a bench, under a tree. My intent was to go to her and tell her, "Without you, I wouldn't be here." She would say, "But your Father created you." I would say, "Even so, as important as he is, without you I wouldn't be here."
As I walked towards her, a young man walked up to me and asked if he could walk with me. His intent was to comfort me so I could in turn comfort him. Though, I wanted to comfort my mother, I agreed he could walk with me.
Then I had to go listen to a young woman practice the piano because everyone was at the funeral, so I took the place of whoever else couldn't listen to her. We walked slowly towards her building.
Everything seemed so quiet and so sad at that point.
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9-18-93 - DREAM - I was in my New Berlin house I wanted to go outside and go somewhere, but when I opened the front door to go out it was all snowy and icy and I was afraid to go. I closed the door again and went back through the house, that now all the walls and furniture were studded with big snow clumps just like the outside had been. I knew my Father had done that. I went to a back room where my Mother and Father were. My Father was angry but I couldn't tell about what. His face showed anger and he took the belt out of his pants and draped it loosely around his neck. I knew that one of us was going to be whipped before long. He told us (me and my siblings) to go upstairs with him. I made sure I was the furthest away from him. Sure enough, half way up the stairs, he started beating my brother.
I decided that enough was enough. I grabbed a pool cue and went up the stairs to hit my Father with it to make him stop beating my brother. As I brought the pool cue down on his arm, he turned to fight me and we rather dueled a little as he defended himself. My pool cue was heavy and hard to swing, but I managed to bring it down on his arm so he couldn't raise it and I then disarmed him by pulling his weapon out of his hand. He then came meekly back down the stairs.
I then heard someone say, "And then there was a family...two of the girls became deaf mutes, a mother, a father and two sons. "
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10-29-93 -DREAM - The house I was moving into was being painted. The first rooms were all white. Then I went into another room and it was exceptionally beautiful. The ceiling and walls were slate blue with white woodwork.
I went to see my fish tank and there was no water in it. I was very upset and ran to get water. I quickly poured the water in and the fish were all okay.
I went home and my Father was having breakfast. He was having cooked frozen broccoli on toast.
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12-20-93 - DREAM - I was at home. I was wearing a red and white cotton print dress, white socks, and white shoes. My father/husband began to complain about the way I was dressed, that it was old fashioned and nobody dressed like that anymore. Then I looked at my mother. She was dressed just like me, except her dress was silk and brighter red and black print. My mother, hearing my father/husband's complaints about my dress, put her arms around me to comfort me.
Music began to play. It was a beautiful slow song about a woman named Alice. It was a sad love song. My mother and I began to move to the music. We were exactly toe to toe. She was leading and I followed...our feet moving exactly identical. My daughter took our picture together and all our friends were watching. The song ended and my mother and I went to sit down together. She picked up a book of mine. She looked at it a bit and asked me who the Great Maitreya was. I said that he was the #1 man in existence, next to God. My mother told me that my father wanted to copy the book for himself. I looked at the book closer. It was a dictionary of Esoteric people and esoteric terms.
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2-5-94 - DREAM - I was working in an office when I came across some sheet music laying loose and some other papers. I made up manila folders for them then went into an inner office to see T.M. and asked him if he wanted the music and the Angelic sigils filed by category or by individual names and where he wanted them.
I then went outside and I saw some little baby white ducks and then some larger maroon colored geese walking in and out of traffic. One the opposite sidewalk becky's sister Judy was tending to some little children. A water trough was placed in the median strip for the ducks and geese so they'd leave the cars alone because some of the drivers were quite distressed.
I watched for a few moments and heard someone say that it wasn't good for ducks to be in the water all the time.
Judy looked over and saw me and asked me if I could help her with the children. I agreed and started to cross the street. There were some dolls and toys in the middle of the street, so I stopped to pick them up to take them with me. At that moment, Judy lost total control of the children and swore at me to "F__k" the dolls and toys and get over there. Meanwhile she ran down the street after an older boy.
I took the dolls and toys to the children and they sat quietly playing. It was getting darker outside so I found some lights in the building nearby and turned them on. Then the Father's came out from a meeting. They were all wounded Vets wearing deep blue velvet bathrobes decorated with silver patches. One said it was their first meeting and thanked me for taking care of the children. Judy was gone and never returned.
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3-13-94 - DREAM - I was at a funeral parlor. My grandfather Wilke was in the casket. I seemed to be the important figure in the scene as people were waiting for me.
I saw my mother standing over by the wall next to the door with Aunt Cora and my sister Bernice.
I waved at them to acknowledge their presence and send a message that I would come to talk to them shortly, then turned to walk to an alcove where my Aunt Mayron and my daughter Jeanne were standing with a couple other women. I knew that my mother couldn't see that Aunt Mayron was there because of the alcove. I went over to hug Aunt Mayron, and woke up at this point.
NOTE: From this dream, I determined that my Aunt Mayron would be my daughter Jeannes new child, and that Bernice's next granddaughter would be Aunt Cora. (That made me feel very happy)
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3-22-94 - DREAM - I was at my Father's lake cottage and went outside at dawn. I sat down on the grass and leaned against the house to meditate just as the sun was coming up over the horizon.
In my left ear, I heard T.M.'s voice and it sounded like he was crying. He said, "The world is so wonderful. Oh God! It'll never be the same again.!"
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9-24-94 - DREAM - I was in the backyard of my 16th St. house. There was a lot of water from melting snow around the yard, so I had to find the easiest way through it to get to the front door. I went around to the front and saw that my Father's car was parked out in front and it wasn't locked. I went up the front stairs and saw that the front door was unlocked and that there was a copy of Reader's Digest on a little table by the door. I picked up the magazine and took it inside with me. My Mother was there. I said, "Did you know that Father's car is parked outside and it is not locked? She handed me something metal that was silver and said, "Go ahead and drive it, because if you don't, the black people will." She said, "The key hole is 14" deep and all they have is one 7" and you know that Sears only makes house keys."
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10-9-94 - DREAM - I was in an old building somewhere and there were two huge wooden doors on a slanted wall between two rooms. They were very plain with wood veneer on them which was cracked and peeling. Some conversation went on (can't remember). Then I went over to the door and peeled off the veneer. Beneath the veneer was two gorgeous hand carved oak doors. I said, "My Father gave me these doors." I turned around and they were up on a shelf in storage. This surprised me and I reached up to get them down from the shelf. I pulled down two paintings which were of a family. One picture was just of a family, Mother, Father and three kids. The other picture was of the family being swept into the water in a boating accident.
I explained the pictures this way. "These doors came from an antique store in Michigan from a house that was torn down after this whole family was killed in a freak racing water accident at a mill stream."
NOTE: I felt that these two doors were to be purchased in Michigan and were intended to be put into our new community center in Washington State.
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5-20-96 - MEDITATION - I went to find Sandy in the Poconos. I saw a woman in a really colorful dress. I saw that I should go on AOL, so broke meditation to do that. I thought maybe there was a letter waiting for me but their wasn't. I signed back off and went back into meditation to find Sandy again. This time I felt a spirit right next to me, hugging me around the neck, and it felt much happiness, joy, and love. Then I saw a woman dressed in brown coveralls. She was so happy and was waving a cellular phone in the air with her right arm.
I went to find D.L. in Dallas, TX. I heard someone say,"Please don't hate me, Please don't hate me." I kept going and got a sense of strong study in science and music. It was a sense of deep study...very intense. Then I got a sudden surge of looking for her father and I was told that if that looking for the father continued, it would create a complete change of transcripts.
I asked about Sierra Madre in June and was told that there would be about 10% destruction.
NOTE; When this quake happened on June 30th, it was a 3.0.
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9-20-96 - DREAM - I went out to my Father's cottage. We were looking toward the lake. I made a comment about the possibility of seeing UFO's. He said he had seen a huge wing shaped UFO. I asked him if he had managed to take a photo of it. He said that photos couldn't pick up the image of a UFO for some reason. I was disappointed to find that out. I went out on the porch. As I was going down the stairs which faced east I heard a shishing noise and from behind me came a huge bird wing shaped UFO that was so huge it stretched from as far left as I could see to as far right as I could see. And as it went it shape shifted into what looked like a huge U.S. transport plane with double tail fins on the back.
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1-20-97 - MEDITATION ON INDIAN DREAM - I saw a young indian woman with long black hair, wearing a red and white print dress. She smiled and bowed to me.
I saw a web page scroll down to where it said, "Cruise Ship Barney".
I heard a woman's voice say, "Hank! She's on her way."
I was now the petite Indian woman and was embraced in the arms of a tall Indian man, who was my grandfather. He was wearing a darker blue denim or corduroy shirt. He said, while looking up towards the sky, "It's high time I had you near me."
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8-14-97 - Dream. I was at the computer reviewing all of the day's events. After I was done I got up and went to the door of the house where a bunch of kids were lined up to get on a bus. They all started to have a snowball fight amongst themselves for fun. I watched all that, then went back inside where I demonstrated the playing of a piano for some people and talked with them.
My father came in then, telling us he had been in a long meeting and would have to go back again, but meantime his friend Joe was waiting out in the car to drive us to "Target" for a reward.
I couldn't imagine what that was all about, but as I walked through the house, mentally making excuses for not being ready, every excuse I could think of was instantly remedied and my coat miraculously appeared in my arms, boots appeared on my feet, and stockings appeared on my legs.
We went out to the car and I was still wondering what was at Target that could be a reward and when we got there it was a huge auditorium about half full of people but spread out all over the auditorium and they were waiting to hear me speak to them.
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8-26-97 - Dream: I was given a new car. It was like a hot rod. The car was already running when I got it. It sounded a little rough for a minute, but then it ran smoothly. Each window had it's own windshield wiper. The front window wipers were in the normal place. The right window levers were on the ceiling. The left window you had to roll down and back up. The rear window was full of snow. You couldn't back up unless someone else wiped it off and my Father and the car's owner were already out in the street driving away. I was hollering at them to come back and wipe off the back window. My Mother sat on the right seat and my son sat in the back seat helping me to figure out the windshield wipers.
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9-12-97 - Dream: I was getting ready for my trip and dying my hair black. I started at 6 p.m. on the clock. It was taking a long time and while I was doing it, I had visitors.
Joe came in some fashion and we exchanged words of love. I couldn't remember seeing him, so it could have been a phone conversation or on the computer.
My mother and father came. My father was like a presence. I did not actually see him. My mother sat on the floor dressed in black. Her hair was three toned, black at the roots, brown further up and blonde in the center. My mother just smiled. My father wanted to know who I had told about the trip. I thought about it and said, "Almost no one, but I told my ex-husband first." My father was pleased with that and they left. R.R. arrived and began cooking breakfast for himself. He cooked things I don't have in my house - toast, eggs, and bacon. He ate it while I was rinsing my hair. It was now 6:30 p.m. on the clock. I went into the bathroom and turned on the water. It gushed rusty orange, then went clear - I rinsed my hair but it never got wet and the clothes that were piled neatly in the sink never got wet either.
I went to comb my hair then and the hair was two tone. It was black except for a pure white triangle in the center of my head. There was no hair at all in the front of my head. Then I noticed I was wearing a green scarf with curlers under it in front and felt stupid that I hadn't taken the curlers out. I combed it out and it was now all brown and standing on end and then went back to normal reddish color.
R..R. finished eating and after I complained about having no hair, he showed me the back of his head. It was shaved except for a black section down the back center like a mini mohawk hairdo.
He then pointed out a small bookcase too me. He said, "There are 36 individual books here for children. Then he reached into another bookcase and handed me three books. He said, "Here! Read these...the three bears ...Sun Bear, Jean Bear, and ... (I woke up while he was saying the last one and didn't get it.)
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10-3-97 - I was in a house across from my 16th St. house. I had purchased some items (not remembered). My Father came in and acting angry about something. I didn't like his opinion, so I started getting my maroon bags together and m purse and my coat and took them across the street to my 16th St. house. My daughter was there and she morphed into a duplicate of myself and we were both wearing beige clothes.
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10-3-97 - DREAM - I was with my ex-husband and another woman and drove out to my Father's lake cottage. There was a large building on the left called St. Elizabeth's hospital. We had to park behind it. (Note: There are no large buildings there.) We drove up and around a hill to park, but when we walked back down to the lake there was no building there. We continued to go down the hill to the lake and I could see large footprints in the sand coming up from the lake like Bigfoot. Our prints were all smaller and had treads from our shoes.
In the sky, I looked up and saw a circular cloud a few feet across, when I looked again I saw a smaller round cloud. When I looked again, I saw a red moon in the same spot and when I looked again the sky was just overcast completely.
NOTE: Acts 2:17 - 20 - "And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out my spirit upon all flesh; and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams. (18) And on my servants and on my handmaidens I will pour out in those days of my Spirit; and they shall prophesy; (19) And I will shew wonders in heavens above, and signs in the earth beneath; blood, and fire, and vapour of smoke: (20) The sun shall be turned into darkness, and the moon into blood, before that great and notable day of the Lord come.
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9-30-97 - Meditation - I was praying the "Our Father" and saw myself in a vision going uphill and crossing narrow bridges. Under each bridge was a trench and a cliff that was higher than the level I was standing on. The bridges narrowed the higher they went. I didn't have any problems crossing the bridges...more or less floated across them.
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10-7-97 - DREAM - I was in the apartment with a man I loved. He wasn't certain about his fatherhood skills. I was holding the daughter then and cared for her like she was my own.
The man kept his valuable information in a secret place. First it was a gun case which seemed to morph into a Lion's body which was alive. The Lion rolled over on it's back and I could see the inside of the Lion's body, all the way up the spine into the mouth. There seemed to be no internal organs yet the Lion lived and I assumed they had been surgically placed differently to give the Lion the hollow appearance.
I assured the man that everything wold turn out all right and he appeared to accept my words as truth.
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10-11-97 - DREAM - I was my home/school/job. It was 8 a.m. One of the men who lived/worked where I was, gave me his written assignment to turn in to the teacher/boss. I didn't take time to look at it, just put it on the desk and left because I had the opportunity to see the place where my 1st husband was going to retire to up north.
We drove north and came to an apartment building in the middle of nowhere. People were coming from all directions and taking the elevator to these assigned floors. I was surprised to meet my husband's father outside. His father really liked the place because it was 'free'. My husband's brother Lambert was also there. I asked him, "It's not really free is it? He only thinks it is because he doesn't have to pay any money."
My husband's new apartment was to be on the 9th floor. We went to the elevator. There was no room for me on the elevator, so I said I would follow on the next rip. My husband's brother Lambert (which means 'light of the land') waited with me. We pressed the button for 9 on the elevator which was made out of red fire brick.
It went past all the other floors. It stopped briefly so we could see what they were like. When we stopped, there was no elevator around me, but we were just standing on a square of floor in other people's kitchen. There were lots of people on the lower floors. They were very crowded.
We finally got to the 9th floor. There weren't so many people there, but still quite a few. We walked from apartment to apartment looking for my husband's apartment but couldn't find it. There were no empty apartments. There were no hallways either, you just kept going from room to room.
We finally came to one magnificent set of rooms. There was no kitchen. One man sat at a drawing board in the first room that was lit up by hidden lights about half way up like from behind some kind of black wings that were in the corner and stretched in two directions.
In the next room was a huge grand piano and a large organ. I asked the man's permission to touch the piano and he said "Okay!' I went over to the piano and played just 6 notes. The tones were exquisitely beautiful. I looked at the room and saw the expanse of the walls and told myself that there would be plenty of room for 9 bookcases in that room. I came back out of the room and told the man at the drawing board that if he would let me play the piano, he would really enjoy the music. He aid, "I know I would".
We had to leave then because my husband's apartment hadn't been vacated by someone leaving yet and there was no room for him.
I had to get back to town by 8 p.m. because I was meeting my another to do something with her.
When I get back, the boss/teacher called me into the office to explain to me what he had wanted to see on this other guy's paper on the top with the TO: , FROM, and DATE lines. It was a really long continuous paper on UFO's, and ET's.
I tried to explain that I had just turned it in for the other guy because we were in a hurry to leave, but he continued to tell me what he expected when we turned in papers in the future.
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10-22-97 - DREAM - Our house was in an apartment building. The Internic (controller of domain names) was installed on the 6th floor.All of the cable connections were on the elevator.The Internic box looked like a rainbow colored jukebox.
I went up to the 9th floor to begin collecting my mail. I had a mailbox on every floor. The same key opened all the boxes.
After that I was in the car with my Father. He drove...I was in the back seat. He pulled up to the curb on 15th and Center and a man dressed in a black trench coat came up to the car ad put his hand in the window. My Father handed the man my credit card. The man went up the stairs to a house there. He was very mysterious and scary. He didn't show his face to anyone and wore a black slouch hat. However, I did catch a glimpse of his profile when he got to the door. He was really handsome and had white skin. He was protected by a black man wearing an orangish brown coat.
We went back to the apartment building and I met some other mysterious people. They seemed like welfare investigators or some other social workers. I had a short conversation with them. I was trying to pump them for information. I can't remember what was said.
I went back to my own apartment and knew that those two men had been in the building before and were expected back. I was concerned that they might be into the drug scene or something.
I was taking care of other people's kids as well as my own and I allowed my baby daughter and another kid to hide in the bottom dresser drawer so the guy in black wouldn't kidnap her.
I met a guy in the hall that said there had been complaints about a donkey braying in that house on 15th St. where I saw the tall man in black go into. A little later, I confronted my father about the mysterious men on 15th St. and I told him I knew about the donkey braying there. He acted like he didn't know what I was talking about, but I knew he did. I kept telling him that the house was East of ours. I kept saying..."It's East...It's East."
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10-24-97 - DREAM - I was on my way home from somewhere and was inside a house where my clothes were being sorted. All the baby clothes were sorted out and left in the house in the baby's room.
All my other clothes which I recognized as things I wear now were put into my Father's car. My Father was driving and my mother was sitting on the passenger side. All my clothes were piled on my mother's lap. My Mother pointed out that I had my own car to drive home. I looked and saw a very large brown car parked in front of my Father's car. I had forgotten I had my own car.
My Mother handed me my purse with my keys in them. There were 3 brown purses.
I wasn't able to get all the way home on 16th St. in the car because there had been a huge snow storm and the street was full of snow. There were many college age men shoveling the snow off the street as fast as they could. I asked what happened to the snow plows and one man answered, "We enjoy helping people out ourselves."
I went into my 16th St. house and L.C. (from my UFO group) was in the kitchen cooking food for a contest. There was no stove, just gas jets with blue flames coming out of them. The whole floor where the stove should have been was burning with blue flames. The floor itself was burning and spreading out in all directions. I was not distressed, but told her she could not cook on my floor with open flame. she said, "I always cooked this way on my neighbor's porch". I answered, "You cannot cook this way in my house." She leaned right into the fire without being burned to retrieve her pans of food.
There were no knobs to turn off the burners so I had to turn off the flame using a pliers to put pressure on the controls which were only partially there and crescent moon shaped. When I got the last burner shut off I woke up.
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11-2-97 - DREAM - I was at home in Milwaukee. My Mother had gotten up and gone out to the garage to meet my Great Aunt Cora. She was moving in with us and they were putting her furniture upstairs. I didn't't know where we were going to put his furniture yet.
My Father came out into the room. He was giant sized and had a huge forehead. I said, "Joe is moving in with us today. We are we going to have a BIG family." I smiled at him broadly.
I then went to the outer room where the telephone was. I was waiting for it to ring to let me know Joe was in town. It hadn't rung yet, and I began to panic and cry. "Where's my Joe? Where's my Joe?"
NOTE: I woke up with relief to find myself in California, sleeping next to my Joe.
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11-11-97 - DREAM - I was at home with my mother and father and planned to meet some friends at 9 a.m. to go to the state fair. I looked at the clock and it was 8:15 a.m. I know I had to hurry, but when I combed my hair it was 2 layered and the longest layer had big gaps i it and it didn't even go all the way around, so I asked my mother to cut it off. I ended up with one curly layer just below my ears. It was dark brown and I knew I could comb it and pin it however I wanted to. I left then to go to church first which was on 44th st. The girl who was supposed to sing the service didn't show up and there was a big discussion about her ideas of service to the church where she made up her own mid about how many days she would work and when she would take off without notice. My feeling was that she should stick to her commitment whatever it was. (In the physical I feel guilty for not keeping spiritual commitments myself)
I then headed for home and met Joe on 17th St. and we went home together to go to bed and make love, though I knew my friends were coming over. So, Joe and I went to bed together to make love and ignored the commitment to my own friends because Joe was more important to me.
Finally, I looked at the clock and it was now 9:30 a.m. I knew I had left the door to my house open and I went out to the livingroom. I dragged all my blankets with me. All my friends were there in the house waiting for me to come out of the bedroom. I lay down on a single bed in the livingroom and my friends discussed how even that bed was convertible to allow someone to lean a section back and be comfortable like a chair.
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11-29-97 - DREAM - I saw a page called Dr. Doolittle and the background was like a red eagle's wing outline on a gray background.
I dreamed that my father was buying my old car back for me. It was a red and black convertible. At the same time I was supposed to rent two apartments, and get a job application at a store. I was skating around on a scooter outside enjoying myself.
NOTE: When I woke up, I felt SO good, I was flying with energy all day. It was wonderful.
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11-30-97 - DREAM - I was in my 16th St. I was in the attic cleaning up some stuff a little girl had left on the stairs when she was making a project. Part of it was white powder from wall board. I had a jar which must have been double walled I was supposed to drink a lot of water but preferred milk. There wasn't enough water or milk to fill the jar so the outside was filled with milk, but if you looked down inside you could see only the water
Bob. the painter came to get paid or something but I wasn't ready and I told him I was cleaning up the attic. He decided to stir things up a bit for fun, so started wildly sweeping the powder so I'd have to gather it back together again.
At this point I heard of a contest where 3 boys in 6 barrels had to race across a circular container which I watch in miniature. The prize was 6 gallons of milk. When the race was over 3 of the gallons of milk were missing and my sons had to go through the neighborhood to get together 3 more gallons of milk. (nobody had 3 gallons)
At this point, I went through a hallway where a Bononoco bird was talking. I said I wanted one like it. I was handed a doll to talk with me when I went East on Wisconsin Ave. Her short red hair blew in the wind and the doll looked like Shirley McClaine. I knew I'd be embarrassed and have to explain having this doll in my pocket.
Then we saw a woman in the window of the 2nd story of a house across the west alleyway. She stood in a window and deliberately took off her bra so people could see her standing there naked. My 3 sons and I all saw her. My Father was laying on the livingroom floor and we asked him if he wanted a treat and if he did, he had to jump up fast. So he jumped up, ran thru the parlor and we all saw he was wearing a brilliant white T shirt. We knew he'd be seen watching but he didn't have time to put on another shirt. So I held up a dark grey work shirt in front of him so he cold see the naked woman too. (There was a word printed out next to her but I can't remember it)
When I was behind my Father, and I was holding this grey shirt up, there was a 2" gap between the shirt and his neck where I could see 2 names printed on his T shirt. It was Alexander Swift Brooks and Jesse Brown.
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12-8-97 - DREAM - I was at my 16th St. house upstairs in the master bedroom preparing for something. My daughter was in her room across the hall. I had to go downstairs to do something. When I came back up I discovered the light was out in my bedroom and I hadn't left it that way. I discovered then that when I turned my light o, my daughter's light went out, and when she turned hers on, mine went out.
My Father was there and was angry at me because I had missed a phone call. The phone was in my room and while I was downstairs the phone had rung and nobody had answered it.
I went into another bedroom which was used for writing and had a computer also. It was in perfect order and a man was at the computer working.
In the hallway, I had put a long kneehole type dresser and that is where I was going to do my writing for a desk. My daughter and daughter-in-law were envious and wanted that dresser but I was going to use it myself.
Outside on the front porch, I went out from house to house gathering books in the neighborhood. When I came back I noticed that a bee hive had swarmed. The bees had separated though and there were many little clumps on the sidewalk. They would fly up, then regroup and land in another spot. There were many little groups like that and I moved away from them when they flew up to regroup.
In the front of the house on top of a small brick wall, I was studying photographs of crop circles. They were very complicated. A woman named Robin came along and wanted to be trained to help trace the photographs. I told her it would take practice to trace them in order to use them in our magazine.
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12-8-97 - DREAM - I was trying to tell my friends the prophecies I have just related in the previous dream and the Father of the woman I was with told me that WWIII was inevitable because the churches in the neighborhood have been talking about this particular war for a long time and there was no stopping it.
12-8-97 - VOICE - "Have you seen #355 from L-Eagle?"
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Dream - 12-9-97 I was in a post-office. It was after hours and the clerks had gone home and left the lights on in the office and the door open. I walked inside and the telephone began ringing on one of the desks. The telephone turned into a mini-television show and showed three pictures in succession. The first one was that a war was going to start in the Middle East. The second picture was of the same war and that it was escalating into WWiII. The fourth picture was of a question about the price of corn in June, 1998.
In dream #2, I was telling some people about the previous dream prophecies. The Father of the woman I was telling this too, said that he had some churches in his neighborhood that had been talking about war for a long time, that the war was inevitable and could not be stopped.
by Dee Finney
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12-13-97 - DREAM - I lived in a big apartment building and went to visit some people downstairs for awhile who had children. We had a pretty good time talking and playing with the kids. Then I went back upstairs with one of the little ones following me upstairs. I then wanted to go down to the lobby to get something and went to the elevator. I pressed 1, got on the elevator and went downstairs. I did something, then went back to the elevator to go back upstairs. It wasn't working, so I was going to take the stairs instead. I went past a room where a guy named John jumped out of bed and started to holler at me, "Where the hell have you been?" I said, "Why?" Did we have a date or something?" He said, "Follow me!" and took off down the hall back toward the lobby. In the lobby, there were a lot of people all dressed up. We went past them and went around a corner where he led me to a small meeting room. He went in ahead of me so I had to open the door myself. I opened the door and there stood my entire family - minus the tiniest grandchildren and my mother and father. My daughter presented me with a beautiful white Pointsettia plant and they all hollered Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday." I said, "You've all been waiting herr for 4 hours?" and they said, "Yes!" in unison. I even remember my brother and sister being there. My Father sat by himself on the left on a bench. He said, "Well, my plane is due for take off so I have to leave. A short Asian man went over to my Father and fitted him with some thick blue goggle type glasses to which he fitted an air/oxygen type thing, then fitted a blue face mask type thing over his face. Then he stood up to leave.
The next thing I knew it was morning and I had to go to work. I got to work and found another girl sitting in my seat in the Engineering Department. I asked where I was supposed to sit. They said they thought there was a place for me way down near the shipping department.
When I walked all the way down the hall to the other end of the building I found my office. It was carpeted in brown and it looked like a bedroom with a desk in it. The boss was a guy I remember being drunk in other dreams though he was sober now. He said he was hoping for a young chick for a secretary, then he noticed I was wearing stockings and high heeled shoes and saw my legs and said he had no complaints. He said he spent most of his time at the bar next door anyway, so all he required from me was coffee and some sweet dessert that looked like a long chocolate eclair with yellow frosting on top. He said, "Let's go bar hopping and get acquainted." I said, "Okay! But I drive the car." and took the car keys out of his hand and put on flat black shoes. He said, "Okay!"
Suddenly an alarm rang and red lights started flashing. He said, "follow me!" and we went down into the sub-basement. The hallway lights were off and dark but the red alarm lights and sirens were going off everywhere.
I don't know if he expected me to be scared, but I wasn't because I had been head of maintenance for 8 years and had inspected all these rooms before. We went down a side hallway. I saw someone go into a bathroom on the left. He said, "The problem is in the water pumping station."
We went through a small anteroom, then he opened the door into a huge room where we were now underneath this gigantic bowl which was rounded underneath and stood on pedestals on the concrete floor. I could see at a glance that water was beginning to seep through the bottom and it was in danger of breaking loose in a massive deluge.
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12-20-97 - DREAM - We were inside the garage in New Berlin. Joe was painting the walls light orange and some of the orange was getting on the white trim edges. He needed to wipe off these orange marks but didn't have a clean rag. I volunteered to do the cleanup because I had a rag, but I had a hard time finding a clean spot on the rag to do the job neatly because it had some paint remover at one end and it was soaking through and would also take the orange paint back off.
We overheard a conversation between my son Tom and his father asking Tom what his greatest wish was for his birthday. Tom said his greatest wish was to go to the ballpark at the stadium and watch the baseball championship game. His father told him in order to do that, he would have to clean out the inside of his car first.
I volunteered to clean out Tom's car. It was worse than we suspected. An old tire inside the car was full of spider webs and dead bees and spiders and there were piles of leaves too. Becky (his wife) decided to help too, so we were busy cleaning and Tom came out to go to the game and we weren't done yet.
Joe slipped a $1 bill in the tire edge to pay for his part of the work which I noticed and pocketed. Tom was so happy and excited he couldn't wait for us to get done and started to back out of the garage and I was still half in the car.
I warned him to be careful because he might run over my toes with the wheels and we quickly got the rest of the dead leaves out of the car.
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1-5-98 - DREAM - It started off as usual on the computer...giving me urls to ink to...this time for prophecy.
In the real dream, it had a 2 field type of message.My mother kicked me out of the house because I had too many lovers and I had nowhere to go. Through some miraculous coincidence or synchronicity, all my lovers appeared at the same time, walking in a line down the sidewalk at this church-like place where I was getting ready to assist in some way in a "confirmation" ceremony.
That was the reason my mother and father were there. I went to R.M who was my first lover and asked his advice what to do. He told me to contact the state social services and they would help me get a place to live and some kind of financial assistance.
Once I felt safe from my mother's wrath, since she hadn't told my father what I had done yet, I heard the booming voice of my father making pronouncements of things that were going to happen. I listened to what he had to say, and then I heard a radio weather lady say there was a huge snowstorm coming.
I said, "I recommend they close the highways 18, 19, and 51 (this is Wisconsin). Somebody else mentioned getting extra food and I said, "Get enough for breakfast." I knew the snowstorm would close the road and nobody could get home. I knew I was psychic because I heard my father's voice.
NOTE: I woke up from the dream and remembered the details and then decided to just go back to sleep, too lazy to get up and write it down and no sooner as my ear hit the pillow, I felt an electrical buzz in my left ear and instantly jumped back up to write it down.
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1-11--98 - DREAM - Everything was greatly exaggerated. when I was in my office with the bookcase and file cabinets, I was somewhat tied to them which kept me from falling into a dark bottomless abyss just one step away.
When my father appeared to talk to me on a great plaza, he was standing up on a huge brown square platform, driving it like a chariot on huge spoked wheels . When he came into the plaza, there was not even 1/4" space leeway to spare for him to move in.
When I was on a street later trying to explain this to someone, a huge truck came by like a UPS highway truck, dark, dark green with no writing on it. It seemed as tall as the sky, and it too, when it turned left at the intersection, didn't have any leeway of even 1/4" to go by either.
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2-19-98 - DREAM - I was just leading a normal every day existence like every one else, doing good deeds here and there. I was invited to a local political forum. It was led by a middle-aged black woman. I was seated on a couch rather jammed up against the right arm. A young black man was jammed up against me though there would have been plenty of room for him to move over and give me more space. Over to the right on a straight chair was the black man's father who intimidated all of us and to his right was a white woman with a young boy named Billy. The apartment belonged to another white woman who flitted in and out, say a word, and flit back out There was no conversation going on because each person was intimidated by someone else. I said, "I have plenty to say, but just not here." I looked at the clock. It was 20 minutes to 11. We expected to be done by 11, but the mother of Billy said she had to leave. Billy complained that he didn't have anything to wear because the crotch of his pants was ripped out. His mother had two other pair of his pants with the crotch ripped out too. I had my sewing kit with me and pulled out some blue thread and a needle and volunteered to sew the ripped seams. The woman who owned the apartment had a sewing machine, but I was going to sew the seams shut by hand even though it meant I had to prick m finger with every stitch. I said, "At least I have some value this way."
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3-1-98 - DREAM - (A bizarre dream with incredible symbolism) I was walking down 20th St. where I had gone to school. I was in the street like I was driving my car but not actually in a vehicle. A car was coming up behind me, but it didn't want to pass me. I wanted to let him get by me and began walking on sofa and sofa cushions along the curb. This went on for blocks, but the guy wouldn't pass me even then.
I came to a house then. It didn't feel like it was home, but I acted like it was. I was cleaning in the livingroom and saw that the rubber plant was dusty and had spider webs all over it. So, I took two green square rags and wiped all the dust and spider webs off the rubber plant. I then noticed that my rags had hundreds of spider eggs on them which must been under the large leaves and had been attached to the strands of the webs. These eggs were huge and it was apparent that these eggs were about to hatch.So, I told my little son to take the rags out onto the lawn and shake them so the spider eggs would be dispersed in the grass and the little spiders could go elsewhere and make new webs.
My son did that and brought the green rags back to me with no eggs on them. My son, on his own recognizance called the library and was told by them that these spiders were deadly. I got all panicky about that information, but I was at that point standing in a concrete box-like structure, head-high, which was just barely large enough to turn around in. Behind me, up on an electric pole was two electric lineman repairing the electric lines, wearing silver helmets. One of them said, "No! That's is not true. Spiders are helpful to mankind."
I went back into the house and a little boy came to the door. He asked me if I would pretend to be his mother. I said, "Yes!" and play acted being his mother and he was happy. Then his father came to the door and the little boy told his father that I was play acting to be his mother. The father went away and came back with a shotgun and while I was standing in the doorway he shot at me. I didn't get hit, but I play acted like I was shot dead and fell in the street like I had been killed. The little boy cried out, "Father! You killed my mother just like last time. The father threw himself down in the street with his shotgun in his hand, face down on the road, he pounded the ground and sobbed loudly.
I left there and met a very small woman waiting for a bus. she said her evil husband was after her. I agreed to help her get away from him. The bus came along and we got on. I was feeling safe and thought everything was all right. The woman was sitting about half way back in the bus and I was way in back.
Then I noticed that someone had placed two large boxes on a table right behind the small woman's seat. The boxes were about 3 feet in height x 1 1/2 feet x 1 1/2 feet. I thought at first they were large enough for a dwarf or small person to fit inside, but then thoughts suddenly that they could be bombs.
I told the woman frantically that we had to get off the bus because the boxes might contain bombs. She was very reluctant to get off the bus, but I convinced her it was best....just in case...and we got off. I heard someone say, "Oh! It's just a vampire and a ghoul." They had loosed them from the boxes on the bus. I was glad we got off the bus anyway. We saw the woman's evil husband coming down the street. He was a normal sized guy with really dark brown hair and wearing and brown suit.
There were three apartment buildings along the street and each one had a long glassed-in entrance in front. I told the woman, "Hurry! Let's go in here," and entered the 1st building. she followed me but was reluctant and moving very slowly. I could see that her husband would catch up to her if she didn't move faster. We went through that building and into the 2nd one. When we got through the building #2 and were coming back to the lobby, I could see her husband entering building #1. I kept urging her to move faster, but she showed no concern for her safety enough to move faster. We left building #2 and entered building #3. She was still moving so slowly. I was getting very frustrated. She had told me she wanted help but was doing nothing to help herself. Coming out in front of building #3, I could see her husband entering building #2. I kept encouraging her to move faster and she wouldn't and her husband was catching up to her.
I had already gone through all three buildings and I went back to her in the 3rd building and then came to the front the second time. By then, I was so frustrated, I said I would never try to help her again.
Instead of leaving the third building, I went up the elevator to the top floor. I don't know what number it was. From an apartment in the rear of the building, a huge gay man opened the door and asked me if I wanted to party with him. He was a huge, oversized man...not only taller than normal but big all around in a fat sort of way...not muscular. He used exaggerated feminine mannerisms and voice.
I said, "No thanks! and went toward the front of the building with the man following me. The whole front of the building was glass. I could see it was nighttime and everyone could see inside the glass walls where we were. I said, "This is the typical way gay people are living now, so everyone can see them."
I met another gay man there. He was also very large like the 1st guy but with masculine mannerisms. So, I paired the two men up and they went to the back of the building to party together.
I went towards the elevator where I met some other gay couples I had known. I wished them well and got on the elevator, leaving them behind to party with each other and left the building for home.
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3-13-98 -- DREAM - I was standing inside the drug store which I think was on the corner of Teutonia Ave. and Center St. Watching all the women going in and out of church across the street. They were all wearing fancy long gowns, some in bridal dresses. One black woman wore a dark brown velvet gown and her small daughter she was carrying wore a red velvet gown. I felt very out of place.
I looked down the street towards the East and saw a donut shop and decided to go there before I went home. It seemed like it was so far to walk so I crossed the street and entered a building to make it seem like it wasn't so far away.
Apparently, I had entered another church because there was a teenager there with their parents choosing their communion or confirmation gowns.
I kept going East through the church's outer hallway and came to a big brown door. I assumed it was the exit to the street. I pulled it open and almost ran into the priest. He was short and dark, wearing all black...a gown... I was thinking he was like byzantine Orthodox or something. I said, "Good morning, Father", and kept going, wondering if I had used the right and proper title for him, and if not, would he be offended by being called Father if he was just a "Pastor" or "Reverend".
I continued on to the donut shop and went inside. There were toy train tracks on the floor and a young black boy was playing with them.
I wondered about the wisdom of letting kids play on the floor in a public place.
I entered the shop itself which was hidden down a darkened hallway to the right. I was disappointed not to see any donuts at all. There were some rows of big cookies with candy sprinkles on top and I thought I might buy three of them, but then I saw she had some other bakery hidden from the public.
I asked to see what else she had. She showed me two filled cakes. One was pineapple and one was lemon. I told her I would take both of them. The black woman clerk looked at me like I was nuts. She said, "I can't sell you those unless you show me your I.D." I said, "You mean you don't sell cake to anyone without I.D.? It used to be you only had to show I.D. when you paid with a check and I'm paying cash."
She insisted I had to show my I.D. and I brought out a little white cardboard disk with a silver rim on it with my name written on it. I said, "This is the same I.D. you asked for in the dream the other night." and I woke up.
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3-20-98 - DREAM - I was with my friend E.R. when my car was approved to turn on and the slot for it was yellow.
Time passed and I was out at my father's lake place and I was having trouble getting the car going. So, my husband came out and stepped on the gas really hard and blue smoke came out and started coming up into the car but at least it was running. Then, I looked and he had driven it up into the mailbox post. I looked over at him and asked him why he had done that and discovered he had dropped over like he was dead. I decided I would just sit there and see what happened next.
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3-22-98 -- DREAM- It seemed there was some connection between keeping the plans secret between the previous dream and the future. Someone had sat at a piano and made the symbol of a tic tac toe game on a piece of paper and drew the lines so that the lines got accidentally scratched onto the piano. Two other people came along separately and noticed those scratches and were immediately aware of a secret plot afoot.
A father came in the room and began questioning his son. The son feigned sleep in order to avoid answering his father.
Gen. Colin Powell was accused by his wife of sleeping with a prostitute because he had been out all night. The prostitute was named "Norma!" HIs wife said she could smell Norma's perfume. Gen. Colin Powell denied it, but at the end he went to buy his wife and son, he could smell his own breath and the perfume, he broke off the hug and ran to take a shower saying, "Even I can smell the perfume of Norma.!"
I went home and wrote all this down in my dream journal, then asked one of my neighbors if she wanted to read my dreams. She said she did, but after she walked away with my book, I realized that all my future plans were detailed and diagrammed in that book and she couldn't know that, so I ran down the hall to get it back, just as she was taking my book into another woman's apartment to talk about it.
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4-24-98 - DREAM - I was living in an apartment building and I was going from the 1st to the 2nd floor because Michelle, and two women from One Life to Live who were having problems. The strange thing here was that their names were printed out on pie crust dough after I rolled it out. None of my rolling pins had two handles either, only the right one. I solved Michelle's problem, then went upstairs and met Blair from One Life to Live though I thought her name was Cheryl. Blair wanted me to see her wedding gown. It was off white, knee length with Pearls and lace all over it. It had a huge bustle in back. (I'm talking IMMENSE)...and I thought it was quite unsuitable to her. She thought it was beautiful and it was HER dress so that's all that mattered.
Cheryl/Blair's daughter Starr seemed to be ill. She was sitting in her little feeding table.
A tall man came to the door and stood outside and boomed with a deep voice, "Antibiotic Delivery". I thought that was kind of strange behavior. Cheryl/Blair brought this purple medicine and tried to spoon feed it to her daughter.
Starr, the baby, spit it out and I secretly cheered her on. I never liked being spoon fed purple medicine either obviously.
I took the baby out of the feeding table then and carried her around, intending to rock her to sleep. While I was carrying her, I ran into other women with problems. I remember seeing a board with colored pastel buttons (like the candy kind) they were arranged by color in a three by four rows.
I then carried the baby into a back room so she could sleep and when I came out, the phone was just recording a message from Joe in Milwaukee that he needed chains on his snow tires. He was trying to announce the phone number that he was at and I was going to call him right back (as I woke up)
My father was sitting right by the telephone and could have picked it up, but didn't.
(This is strange because Joe in Milwaukee was not given my phone number)
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5-23-98 - DREAM - I went to a house and found some symbolic items on the floor in the hallway. There were two pillows with lace over them and some other things unremembered. An old nun (wearing a pink dress) came along and gave me some other things of hers because she knew I was psychic. She gave me a prophecy. She said, "You will go to a party and people will sense you are psychic and start asking for prophecies."
Joe came along then and helped me fold up a big blue blanket and mattress.
The nun came with a red candle and lit it and set a tape recorder of music next to it and went out on the balcony to meditate. My Father came in the room and turned off the music on the tape recorder. I knew the nun would be upset. My Father said something about it but I can't remember what.
There was a party going on and I had to go to the toilet and people even followed me in there to ask for prophecies. I said to them, "Could you excuse me for a moment? It's going to stink in here in a second!"
They walked out into the hallway. The nun came in then, still wearing the pink dress, and then while I was still sitting on the toilet, she said, "That man you are with; I've seen him before. He is Plato and Khutoumi."
I gasped on an in breath and woke up.
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DREAM - 7-13-98 - I met my mother on the way to go shopping. My father had told her to go to the doctor. (My real mother is 82 years old and has never driven a car in her life) In the dream, my mother was in her early 30's and was driving the car and I was a passenger.
We got to a street where the road went up and around a curve to the left with a railing on the outside edge and I knew that the ocean was on the other side.
My mother refused to drive up that curving road with the railing, so she stopped in a grocery store parking lot to make a U turn and go back home. Where we turned around, I thought it looked familiar but I knew it probably wasn't.
So, we went back to the apartment building where I lived and went upstairs to the 3rd floor.
My mother went into an apartment (not mine) and lay down on a cot where she didn't know the people. she was very depressed that she wasn't able to do what my Father had told her to do.
I said to her, "C'mon Missy! You have things to do!" But she didn't get up, so I had to go get the baby which was in another apartment and change his diaper. (I'm assuming it was my baby)
When I first picked him up, I recall that he was bare butted, and I just needed to put a diaper on him, but when I laid him on my King sized bed. Where I laid him down, a big bloody watery spot developed under him.
I knew he was overly wet and would probably even need a bath. He was now wearing a pajama type suit with feet. I moved him to another spot over to the right which became equally stained with watery blood.
So, I moved him to a third spot (these made a triangle of bloody water spots) I went to remove his pajama suit and saw that there was no zipper on the front, so I rolled him over and unzipped the suit. It was all bloody and watery.
I sat him up to take his suit off and as the suit came off, his tongue came out of his mouth like a huge blood clot. I got pretty grossed out and upset, but I then saw it was just his tongue and as I pulled his suit down off of him, gushes of bloody water poured out onto the floor.
I was really scared to find out that there was something wrong with the baby. Then the baby spoke. He said, "It's just the amniotic fluid."
Then I realized I wasn't just changing his clothes, he was being born.
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6-22-98 - DREAM - I was in a building in a large city. I managed the building and we were going to remodel the basement. In order to do that, we had to take everything outside. We hooked up the washing machine between the sidewalk and the road so we could continue to do laundry while we remodeled the basement. There was a lot of laundry to do. There were piles of it everywhere and it was really bad. We hauled it all outside and I was going to do it out there.
I had to go to the bathroom really bad so I left the washing machine untended to do that. I couldn't find the bathroom. I stood in the hallway and looked at all the doors. Each one was a different size and I knew where each one went and none was a bathroom. I remembered there was one on another floor so I went in search of that one. Meanwhile, I met some women who had problems and I stopped to listen to them and confront them and give them advice. I then went back outside to throw the laundry into the machine first. I opened the lid and began to measure cookie dough into the machine and saw it float down in deep water. I thought that was odd and looked closer and found shredded bread wrappers with pictures of colorful balloons on them. Now, I was really puzzled and started pulling out this paper. Another woman came along and started pulling toys out of the machine. Taylar - our granddaughter needed to wash her toys and the woman had helped her put the toys in. The washing was done, so I helped her take them out. There was a big yellow truck, some doll puppets, and a huge brown dinosaur.
At this point, someone hollered, "Look! Up in the sky!" I turned and looked and saw a huge blimp in the sky. I remembered having seen one before, but I looked again and there was a blimp in the south sky. In the west, a huge dark green helicopter was hovering, shooting lazer blanks in practice, using the blimps as targets. Between the helicopter and us were piles of hay bales that we could hide behind in case the lazer turned out to be real, so I didn't worry about it.
A young girl came up to me with a job application for a job at another building I managed at 3803 N. Port Washington Road. She had a thick stack of papers which she handed to me which was her application and resume. I told her that I hadn't been expecting her and didn't have a ride up to the other building but perhaps if her father wanted to give me a ride up there, I could show her around. Then I thought better of it, that it was a bad idea and that maybe I could take a walk or take the bus up there. I didn't want to pay for the bus ride both ways unnecessarily though, so I told her I was sorry and couldn't show her the building, but that the next time I was hiring I would call her. I kept her paperwork, and she walked away disappointed.
I turned around and on the corner Joe stood talking to two older women. They looked like they were old friends in intimate conversation with their heads together. I couldn't hear anything they said and I looked at the woman and saw how old they were and thought to myself that I was younger and prettier than they were, so I could allow him to have female friends without me knowing what was being said. However, the shorter one suddenly broke away and came towards me, tearing off her mask, and her old clothes, revealing that she wasn't an old woman like the other one. She was in disguise and would go after Joe and had other intentions than friendship.
(Note: This was prophetic and actually happened)
I had more important things to do and walked back into the building where the workmen were waiting for me to discuss the remodeling project. I noticed that there were no windows down there and told the guys that I hoped it didn't get too cold to work down there, but it was summer and it should be fine.
As I was waking up, I heard one of the men say, "Let me see what you have there!" I looked at my right hand and it was placed on top of an open white box and the title was, "The Mystic".
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7-4-98 - DREAM - There was a very important job to be done in an office across the street from where I lived. I convinced the bosses I could do it, and the boss said he would give me a chance at it.
So, I was all excited to go to work and prove that I could do a good job. The work day started at 8a.m. The next day, I had to get all the kids ready for school first and then myself. There were 6 kids. The 3 oldest ones managed to get themselves ready and left for school. I still had the 3 youngest to dress and then myself to get ready.
My husband wasn't home and I wanted to get the kids and myself ready and out the door because he didn't approve of my working outside the home. It took quite a bit of doing but I managed to find appropriate clothing for the kids to wear. There were so many different types, color, and size of clothes in the house, this was a difficult task. Nothing was hung up, but lay in piles all over the house.
For myself, all my clothes were in an upper room and I wanted to wear appropriate clothing for the occasion. I decided to wear all black. I put on black slacks, a black and white flowered with roses, cotton shirt and a black sweater that had a white stripe around the shoulders. It wasn't exactly a matching outfit, but it was all black.
I went downstairs to finish getting the kids ready. The boys managed to get the clothes on by themselves, but my daughter was wearing a pink and white rose flowered two piece outfit that was about two sizes too big for her. (She was only 4 years old) It looked really cute on her but the problem for her was that there were about 100 or so tiny buttons down the front that had to be lined up (button holes were square and the buttons were round) She obviously needed help. I managed to line up 5 of them and decided that was good enough. It held it closed and was secure enough so the wind wouldn't blow it open outside.
At that point, my husband came home. I was panic-stricken that he would prevent me from going to work. He saw we were getting ready to go somewhere and that he would sabotage my efforts to go out and do this special job so that I could gain my self-esteem.
He didn't say anything but went into the diningroom and I breathed a sigh of relief and continued to look for shoes for the children and myself.
Here too, there was a multitude of choices of colors, sizes, styles, etc. and they were not all in one place, so we had to hunt for their proper size, color and style to go with what they were wearing, and of course they couldn't wear shoes that were too big either.
I set the kids to looking for their shoes while I went looking for shoes and socks of my own. Because I was wearing slacks, I didn't need panty hose, so I found the sock pile and saw that there were plenty of socks, but the trick was to find a matching pair. I chose a black sock to wear and then couldn't find one to match it. There were dozens of light blue socks, but no other black sock.
The matter of the shoes was the same. There were dozens of different styles of shoes to wear, most of them were sandal-like with straps and heels of various heights.All of those were inappropriate to wear with socks. I was looking for my pair of walking shoes, solid black, with good sturdy soles and tied to hold them on. The were professional shoes for people like nurses and waitresses who were on their feet a lot. I managed to find one, but couldn't find the mate to it.
At this point, I wondered if my husband had sabotaged the entire thing by taking one of each kind of shoe to the livingroom so that I couldn't finish dressing and leave the house.
I looked at the clock and it was quarter past 8 and I was already late. I hoped I could make a good excuse when I got to the office.
The children had finally found some shoes to wear and I helped them get their proper shoes on, but we still couldn't leave until I had my own shoes on because I had to take the younger kids to school myself.
My daughter (age 4) found a lipstick and decided to wear it. She put it on herself and it was totally inappropriate for her age. But, instead of taking it away from her, I asked her if I could put some on too and spent a moment putting it on quickly. I didn't get it on my lips very straight according to how I liked it, but it was on and I could get on with finding my other black shoe.
I sent the oldest of the boys who was 5 years old to the livingroom to surreptitiously look there for the shoe in case his father had taken it there to foil my attempts to go to work. Meanwhile I looked among the other shoes and thought I found the other black shoe, about size 16 and I wore a 10 and it didn't have a mate either, so there was no point in even attempting to wear such an inappropriate shoe.
I was barefoot because I had never found a 2nd black sock to match the one I found, so I was not looking at the sandal-type shoes. There were inappropriate to wear with bare feet and I realized that I would probably get blisters by wearing these.
I didn't want to wear any with higher heels either because then I would tower over my husband in height and he would be VERY upset and they were so inappropriate with bare feet.
I finally found a pair of maroon sandals with low heels. They were dusty and I saw a couple raisins in an upper fold of the shoe and began to remove the raisins and clean the shoes to wear when my youngest son who was about age 3 began to jerk on my arm. I looked at him and he was chewing on something and I saw a raisin stuck on his lip. He was at the point of choking because his mouth was stuffed so full of food. I pried his mouth open. His mouth was stuffed completely full of a mixture of raisins and sesame seeds.
I began to pull all these seeds out of his mouth so he wouldn't choke to death and as I was doing this I woke up.
While I was thinking about the dream, I remembered what the job was that I had to do. It was called "The Sisterhood of Southeast Asia".
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7-5-98 - 12:10 a.m. DREAM - I was visiting someone. There was a piano there with a thick beige book on the music rack. The music was in the last 1/4 of the book an was written in all whole notes, played very slowly, with long sounding notes. The piano reverberated the notes and it sounded like an organ.
When I had finished played, I closed the book. Some girls came in then and wanted to know if I knew how to play. I said, "Yes!" and they said they wanted to hear me play something.
At first I hit a very discordant chord, but then I found the music in the book and I again was able to play the piano like an organ again.
I then went out in the lobby and sat on the couch waiting for Joe to come back from somewhere. While I was sitting there, I had a long tube which was see-thru but hollow. I was pushing this long, long tube farther and farther down my throat which made the tube go down the circuit to the other end of my computer circuit where the sound and information came from. In the office where the computer was, 3 women were working there. They saw the tube come out at the other end of the computer. One woman said to the tube,"Hello Dolores!" The sound echoed in my head really loud. Then the other two women saw the tube and they all three started saying, "Hello Dolores! Hello Dolores!" and their voices echoed in my head. It was so loud, I couldn't stand having all three women talking at the same time, so I started pulling the tube back out of my mouth and it was coiling up on the floor in front of me It was just too much sound for me to handle.
There was a young man, dressed in a light brown suit sitting on the couch next to me. He struck up a conversation. I told him the story of the tube going to the computer and the too loud sounds like it belonged to someone else. I was too embarrassed to tell him it was me.
It was time to leave there and it seemed this was a place where you had to be over 55 to live there. There were a lot of people sitting around, including the manager who said she had just come back from vacation. She said she didn't want to work anymore and wanted to be on permanent vacation. In my mind I was thinking that I hoped she would quit because then I could apply for her job.
The people were talking about their rent was going to go up when their leases ran out. One man had his wife sitting with him and she had a job at which she had gotten a 10 cent an hour wage increase. He wanted to know if he rent would go up. I told him that their total financial picture would be re-evaluated when their Lease was up and their rent might indeed go up.
Another woman who was a nurse said that her wage-increase had been 10 cents an hour and wanted to know if her rent would go up. I gae her the same advice, that her financial situation would be evaluated when her Lease was up and her rent might indeed go up.
When we were leaving and going down the stairs to the door, I could hear an old woman bitching how she never gets to go anywhere. She was bellyaching and bellyaching that she never go to go anywhere and this was while she was going down the stairs going somewhere with the rest of her family.
We were standing at the bottom of the stairs laughing at her, because she kept complaining that she never got to go anywhere while she was actually going somewhere.
I went to visit my mother and father. My father had had two heart attacks in recent days, but he had forgotten what the pain had felt like and was doing okay and walking around like normal.
My mother said that the day before, my Father had not come downstairs at all, and she hadn't gone upstairs to feed him either. She had just let hi lay there because he was supposed to come down every day.
I was with my family then. We were visiting a house and it was time for the children to go to bed. Before they could go to bed they had to go to the bathroom. I seemed to be temporarily in charge of this little boy and I could feel that his pants were wet. I took him to the bathroom and opened the door and discovered an older woman was sitting on the toilet going #2. I kind of said, "Oops! Sorry!" but she was done and left the room. I pulled down the pants of this little boy who morphed into a little girl. I held her on the toilet and she did #2. I then took some wipette type things to clean her butt. I got her ready for bed. While I was doing this another woman came into the room and saw me cleaning the little girl's butt. I was hoping that the woman didn't think I had done something naughty with the little girl just because I had wiped her butt in getting her cleaned up for bed.
We went to the opposite side of the same house where I and my children were climbing this huge ornate and plush carpeted stairway. It was a stairway that curved up to the right. The carpet on the stairs was royal blue. The steps were not even, some treads were narrower than others. It was difficult climbing the stairs. We were more or less crawling up the stairs using our hands as well as our feet like climbing a mountain. Someone made the comment that only my children had the right to go up that stairway because they were of the right bloodline. Their cousins wouldn't be allowed to go up there because they didn't have the right mother.
When we got to the top of the stairs, it was very plush and ornate, persian tye carpeting, very thick and rich, and the rooms were huge. Someone commented that there were 60 rooms up there and I was hoping we'd get to see them all.
I came to a young girl about age 2 who seemed to be my daughter. She was sitting there spitting out a piece of candy. She had wanted to eat one that was shaped like a peanut and actually had peanut butter inside of it; and the one she had put in her mouth was just solid candy with NO peanut butter in it.
Later, I was with this same girl. She was driving a car and I was the passenger. (She was a young adult now) We were driving north on Teutonia Ave. She wanted to know how to spell the word 'peanut'. We were driving past a string of restaurants with other words like PIZZA, PITA BREAD, but I knew there was one with the word 'peanut' but we had driven past too fast. I told her to go around the block and I'd show her the sign that said the word "peanut." T
This neighborhood was very dark and I was afraid that something might happen, but she drove with confidence. We made a left turn onto Center St. We couldn't go around the block because 14th St. was a one way street going north. So we proceeded to 15th St. and made a left turn. I told the girl who was driving that my Father lived on 16th St.which was just one block over.
I then noticed that it was no longer dark but bright and sunny. The street was newly paved and there was a bridge ahead we had to cross.
We had to stop dead in our tracks though because in the center of the bridge were two young men, beating each other over the head with hockey sticks. They must have been from opposite teams because one was dressed in red and one dressed in blue.
We were too scare to go past them, so we turned around to go back. Our car had morphed into two secretarial chairs with wheels on the 4 legs. Behind us though, was a trio of hockey players with sticks, all dressed alike, but there were two boys and a girl between them.
We were scared because we didn't have any sticks to defend ourselves with.
I turned and looked back at the first two hockey players who were not standing arm in arm in the middle of the bridge.
I turned the other way and saw the trio of hockey players advance towards us in perfect unison, they skated in a line with their bodies moving in a curving S shape as their feet rolled across the pavement towards us.
I thought our best defense was to just stare at them in the eyes and as I did, I saw a reflection of myself but it was like it was a face from a different lifetime because the shape of the nose was different, straight and not sloped like mine is now and the hair was darker. The trio of hockey players and we two, my daughter and I, kind of slid past each other until they were on the bridge and we were back on Center St.
I wondered if these young hockey players had come across the river from the East side, and what their purpose was for coming across the river.
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7-13-98 - DREAM - I was in a city in a VERY large building. Various floors were different uses. I wanted to go to floor 7 but the elevator didn't go to any odd numbered floors, so I went to floor 6 and proceeded to walk up, but 1/2 way up there were a complicated series of railings which you had to climb over and through and I couldn't do that, so couldn't get there that way. I went back down to floor 1 and met a black woman and a white woman. The black woman told me she could take me where I wanted to go, so we got on the elevator and zooped up to the floor.
I discovered we were on 134. I didn't want that floor either, so went back to floor 1. I was supposed to be working, but for some reason, couldn't keep my pants on. They were off completely at first and I needed to complete some work and deliver it to another location. When I stood up, I realized I DID have pants on but they were sliding down in back so I had to keep hitching them up.
I completed the project and delivered it. It was a typed sheet which was a reward for good work done.
I was asked to help someone complete an application for something. He had brought in multiple small photographs and they all needed to be put in order and assembled in a folder, I set him to doing some of that work and went on to do some other work.
Then I had to go to the 7th floor again and just pushed the button for 7 instead of fooling around with going to 6 or 8 and walking up or down. To my surprise, where I pushed 7, a complete wall slid over and I was instantly on 7 right where I was standing. As soon as I took a step forward in this hallway, I saw a shift of perception and I could walk forward and actually be on the 7th floor.
I was hunting for a bathroom, but all the rooms I was going by were classrooms. The rooms were empty now, but each room had a separate desk or work station for each individual where they would learn to do just one thing in that room. The rooms I could see into were huge and held what looked like 100 work stations per room.
Then I noticed that this floor was also segregated by religious persuasions as one whole wing was labeled CHRISTIAN.
I got half-way through that floor and came to a door I thought might be the bathroom. I pushed it again and it turned out to be another elevator lobby with many people waiting for the elevator to go down. These people were all really happy and welcomed me to join them.
I still needed to find a bathroom, so went back down to floor 1 to look for the bathroom.
On floor 1, I met people who were crippled and slow. They were admonished to move over to the side of the hallways and not block the way of people who could move faster.
On floor 1, I seemed to find a place I called home. Here, my real life Father came and 3 old cronies of his came to visit. They were so old, they must have been in the 100's of years old. My Father took them out into a garden that was at the rear of our house. While my father was entertaining them, I began to dance and prance in front of the mirror to see how beautiful I was. I wanted to see my whole beautiful naked boy, but I didn't want the old men to catch me looking at myself, so I would only flash on the upper half or lower half at a time.
Then I saw my Father walking in the garden with the 3 other old men and I took a chance on looking at my whole beautiful naked self in the mirror and struck a final model's pose in front of the mirror with a big smile on my face and woke up smiling.
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7-17-98 - DREAM - I was at a hospital with my friend Alice. Her father was there for tests. They were going to take him down the elevator. A man in white was by the controls of the elevator and Alice was standing in the back. Her father's cart was by my right side. Suddenly, a short little woman pushed past me and said, "Her Father is dead!"
There was no need for me to squeeze into the elevator with them and the body, so I went into a room nearby. Suddenly, Alice's Father appeared in the doorway. He looked like a big white square pillow. His eyes were huge and yellow and were looking upward and to the right.
A voice said, "THE BIT-MOTHER" is dead".
The scene changed to a web page. I could see just the big triangle from AOL on the page, and as I looked at it, a big dragon head or alligator came out of it.
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7-20-98 - VISION - I saw a black web page that said, 'INVITATION TO GOD'. It was followed by an url - http://whitewater . NOTE: I went to the url. It's a web page about whitewater rafting trips)
The voice said," Here's some more good stuff."
"Come along with me"
"Watching over Jesus. There will be No Jesus"
"Now the gypsies will play"
"She is triumphant and secure"
"Your stepfather is here too"
I then saw a garden surrounded by a black iron fence. The voice said, "I was hoping it would never come to this!"
I then saw a woman's left hand. She was wearing a ring like mine only all gold, plus other rings. She wore 7 rings in all.
I then saw a web page that said, "CIRCLE OF DREAMS - CIRCLE OF DREAMS"
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7-25-98 - DREAM - I was with Joe in a car and he had to go do something so I was left in the car alone. I spotted a thick plastic ring like a pony bead. I picked it up and slid it on my finger like a ring. It was see-thru like crystal, but it was plastic. I threw it back on the ground again.
Then an old man I didn't know got in the car. I was sitting in the car in the back like a stationwagon on a long platform thing and the old man crawled into the car with me like he wanted to tell me something. He came close to whisper his message then kissed me on the cheek instead. At that moment, I spotted that plastic ring on the ground and I said, "Oh! What's that on the ground?" to distract him.
He reached over and picked it up and slipped it on my finger and asked me to marry him. I was so shocked I took off the ring and threw it over toward a line of boxes of beads and it landed amongst them, but I didn't see exactly where.
Then the man got all upset and said, "What did you do with my ring?" I said, "Oh! I'm sorry! I thought it was that piece of plastic I threw away before."
I felt embarrassed and saw the plastic bead I had thrown down the 1st time and it was cracked and split open. I said, "Oh! I'll go find the ring. I'm sorry!" So I went over to the wall where all the beads in boxes were. There were a couple of people there who owned this little shop or whatever it was. I explained the situation to them and they helped me search for the ring but we couldn't find it.
I began to hear Christmas music and knew the parade was coming. I saw Tony B. and he was the drummer for the band. He was dressed in red and green slacks held up by thick, dark suspenders. The music got louder and he had to leave and go march in the parade.
I was in a school on Wisconsin Ave. and seemed to be the teacher. At the same time it felt like my old high school.
I could still hear the music playing and was rather marching East down the hallway and black students fell in behind me marching to the music. I got to the end of the school as the music ended. There stood Tony with his father. He was still wearing his red and green slacks and suspenders, but now his father was with him. I went over to him and hugged him warmly and he introduced me to his father. His father was all upset that the things my friend had in storage weren't safe and we began walking arm in arm towards the East to his apartment building.
We walked quickly along a precarious pathway, along an icy trail, then started climbing steps that were shoveled of snow, but that still had a slight coating of white on them. We climbed up three flights of stairs. In fact I ran up the 1st flight of stairs which were uneven and took three at a time at one point and got out of breath and regretted doing that. The last flight of stairs I was counting them, kind of pulling myself up going hand over hand on the railing with my hands. I got up to the second floor and we were at his apartment.
At that point I realized that he owned the whole building and there were plenty of empty rooms and there was no reason why I couldn't move in there. But I was out of breath and I asked for a drink of water.
I woke up just as a bad heat flash was going up my body to my head. I felt like I had a temperature of 150 and my blood felt hot all over my body.
I relaxed for a few minutes and it subsided.
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7-25-98 - DREAM - I went right back to sleep and found myself in the same place I had woke up from. I was in Tony's apartment and he wanted to make love to me, but he said his Father was coming right back and he had made a mess of things and needed to straighten it out.
So he started cleaning his house and I climbed across his couch which was the only place to walk. It was soft and brown with a fleur de lis pattern on it.
I went out into the hall and was going to take the elevator up but everyone was scurrying around and the elevator was jam packed so I didn't want to crowd in there and let it go.
I went over to the stairway to walk up, but the stairway mostly went down into a dark pit-like place. There was a stairs going up also but it was dimly lit with the only light at the top of a very narrow stairway. So, I decided I would wait for the next elevator.
I went outside where there were a lot of children playing including my own daughter. These kids were all around 7 or 8 years old. I saw a station wagon coming, driven by our old friend/maintenance man. I said to the kids, "Here comes the book man."
The car was full of books like a library on wheels. I encouraged all the kids to get books. The man came over to me with a stack of books and handed them to me.
When I opened the books, they morphed into sheets of leather, each one cut out in a big circle and a design embossed on them. Each one was a picture of myself smiling. Each one had holes in strategic places for hanging up. I believe there were 7 of them. There were also two pieces of cloth with designs on with which I could make sundress tops. I cannot remember the designs now, one was red and one was yellow, but I had seen women earlier I had admired and now I could be like them.
I went briefly into the building where all the men I had loved and once thought of marrying were there and they all walked by. Each one was wearing a medium blue uniform and wearing a tool belt like a maintenance man and they were hurrying along with urgent things to do. None of them said even so much as "Hello!" and just hurried along.
I was disappointed but understood they all had urgent work to do.
I went back outside where a large rectangle field was being harrowed flat and being readied for the fall. All the crops were done.
I was presented with 4 different round fruit rinds upsidedown, each nested inside the other, and I knew the harvest was over. All that was past was past.
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8-4-98 - DREAM - I got a job interviewing people with problems. The office was in a large building on 70th St. I either forgot about it or slept in late because when I looked at the clock on my 1st day of work, it was quarter to 11 and I was supposed to have been there at 8:30 a.m.. I was too timid to just walk in and say I was sorry I was late. I decided I would wait until 1 pm. and then go in, pretending that I hadn't realized I was supposed to work in the morning.
I discussed my plan with E.R. who was home, waiting for a repair part for his kitchen stove.
At 1 p.m. I went to the office, and it was so crowded with people who needed counseling, I couldn't even get to my desk to sit down.
There was a man at a nearby desk who was an attorney who had the same problem. He ended up sitting in the aisle. I never did to get to sit down.
I went home then and met E.R.'s father who had brought the stove parts to fix his stove but I didn't have a key for E.R.s apartment. E.R.s father had keys and handed them to me. The 1st key had a tiny silver tip on it which fit crossways into as lot, which made the wall slide back to show an elevator door. E.R.s father then inserted an emergency elevator key which is also cross shaped and opened the elevator door. We went through the elevator...not up or down...and E.R.s father opened the apartment door on the other side of the elevator. I was certain this was NOT the way normal people got to E.R.s apartment, but his Father's way.
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DREAM - 8-14-98 - I was typing on a lap top word processor and watching out the window. I coul